THE PEN IS MIGHTIER THAN THE SWORD

Or in my mother language (Italian) “ferisce più la lingua della spada” and boy oh boy.... my tongue/pen is way worse than even a sword, I’m thinking that it’s probably much closer to a bazooka or to a machine gun, too many dear (to me) people have stopped to have any communication with me - both by email and by phone - for me not to have understood that my words can inflict painful wounds to the receiver that I can no longer have any communication with that person.

This also had me think that “truth hurts” therefore not only my words are just like bullets but the carry a meaning of truth that while killing the receiver they hurt very much too, therefore the subject of my anger won’t talk anymore with me because already dead in pain.

Now, since I know (unfortunately) very well what’s death and what happens with it, I know very well that there’s no point, nor reason for me to get angry at anyone, since once their time will come, it’ll be themselves who will decide their own punishment, its method and duration and here (once again) I have to say that Iacopo is as correct as Jesus was (so much for being an atheist) in saying that the day that the entire world will understand that the wrongs made by someone when living, do carry over in the next life as a negative influence in all that’s going to be lived in the next life, every war, murder, felony against someone else will stop and we’ll all be living in what in Italy we call “paradiso terrestre” or earthly paradise (= heaven) in English.

My (injured) mind immediately jumps to a scene in a movie I recently watched where Jesus is looking at two guys who are suffering tremendously in hell and beg Jesus to allow them to warn their family and friends of what may expect them after they die, if they behave like they did, I like what Jesus says in reply, or that it’s all available to everyone already, in fact it’s more than enough to read the bible, to attend mass weekly and never hurt somebody else not to end up where they are……what a way to forever shut them up, I only wish that the movie could show the faces of those damned people when hearing what Jesus said.

I truly wish that my first reaction to someone being unfair - or hurting me – wasn’t to use my “deadly pen”, but rather realize that it’s going to be themselves who will be taking care of their own wrongs once they’ll die, in fact our life lasts like the blink of an eye on earth – when compared to the eternity of afterlife – and our body is just the shell that our soul occupies while we are living.

I love the part in a movie on afterlife when a small group of young black guys ask aloud “why must we live here on earth if afterlife is so great?”

If you still have no answer to this question I suggest reading my blog a bit more and/or asking me directly, because I have no plan to repeat myself any time soon in a new post in answer to this question, but hey! You can always send me a message using the tool here on the right; if I’ll receive more than a dozen I’ll change my posting schedule to fit this in.

1.  https://www.quora.com/Is-the-pen-mightier-than-the-sword
2. http://www.bbc.com/news/magazine-30729480
3. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_pen_is_mightier_than_the_sword

WHAT HAPPENS WITH THE ELECTRICAL ENERGY WITHIN THE BODY WHEN WE DIE?

 I've been thinking about this for weeks, and even though I'm not that great at it, I find anything scientifically interesting. I truly have compulsive documentary watching disorder I watch new ones every day, and if I don't have a new one, I'll just rewatch ones I have.

But, back to my question.… Even though I'm probably way off in terms of the science, here's what I was thinking. Since energy cannot be created nor destroyed it has to go somewhere, right? Well where does it go? Of course the actual body will most likely be incinerated and turn into heat energy, but what about the electrical energy in our brains? Electricity can't be incinerated. I said here before that one of the principal laws in physics says that nothing can be created therefore nothing is destroyed.

In my simpleminded (and injured) thinking I believe that the sum of all the electrical micro-charges used by our body – via the brain – constitute the soul that every living and human individual.

I believe it to be fascinating that the study and research about the soul and the afterlife has been subject of what quantum physics has made itself busy with recently, I smile too at the fact that all the most recent ”discoveries” done are what every Catholic believer/follower has known for only 2,000 years.

I guess that since now all that Jesus Christ taught to us by example can be officially backed up by basic principle of physics, we can all feel much better if we say that we are eternal and our existence doesn’t end with our physical death. I’m hoping that these two videos and the few links I put here can be sufficient to support what my inability to manage any money on my own makes me state.

