God made me a warrior, I found my beautiful soul mate, we were gifted with my two treasures in approval, while in a coma due to TBI for 2 long months, I met with Jesus and all my Catholic upbringing came back, I now have a full conservator, but my family will forever be part of me. NEVER FORGET THAT ALL I SAY HERE IS THE PRODUCT OF MY INJURED BRAIN I WAS ASSESSED SEVERAL TIMES TO BE UNABLE TO MANAGE MY MONEY.
Earlier I wrote
something that an actor in the movie that I had mentioned "the Army turns you on as a killer, how can you be turned
off as you’re back here? “however, to be precise this is something you
can hear very clearly in this movie, the kill team that-s about our youth
trying to find something to do to give a reason for spending a very long time
in a land that hasn’t seen a day without violence, combat or aggression.
I truly intend to
watch again this movie with my Brent; I had imagined that he still had
attraction to join the Army, but few days ago we had a serious talk about this
and now I’m very relieved to know that this was just a fad he used to have when
much younger that’s now forever gone, no matter the pay.
What I put in this
post - aside from the Youtube trailer of
the movie – are few links of articles written about this real tragedy of our
youth finding the reason to be there, that’s about criminal. What I like the
most is that the viewers are told that this is a true story and at the end of
the movie (also
called documentary) the penalties(time in jail) for each of the soldiers show on the screen
like it's normal, for criminals.
My only comment is
simply that’s wrong to train young people to kill everyone they see in
combat zone and then expect for them to return to the civilization of our
country like nothing ever happened.
One of the links I
put below hopefully plays the entire movie that I strongly recommend to watch
with good people who can make some constructive comments about it.
Watching this movie (free
for me as an Amazon Prime member) made me think to these 2 things:
1.My sista, who just like M. and her own mother
Donna don’t reply to my emails, ever.
2.PTSD might be what I 've been suffering of,
therefore all the MD I ever saw never gave any treatment indicated to help in
this condition (much
like the confusion between TBI and stroke)
This is just one of the several movies on the war we’ve been
fighting in Afghanistan, Iraq, etc.… one of the most impressive phrases that
can be clearly heard is "the Army turns you on
as a killer, how can you be turned off as you’re
back here ?" Then there’s much talk
about PTSD and the number of soldiers who – besides being mis –diagnosed –
commit suicide shortly after having returned from the combat zone. The title of
this post is really appropriate in this time, I remember reading that the
number of suicides is close to having a real war in our country and this truly
worries me because of the passion that my son Brent (true Lingiardi) has for weapons and action/adventure activities.
There truly is no way to possibly pay back for the loss of a
son for a war initiated by the comedy of the 9/11 attack done to keep the price
of the gas affordable and our economy in good shape, that soon after collapsed
to a level so low that we still hurt more than a decade after it. I’ve been
trying to have my Brent watch some of these movies with me, but since we never
seem to have enough time, we just began to watch few of them while my real goal
is to have him watch the most impressing of them all or, “the kill team " that, for the fact that it’s
true shakes the viewer very deeply and makes you question what the future of
our country is going to be after having raped the minds of our youth. I know
that I sound repetitive, but given my newly acquired (and unwanted) knowledge of afterlife, I cannot begin to imagine the
one or former president Bush, who not only will be regretting in eternity what
he did to make that day happen, but very much also for the hatred he'll be
subject to the hatred from both the victims' souls and from those still alive (unlimited brain
powers).
I also must pity the plenty who’ve been taking advantage of
my physically (only)
disabled condition for the simple reason that I know where their souls will be
spending eternity (even if I don’t know
HOW) take it easy, you all still have time to fix your wrongs to avoid
eternal self –punishment.
" and God sais, let us make man in our image, after our
likeness; and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea and over the foul
of the air and over the cattle and over all the earth and over creeping thing
that keepeth over all the earth "
Given that this is written in BOTH the King
James Bible and in the Dead Sea scrolls written about 200 years
before the birth of Jesus Christ, therefore
absolutely reliable. I said here too that, at least since the beginning of the
XIX century, human mind has been deafened by what I called noise that’s nothing
more than the bombardment of news, music, videos and our own appearance and so
on.
