My eternal love Michele has been telling me since years that
I still love her (35 posts in this blog mainly about her) http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/search/label/Love
because
my brain is injured and from my initial refusal to even listen to her saying
so, I just realized that she's always been right, in fact what made me open
wide my eyes is a very good friend of mine from my times living and working in
Italy (Verona) who recently developed a brain tumor, when he emailed me, first I
shared his madness with him, but soon I thought that he really has no reason to
be so mad, he never married her companion, so why would she feel any obligation
of any kind if as he get's terminally ill she leaves him alone to deal with his
death (basically)?
That's what I told to him in my reply, or that since they never
married she has no tie of any type with him and she's very free to keep on
living like nothing ever happened to him (life goes on...).
But, as I was writing my reply I realized that as much as I
was telling to him that she's a bad person for having walked away from him as
he "got broken", I thought that Michele has always been right, I'm
definitely brain injured if I still love her, especially given that she's been
trying to replace me with few other lowlife without any rectitude and moral principles, I'm not even allowed to
know their names, according to Michele (therefore according to my son too).
As I was thinking about this upsetting and sad situation
that my friend is experiencing I pulled out a very old email (2/2014) where I had told to another of my friends in Italy what he should think of and do to his wife
(married in church) who had divorced and left him right after he survived a
pretty bad car accident, here is when I had the objective proof that my brain
is truly devastated if I still love Michele (married in church in presence of God and both of our
families and friends), Saint Gianfranco (my dad) was right when he
told me last year shortly before he passed away that I decided to survive my
accident only for the love I have for my 2 treasures and that I never mentioned
Michele.
I could tell that it was hard for him to tell me of this because
he always said that Michele was like for him having another daughter, he loved
her just like he loved my sister Anna, he didn't want to elaborate on this and
I decided to drop this topic.
What I can't forgive Michele for is that she wasted $100K in
a fake investment and by influencing that poor guy in Oxnard who had me committed
to conservatorship so that I can't "waste" my money in a (still) off-label treatment for TBI recovery, maybe as I die and I receive Universal
Intelligence I'll stop to love her, but I can't stop to feel bad now about her
afterlife.
Few links below about
the legal (not religious) principles of marriage:
- http://www.covenantkeepers.org/online-articles/47-general-marital-issues/358-what-it-means-to-love-your-spouse
- http://www.madaboutmarriage.com/blog/the-true-meaning-of-love-in-marriage/
- http://www.net-burst.net/help/lover.htm
- https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/no-ordinary-life/201410/the-power-marital-love
- http://www.usccb.org/beliefs-and-teachings/what-we-believe/love-and-sexuality/married-love-and-the-gift-of-life.cfm
- http://www.catholicity.com/catechism/marital_love.html
- http://divorcesupport.about.com/od/reasonstostaytogether/a/Love-Is-Not-The-Solution-To-Marital-Problems.htm
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