1. http://humansarefree.com/2015/07/scientific-proof-of-reincarnation-yes.html
2. https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/biocentrism/201112/does-the-soul-exist-evidence-says-yes
3. http://energyfanatics.com/2014/07/15/what-is-soul-evidence-existence/
4. http://theconversation.com/whatever-the-soul-is-its-existence-cant-be-proved-or-disproved-by-natural-science-61244
5. http://www.str.org/articles/is-there-any-evidence-for-the-soul#.V5uQivkrIdV
6. http://www.askamathematician.com/2012/11/q-if-energy-is-neither-created-nor-destroyed-what-happens-to-the-energy-within-our-bodies-and-brains-when-we-die/

I’M SURE

I don’t want this post to become a religious piece about my Catholic beliefs, I just ask my readers to keep in mind what I just said about who’s God and who we are (my 7/19 post) and given that I distinctly remember that, making my agreement with Jesus I was clearly warned that my return to life would be “painful”, I’ve been trying to make some sense of what I’m living through, and when I was squeezing memories out of my (injured) brain, it came to my mind what I was taught when growing up in Italy and what my dad always said in difficult moments of life, I also remembered that the bible clearly says that God challenges us only if we are able to win, therefore I did – as usual – a simple internet search focused on this idea of a God-given challenge given only to the “strongest warriors” and I can proudly say that I’m now surer than before that I’ll overcome this very painful challenge too.

I want to add that I was also given the reason why I met with Jesus while in a coma, that’s all to do with the reason why I had my accident that’s very closely related to the powers of the human brain, that’s a real miracle that we are still learning how it functions, not to mention that we still don’t know how it’s made and much less how it works (i.e. quantum research about the brain and our uniquely human conscience).

Anyway, the point I want to make here is that – like for every other challenge I  dealt with before the accident – I have no doubt that I’ll return to be the married working man (and father) I’ve always been and I’m now very confident – based on my NDE experience - that all the losers (judges - who have no idea of what a neuropsy. assessment means - the neuropsy. themselves, all the conservators with their attorneys) involved in this horrible legislation, supposedly made for the benefit of very wealthy people’s divorces or to the benefit of wealthy people who are  “conserved” by those who are too lazy and ignorant to enter the real job market to honestly earn money but rather choose to become conservators, therefore will surely spend their afterlife forever regretting what they did to others (their conservatee’s).

Now, the bible says that God is always ready to forgive anyone for everything done (committed) provided that your wrongs are “repaired” before death; my advice is to return my $50K stolen from me ASAP and give me a real and honest assessment very soon (that for me is earlier than yesterday J).

1. http://www.artofliving.org/wisdom/testing-times
2. https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2013/10/01/god-gives-his-hardest-battles-to-his-strongest-soldiers/
3. http://www.viralissues.com/2014/04/god-gives-his-hardest-battles-to-his.html
4. http://www.whatchristianswanttoknow.com/does-god-promise-that-he-will-not-give-us-more-than-we-can-handle/

I MUST DOT THE I’s

As a result of the many questions I’ve been asked by both friends and readers I’m going to try to clarify and reassume the concept of what happens after we die (1) who what the entire world refers to using the word God (2) and what heaven, purgatory and hell really are (3) to make sure that these three matters are clearly distinguished I’m going to use the colors I just used for the numbers in parenthesis, ultimately I’m hoping to give good examples of the importance of our consciousness that really affects out eternal journey in afterlife.

(1)          As we die our normal intelligence and logic increase (some call it universal and Iacopo calls it cumulative) due to the simple fact that since both intelligence and logic reside in the brain that isn’t occupied anymore with the functions that make us living (like the organs functionality – such as  moving eyes - to see something - moving hands, arms, swallowing food and/or drinks with their digestion, breathing , thinking, planning, learning, the beating of the heart)  and on and on and on, the list of what our brain is in charge of doing is so long that science can’t even list it today, in the second millennium.

Anyway, with such “increased” brain capacities we see our entire life like we watch a documentary, in doing so we are fully able to see and recognize any and all times we committed the only sin that counts (see my post about the ten commandments) sadly however we can do nothing to either repair or correct what’s done on earth while living therefore we can only as a soul regret what was and/or wasn’t done while living here on earth towards somebody else.

(2)         I’ve been trying to explain that there exists a fundamental difference between how the word God is commonly used and that of the creator – universal gravity force – (the atheist Richard Hawking recently stated that our universe couldn't be created without gravity), Jesus was our creator as man, and Jesus referred to “himself” as father or Jehovah (see my earlier post on this) plenty miracles that Jesus did can be easily explained (Lazarus, walking on water, Canaan’s wedding, just to name few) and in my opinion the fact that our creator (gravity) made into man (Jesus) it’s enough to read the Genesis in the bible to know that since our creator made us humans in “His own image and likeness” it’s clear that the God we talk about is us (= mankind, eternal with a brain that we in this second millennium have no idea of where our brain comes from, how it’s made and of very many capacities  we have thanks to the fact that our brain is “placed between our ears” )

(3)     Since after death we continue to exist forever (eternal NOW) we make the decision on our own about the way we will forever exist.