This - of course- couldn’t possibly be of any concern
whatsoever for people living many millennia ago, therefore never polluted by
anything else than bare survival (i.e. predators, food, water and fire for heat).
I found many
websites that say that us humans are destined to become gods, concept that ties
really well to my idea that our brain is truly a God-given gift that not even
now (beginning
of the second millennium) is known (physically at least) from which
the B.R.A.I.N. mapping project and way less
its functioning (logic, functioning and dreaming ).
This is also
related to the fact that the posts that I labeled under the philosophy label
could have been labeled with the religion label; I guess I was influenced by R.
Hawking who contends that philosophy - like
religion – don’t exist anymore because replaced by science and scientific
research.
\anyway, besides
the very appropriate Youtube video, I post below the links in support of humans
becoming like God in the future (don’t know how distant).
We'll be walking on water, heal the diseased
and even resurrect the dead, go to my posts that talk about Jesus to have a
better idea of we'll be able to do once the full control of our brain will
become reality.
Life has a
beginning (birth) and an end (death) my dad always told me and this is exactly
what he said in May of last year (few months before his death), he said too
that he knows for personal experience that we all have the soul, for having
seen it leaving the body at time of death in plenty people (i.e. relatives,
friends and partisans during the WWII war), he said too that he wasn’t scared
to die, he was more curious to know where his soul might go or what could
happen to it once it leaves the body.
The biggest fear
of my dad, however had always been to wake up in the coffin after being buried
underground, which made no sense at all and went in complete opposition to his
confident knowledge that we all have the soul, he was actually pretty glad when
the Vatican removed the opposition to incineration, that's exactly what
happened to his body after he "passed over", in fact I have pictures
of my mother in the cemetery holding the wooden box containing the ashes of my
dad.
As much as he used
to say that death is an integral part of life just like birth is, therefore never
to fear it, he also said that while we forget the pains of being born,
unfortunately it-s impossible to forget the pains of death, we are too conscious
of our feelings not to be afraid of death.
Therefore, we can
say that death hurts only the people who remain alive, mostly for the sense of
loss of the departed, that's exactly what happened to me with the HUGE difference that I came back to life due to my
immense (stronger than death) love
for my two treasures.
In fact, not only
I lost my family (or my creation) but
in addition (like it wasn’t enough) my
job, my home and pretty much everything else I ever cared for in my entire life
before the accident(practical death).
As I came out of
the 2 months long coma I’m told to have said that I was still alive as the
result of an agreement I had made with Jesus, who had warned me that my living again
would have been painful, I laugh now when I think of what I had thought at that
time, or that I could just take some aspirin or Tylenol and any pain would go
away……..Yeah, but what can take away the pain for all my losses? I can only
think of strychnine, but that has permanent consequences (death) that have too many side
effects J
I conclude just
reminding my readers that love is only human and stronger than death itself, it
affects our souls too - even after death – and souls reunite because of it. As for me, like many others who had a N.D.E. I'm fully unafraid to die (I hope that my readers know the reason why I'm still living) and since I'm sure that afterlife is our mental projection of what it could be PLUS our own experiences had while living, I do know that Michele and I will be forever in our own heaven (much more about this later).
A stroke is NOT a form of traumatic brain
injury (TBI).
The word
"traumatic" in the definition of TBI relates to the cause of the
brain injury, not the fact that people feel traumatized from their brain
injury. And of course, people with strokes or brain illnesses feel just as
traumatized as people with TBI. But TBI's result from external forces such as
being hit by a car or bullet or falling off of a ladder or roof top.
Strokes, tumors,
and brain illnesses are not TBI's. The term "TBI survivor" has become
so generalized, so popularized by the TBI community, that many people with a
stroke or tumor think they are also TBI survivors. Not so. Instead, one is a
stroke survivor, or a tumor survivor, or an anoxic brain injury survivor, or a meningitis
survivor. Individuals with these other forms of acquired brain injury are not
TBI survivors. However, they may claim to being ABI survivors. Everyone with an
acquired brain injury (and that would include illness, stroke, toxin, trauma,
or tumor may lay claim to being an ABI survivor.
