I GOT IT!!

Now even the most advanced science says that everything being discovered had already been said - and shown - by Jesus 2,000 years ago, I really wonder what people hope to gain, when they feel guilty don't want to do anything to help the someone they care for (love, friendship or common life experiences ) I hope that none of you – readers – is hoping to live forever......

Even the Catholic religion is all human, I hope you understood this from what I post here - I said that Jesus was a Darwinist leap-ahead - the fact that he stated to be the son of God was simply because he was Jewish and at that time all Jewish people were waiting for the "son of god" to arrive,  here the idea is that with the quantum slit experiment we understand that the universe - including the parallel ones – is/are just the construction of our minds, which we are now beginning to understand that it’s with the universal consciousness that creates/d this entire universe with all the others (parallel ones) created humanity, in fact now it turns out that Afterlife is nothing more than the transfer of the electrical charges that we have used living our lives that simply move into this universal consciousness and - by themselves – re-create their whole personal life and rebuild either its painful and ugly parts (hell) Or the most wonderful and beautiful parts (heaven), then - as I’ve been saying for months - supposedly we get to the so-called "final judgment" doesn’t come from a God that gives/makes it, it’s the life evaluation that we ourselves can make, given that we are now  able to remember our entire life, so that we can decide if ours has been a "right" life or we have hurt others (see my post on the 10 commandments n. 4). Then the fact that the "red sea scrolls" were found proves beyond any doubt that even the bible was written by people today we would call "troglodytes" ...... the best-selling and most printed book in the world , which more than 2 billion people adore and take for "the word of god" written by troglodytes of about 5,000 years ago.

I put below links to my posts I referred to in this text to make it easier for you ☺.

1. http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2014/06/scientific-evidence-of-existence-of-god.html
2. http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2018/06/my-conversion-to-darwinism.html
3. http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2015/04/double-slit-experiment.html
4. https://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2015/04/the-ten-commandments-explanation.html
5. https://www.jewishvirtuallibrary.org/history-and-overview-of-the-dead-sea-scrolls

This video is pretty good

I + J + STRONG MIND

I’ve been talking about how parallel are Iacopo’s “teachings” with what Jesus had taught 2.000 years ago (posts of January 04, 2017 August 16, 2017 May 04, 2015) when I think to what the 3^rd Hypothesis by Iacopo that says that the moment people will realize the effect on their next lives will have on the behavior of the current ones, the entire world will change overnight and all wars and crimes will forever stop, I can only think to both what Jesus taught and to what the entire Vatican empire (from the Pope down to the pastor of the church in the small village) has been trying to instruct all about what’s right and what’s wrong, so I’d say that what Iacopo is trying to say with his hypothesis is going to fall on deaf ears……like history teaches.

I do however still have little hope, simply because the motherfucker who pretends to save my money for me (yeah, it’s too difficult for a brain injured individual like me) will present to the “holy court” a bill that will only get paid by totally drying up the (fairly large) amount of money being saved and invested over several years by a great specialist I retained more than a decade ago when I was living on the East Coast.

The fact that I know precisely  (I'm blessed...)what kind of (fucking) eternity this guy and his attorney are going to experience, truly doesn’t change my determined hope that those two bastards will find their hell while still living on earth.

I’m hoping that my readers know already what hell on earth is, or the fact that your own mind affects in a negative manner all you truly love (just like me, in essence), with the enormous difference of the gravity factor, that basically compares the “weight” of how much you hurt someone (in my case it’s me, my marriage, my two treasures and my past, present and future wealth of all kinds, ultimately destined to my two treasures) to the “negative weight” (or whatever good/positive done for others) of your helping/supporting others.

This is a case where I must admit my complete ignorance because I can only guess that for an attorney it must be hard to be a “good guy” and as far as the motherfucker, I’m not sure at all because while he shall certainly go to hell for what concerns me, his job is his own choice (free-will) but having been ordered to be my own master truly wasn’t his own decision, he’s actually convinced that choosing his occupation is the way to help those in need, forget about the fact of the reason why he chose that job (he knows already because I told him not too long ago) and how much of a difference there is between his positive and negative weights.