(a)    HELL: regretting something either done or not done to please or help others – this punishment is achieved through the projection of what our consciousness thought or experienced while living, here I can’t really make any example because it’s sufficient for you to think at something you never liked or hated doing or caused pain or disgusted you, to have a good idea of what I’m telling you.

For example what always scared me to death is the idea to be drowning; I really hope not to go to hell because I know that if I’ll end up to be in hell I’ll be drowning forever.

(b)    PURGATORY: just like HELL BUT with the difference to have the cognition that eventually HEAVEN is going to be the place where we – as a soul – will ultimately continue our existence, we can see heaven from purgatory and because of this we have more than an incentive to clean our soul with infinite determination.

(C)    HEAVEN: This is where all the positive projections of the consciousness that are based on either someone we loved, something we loved to do or places we loved to go to and to be.

I believe to have given this example in a previous post, my personal heaven will be playing piano with Glenn Gould and scuba dive in magnificent locations that my consciousness will create either from my personal experiences while living or places I dreamt to go to scuba dive that are very clear in my mind through pictures and reports I’ve seen in magazines and memories from good friends who went to those places and told me of their “adventures” when there.

1.  http://www.scientificamerican.com/article/what-happens-to-consciousness-when-we-die/#
2. http://www.near-death.com/science/evidence.html
3. https://newrepublic.com/article/119755/human-consciousness-life-after-death-research
4. https://bible.org/seriespage/8-consciousness-soul-after-death
5. http://www.wired.com/2013/04/consciousness-after-death/
6. https://bioethics.georgetown.edu/2015/07/consciousness-after-clinical-death-the-biggest-ever-scientific-study-published/
7. http://www.herealittletherealittle.net/index.cfm?page_name=the-Dead

LEGAL SEPARATION vs. DIVORCE

You, my readers know too well my indescribable pain for having been forced not only to separate but to legally divorce too, so the other day I was looking at the term divorce in google and I found that my saying that “what God united no man can separate” is definitely recognized in this free(dom of religion) country too.

It turns out that legally the so called divorce is just a “legal separation” that to me it makes much more sense, for the fact that our law doesn’t want to do what only God or the pope can do (marriage annulation) what the law can do in fact is to separate – financially and physically – spouses who no longer have any interest in continuing their loving relationship (if love was ever part of such commitment).

This means that my referring at Michele as (still) my wife is correct because what we did was just a legal separation, in other words nobody asked to God to undo the binding He did in His home in Italy in May 1991.

The fact that Michele is an atheist (Darwinian) who can’t believe that after death our existence continues in another dimension does concern me very much because: for those who don’t believe in afterlife will end up as souls in the infinite and eternal nothingness that I’m still unable to say if as a souls there’s any self-awareness of such condition or it’s just like when you turn off a light, my opinion is that if self-awareness exists, that condition is much worse than going to hell.

Anyway, I’m hoping to have offered here some good “food for thought” and I leave you to the enjoyment of the video and at the exploration” of the links below.

1. http://family.findlaw.com/divorce/legal-separation-vs-divorce.html
2. http://www.answers.com/Q/What_are_the_drawbacks_of_legal_separation_vs_divorce
3. http://www.cadivorce.com/california-divorce-guide/planning-for-a-california-divorce/what-is-divorce-compared-to-legal-separation/
4. http://www.legalresearchlaw.com/Legal-Separation-Vs-Divorce-What-Is-The-Difference-.html 

DAD’S TEACHINGS

My two treasures are entering adulthood without the important (teaching) offered by the presence of their dad (me).

However through the use of email, my blogs and (rarely) the phone, I can still be in contact with them and always try to give some teachings - sometimes in a rebuking manner - about what’s important to know and to do (generally and specifically) in life.

So here is the text of one of my recent email messages to them:

May I know the reason why is it that you act just like your mother, who has been trying not to be in contact with me, (at least by email) for about 8 years? You know very well how much I love you and how much I miss living with you, mainly in order to be able to help you with your studies and teach you ways to approach life.

