Carlo Lingiardi: October 2015

Saturday, October 31, 2015

BE PATIENT

I fully realize that I’ve been publishing a new post every day in the last few weeks but – given that my blog is even medically (or psychologically) supported I can say that my only reason for having posted nothing new is simply because my “monster”(also named oxygen, livelihood, job, etc…) is away because it’s being serviced (and upgraded) by my PC God (Rick).

I’m just posting this explanation because I can only use my email with my Gmail account online through the browser Chrome that let’s me see the several messages I receive in comment to my posts and while I invite my readers to post their comments here because I receive your message anyway AND because I prefer to see comments published in my blog directly (also as anonymous, if you prefer) because anyone can see your comments for a very long time (I'm the only one who can erase comments) and by doing so my posts might initiate an interesting and open discussion among my readers (of the hallucinations that a brain injured blogger makes public).

As the impatient person I’ve always been (born in a hurry) I can’t believe that I’m posting something about the most unnatural and difficult thing I ever had to deal with in my entire life, but if I think about it, I can only say that this is yet another example that the human brain can –even when injured – learn something new.

I dedicate this to the plenty neurologist and (worse) neuropsychologists who studied books to earn their title, written several decades ago when even now, at the beginning of the second millennium nobody knows even how our brain is made! Daaahhhh.

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

LOVE AND BRAIN INJURY

My eternal love Michele has been telling me since years that I still love her (35 posts in this blog mainly about her) http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/search/label/Love

because my brain is injured and from my initial refusal to even listen to her saying so, I just realized that she's always been right, in fact what made me open wide my eyes is a very good friend of mine from my times living and working in Italy (Verona) who recently developed a brain tumor, when he emailed me, first I shared his madness with him, but soon I thought that he really has no reason to be so mad, he never married her companion, so why would she feel any obligation of any kind if as he get's terminally ill she leaves him alone to deal with his death (basically)?

That's what I told to him in my reply, or that since they never married she has no tie of any type with him and she's very free to keep on living like nothing ever happened to him (life goes on...).

But, as I was writing my reply I realized that as much as I was telling to him that she's a bad person for having walked away from him as he "got broken", I thought that Michele has always been right, I'm definitely brain injured if I still love her, especially given that she's been trying to replace me with few other lowlife without any rectitude and moral principles, I'm not even allowed to know their names, according to Michele (therefore according to my son too).

As I was thinking about this upsetting and sad situation that my friend is experiencing I pulled out a very old email (2/2014) where I had told to another of my friends in Italy what he should think of and do to his wife (married in church) who had divorced and left him right after he survived a pretty bad car accident, here is when I had the objective proof that my brain is truly devastated if I still love Michele (married in church in presence of God and both of our families and friends), Saint Gianfranco (my dad) was right when he told me last year shortly before he passed away that I decided to survive my accident only for the love I have for my 2 treasures and that I never mentioned Michele.

I could tell that it was hard for him to tell me of this because he always said that Michele was like for him having another daughter, he loved her just like he loved my sister Anna, he didn't want to elaborate on this and I decided to drop this topic.

What I can't forgive Michele for is that she wasted $100K in a fake investment and by influencing that poor guy in Oxnard who had me committed to conservatorship so that I can't "waste" my money in a (still) off-label treatment for TBI recovery, maybe as I die and I receive Universal Intelligence I'll stop to love her, but I can't stop to feel bad now about her afterlife.

Few links below about the legal (not religious) principles of marriage:

Monday, October 26, 2015

CUBIC WOW

Early this morning I woke up with the idea in my (broken) mind to look at my blog with the eyes of a different person and I decided specifically to look at it like I was an atheist, just like my friend Iacopo and my eternally beloved Michele.

Therefore I started to research the internet (where anyone can find everything and its opposite) for websites claiming that the afterlife it's only the new story we tell to ourselves to eliminate or reduce our very natural fear of death.

I must tell you however that by doing so I found millions of sites saying that afterlife is being studied - and sometimes proven - by eminent scientist and that the university in Southampton has made a study examining dozens of people who - like me - had a N.D.E.