Since I was riding
my bicycle when I hit my head (or face) against the divider between the
windshield and the front door of the car that drove against me, I’ve been
classified since the beginning as a victim of TBI, however in my humble opinion
all of my symptoms fall with much more precision if someone looks at my brain
injury like it was due to a stroke.
I mean, if
somebody breaks the femur no question is ever asked about the way the femur
broke, it-s casted and everyone waits for the body to make the repair by
itself, same if a brain gets injured, what's the difference if it's injured
from any illness, a tumor or a fall from the roof or an accident like mine? The
brain is injured, that’s all that counts, NOT the way it was injured.
It's primarily
based on this concept that I started to do some internet research on this and Oh, my!..... the huge amount of expertise that neurology has accumulated in the
past decades, this is yet another reason for my madness to be impossible to
dissipate in any way whatsoever, I simply put here the very few websites dedicated
to this matter, while I hope that my current neurologist will look at my blog,
otherwise next time I’ll see her I'll have something new (to her) to discuss.
Here-s another of
my movie reviews that - given my total absence of anything to do all day long– makes me want to say this about the
movie that most has fascinated me and that goes in the face of the woman I’m
still married to.
2001: A
Space Odyssey is one my favorite sci-fi
of all time, I’ve committed far too many hours of my life watching it and I’m
now here to share my thoughts on what the ending means. 2001 has been puzzling
viewers since the day it came out and probably will forever continue to puzzle
people until humans are so advanced that we’ll become “Starchildren” like Dave
himself (if that’s possible anyway).
There are many
questions surrounding 2001 that have to be answered to figure out the ending
like, what is the monolith? Why did it appear in every step of human evolution?
What in the world even happened in the last 30 minutes of the film? Luckily for
you, I’m here to – hopefully – answer all of those questions and more with this
article.
I’ll start with
the monolith. With all of the evidence the film gives to us it, suggests that
the monolith is some sort of tool that a highly advanced alien civilization has
sent to Earth to progress the evolution of humans. Stanley Kubrick uses the
song ‘Requiem’ by Gregory Ligeti to not only create a chilling mood but also
give the monolith a voice. The sounds of ‘Requiem’ can be heard in five parts
of the film: the black screen before the movie starts, the Dawn of Man
sequence, the sequence with the astronauts on the moon, the ending of the
mission to Jupiter and the ending of the film itself when Dave is on the bed
with the monolith towering over him.
This music is the
monolith’s voice speaking to whoever it is facing. By having ‘Requiem’ play
over the black screen at the beginning of the film Kubrick is actually showing
us the first monolith even though it is too close for you to actually see the
shape. Think about it. Doesn’t the black screen go on for a little too long?
That was done intentionally by Kubrick. This is the monolith speaking to the
audience themselves which suggest that we’re about to witness a film so grand
and so magnificent that it will open up our eyes to things we’ve never even
thought possible. I know that all seems fairly pretentious and it would be, if
it wasn’t true but such is the genius of Stanley Kubrick.
All right, now
that I’ve explained the monolith and what its purpose serves I can explain the
ending in detail. 2001 is the story of human evolution itself from the
beginning (or monkeys, as per MY M.)
to the end and the ending of the film is Kubrick’s version of what the next
step of human evolution looks like (too bad he didn’t live to see the actual
2001). The part of the movie that people start to get confused at, is the “Stargate” sequence right after Dave
defeats HAL and learns of the reason he’s been sent to Jupiter. This is where
the monolith appears to him and the “Stargate” sequence begins.
What is actually
happening in this scene is Dave is being transported to what is basically a zoo
for all the different forms of life that the monolith has come in contact with
and is advancing (more on this in a minute). As Dave is being transported light
years into the universe the monolith shows to him things that he’s never even
had the ability to see for himself. He sees other planets and cosmic phenomena
that mankind had no idea even existed. There’s even one scene during the
“Stargate” sequence which appears like it could even be the monolith showing to
Dave the big bang.
The whole sequence
is also contrasted by Dave’s eye as it continues to blink and change colors
emphasizing this new wave of knowledge(Ui).
Once Dave has been
through the “Stargate” and has made his way into the alien’s zoo like
containment suite for him, he begins to age. The reason I call where he is, a
zoo is because there are subtle hints that suggest this, like the noises in the
background from strange creatures and his location in general. The room Dave is
in, looks like a mix of Victorian
furniture but with a very sterile modern look to it as well. This is because
the aliens have designed the room to look familiar to Dave so he feels as
comfortable as possible. This is the same thing we do with the animals in zoos
all around the world.