Surely hurting me and my family now and in the future is a pretty big weight, but, but it’s going to be their own decisions to determine their own eternities.

The only one thing that I may be able to guess is only based on the strength of their minds…….meaning that if their minds are weak, nothing will probably happen to what they love most, BUT if they are strong minded (just like I’ve been since birth) their true hell will start while still alive (exactly like it happened to me) with the HUGE difference that – at least – they’ll know exactly/precisely the reasons why……while for me it’ll probably remain a mystery until I’ll die, in fact I cannot begin to count the number of hours I’ve been trying to come up with a reason for being in hell, but every time I believe that I may have found the answer……the next morning I realize that my brain is truly injured 😢

1. https://www.inc.com/amy-morin/18-things-mentally-strong-people-do.html
2. https://www.lifehack.org/articles/communication/25-signs-that-youre-mentally-strong-person.html
3. https://www.wikihow.com/Be-Strong-Minded
4. https://michaelhyatt.com/strong-minded/
5. https://www.quora.com/What-does-it-mean-when-someone-is-strong-minded

TIME.....

I said before that my dad used to call me Carlo-ieri (Italian for yesterday) because I was totally unable to wait for more than one instant to have what I had decided to want.

Well, what can I say…I’m the one who from president of companies always rushing not only to do whatever my position required for me to do, but on top I used to be addicted to exercise at least for a couple of hours every day (road and off-road bicycling running and swimming were my standard activities), now my issue is the complete opposite, in fact all I can do all day long is to research new methods to repair the brain when it’s injured, exchange email messages with family, friends and former colleagues around the world, plus (yeeeaaahhh) watch movies pretty much all day long – aside from going through the memories of the wonderful life I lived.

This clip actually comes from the I.Q. movie that I like because it shows Einstein (and colleagues/friends) joking about the idea of time, that in his relativity theory is the fourth dimension or it’s strictly tied to space.

It’s obvious that the idea that time really doesn’t exist, or that yesterday, today and tomorrow all exist in the same space, has my mind take off towards the dream (well supported by the quantum theories) that what (where and when) I’m living now is just a projection of my mind, in reality I never came to Santa Barbara to be killed, I’m still skiing in NH.

Anyway, this movie made me very curious about this idea of time and I did a very little internet research that I simply propose with my links, what truly fascinates me is the way time is defined in another of the movies that every home should have to watch as many times as time allows (i.e. I watched it 23 times already……and I’m not done yet) I love it when Lucy (Scarlett Johansson) explains that “time is the only true unit of measure, it gives proof to the existence of matter, without time…..we don’t exist” this statement resolves – in my opinion – the famous grandfather’s paradox or the fact that when a person travels to the past and kills their own grandfather before the conception of their father or mother,  the time traveler cannot be born. I put at the very bottom of this post a video that shows the way quantum physics believes to have resolved this paradox………or with the SUPERPOSITION!!!

1. https://nrich.maths.org/6070
2. http://www.exactlywhatistime.com/measurement-of-time/
3. https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/how-do-we-measure-time-5-innovative-ways/
4. https://www.smartickmethod.com/blog/math/measurement-and-data/measurements/measure-time/

NOW I’M SURE

It’s been taking (literally) several years to rationalize and verify the truthfulness of my saying as I got out of my 2 months long coma that “I had made a deal with Jesus Christ”, in fact I couldn’t figure out at all what could have been the reason why both people who were there (my dad and my best US business friend) could tell me that I had said the exact same thing (word-for-word), especially knowing that my dad never spoke a word of English, neither my friend of Italian.

I cannot count the number of times I asked this same question to my dad - before he passed on (to become Saint Gianfranco) – but a couple of days ago I was able to “catch” my friend over the phone while he wasn’t too busy working; in fact he said that I spoke to my dad in Italian and to him (my friend) in English……….so much for the TBI related aphasia…

It goes without my saying it, that my firm belief that all the answers to my (too many) questions never came to me because of my own superior intelligence ☺ (as I had said earlier) rather they must come from either the “afterlife universe” or directly from Jesus.