On 10/14/15 I posted about the new scientific research that's being done on these kinds of experiences and of the fact that no matter what religion you follow, Jesus always appears☺
http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2015/10/what-science-is-confirming-with-research.html

Without spending time to elaborate on this, I just invite my readers to go to the sites linked here and watch this and the other (longer) Youtubes about science seriously studying this truth, or something not made up neither to justify the plenty young soldiers who are dying for freedom very far from here, nor to feel better about death.

Another good video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m7_hak4PL98

One for the atheists

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FDBzcsf3jo

Usual links:

Saturday, October 24, 2015

AN EYE FOR AN EYE

I did a simple search for the word revenge in this blog and - much to my surprise - I learned that I used this word for 42 times and that I even wrote an entire post about it.
http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2015/10/my-upcoming-revenge.html

All I can say is that since I wrote that post few weeks ago, I might have nothing more to say about it, however this is truly a precise example of my natural complete inability to wait for something I want to take its time to become real, in fact what's different from the past is that a very good friend of mine from the East coast recently told me that his neuropsychologist friend is coming here to assess me again because, from what he can tell from my business talks with former colleagues, my blog and the business related advice I can still offer to both former customers (mainly retailers, single and chains) and partners I had in the past, all combined with the friendly relationships I have with both my family and theirs, he cannot believe that I'm under conservatorship that's been costing me very much (or an arm and a leg).

Given that none of the philosophers and priest have ever replied to my question about Jesus and revenge, I'm planning already to take monetary revenge against the (too many) offenders who made it possible for me to be incarcerated living such a tragedy.

If in addition - as an honest Catholic - I think that even Jesus (God as man) did take revenge against the sinners for at least 2K years, I'm not going to feel at all bad, I'll simply be doing what even God has been doing since the beginning of time.

However I must say that as much as our father God is always ready to forgive, no matter the sin you did, I too would be very happy not to take action against the poor man in Oxnard who put me under conservatorship, very much because I was told by very reliable sources that he's realized the wrong he caused to me AND to my children AND could let the court know that he wasn't very correct in what he had assessed of me because incorrectly influenced by others, therefore ask for me to be freed from the conservatorship punishment (like I had killed somebody).

As always it'll be God who'll make the final (and eternal) judgment about this but - as the usual impatient me - I can't wait to return to be the free man I was born to be.

Thursday, October 22, 2015

A BIT MORE ABOUT GRAVITY

I know that I already posted several times about gravity and its influence on our lives, like i.e. :

However, today I want to give simple examples on how gravity (or God) affects our lives:

Pope XVI resigned - according to the official Vatican's statement due to Alzheimer's BUT according to Jesus because too ashamed for the very many priests (simple soldiers or the Vatican's army) molesting children here in the USA
the new Pope (Francis) has brain tumor

My complete guess it's that this is due to the reduction of faithful Christians around the world with the contemporary spreading of other faiths, like i.e. Islamism or atheism too.

I know of a man who's CEO of a very successful and large footwear company who lost his son to heart attack and while he's surely in deep pain his negative situation is being rebalanced y the enormous success of himself at work and the company he runs, thanks to his leadership.

I posted here before that my accident with TBI happened simply because I wasn't respecting the second commandment (You shall not have other gods besides me.) because I was feeling to have finally reached the top of my world.

I was also disrespecting the sixth one (You shall not commit adultery) simply because there was a beautiful designer who was very unhappy with her marriage and used to be very verbal about it, I was therefore looking at her with interest, especially because I was having some issues with Michele and because of it we had been seeing a counselor in NH, in addition I was feeling very lonely at that time.

For these reasons I was in a negative balance that had to be rebalanced in a way that's been more atrocious than I can think of. However my huge negative is very welcome if it means that's going to be balanced with the positives that my treasures will experience in their lives, also in my case all my bad can be rebalanced by all the good that can be given to those who explain my choice to keep living, even if in pain.