It was a genius
decision on Kubrick’s part to never actually show the aliens form because, for
all we know, they are so advanced that they probably don’t have any resemblance
to humans at all. By not showing the aliens Kubrick allows the monolith to be
our gateway to them when it appears to Dave on his death bed in his suite. The
whole time Dave has been here he’s been aging and learning.
Right before he
dies he points to the monolith is the same fashion that Adam is pointing to God
in da Vinci’s The Creation of Adam Sistine Chapel painting. This is done on
purpose to make the connection that, in the world of 2001, there is no God and
the aliens are the highest form of being (to Iacopo's and to my wife's satisfaction).
This is where most
viewers, myself included, really get lost in the film on the first viewing.
After Dave points to the monolith he is transformed into the “Starchild” which
is a glowing fetus like being but also has the appearance of a man in the face.
After this scene Dave is sent back to Earth by the monolith and the film ends as
Dave, -now the “Starchild" - looks on at our planet.
The reason the
“Starchild” was sent back to Earth is because the monolith has completed its
duty of advancing human life to its evolutionary limits so it sent the
“Starchild” back to continue its work. In the last 30 minutes of the film Dave
is given all the knowledge of the universe (cumulative) and has been transformed into an
immortal, all knowing being. Dave is now the film’s version of God sent back to
advance our race further than we ever could have by ourselves.
My great
disappointment for the woman I’ll be forever loving, was to learn that it was
her who asked to the guy in Oxnard that it was best for herself and my
treasures if I wasn’t able the rejoin my family.
And here I must
specify few consequences of this, as the TBI survivor who had a NDE experience,
and I’m still somehow in contact with the afterlife.
I begin by saying
that the psychologist in Oxnard shall know already – because intelligent and
doctor in psychology – that his afterlife eternity will be spent regretting
what he did to me, with in addition the painful influence of both souls of wife
and daughter, who’ll be very upset to learn that he did what a beautiful woman
had requested him to do.
In addition this
man has added to his sins the fact that a certain conservator was chosen to
”save” my money rather than wasting it away doing an experimental therapy that no MD dares to even try, given the legal
and financial bad consequences related to its unsanctioned use.
My question to all
my readers is: how can paying a conservator $50K (only this far) vs. wasting $50K at most
spent doing this “experimental therapy”
make it protective of my wealth and take care of my family? Very sadly I must say that few years ago
I became a member of the NASGA organization and I corresponded by email with
its president, I even made few minuscule donations because my hope that
something might change about these conservatorship laws.
However while I
check their blog daily, I’ve yet to see a minuscule step in the direction of a
change in those horrible and very unfair laws.
My connection with
the afterlife has recently informed me that the psychologist in Oxnard recently
realized to have been very unfair in my regards, but since to ask to the
court to reconsider my condemnation to be under conservatorship could mean a
loss of influence, he decided not to even mention this, because of his fear to
lose stature in his field.
All I can say is
that since love is the most powerful feeling in this entire universe and this
is what I’m planning to use to have the idling soul of the only woman I love,
who cannot believe that the human existence continues also after death, be
forever with me in heaven.
P.S. I know I’ll
be in heaven for the simple explanation I gave about the gravity law with the
application of positive and negative weights in respect of what's done while
living.
Most likely I was
simply born without the capacity to be in fear, in fact what both my parents
often said that I was always fearless, I'm convinced that just this could be
the reason for me to be back with my family, nothing, nor nobody can ever scare
me and I guess that this is the main reason why I had a real great career
working in companies that always painfully felt the void of my change.
This / of course this isn’t completely true, my fears in fact are very deep and regard my family. i.e.
my son Brent getting injured while bouldering or my daughter (princess) being molested due to
her "above average beauty".
Therefore we can
say that I have no fear whatsoever for anything (or anyone) that could possibly have me feel any pain of any kind, I’ve
been so since I was a teenager and plenty of my Italian friends still today (40 years later) have jokes about both
things I did or my approach to what seemed risky to all of them.