This is the only reason that explains my “hanging tough” because, no matter that I have no memory to have met (or even seen) Jesus, what’s stuck in my memory and mind is that I was very clearly warned that my survival (to be close to my 2 treasures) meant that it was going to be painful.

Now, I’m not going to repeat my understanding that pain meant to me. In fact I just imagined that some pain can be taken care by taking aspirin or Tylenol, I wrote about it way too many times.

Based on this and what I posted here in the past couple of days, I’m truly desperate to have lost everything and everyone I ever cared and worked for (that I kept to grow and to expand for 40+ years of my BEAUTIFUL/WONDERFUL family/work life) plus my incredible (or blessed, I was told) connection to both the world of Afterlife and Jesus do force me to warn to stop taking away from me, my treasures and my wife (the ONLY woman I ever loved and will forever love)  what’s undeniably mine.

As Iacopo (and Jesus) says, the moment people will realize what it means what they do to others while living, is the moment that this entire world will change overnight, no more wars, nor crimes of any kind…..only peace and kindness☺.

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OUR MINDS (as promised)

I’m not sure but I think that – with all the sophisticated measuring machines of today and how prepared and broadly knowledgeable researchers and scientists around the world are now – the fact that they are still looking for its physical location, regardless that (of course) it’s been agreed worldwide that the mind must reside in the brain, but nobody can say where exactly. So today – without trying to make myself pass for the super-specialist in this matter, I’m simply going to talk about the importance of the mind that some defined as the “most potent weapon of humanity”.

I.E. just think about that one time in your life when you hated someone for something hurtful done to you or someone you care for….ever noticed that your thoughts of vengeance including the “hows” became – in time - real/true?

Obviously this normally applies to those who have the so called “powerful mind” that can affect their own reality and that of others.

Especially today that quantum physics says that all we see, measure, experience and study are simply  the projection of our consciousness (that’s universal), there isn’t any doubt in my (broken) brain – as in yours (hopefully) – that with the ability to “control” our minds (that – just  like the soul - we ALL have) not only we can affect our own lives (AND that of others) while living here BUT way more in afterlife, given that afterlife is the projection of what’s in our minds.

In fact it’s sufficient to mention to your “target "something he/she cares for AND that’s part of this target’s life that’s unpleasant to him/her and this idea “implanted” in that mind will surely either happen (for real) while living OR in their afterlives.

The number of examples I could make now is very large, just like very large is (almost immense) the number of websites about it. So just enjoy this carefully selected list of websites the Google and I, put together.

1. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-power-forgetting/201402/the-brain-your-secret-weapon
2. https://www.quora.com/What-is-the-most-dangerous-idea-conceived-by-the-human-mind
3. https://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/08/05/how-you-can-train-your-mi_n_3688660.html
4. https://www.theguardian.com/science/2013/jun/30/brain-mind-behaviour-neuroscience-neuroimaging
5. https://themindunleashed.com/2015/07/the-human-mind-is-a-wonderful-masterpiece-but-can-also-be-a-dangerous-master.html
6. https://qz.com/1306065/the-most-dangerous-and-misunderstood-threat-to-humanity-is-the-human-mind/
7. https://www.thetrumpet.com/15655-the-worlds-most-powerful-weapon

OUR IMMENSELY POWERFUL BRAINS

As it seems to happen (too) often this morning I woke up in a horrible mood, I started to think that maybe it’s time to fully erase from the internet my blog that’s full of the crap that my frustrating life has been offering on a “silver platter”, BUT I immediately thought to “the story” of my deal made with Jesus, who had said that for me to return to live was truly going to be painful – forget about the fact that I had understood that no pain can’t be taken care of with little aspirin or Tylenol- therefore I decided  to ask to the only other person – with my own dad (Saint Gianfranco) how my having said to have made a deal directly with Jesus was communicated…..given that my dad never spoke a word in English and my very work friend spoke no Italian at all, so how could I say to both in two different languages the exact same thing?????