Do you think (just like your mother does) that my being prisoner of a conservator and of a wheelchair has made me forget all I learned in a life of work at top levels among two continents using about 5 different foreign languages to communicate important matters of business and money? Are you sure that my re-conversion to religion is simply the effect of my injured brain?

I cannot begin to tell you how much the life of us all could immediately change if you too were on my side in my struggle to return to be your dad always at your side as you enter adulthood? What about going to Italy on vacation next August or you having both the car you like and a new dirt bike (it used to be my feverish passion when I was about your age)?

Let me tell you that what I’m saying isn’t my attempt to bribe you into doing something in my interest only, as your dad I'd simply like to live again through you - my only son - some of the big passions I had when I was becoming the very successful man I used to be and don't forget that I was told to be very lucky (someone said that I’m “blessed”J) for having had the experience that very few other men had, so why be ashamed of having a father forced to be sitting on a wheelchair 24/7? Many tell me that it would be a dream to have a dad like me, the pride they would always have and that they could never stop talking about it, all I'm asking instead is for you to communicate with me at least by email and come by my prison whenever you can, especially before the beginning of your “college education project” that you already know how much I support, wherever you’ll decide it to be both here in the USA and (I hope) in Italy, to surely become the top level Lingiardi individual that everyone with this last name has been since centuries. You need to open your eyes to realize how unfair it’s been not to have your true dad living with you like it’s normal and expected for the rest of the world and given that you both not only have my same last name, but very importantly and uniquely made with my genes, I have confidence that in time and with the development of knowledge and self-confidence you’ll demand to be living with your only dad again.

As your dad you can be sure that I’ll be loving you infinitely and watching your back for at least 30 more years.

1. https://knowingthetime.wordpress.com/2010/11/23/the-fathers-love-for-his-children/
2. http://cbmw.org/topics/family/building-a-marriage-culture-fathers-love-your-children/
3. http://www.healinglovenotes.com/a-fathers-love.html
4. http://biblehub.com/1_john/3-1.htm 

HELP YOUR BODY HEAL THE INJURED BRAIN

The only one thing that the jerk off of Oxnard said when I last saw him was that in this day and age we can’t even know how repair a bone when it’s broken, we just cast it – hopefully in its original position – and cross our fingers that the body will fix it by itself.

Aside that this is just one of the very reasons that make me believe in the perispinal Enbrel injections (no miracle, just reduction of the brain inflammation in order to let the brain rewire itself) I’ve recently decided to start to help my injured brain to fix itself by using very natural (herbal) elements that have a proven medical history of accelerating the neurogenesis.

I’m talking about glutathione and turmeric that can be purchased in the health aisle of any

grocery store for little money (less than a 6 pack of Starbucks Frappuccino).

As a matter of fact I’ve just started with my plan of the assumption of these natural herbs and I immediately saw that they do have a side-effect, that’s all about making me very sleepy, no matter the time of the day I take them.

My very easy solution to this has been to try to concentrate their assumption as close to the time of going to bed in the evening and as a result, I’ve been sleeping all night even better than I ever did.

This truly amazes me more than I can say, since I never had in my life any trouble whatsoever with my sleeping, especially recently that I’m given some med that’s supposed to keep me quiet and relaxed, therefore not angry with the entire universe like it recently happened with my decision to release this anger on one of the Villa employees (who’s still having nightmares with me ripping the heart out of the chest).

Anyway, let me put few links about the work that these two elements perform on our body in order to help the injured brain heal all by itself.

GLUTATHIONE

• http://journals.plos.org/plosone/article?id=10.1371/journal.pone.0035264
• http://www.immunehealthscience.com/alpha-lipoic-acid-benefits.html
• http://glutathionepro.com/acetyl-glutathione-r-alpha-lipoic-acid-benefits/
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lipoic_acid

 TURMERIC

• http://www.medicaldaily.com/turmeric-helps-your-brain-heal-itself-spice-your-brain-power-curry-305242
• http://www.greenmedinfo.com/blog/how-whole-turmeric-heals-damaged-brain-1
• http://blog.brainhq.com/2011/01/18/turmeric-for-traumatic-brain-injuries-salk-scientists-say-yes/
• http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2014/10/13/turmeric-curcumin.aspx

THE HOLY SHROUD

I’m pleased to say, that doing some research to build this post of today I was pleased to read (and hear) that Jesus is truly considered our God, not the son, like I’m always hearing it say every time a go to mass in a Catholic church, or when I confess.

What I believe it exceptional is that the shroud truly must be the linen that was covering the body of Jesus Christ after His earthly death.