Given that my (still) adored wife Michele often tells me to
be afraid, I truly don’t understand her reason to be so, while at the same
time I don’t get the reason why she would rather live without me, the fearless husband who
took her around the world and always kept her very protected, comfortable and
safe.
As you can see
from some of the websites I put below the links to, fearlessness equals
freedom, that's what I always wanted to provide to my family and that I’m
confident to have passed on to both of my treasures, in fact only a fearless
man can get involved with bouldering like my Brent has been doing often already
for several months, same for my princess who always tells with much excitement
to me what she’s done every day, that seem to me pretty daring
activities, neither of them is afraid of dogs in any size, or breed, when in NH
we used to have a high grade Doberman and a German shepherd trained for personal protection.
These are the
simple reasons that - while I fear for something unexpected to happen to them –
I never worry for them to feel unprepared for anything about to happen.
On Wednesday I’m going to see my psychologist, very near me
at the Villa and – aside from the fact that he’s become like a good friend to
me – I have no idea about the reason why I should spend any money to make
friends.
In fact – aside from the fact that both my experience in
life, intelligence with culture are way superior than his – the only way I can
recover all my anger and frustrations – might be if the mother of my 2
treasures could change her mind about me living away from my family.
Well every time I meet my friend psychologist we talk about
movies that either we’ve watched or that they are good enough to watch,
in fact last Wednesday I mentioned the Zeitgeist movie trilogy that I’m going
to loan to him this coming Wednesday, I couldn’t find its chapter one that’s
all about the fraud of Jesus, I’m hoping that by watching the (long) movie you
too will realize very soon that while there truly might have existed other
people who were born from a virgin, died and resurrected 3 days later, no
mention is made of the Holy Shroud, that in my (injured)
mind represents the proof of the supernatural man named Jesus Christ.
Aside from all of this, I’d like to ask if anyone can give
any example of a man who not only died and resurrected 3 days later (just like
plenty others....according to Zeigeist) who had such a great followership that created the Catholic
religion with the Vatican monarchy that have been followed by billions of
people over the centuries.
I spoke already little about the bible and of the fact that
it’s been found written on scrolls centuries before monks began to copy it on
books making the bible we can read today (if we want).
If the viewer keeps watching it, the movie talks about the
9/11 and the financial crisis we’ve been suffering for (too) many years and in
doing it some valid explanations are offered, that while they may be coming “out
of the blue” do offer an alternative way to look at very contemporary issues
that remain fully unresolved in our minds, so if you still haven’t watched it,
I suggest to watch at least the first one (the
movie) and if interested go for the other 2 (Addendum, Moving
forward).
Besides posting here the trailer and very few links, I put
also the link to the Youtube full first movie.
The 2 very strong atheists I know, one being Iacopo and the
other being the mother of my treasures (strong Darwinist).
Even if today is hopefully the very last day that I must use
my old laptop, while my greatest desktop is being repaired, I feel obliged to
say that what I had posted few days ago that it’s my natural God-given
intelligence that makes me say here all
I always publish, what I say does NOT come from God, however in thinking about
this I must admit that it must surely come from God or the Universal
intelligence that we receive at death that gives to me the ideas that I
transform into the written posts published here. In fact:
An
angel morphed as Easy Lift driver – whom I never met before – told me that
is going to be my daughter (princess) who’ll make me
join my family (my creation) soon, again I never had met this man before,
how could he possibly know that I do have a daughter?
Few
Sundays ago I went to Mass here at the Villa in the Villa theater, the
Mass was all sung by 2 priests who had an very old woman playing
the piano “at sight” (looking for the first time at the sheet music about
to play) then the 2 priests left without giving communion to anyone while
saying that Jesus too used to have very much fun with people when on
earth, I had 2 minutes with what I
now know must have been 2 angels, who heard me telling them my sad story
of total loss of everything I had and both loved and cared for, when I was
done they imposed their hands on my head and shoulder saying that they
were sharing my pain with me and that they could understand AND FEEL IT.
Well, I later mentioned of this mass
(attended by plenty people) and
every person I was mentioning it to, looked at me like I had bad
Alzheimer, not even none of the friendly front desk ladies knew what I was
talking about, forget about the woman who was at the piano, no memory
whatsoever of ever having been in the theater.