Since my dad is already in heaven, I contacted with my (usual) determination my friend who pretty much explained in as much detail as possible that I used both languages for each of them (so much for TBI generated aphasia) right after both my dad and my friend compared among each other (I guess using body language) what I had said, and the result is that I truly said the exact same thing to both.

Given that working on my blog allows my mind to reduce the steam pressure that I keep accumulating, I decided that this blog – no matter its enormity – is going to keep helping me to “reduce my internal pressure”.

In fact I’m going to start a “new” series about the immense (and still completely unknown) capacities/abilities/powers of what’s (mainly) between our two ears, to move on to the mind – that nobody still knows where it’s located – some say that the brain and the mind as being one and the same thing. Doctors, scientists, and other highly trained persons share this belief. People from all walks of life use the words "brain" and "mind" interchangeably. In reality, they are two separate and distinct creations. However the soul or atman, credited with the ability to enliven the body, was located by ancient anatomists and philosophers in the lungs or heart, in the pineal gland (Descartes), and generally in the brain. So, there you have it, we are trying to figure out things that people knew very well at least 6.000 years ago.

1.  http://www.llewellyn.com/journal/article/628
2. https://www.quora.com/What-is-the-mind-Where-is-it-located-in-the-human-body
3. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3115284/
4. https://www.newscientist.com/round-up/unconscious/
5. https://www.nbcnews.com/science/human-brain-may-be-even-more-powerful-computer-thought-8c11497831
6. http://www.abundance-and-happiness.com/mind-power.html
7. https://medicalxpress.com/news/2012-12-reveals-brain-categorizes-thousands-actions.html
8. https://www.simplypsychology.org/unconscious-mind.html

WE CREATED ALL THE UNIVERSES AND PUT OURSELVES IN ONE

The (still very beloved) mother of my two treasures has been saying that my becoming both deeply catholic and devouring all that concerns the quantum research, is just because my brain is injured, I usually say nothing to get back at her – it’s very possible that my brain is really injured – BUT my “Catholicism” is simply a return of my memories of when I was taught what any good Christian is supposed to know and my passion for the quantum research (both mathematical and in physics) is simply related to my graduation at the college of math & science in Verona, Italy that I had attended till my graduation.

So there’s really nothing strange or weird that my NDE experience revived these two subjects that filled my youth.

If (on top) you put that I’ve become convinced (through the quantum research) that not only we – humans – are the real God but that (on top) we are the creators of this universe, and possibly of the many parallel ones, that in time will become real and measurable to us.

This is my reason to make this post where I try to introduce the concept that “we are the father of Jesus” (the Darwinian quantum leap into the future of human kind) if in addition to spend little of your precious time to go to the websites I linked, you can surely understand that I’m (slightly) opening a door to the real miracle that’s our (human) brain.

What I mean by saying that this post “opens the door” to my personal research (that of this TBI victim therefore only good for the trash) about the brain (+consciousness AND mind) and how monumental our ignorance is about what it does and what we can do IF we’ll be patient and able not to “overuse and/or over study it” I’m very hopeful that, by putting together all we know and keep to discover every day of our brain, we'll avoid all the obstacles we have today in the future (close or far away?).

Coming up I’ll predict what’s (very soon) going to happen to the most important exchange rates in this world (or in this universe?)

1. https://www.newscientist.com/article/mg20126941-700-born-believers-how-your-brain-creates-god/
2. http://bigthink.com/think-tank/is-the-brain-hardwired-for-religion
3. https://creation.com/how-your-brain-creates-god

UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUSNESS

All I can say about my (diseased) passion for all that the quantum sciences are saying, is to just put the word "consciousness" in the search (green) tool here on the right and count the number of posts I published (since early 2017) in the blog, I’m almost ashamed to talk again about consciousness, BUT my reason for doing this, is that even the world’s greatest minds can't solve the mystery of consciousness (imagine if the brain injured me can…..) as a result of this acknowledgement, I just decided that what I’ll do is to simply report what’s known today of this “supernatural entity” that’s been referred to as universal consciousness, that does sound to me a little different from the one I’ve been talking about since earlier than 5/20/2017…. 