This because after decades of studies done by the most advanced researchers and scientists, who were using the most reliable, advanced and sophisticated instruments no answer to the question of the method used to make it (picture in negative of the body of a man who had died by crucifixion with the exact same marks narrated in the Passion). I recently saw a documentary about researchers who were trying to make a shroud using a dead pig, because it seems that when pigs are dead have the same characteristics of a dead human body (hahahahahaha) BUT after having worked for several days on this “project” they concluded that it must be impossible for anyone (especially 2,000 years ago) to make a shroud like the one in Turin.

The holy shroud has been commercialized very much too; just make a simple google search to see how many websites sell pictures or even printed linen that show the copy of the body of Jesus in it, I cannot mention what can be found in Youtube that – depending on the subject – truly gives a good picture of our decadence in the second millennium (go on, try it) I wonder what people of the year 3,000 will say when they’ll watch our Youtubes.

Anyway, what you find here is a selection of carefully chosen websites and videos that – believe me – it’s taken me hours to elect the ones worthy to be put here.

1.  https://shroud.com/
2. https://shroudstory.com/category/topic-for-today/
3. http://www.allaboutarchaeology.org/shroud-of-turin.htm
4. http://www.grantjeffrey.com/article/shroud.htm
5. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/03/28/shroud-of-turin-real-jesus_n_2971850.html
6. http://abcnews.go.com/GMA/real-face-jesus-christ/story?id=10235129
7. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shroud_of_Turin

OF OUR FATHER GOD AND HELL

I ask to any of my readers – who are a father with either son or daughter – if he’d ever punish either of his children for as long as possible (as long as he’s alive) in the cruelest manner he can think of, no matter the seriousness of what was done (or no matter the “sin”).

What is it that makes all Catholics believe that when we “misuse the name of the Lord your God” (3^rd comm.) will be condemned to eternal pain provided by horrid demons that use painful tools on us or on our souls?

If my son would ever kill someone else when driving his car, I’d be hugging him very close to me and plan what to do to minimize the fatal mistake (hopefully he hadn’t planned to run somebody over for his own selfish reasons) am I better than God then? And what does the Bible say about forgiveness?

I’m hoping that this example can clarify a little better what I mean by saying that it’s us – by ourselves – who judge our lives by pinpointing our mistakes/sins (when we did hurt someone else) and therefore deciding our punishment, its kind and length (remember that time in afterlife isn’t measured like here on earth, no days and nights, no clocks of any kind etc.….)

I make this example to strengthen my – rather recent – idea that God is the law of universal gravity, about which I posted already plenty websites that confirm that I’m not alone thinking this.

I’m hoping too that this “recent discovery” of the fact that when we die we simply move into a different area of existence (as greatly described by my new idol Morgan Freeman – short video above and very long here below)is going to remove what everyone has since birth (fear of death, as I explained before) and embrace life from a different perspective, much more relaxed because confident that justice will surely come for everyone.

1.  http://religionvirus.blogspot.com/2009/03/religious-people-more-afraid-of-death.html
2. http://www.cracked.com/blog/5-insane-psychics-you-wont-believe-people-pay-money-to-see/
3. http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2329253/My-glimpses-afterlife-mean-I-longer-fear-death.html
4. https://www.quora.com/Do-atheists-fear-the-thought-of-nothingness-after-death
5. https://www.quora.com/Do-people-believe-in-God-only-because-they-fear-that-when-they-die-there-will-be-nothing
6. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Afterlife

HERE IS THE VERY LONG GREAT VIDEO

SAINT GIANFRANCO

This picture was scanned and sent by email to me that shows my dad in 1941, when he was 15 y/o. I put it here to say how much I miss my dad, not just because he always supported me in anything I ever wanted to do but very much too because he gave money to me and Michele every time we needed some monetary help, even when we never asked, I still remember well that every time he came to visit me with my mother. They both had their pockets and suitcases packed full of dollar bills that they wanted us to have but didn’t want to use more “official methods” (through banks) in order to save money and to become too visible.

Every single house I bought here in the USA was partly paid with my dad’s help and every time I felt to have gotten in trouble he was always ready to both listen to me and give me either advice or money, if needed, for example when I was fired by the Italian company I was working at here in the USA he gave me the advice to have that company treat my case like it’s normally done – according to the laws – in Italy.