What I post here are few funny Youtubes with a “scientific”
explanation of God’s existence with few of my usual links to other websites on
what I’m saying, of course I could write a post on the complete opposite of
God’s existence, given that you can find in the internet everything and its
opposite, but I chose to go for what I know from personal experience.
OK, here’s a movie that no way anyone can possibly
predict what’s going to see (and listen
to) in other words this is a very good example of a movie done with very
good actors that, no matter how much you can be disgusted and horrified by it ,
you just cannot stop watching it, you are truly compelled to see how it may
conclude, I guess just to see how deep the makers of this movie can go in terms
of monstrosity of scenes and idiocy of the story being told, one of the scenes
that I can still have in front of my eyes (in
front of my injured brain) is when one of the main characters is having a
full body massage and gets sexually excited by being touched by the masseuse,
oh my! He has an erection that to say it’s impossible is to fully minimize what
the spectator if forced to see, then this character offers %500 in cash to the
masseuse, who’s horrified but accepts.
Truly an R rated movie that my children will NEVER watch.
Anyway you cannot stop to watch it simply because all you
can do is to wonder how it’s going to end plus what might be the message that
this movie attempts to send, or portray.
This is one case when rather than rate it in beers and to
watch with friends, I say NOT to ever watch it because I rate it a glass of
liquid excrement () and to watch it absolutely and totally alone (like I’ve been for about 10 years).
I can only say that what attracted me to this horrific movie
is the Julia Roberts is in it, and someone shall explain to me why she ever
decided to be in such movie.
Anyway, I put here few reviews from other sites and how this
movie was trailered, you decide:
I hope that my readers do know that I’m a Catholic since
birth by default for having been born
in Italy, the country that hosts in itself the country of the Vatican, but very
much too for having been blessed (as
per Fr Betto) for having met and made an agreement with my only true boss, or
with Jesus Christ.
Nevertheless since my adored wife and mother of my two
treasures (reason to still be alive –
even if in pain) is an atheist fully evolutionist, or convinced that we are
the result of the evolution from African monkeys, I’ve been trying to look at
our wedding union with her eyes, or those of a pure atheist.
As always I post below few links to websites that are about
both interpretations of marriage between adults, both religious and legal.
Of course I won’t mention her semi-criminal attempts or
replacing me with a “father figure”, all I can say is that the unfortunate ones
who tried to take my place are going to have their eternity to regret their
doing while living and here I must say that my friend the atheist Iacopo is
totally right, since he says that IF we could know the consequences in our
future lives of our wrongs in our current ones, we would immediately change
behavior and course of action.
What this research has taught to me is simply that it’s
impossible that Michele didn’t consider the presence of both of her brothers
and much loved father when swearing in a church in Italy to always be with me at
my side “for better or for worse”.
Anyone who knows me would be hugely confident in saying that
if it was Michele who was the injured party there would truly be NOTHING that I
wouldn’t have tried already and given my immense love for her, I wouldn’t have
even thought to replace with another “mother figure”.
What’s true is that my instinct to work to provide comfort
and possibilities to my family (my
creation) couldn’t possibly disappear, therefore – besides spending all of
my non-working time searching for ways to make Michele much better – I’d
probably find either a relative or close friend to be willing and able to take
care of both of my treasures, who’d be travelling around the world with me in
all of my business trips, that would become a very important part of their
education as they enter adulthood.
What I’m trying to say in this post is that no matter the
situation, what’s important is to hold tight to the wedding vows because they
do have legal value on top of the religious one and since they are given in the
presence of the dearest relatives and friends nobody shall ever think that they
can be broken, simply because one of the spouses is in the “for worse”
situation, the swearing is done not only in the presence of God, but of friends
and family too that give the legal value to it. What however is very true is that I'm living now without the best friend I ever had, in fact not only I love Michele more than words can say, but I do miss very much our friendship that only got stronger by living together for about 15 adventurous years,
I put here yet another of my
brain injured movie review not only because its director is nonetheless Stanley
Kubrick but also because of the chosen main actors – Tom Cruise and “super-hot
Nicole Kidman – this is anyway yet another movie that describes (with
horrifying situations) the decadence of our American society in these days, even
if the movie looks like it takes place several decades ago (but this could be because of my TBI).This
is definitively a movie that shall be rated, even if all of its sexual
innuendos are very well masked and practically there’s very little feminine
nudity.