Few links below as I always do:

Sunday, October 18, 2015

MY SPOUSE

This is my wife, no matter if we were divorced - not long ago - she's still my wife, because God united us in a church in Italy (Arbizzano, near Verona) in the presence of both of our families (and God).

She keeps telling to me that I still love her only because I'm brain injured, but my readers know well about the feeling of love, because I wrote already here 35 posts on it.

What I want to say is what God said several times, also as Jesus, or that what God unites no man can possibly separate, therefore Michele is still my wife AND the mother of our two children (my treasures for me).

This is the reason why I can only pity B. and her current "boyfriend" because by putting their cazzo between our holy union they are just damning their own souls that will be regretting what they did for personal pleasure to my
wife. It goes without me even saying it that this isn't the right example to give to my treasures because to see their mother exchange that part of her body for groceries, or rent isn't certainly the good example to give to children of such a young age.

Aside for the usual Youtube and links in support of what I'm saying, I conclude that there always exists the possibility that once I'll die my UI (or cumulative intelligence) will make me realize what a fool I've been to love to adoration my (possessive) wife, therefore leaving her soul in the nothingness deserved, however my earthly and alive superior mind hopes to use the immense strength of my love to take her forever with me.

To conclude and better clarify I'm just saying here that her lovers better watch out, because their own eternity will be spent in unimaginable ways.

Saturday, October 17, 2015

BEING JOHN MALKOVICH

Oh my God! oh your God!!! this is a movie that I really cannot advise to anybody to ever watch, all I can say - if you ever are so unlucky to have it - is to watch it alone(like I always am) and rather than drown in large quantities of beer (or any alcohol) maybe a glass of urine would fit this movie better. Aside the reviews I put below (that I'm sure are all positive), all I can repeat is to watch it alone with a glass full of human piss.

How can good actors ever accept to even read the script of such an abortion? I refuse to think that it might have been just for money (even if for money we people have done even worse - if possible) neither I can think that being in such a movie could be adding to the career of any real Hollywood actor. Or is it me (with my injured brain) who has no clue about the reason why such a movie was ever made? All I can tell you is to try to watch it (if you can) to its end, and - after having plucked up - comment my post with an opinion (if you can have any).

While my vote is - I repeat - a full glass of piss, I cannot wonder from what type of sick mind can such an idea of a movie plot like this came from

could have it come from someone who had an abusive childhood?
or has been drinking whiskey by the gallon?
or a prostitute with a venereal disease that got to the brain?

The alternative options are so many that I can't even list them - again - all I can say if you can avoid watching it is to do it alone drinking something at par with the quality of the movie.

It's been difficult to find Youtube trailers and reviews too about this monster-movie, that - of course - I strongly DO NOT recommend to watch.

Nevertheless the one part in this movie that doesn't deserve to be flushed down the toilet is when John Malkovich goes himself into himself and that's when his entire reality get's filled of John Malkovitches continuously repeating this last name like they are saying something to a bunch of John's M.

To say that this movie gave an atrocious headache like I never had before is to minimize how I felt after having watched it to the end (without any piss) BUT if bad luck strikes you and you have it, watch it at least to learn what good actors can do when desperate.

Friday, October 16, 2015

ME SO HORNY

I too used to have such "liberalized female" at my side.

Talk about the afterlife being the mirror image of all we did and experienced while living, either in the bad, scary and disgusting way - for hell - or in the most beautiful places or people we loved and took care of - for heaven.

This video is from one of my most beloved movies in my collection, that gives something to do to me all day long, so I can let the time go by, rather than think of the afterlife of both people I love and hate.

This actually worries me regarding my own afterlife, because I'm not doing what Jesus taught us to do (turn the other cheek) in fact I hate very deeply all those who took advantage and humiliated me in my only time in my life when I couldn't defend myself in any way and this explains very much too why I've been saying that Jesus himself (God made into man) did take revenge - just like in the old testament - against all who killed Him with the most painful method available at that time (crucifixion).

Aside from the self-explanatory video I leave you with a few interesting links about what's called "the oldest job in the world".

Thursday, October 15, 2015

DA BEST!!!