CONSCIOUSNESS AND SOUL

 http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2017/05/consciousness-and-soul.html

I simply want to add that this universal consciousness is all knowing, all powerful, all creative and always present. ... Your mind is part of the one Universal Mind. Simply said consciousness refers to your individual awareness of your unique thoughts, memories, feelings, sensations, and environment. Topics such as sleep, dreams, hypnosis, hallucinations, meditation and the effects of psychoactive drugs are just a few of the major topics related to consciousness that psychologists study. In simpler words universal consciousness is a concept that tries to address the underlying essence of all being and becoming in the universe. ... Universal Consciousness is the source, ground, basis that underlies those interactions and the awareness and knowledge they imply.

The "soul or spirit" is that part of us that enables us to be aware of ourselves. It is the essence of life, eternal and its' substance lies outside the physical parameters of the Universe. Moreover, when in place in any physical body, it connects directly to and is our consciousness. This is – in my mind – a very good definition of the God referred to in various religions, the main difference is that – as I said already – that God creator, omnipresent and omniscient is us…..and now Quantum Physics can prove it mathematically (new post about math soon to arrive).

1. https://www.theguardian.com/science/2015/jan/21/-sp-why-cant-worlds-greatest-minds-solve-mystery-consciousness
2. http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/next/physics/physicists-say-consciousness-might-be-a-state-of-matter/
3. https://www.newscientist.com/article/mg22630190-500-the-human-universe-does-consciousness-create-reality/
4. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-superhuman-mind/201303/what-is-consciousness
5. https://www.nbcnews.com/mach/science/universe-conscious-ncna772956
6. https://www.collective-evolution.com/2016/02/07/physicists-examine-consciousness-conclude-the-universe-is-spiritual-immaterial-mental/
7. http://www.bbc.com/earth/story/20170215-the-strange-link-between-the-human-mind-and-quantum-physics
8. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Universal_mind

THE HUMAN BRAIN

Just like the (funny) guy just said we have no idea of how our brains work and I’d really love to turn this statement to the doctors who’ve assessed me as unable to manage my money………but no wait!”! They use the psychological knowledge – as I’ve said here before – that was developed by a heroin addict/child molester (only) about 130 years ago.

Simple fact is that while I’m way more intelligent, practical and logic than each and every one of the losers (E. L. -  J. F.) who condemned me to having a policeman (two as of today even worse losers than those Ph. D……I’ll explain this later) our brains can perform their activities via electrical charges that aren’t just used to transport signals and information among each other (billions) but use electricity to give instructions to the billions of cells that form the human body to do what we decide to do (i.e. walking, breathing, driving, swimming and all else we want to do when we live).

So here there are these 2 concepts important to consider:

1.     Around 1750 Antoine Lavoisier – who was an alchemist, after having performed experiments and having reflected for several decades said (famously) that "in nature nothing is lost, nothing is created, everything is transformed".

2.    This declaration goes hand-in-hand with the scientific confirmation of the real existence of the – so called today – afterlife

But let me add the idea that when we die, this “electricity” leaves the brain – that’s going to soon rot, with the entire body – we can now see (and have finally been able to detect) its forming what we call, our soul BUT since this “electricity” isn’t needed to instruct all the other cells in the body (billions), it transforms into the consciousness, that’s both universal and (just like we’ve been saying for God) omniscient.

Like the guy in the video above, I have no idea of the reason why, but my intelligence, logic and cunningness have truly increased, to the point that for a rather long time I was fully convinced to have retained a connection firstly with Jesus Christ and later with the entire afterlife realm.