Even if Kubrick doesn’t use this
attractive tool to bring in to watch this movie by men, it’s however a movie
that I’m not going to offer to my children (or
treasures) to watch, too much and too clear is its innuendos in this movie
for children as young as mine to see.
I’m surely not saying that this
movie targets men with this particular (sick!)
interest, I’m simply saying that only if you are an adult, you can understand
what this movie is saying, or that – as it seems to be usual these days – our society
is desperately looking for something (anything!)
that could replace the meaning of our lives – from capitalism (now collapsed on itself) to something
else (in this movie SEX) I’ve had to
think deeply about my rating for this movie, it’s certainly a work of art
however, given the topic and its development, I think that it can be watched
alone - not with beer drinking friends – that way its deep meaning can be fully
understood, ultimately it’s a work of art from Kubrick.
I hope that I don’t have to say
again that this is a movie review done by a brain injured man who spends his
days (since 10 years ONLY) alone in
front of a PC, doing nothing else but waiting for my treasures to both call or
email me.
Only God can have put together our body, with all of its
organs, if you think that today, in the second millennium we still don’t know
how to heal a simple cut in the skin – we
can just put a Band-Aid and hope that our body will heal the cut and unite the
skin in one single surface – the ability for the brain to repair the injury
it’s received is a real miracle – especially given that we don’t even know how
it’s made (Obama’sBRAIN mapping project) and WAY much less
how it works (maybe this explains the
reason why I call neurologists either masochists or just losers). This is
actually the unique reason that can explain the reason of my “love” with the
perispinal Enbrel therapy, in fact once the anti-inflammatory Enbrel reaches
the brain (in a manner covered by patent)
by eliminating the injured brain inflammation, the brain itself return to have
its natural plasticity and can rewire itself around the dead neurons.
I’ve been posting here for months and very recently explained
in detail what type of afterlife E.T. is looking at in not too long for
having preferred making money rather than receive a Nobel for what he’s been doing for
plenty years without the FDA ever saying a word.
Given that this blog is primarily about my impossibility to
receive this treatment, I leave it to all the ones (very many) who made it impossible for me to be treated in this way,
to figure out how their eternal afterlife will be spent and never forget that it’s
sufficient my hatred to be forever condemned (you already know damn well who you are!).
I warn my readers that this is going to take both time and
thinking to go through it all to the end, so don’t even start reading if you
have not these 2 pre-requites.
First I know why the mother
of both my treasures keeps telling me that she’s scared of me, it’s now very
clear in my mind that it’s about impossible to accept me as I’ve become (from a real stud to a disabled freak) then
– absolutely without any will of any kind from my curiosity (given by my superior intelligence) I now
know very well (among very few others)
what happens after we die, or that our soul (everybody has it) acquires what’s today called Universal
intelligence (cumulative as per Iacopo)
that I believe it to be our intellect without any of the “noise” that surrounds
each of us while we are living. Once our mind is free to have a better
understanding of everything, the first thoughts go to review how we lived our
life and in doing so we are (newly) able
to pinpoint whatever and whenever we did give some hurt of any kind to someone
else and here comes the
Second this precise awareness
of when we did hurt somebody by doing or NOT doing something for someone
else is exactly what is going to determine (on our
own) how we’ll spend our afterlife (in
regret or living again whatever bad we did to somebody else) what my injured
brain finds very interesting is that what the divine poet Dante Alighieri
described (centuries ago) in his
comedy, or that when we forever (in
eternity) regret something, we are in hell, if our own soul determines that
our bad done when living has some balance with the good, purgatory is how we’ll
exist for a portion (self-determined) of eternity , then – of course – IF we’ll
deserve heaven, it’ll simply be the mental projection of whatever beautiful we
lived and experienced when living.
Additionally I may have said
already before that our God creator, is represented and real through the universal
force of gravity, therefore by acquiring the Ui we – ourselves – become just like
Him (“God made man in his own image and
likeness”), it becomes easy to “judge” the way we conducted our lives (especially when we convince ourselves to
have lived in perfect harmony with both society and nature).