One of my (plenty) readers just emailed a question to me and this made me make a simple Google search for articles and photos that I want my readers to enjoy at least as I do.

Maybe I'll have this one IF and WHEN I'll pass over!!

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

WHAT SCIENCE IS CONFIRMING WITH RESEARCH

I find it somewhat funny that the latest and greatest scientific research is now - very gradually - discovering what every Christian has been learning, following and believing for about 2K years through the research on people who experienced N.D.E.

When I told to my dear mother to have made an agreement with Jesus to survive my accident, regardless how painful it could have been she immediately told me that I was crazy to think that I truly met with Jesus, if I add to this what my friend Iacopo told me : what you remember from your coma is just a reflection of what you were raised with, it's just an automatic reflection of your mind when in confusion without the senses. This actually had me think about it, because - as I said here already earlier - I'm Catholic by default - given that I was born in Italy, the country that hosts the Vatican Empire.

Then when I told my story to Fr. Betto in Ventura he told me that I was blessed and few days later I met by email a serious researcher who told me that if that's what I said to my dad when I came out of the coma, I simply need to take care of my memories of that time because they happen rarely and to very few people.

Actually, my post of today was going to be about the fact that whenever I write here, came to me from Jesus directly.

It's just my very superior intelligence (ha!) that helps me to understand what I doubt I'd ever be interested in.

What's somewhat funny too is to have seen the Zeitgeist movies that say that the story of a man who died and after 3 days came back to life exists in plenty different cultures, times and locations on earth.

Well, what's so strange to have a Jesus with different names in different parts on earth giving the same message to people? And what about when a Buddhist has a N.D.E and says to have met with Jesus?

I also happened to read that Christianity was used by the ancient Roman empire because it was useful to keep people quiet and I even read that the Vesuvius had erupted because God wanted to punish the people who lived in such a sinful town, I really cannot become amazed for such silliness, however this is yet another example of the constant research the human kind has done since the beginnings of time.
Maybe later - given that a very good friend of mine recently asked me for an explanation - I'll post something about time in afterlife, where for millennia we have been saying that the length of life is just like the blink of an eye, from the eternal point of view (Robert (Bobby) Kennedy said so too).
I write this especially my 2 treasures, who come here to read what I say, (unlike their mother) so, now enjoy my video above and the links below.

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

AIUTATI CHE DIO TI AIUTA

This is yet another phrase that my dad, Saint Gianfranco used to say often, its correct English translation is: God helps those who help themselves and I want to say that this is exactly what I've been doing for most of my life (even if I'm convinced that Jehovah gave to mankind the brain that by itself can make real miracles). Therefore I've been working very hard about re-conquering my own freedom all alone without deluding myself that our creator could help me regain my own freedom.

In a sense this is parallel to what I said here already about what praying really can do, or can help to focus our mind (and conscience) on what we intensely desire it to truly happen, have fun with my usual Youtube and links.

This is the link to an old post I did that's very similar to the one here:

http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2015/07/diy.html

Monday, October 12, 2015

ME AT WORK

Without writing a resume I’m going to give an idea of how I came to California as president of TEVA sandals http://www.teva.com/index.aspx It was 1996 when I asked to be transferred to the USA by the company that I had worked for 4 years already which was http://www.gore.com/en_xx/ I had the position of business leadership of the footwear segment and the fact that many Italian shoe manufacturers had distributors here plus that many American companies had productions in Italy made my presence at the worldwide headquarters of Gore very convenient because I was able to understand the reason of certain decisions made by either party and make sure that the business could grow for all involved. Being able to directly communicate with the Italians was certainly a big plus because even communicating in good English doesn’t allow to get the feeling of what really matters sometimes. After I took a presidency level position at GEOX US. http://www.geox.com/ I introduced this brand in the American distribution market. In this company I learned how to be in complete charge of a business, from distribution to marketing to finances with an eye on legal matters. It was September of 2003 when I moved with my family to the beautiful Lyme in NH to work as VP of the footwear division of Tecnica USA http://www.tecnicausa.com/ Where I worked until I went to work at TEVA in Santa Barbara.