Since I had no knowledge of such laws I had to find the way to learn them by myself and when I felt competent, I hired an attorney in DE who listened to what I could teach him about those Italian laws and was able to deal directly with the company’s attorney based in Italy to apply those laws that became worth to me of one month’s salary for every year I worked in that company.

My payoff was so large that I was able to give a very large down payment for the lovely house in NH that gave to me, Michele and my two treasures the best experiences that are now our most joyous memories.

Anyway , getting back to my dad, he taught me by example that nothing is impossible if you believe in yourself, your abilities and clarity of mind.

He was at work, far away from where we lived from Monday through Friday, including the nights – he used to say at a high class hotel that had assigned to him a “special bedroom”, in addition - given that he was the European CEO of the American agricultural tractors company Massey Ferguson – he was often away for entire weeks because of visiting the manufacturing facilities in France, Belgium, England and the Netherlands.

His trips to the American headquarters in Toronto were very few and once he took me with him, I’m not even begin to say here what still today makes me laugh to tears, suffice to say that we went to a dinner in a home of one of the managers of one plant we were at that morning and my dad wasn’t too happy with the home-made food.

At the end of the dinner the manager’s wife  presented to the people around the table what looked very much like a chocolate cake, therefore my father asked for a very large portion of that “cake”, given that – this far – he had eaten as little as possible.

What looked like chocolate turned out to be peanut butter and as soon as my dad realized that he didn’t have chocolate in his mouth……no words can describe the desperation in his face as he was trying to spit the huge mouthful of peanut butter cake without being too visible.

Thinking about it as I’m writing it now makes me laugh so hard that it’s difficult to hit the right key on my keyboard, I call this an “historical moment” in my dad’s life.

Anyway since he knew that we all have the soul and told me to be curious to experience the afterlife (few years BEFORE quantum physics started to study it) I’m sure that he’s now in heaven with both of his parents (his father had died when he was 18 y/o) brother, sister and the plenty other relatives who had me meet for the major part.

Few weeks before he died he gave me a very serious talk to let me know that as his son I made me very proud to be my dad and all I could say was that he too made me proud to have him as my dad.

Now I’m thinking that – even if I’ll be around about 30 more years my job to have my son become proud of me as his dad isn’t going to be easy at all, but now that I’ve learned to be patient, I’m simply going to wait without pushing on the accelerator as I always did.

1.  https://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/199309/fathers-and-sons
2. http://www.cnbc.com/id/100817186
3. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/ken-solin/father-son-respect_b_1346137.html
4. http://www.shmoop.com/fathers-and-sons/pride-quotes.html

KNOCKED UP

Before delving deeper on afterlife and fear of death (as I just did) with the series I’m able to watch for free (thank you Prime!) of Morgan Freeman and his trip through the wormhole I’m going to share a very fat laugh with my readers, in fact this movie is almost as bad as Superbad is and it literally glues your pupils to the screen it’s playing it on.

Here again I simply put few links with the trailer of the movie, but I’m not going to say much about the story neither I’ll say anything about some of the hilarious gems in it, like all the absolutely nerdy of his friends with a vagina in their brain that obliges all their thoughts, actions and plans think of how to make themselves happy the rare time they’ll get to see one, again you must get to watch it yourself in very good company and I suggest to have Tequila by the gallons to watch it to the end without puking your guts over your carpet and friends, because I had to tense my very strong abdominal muscles to avoid puking all I had in my stomach, which considered in itself was a strong and hard work out like I used to do when walking to the gym.

1.  http://www.fandango.com/mike-and-dave-need-wedding-dates_188459/movieoverview
2. http://www.movies.com/movie-reviews/knocked-up-review/m5616
3. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0478311/reviews
4. http://www.metacritic.com/movie/knocked-up
5. https://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/knocked_up/
6. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Knocked_Up

FEAR OF DEATH

If you just make a quick and simple Google search about a common outcome of a N.D.E. like I had, what you can see is the huge number of sites (very few below) that state 2 things:

  1.     The experience to be dead is so beautiful that the natural fear of death totally disappears

  2.    The few that come back to life do so because they must have very strong reasons to do so. In my case I actually have two distinct very strong reasons (see picture) – even if Jesus told me that to go back to the world of the living would surely be painful, however given that “love is the highest vibratory rate which we are aware of”, I took the decision to survive, no matter how painful it may turn out to be.

