My two
treasures are entering adulthood without the important (teaching) offered by the presence of their
dad (me).
However
through the use of email, my blogs and (rarely) the phone, I can still be in contact with them and always try to give some
teachings - sometimes in a rebuking manner - about what’s important to know and
to do (generally
and specifically)
in life.
So here is
the text of one of my recent email messages to them:
May I know
the reason why is it that you act just like your mother, who has been trying
not to be in contact with me, (at least by email) for about 8 years? You know very well how much I love you and
how much I miss living with you, mainly in order to be able to help you with
your studies and teach you ways to approach life.
Do you
think (just
like your mother does)
that my being prisoner of a conservator and of a wheelchair has made me forget
all I learned in a life of work at top levels among two continents using about
5 different foreign languages to communicate important matters of business and
money? Are you sure that my re-conversion to religion is simply the effect of
my injured brain?
I cannot
begin to tell you how much the life of us all could immediately change if you
too were on my side in my struggle to return to be your dad always at your side
as you enter adulthood? What about going to Italy on vacation next August or
you having both the car you like and a new dirt bike (it used to be my feverish
passion when I was about your age)?
Let me tell
you that what I’m saying isn’t my attempt to bribe you into doing something in
my interest only, as your dad I'd simply like to live again through you - my
only son - some of the big passions I had when I was becoming the very
successful man I used to be and don't forget that I was told to be very lucky
(someone said that I’m “blessed”J) for having had the experience that
very few other men had, so why be ashamed of having a father forced to be
sitting on a wheelchair 24/7? Many tell me that it would be a dream to have a
dad like me, the pride they would always have and that they could never stop
talking about it, all I'm asking instead is for you to communicate with me at
least by email and come by my prison whenever you can, especially before the
beginning of your “college education project”
that you already know how much I support, wherever you’ll decide it to be both
here in the USA and (I hope) in
Italy, to surely become the top level Lingiardi individual that everyone with
this last name has been since centuries. You need to open your eyes to realize
how unfair it’s been not to have your true dad living with you like it’s normal
and expected for the rest of the world and given that you both not only have my
same last name, but very importantly and uniquely made with my genes, I have
confidence that in time and with the development of knowledge and
self-confidence you’ll demand to be living with your only dad again.
As your dad
you can be sure that I’ll be loving you infinitely and watching your back for at
least 30 more years.
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