Here are few links about my work career:

Sunday, October 11, 2015

MY WORK DREAM

Besides dreaming to fully recover my TBI I also dream to be able to both drive a car an

d go to work at Deckers again hopefully in the same position that my accident forced me to abandon, even if I know that I’ve been “out of the loop” for several years at this point, I still have very good email and personal relationships with key retailers in this country, not to mention the knowledge of distribution of these types of product overseas (EU).

I feel that it would only be right for me to give back to the generosity and compassion that Deckers has shown in my regards all over these many years and to return to be active to produce good results through TEVA is the only way I can think I could use for this.

It goes without me saying it that I was born a producer of great results and wealth, just like my dad did in his entire life, I know how to put together a solid team and give to all its members the vision of what needs to be done with the focus of all their talents well aimed at the ultimate goal.

No company is based on one only person, it’s always and only the result of team work and I know because I proved it before that I know the “right glue” to make a team all stuck together pointing in the same direction.

So my additional dream – besides what I posted here before – is the dream to return to be working at TEVA and give back in gratitude to the Deckers group.

But then again, this is just the dream of a brain injured and disabled man, who must continue to live under conservatorship, thanks to his sister and former wife.

Saturday, October 10, 2015

2001: A SPACE ODYSSEY

Yet another movie worth more beers than I can count, however it's a movie best enjoyed alone (as I've been for more years I can count). In this movie in fact Steven Spielberg gives a great cinematographic rendition of what my beloved sci-fi author Arthur Clarke writes about the origin of mankind on earth and given that I'm a pure and convinced (because based on facts) creationist while the adored mother of my treasures remains a very strong evolutionist, I believe that this movie gives a simple explanation about the way both concepts can go together very well, in fact we man derive from real monkeys who did come in contact with our creator that in this movie is represented by a black monolith that appears one day to our precursors - the monkeys - millions of years ago and gives to them the capacity to utilize bones of dead animals as tools to hunt and kill other animals, therefore giving the necessary confidence and strength to walk down the path of our evolution.

As a former passionate of sci-fi readings (Isaac Asimov being my most preferred, I believe to still own all he ever wrote) I cannot be completely fascinated by this movie and what it means today too, given that we see creationists arguing with evolutionists about nothing (I hope to have demonstrated already that God's existence is simply proven by universal gravity laws). Anyway please enjoy my video and links that I put here to show that I'm not the idiot that that eternally damned in Oxnard dared to say of me.

Thursday, October 08, 2015

MY UPCOMING REVENGE

I've been asking the question about revenge since 5/15/15 and even wrote this post about it: http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2015/05/revenge-jesus.html

Therefore, I have no compassion whatsoever when I'll finally make justice of my humiliating life situation that I've been living for a decade almost.

Then - of course - my own revenge can't even be comparable to that of the souls of the offenders once they'll pass over (or die) because even if absolutely convinced to have done what's right, they will have revealed to their own selves all their wrongs done while living, all I can now say is that if you are smart enough to have already figured it out what you did that was wrong AND negatively affected someone else while still alive, you still have time to correct the wrongs you did and therefore avoid to spend your eternity regretting not to have undone while still living the wrongs you did.

Once again, since nobody ever took the time to contradict my saying that God-self exercised revenge vs. others, there shouldn't be anything wrong if I do the same myself.

As I wrote here before, in Italian we say: "chi tace, acconsente" or if you say nothing, that means you agree.

I'm going to end my post with another very used phrase, or "wait and see" because while I'm certainly not Jehovah, my human revenge is going to be truly painful, or just a simple "taste" of the eternal condition of the souls of the (too) many sinners who have humiliated me in the only time in my life when I couldn't take revenge because physically disabled.

Sunday, October 04, 2015

FURTHER RESEARCH

As everyone who reads me here knows very well both that I'm not a MD and that my evaluation of medicine is very low, in fact I've been calling it the "guess science".

However, since I spend entire days in front of my PC that enjoys an internet connection at the speed of light I can't stop to Google search anything that has to do with the repair of the brain, once injured.