As I said here before I was an agnostic who, returned to be a believer in afterlife simply because I did experience it, the fact that I said to both my dad and my best business friend (when I came out from the coma I was in for two entire months) that I had made an agreement with Jesus Christ to remain alive, no matter that I was told that it would certainly be painful  which both Iacopo (friend AND  atheist philosopher) and Michele (still very beloved former wife AND mother of my two treasures) are correctly convinced that it’s simply the product of my past education as I was growing up (in Italy) can be plainly explained by the scientifically proven (quantum physics) that once dead our existence is nothing else than the “carbon copy” of what’s in our conscience (all wonderful if in heaven and al horrible and painful if in hell), therefore my meeting with Jesus is the simple product/carbon copy/reflection of my Italian education (up to my 30ies).

What the Bible says about mankind having been created to the likeness of our creator, is really true, even atheists simply believe that death is the end of it all and are absolutely convinced that afterlife id just a theory made up by people who fear death as much as they do (few links below in this).

1. http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2329253/My-glimpses-afterlife-mean-I-longer-fear-death.html
2. https://www.quora.com/Do-atheists-fear-the-thought-of-nothingness-after-death
3. https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/hot-thought/201206/should-you-fear-death
4. https://www.quora.com/Do-people-believe-in-God-only-because-they-fear-that-when-they-die-there-will-be-nothing+http://religionvirus.blogspot.com/2009/03/religious-people-more-afraid-of-death.html
5. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Afterlife 

2PAC resurrection

Being Italian - by birth – I never had any feelings of any kind regarding black people, actually I learned about the idea of their “supposed inferiority” only when I moved here in 1996 (just 20 years ago) but this never modified in any way my respect for any colored person, which means that I just treated any colored person just like any other, regardless of the color of the color of the skin, in fact I cannot understand how it can even be possible to categorize people based on the color of their skin, either somebody is nice and well educated (winner) or a real S.O.B. (loser) in fact this movie named Tupac resurrection couldn’t have my eyes get unglued from the screen where I was watching it.

Its beginning (Youtube above) truly caught my interest and attention, because I thought that my interest and knowledge about afterlife was only mine and of the few other quantum physicists who are researching it now, what Tupac says at the very beginning of this movie all about himself and his artistic success immediately took my attention to what this movie is about, or the history of this black man’s who grew up in the worst possible conditions as a black man in the country that still considers black people as inferior to the whites.

I can’t say what Tupac lives through in this movie/documentary; you can either buy it or rent it to know, because this isn’t a movie review like the ones I link below, it’s very simply my sharing my feelings of great respect and admiration for this man who not only predicted in good detail his death few years before he died, but knew already several years ago (the 90ies) what we are starting to study and understand today (again 20 years later).

I “vote” this movie to watch it with a bottle of bourbon and several very good friends and family because it gives very much to learn about our country and our history.

1.  http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0343121/reviews
2. http://www.metacritic.com/movie/tupac-resurrection
3. http://www.movies.com/movie-reviews/tupac-resurrection-review/m8090
4. https://www.showtimes.com/movies/tupac-resurrection-7257/user-reviews/
5. https://www.commonsensemedia.org/movie-reviews/tupac-resurrection
6. http://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/tupac-resurrection-2003
7. https://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/tupac_resurrection/reviews/
8. http://2pac.com/46-2/

MY BOY

Last May I explained the reason I have to call my son a hero, however today I want to add few other reasons that make in my mind the importance of my son, who - beside my infinite love for him - make him a truly unique man in the Lingiardi family.

First of all – and very evidently – he’s the only one who can bring forward into the future our last name, secondly – but not in terms of importance – he’s becoming a man without my presence, his father who can’t live with him to set examples of ways about how to approach, think and manage what happens in life.

Somehow I have the dram- or hope/idea that he’s going to be the reason – maybe indirectly – for my rejoining my family (my own creation) that’s going to allow these plenty years spent in complete solitude become just a bad memory of my past.

What I intend to talk about now is the phase that every young man goes through when growing up, or the fact that both his parents are always wrong no matter the topic and very boring to be around too, which makes any expectation of being understood and cared for by your own son who always seems to be too busy to “waste” one of his “very important” minutes of his life to do something (anything) for either of his parents, no matter how they feel about it.

My expectations to ever hear – and know – how his life will be once in NC at the college of his choice are several feet below the ground, I fear that I’ll be in contact only if and when he’ll need something from me, his only dad (hopefully NOT money).