1. http://discovermagazine.com/2007/aug/unsolved-brain-mysteries
2. https://www.ted.com/playlists/1/how_does_my_brain_work
3. https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2009/05/090519152559.htm
4. https://www.nytimes.com/2003/11/11/science/how-does-the-brain-work.html
5. https://www.quora.com/The-quote-%E2%80%9CNothing-is-lost-nothing-is-created-everything-is-transformed-is-attributed-to-Antoine-Lavoisier-but-did-he-really-write-or-say-those-words-Who-came-up-with-that-kind-of-summary-of-the-idea-of-the-conservation-of-mass
6. https://www.quora.com/Why-do-we-still-not-know-how-the-brain-works-exactly
7. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Antoine_Lavoisier

NOOTROPICS DO STIMULATE NEUROGENESIS

OK these are the 5 times I posted in my blog here about nootropics (too many?).

1. http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2017/06/nootropics-for-tbi.html
2. http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2017/08/piracetam.html
3. http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2017/09/again-on-nootropics.html
4. http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2017/11/on-nootropics-again.html
5. http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2017/11/nootropics-neurogenesis.html

 in contradiction of what I had stated once my taking a mix of these OTC natural herbs has truly had the neurogenic effect that few of the websites (some NIH official) I had linked over the years I had posted about this effect – some since the beginning of last year - in fact I can say with confidence that my strong unbalance while standing has totally disappeared, while the damage in my occipital lobe (sight field cut) isn't getting any better.

This means that if my femur head hadn’t been fractured last year (followed by rapid surgery with the insertion of many screws) I'd be walking already on my own, in my mind I’m sure that by giving muscle strength back to the left leg, I’ll walk into the court room next time when that disgustingly fat judge will insert my policeman (AND his buddy) up my ass. In the next few days I’m going to talk of the (magical) ability of our brains to create reality, our universe (I said this already) and make few comments about the way our brains operate with electrical charges that can never disappear (very close to the science of the afterlife).

So, enjoy this (fairly long) Youtube video, expect my next posts, look at my 5 past ones and do not forget the donation for the creator (of this blog = ME).

1. https://corpina.com/neurogenesis-how-to-increase-nerve-growth-factor-ngf/
2. https://www.braintropic.com/ngf-nerve-growth-factor-stack/
3. https://supplementsinreview.com/nootropic/how-to-grow-brain-cells-nootropics-lifestyle-tips-for-neurogenesis/
4. https://www.mindlabpro.com/blog/nootropics/grow-brain-cells-nootropics-neurogenesis/

MY CONVERSION TO DARWINISM

There probably are several dozens of movies, hundreds of books (beginning with the bible) that have their explanation of the reason why we exist and how + from what/where we humans came from, I put here one of the best scenes of one of my favorite movies (2001 a space odyssey) where one monkey is “influenced” to open the mind to utilize the bone of a dead animal as a weapon, or tool to get superiority versus other monkey groups (or families), the movie goes on to bring us to manage inter-stellar travel with our transplantation to other planets BUT this good movie too ends with the representation (or need) of a God creator, via the image of a fetus looking at our planet earth from outer space.

It’s my personal N.D.E. driven belief that this is most probably the way we humans started our evolution – however without the intervention of the black rectangular communication device from some other civilization.

In fact I believe that we humans developed from monkey pretty much in the same way shown in that movie, but taking into consideration that it took several hundreds of thousands of years for a monkey to make the connection between bone and tool, I’m not very surprised that it happened in that way – given how long it took. I know that today there are the creationists and the Darwinians arguing against each other and while I was a very convinced creationist, I must declare that I’ve become a 100% Darwinian for the rather simple reason that as well as a monkey started to walk upright and use tools to do what can make life easier and more comfortable (efficient), that well evolution (by itself) had the first cell here on earth duplicate, form a living being and continued to evolve until it became us, no need of any god or creation whatsoever.

In fact I’ve become convinced that “this need to have a god creator” is something deeply ingrained in our (human) brains that must have formed several millions of years ago and that’s truly impossible to eliminate or control in any rational way.

It’s become my belief that as well as a monkey few millions of years ago started to walk upright and use tools that well it was Jesus Christ that by an evolutionary jump was born with the brain that we’ll all have in few more thousands of years (that in scale with the evolution timing is like saying tomorrow morning).