Well, I put here in orange a couple of blogs like mine about new medications or therapeutic opportunities directly focused on the brain once it isn't in top conditions, due to injury or age.

You are also going to see in my (usual) green links that the main subject is the amazing (and still not fully understood) neuroplasticity of our brain that, even when injured is able to re-wire itself around (and bypassing) the injured or dead parts, or neurons.

The primary question - as the medical ignorant that I am - is about these (new to me) medications named Centrophenoxine, N-acetyl-cysteine and Deprenyl that are said to help cognitive improvements that are mostly related to aging.

Now, my "old question" already asked to several MD and neurologists comes back: why can't I try (famous key verb in medicine) to use medications normally given to Alzheimer's patients, to which I must add, why can't I try perispinal Enbrel, given that's being pushed very hard to treat this aging related disease?

I know already the answer that all the experienced guess scientists will give me, but at least I'd like to hear someone giving a rational and factual (based on facts) explanation of the reason why I can't even try and I must remain sitting on a wheelchair all alone in a single room, without any money 24/7 since about (only) 10 years.

Here you go enjoy my video and links to neuroplasticity.

Saturday, October 03, 2015

MY DELUSIONS

I had to find the translation to Italian for the word Illusion (terribly close to it or illusione) to clearly understand the meaning of what my former employer (for too short of a time) A.M. whenever I emailed to him that I'm determined to go back to work and take back the position I had before I was practically killed.

What I intend to talk about now, is the label he gave to me of deluding myself to ever recover enough to be able to ever work for him again. I truly hope that his opinion isn't based on that of that loser in Oxnard, but it's fully based on his own learning's about victims such as I am in general. In fact given that I've been seeing several different neurologists with great experience, I'm glad to report that TWO of them told me - after having made their negative comment about my being under conservatorship - that my brain has most probably developed new abilities that I wouldn't have acquired if nothing had ever happened to me ( and my brain).

Well I must admit that I simply could never have any interest - as much as I do now - in matters of afterlife, psychology and neurology, I just always attempted to predict future events - in the economic or business and political fields - but for me to be this interested and hungry to learn something new in those fields - is very much unexpected, especially because these information (predictions) come to me in very unorthodox ways, either while sleeping through dreams, or told to me by complete strangers who seem to have known me for years.

This actually explains the reason why I've been talking about not having lost my "connection" while in a coma with the afterlife, that if anybody would ever had told me about I would have labeled such person crazy, rather than delusional……

Anyway, I hope that you are going to enjoy the links I put here and the pretty good Youtube too (it truly surprised me!!)

Friday, October 02, 2015

THE RUNAWAY JURY

This is a movie that shall be put in the "horror movies" category, because if anything that's portrayed (with good actors) in it shows a possible reality about the (devilish) management and strong influence of trials in courts through the composition of the jury.

It's really amazing how the modern communication technologies (internet, cameras, radio frequencies) allow each of us to be under constant control from those who access these resources.

In fact this movie is about how of the money gives immense powers to those who have it, to the point that they can affect the result of any trial about anything, this movie is in fact about our constitutionally protected freedom to have arms (or in this movie, sophisticated and modern assault weapons, normally made for the military).

In fact given that a crazy man killed a dozen of colleagues where he used to be employed and then fired, used an automatic machine gun, the trial was about this very constitutional freedom that if taken away or just reduced could have resulted in a loss of billions in incomes and profits by the entire gun industry.

What I liked the most in this movie is the way the leaders of each of the 2 groups in charge of the composition of the civil jury is that - no matter the sophistication of the tools used - the decision about who should be part of the jury, came down to what I call "gut feeling".

This to me is the important and hidden message given by this movie, or that no matter how sophisticated are the tools you use, it's only your human intelligence and sensitivity with experience that can make any decision become the right decision.

This is what my (injured) mind had me understand of this horror movie that I advise my readers to watch alone too, there's truly nothing to laugh about it, my only advice is to have strong alcohol when watching it (best not to mention my Irish whiskey collection).

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