Since I did – as always – another internet search about boys rising without their father (links below) which – like if there’s any need for additional reasons – gives me even more (if possible) drive to try to return to be the father who lives with his own children in order to give them learn by example what’s important to know to have a successful life as a winner (opposite of loser).

You both know (I told you thousands of times) how much I need to receive your goodnight call every evening at 9pm more or less, but if when I call you myself and you don’t answer you add disappointment to my being offended by your not being true to your promise.

1. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/kyle-mcmahon/growing-up-without-father_b_3134928.html
2. http://oureverydaylife.com/effect-men-grow-up-father-figure-43045.html
3. http://www.bu.edu/today/2007/raising-boys-without-men/
4. http://www.pbs.org/parents/raisingboys/masculinity02.html
5. http://fallenfathers.blogspot.com/2007/03/children-without-fathers-statistics.html
6. http://www.nytimes.com/roomfordebate/2013/06/03/what-are-fathers-for/children-are-better-off-with-a-father-than-without-one
7. http://www.fathersforgood.org/ffg/en/fathers_essential/whats_dad.html

WHAT DOESN’T KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER

I can’t believe how well this old saying fits to me, but after having done a quick search for the word stronger, I realized that I had used several dozens of times already and most of the times with a strong reference to the fact that my practical (if not real) truly has made me and my character/attitude stronger than I ever thought I could become. As usual I put links to supporting websites at the bottom of this, but what I want to say now, is that I know I’ve gotten much stronger than others because – regardless that I’m taking some kind of anti-depressant (How could I be depressed if I wake up every morning pissed off for my situation?) and mood stabilizers (to control my never-ending rage) that make me sleep like a baby 10 hours every night, it’s a combination of the fact that in my dreams I’m always driving in Verona with one classmate of high school AND that during the night whenever ‘m not sleeping very hard (between 4 and 5 in the am) I’m convinced to have sleeping in my room either my sister Anna or my wife Michele (who isn’t in bed with me).

Who wouldn’t wake up already mad after such a night?

I’m sorry for you MD’s, but there exists no med that could take care of my condition that’s made me more of a bull I ever was before, as my two treasures are growing up, at least I can say that both my madness and never-ending pain have a reason and that’s the unique “medication” that can make me feel better (besides strychnine….). I’m convinced that this additional type of strength could be extremely useful if I ever had the opportunity to work again. I mean, it isn’t that I was weak before, I’ve always had a strong mind that helped me overcome all my work related challenges and my personal obstacles, it’s very simply that my complete loneliness (with a monster PC and unequal internet connection speed) has been giving me the opportunity to spend very much time focusing on matters that I never thought might be of any interest for me, such as theology, afterlife and the still totally unknown and very underutilized capacities of our brain (that Obama and I call it the organ that’s located between our ears) I don’t know if any test exists that measures the percentage of capacities used by our brain, but of that 10% that’s well known as the percentage of the use of it in general I bet that if such a test would ever be developed I’d be scoring at least one billionth percent more than that average, this – of course – on top of the one billionth percent more I was already born with and I’m very confident that everyone who has ever met or worked with me would agree that I must “have an extra gear”- as I often heard my business partners say when talking about me.

What kills me however is that my (ex)-wife believes to be able to keep on living her life normally (normal what????) like I never even existed and much less like I hadn’t died already once but that my love for our two treasures made me survive and that my forced loneliness have made me stronger than I ever was.

Maybe it’s this awareness of my change that scares her so much that she tries to keep living on her own pretending that I cannot be her loving protector and caregiver I was for about 15 year, all I can do is to hope that one day she’ll realize that living with two carbon copies of me she’ll never find someone so rich and dumb who’ll ask to marry her to be in charge of the “full package” that she is, but – as my dad used to always say – we’ll see.

1.  http://www.huffingtonpost.com/kerry-tepedino/what-doesnt-kill-you-make_1_b_5482323.html
2. http://www.thebestbrainpossible.com/what-doesnt-kill-you-makes-you-stronger/
3. http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-2075908/So-Nietzsche-WAS-right-What-doesnt-kill-makes-stronger-scientists-find.html
4. http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/science/8964844/Nietzsche-was-right-adversity-makes-you-stronger.html
   
5. https://www.quotev.com/story/7407244/What-Doesnt-Kill-You-Makes-You-Stronger/4
6. http://bigthink.com/the-proverbial-skeptic/what-doesnt-kill-you-makes-you-stronger-really
7. http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/f/friedrichn101616.html
8. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Twilight_of_the_Idols