Why is it so incredible that Jesus would refer to his father as the creator of the universe? Hasn’t any Jew referred to the creator as “the father” since ever? And wasn’t Jesus Christ a Jew too, who was giving sermons, establish laws and take care of the needy like any other Jewish high priest of his times? Jesus created the catholic religion NOT because he was god’s son, neither because his brain was like the brain we all will have in the future, it’s simply because Jesus talked about peace and non-violence, with the respect to others – in a time when disagreements between people were resolved with a sword – it simply was that the most powerful and influential empire we ever had here on earth (Roman Empire) used Jesus and his preaching (suggestions)  to keep people in its very large empire quiet and non-rebellious.

This is why the Catholic religion started and with it the Vatican (empire) that’s been representing and keeping intact the belief in Jesus for 2K years.

Based on the above I’m hoping that you can understand the reason why some are saying that Jesus was a time traveler who came from the future and why Stephen Hawking is saying that our universe could only form itself with the appearance of gravity.

I want to share with my readers that my two main subjects of study and research are now the force of gravity (NOT introduced by some god creator) and the concept of time (that, according to Einstein really doesn’t exist).

To close this (hopefully not blasphemous) post, I have 2 questions for my catholic readers:

1.     What would any father of a young girl would say or do if your daughter comes home and tells you that she’s pregnant because of some “angel of god” did it (BEST for me not to even mention…grrrhhh…)?

2.    Is there anyone who can explain how 2.000 years ago some pastors in a lost manger near Bethlehem could be aware of a woman giving birth without breaking the allantoidal membrane?

In hope not to have upset anyone, I’m hoping to have made it very clear that as well as the universe we see and study is the product of our minds, which well Jesus and the catholic religion don’t owe anything to any “god creator”.

1. https://www.quora.com/Could-Jesus-have-been-a-time-traveler
2. http://www.icr.org/article/time-travel/
3. http://blogs.reuters.com/faithworld/2010/09/02/god-did-not-create-the-universe-gravity-did-says-stephen-hawking/

LEFT ALONE BECAUSE I’M DISABLED: SIMPLE!!

It’s gotta be truly ‘cause my brain is injured, it’s taken really plenty years to understand that the reason why my life companion, soulmate and best friend has been refusing to talk, see and be close to me……not to mention that since several years she hasn’t replied to any of my email messages neither responded each time I called her and she can see it’s me.

Well, in making my usual simple and quick google research I found millions of websites that explain the reason why, try to make it look normal that once one spouse becomes disabled (especially when it’s the husband) the other one, simply quits the relationship sworn in marriage to last (“for richer, for poorer, in sickness and health, until death do us part) pretty much forever.

I cannot say that my soulmate did anything right by cheating on me with that ugly, egotistical piece of dung, who happened to be my own physiatrist (I spoke enough already of that B.) – but I promise that in a future post I’ll explain what I mean when I call someone stupid and I’ll talk more about what exactly (and scientifically) happens at death, so it’ll become very clear (and totally unbiased) what I mean when I call someone “stupid”.

I also want to anticipate what my NDE experience helped me understand of Jesus Christ and of the Vatican (empire) too. Which is very closely related to the fact that if I'm still here, it isn't because of a miracle done by Jesus, but practically (or simply) because I'm too stubborn to die. As well as I'm too stubborn to give up on my family (creation of my own ).

 Given the overwhelming amount of material on this subject I’m going to let my carefully selected websites and Youtube videos speak for me, your only job is to put the face to the two despised individuals I’m talking about.

1. https://www.quora.com/What-is-too-stubborn-to-die
2. https://forum.rosen.com/t/disabled-husband-abandoned-by-wife/16914
3. https://www.nytimes.com/1999/05/31/us/disabled-spouses-are-increasingly-forced-to-go-it-alone.html
4. https://answers.uslegal.com/divorce/16354/
5. http://www.topix.com/forum/city/doniphan-mo/TRT9I81NKM16VAACR/if-your-spouse-became-disabled-would-you-stay-or-w

BEING ALONE

I’ve been trying to figure out a (any) reason that may explain why my adored ex-wife Michele doesn’t want to see me anymore AND why - when she brings my wonderful daughter for the legally required (by the divorce) weekly visit - (a couple hours on Sundays only) never even walks her to my room, I guess because I’m repugnant to her.

I’ve been sitting on this post for months because I never want to hurt my treasures’ feelings in any way (shape or form).

However given that they both have gotten to the age that their personalities have sufficiently matured that they can read what I’m saying, I decided to blow off little of my internal steam that at times (when I think of this) gets to a point (atmospheric pressure) that I could explode (giving very much cleaning to do to the Mexican caregivers who work here).

Aside from the fact that I practically already was the president of Tecnica USA in NH, my very mistaken decision to take the TEVA presidency in Santa Barbara, CA in the Deckers group was uniquely driven by my will to make the mother of my two treasures be very happy to be back not only in the State where she was born, but very much more for living in what I say it’s the gem of all the towns in the USA, to me it’s better than Saint Tropez and Porto Cervo, Florence, Munich and so on, the most beautiful European towns with centuries of history too.

In truth my former wife and I were seeing a marriage counselor already when we were living in NH, for the reason that it was very hard for her to overcome my excessive self-confidence, no matter the situation, I can’t say if this had anything to do with the accident that pretty much killed me, or maybe the fact that my overwhelming self-confidence was being very much challenged by my new position in the very sophisticated and forward looking company such as the Deckers group was at that time.

As a way to lower my high level of stress at work I was spending most of my out-of-office time swimming, biking (both mountain and road) and running.

In fact for me being in Santa Barbara was very close to having landed a job in heaven-on-earth, I also had reached the body-weight that I had been trying to reach for decades already and – as a result – there were very many beautiful women (California beauties) who loved to be involved or just close to me (the Italian stud) I strongly believe that it was the combination of what I just described that gives the reason to the accident that killed me – in fact my dad, Saint Gianfranco – often said that “there’s always a reason for all that happens and I’m inclined to believe that all the facts I just described had my brain and mind-focus low enough to impact the car driven by that very young criminal.

Now for all I experienced while in the 2 months long coma I had, please just go to my (plenty) past posts about my encounter and agreement with Jesus Christ because I’ve posted enough about it.

The only one idea that I think it’s important to add is that – after having learned and discussed directly with researchers in quantum physics – my meeting Jesus is simply due to my being Catholic since I was born, if I had been a Buddhist I’d have met Buddha, if Islamic, I’d have met with Allah and so on and on and on.

The very sad and unmeasurable disappointment of my becoming a disabled and retired man is that who had made my life beautiful, gave me two treasures, my drive to always want more and/or better, thought it best (for herself only) to cheat on me in front of my treasures with my main MD, who – no matter that she tried to pass on to my treasures as their “father figure” never was accepted as such and when my son went to “beat the living crap out of him” inside the Cottage hospital, that worm to had the local police issue a restraining order against my son…. he can’t imagine what afterlife he’s soon going to have…..

I cannot even begin to say what effect seeing my beautiful, experienced and very beloved wife/Queen use her body to have rent and groceries paid by that (fucking) worm who changed his name to its initial only, or B. (too much effort to use the full fucking name....), I can only say that – just like my Queen has been telling me for years – my still loving her is a clear effect of my brain being injured.

All I can say is that I’m happy to be divorced and forever separated from her, her destiny is going to be just like my life has been lately, alone, abandoned with nothing to show for her life that's ending just like it started(shitty).
Not to mention her afterlife, that she refuses to believe it does exist (forever dead abandoned inside a coffin buried nowhere).

1. http://www.topix.com/forum/city/doniphan-mo/TRT9I81NKM16VAACR/if-your-spouse-became-disabled-would-you-stay-or-w
2. https://answers.uslegal.com/divorce/16354/
3. https://www.nytimes.com/1999/05/31/us/disabled-spouses-are-increasingly-forced-to-go-it-alone.html
4. https://forum.rosen.com/t/disabled-husband-abandoned-by-wife/16914