What I think it to be very interesting is that – even if in
heaven – God is never to be seen, our souls simply know that he’s watching us
with the same love of a father for his children (i.e. I’d be ready to give my life for both of my children without any
hesitation)
Important to know is that our
souls are truly eternal, including the stillborn or aborted children, what
they have in their minds instead of real life experiences is the genetic
imprinting given by their parents (to be)
and whoever had this experience will meet the soul of the unborn child once they
die.
Of course, given that afterlife is our mental projection,
those who believe that death is the end of it all, it’s exactly what their should
will experience, but I’m truly not qualified to say anything about this because
this subject was never mentioned or even approached.
I actually know of few people whose belief is truly this, all
I can say for the ones whom I love is that I’ll be able to save them from their
eternal nothingness or that such condition doesn’t involve awareness of it,
because it’s a true hell (believe me, I’ve
been in such hell for about 10 years).
All I want everyone to know is that I NEVER even dreamed to
ever receive this knowledge, that’s made the entire humanity curious to know;
therefore I guess that I should give reason to Fr. Betto in Ventura, who always
told me that I’m blessed for having been chosen to be told of something that’s
been a big ? since the beginning of time. More to come in reference to specific individuals.
The size and depth of the injury to the brains of whoever
wrote and worked on this movie Borat can’t even begin to compare to mine and
this is one of the funniest movies I reviewed here earlier. Aside from the fact
that this movie is yet another panoramic view of our sick living, there’s this
man named Borat who comes here on a reporting mission to understand and import
what makes this country so great, attractive and famous. The perils that this
Borat makes the viewer go through are
something so indescribable that the only suggestion I can give is to
watch it yourselves, BUT don’t forget to watch it while sitting on the biggest
and softest couch you own and buckle up, it can help you too to be wearing a
cotton absorbing sweater, or polo, because you’ll cry your eyes dry for the
hard laughing, one of the parts that had me be careful not to fall on the floor
is when Borat is taking a lesson about the correct manners to have in formal
dinners with high level Americans, his comments about the women at the table and his trip to the restroom are worth
to make history in the cinema field, I won’t say what he does not to ruin your
vision of this crazy movie, but I can’t avoid to mention that in his country
(Kazakhstan) women have a much smaller brain than men and they are all
prostitutes – Borat’s sister is the 4th whore in the entire country
and besides French kissing her brother Borat, shows with pride her trophy,
Without telling too much of this movie I can’t refrain
myself from saying that once Borat buys his transportation (small postal
vehicle) to go to California with the intent to marry Pamela Anderson, he puts
in the mail carrying part of his very small vehicle a raging black bull that
not only fills the minicab of his excrements but puts out of this minicab the
head bellowing at whatever is close. In short Borat decides to drive a minicab
from NYC to LA with a furious bull in it and along the way is determined to
learn to learn to live just like any American citizen, in order to fulfill the
reason for his trip.
I realize that I’ve already said too much of this hilarious
movie, my only final suggestion is to watch it with your best friend and be
ready to loose your sense of the NOW,
In this time of war (as
usual) here’s yet another movie about smart American soldiers who want to
profit from their being deployed in a very far and inferior (to us) land.
Aside from what you can read
in the review sites I link below, this movie is (in my brain injured opinion) a good
description of our capitalistic culture that tells – no matter the situation –
to find a way to profit and have your pockets filled with valuables, no matter
the cost.
The cast is very well chosen
with actors who are very well known but who aren’t usually action-soldiers.
However, this doesn’t take
anything away from the story of this movie where the millions of $$$ in gold
bars, originally from Kuwait are moved around the desert driving Rolls Royce,
Mercedes and Bentley card on the desert’s sands.
No matter the conditions of
both the country and the war, all seems to rotate around the ownership of such
richness, mothers, wives and young children too are killed just to protect and
ensure the ownership of stolen wealth, that can’t help anyone in any way.
This movie is again a very
well made picture of the very reason why we’ve been living in such economic and
financial crisis, when even simple soldiers in combat in a very far and
uncivilized land decide that what’s most important (above their lives) is to go back
home as wealthy people, any viewer can see and immediately understand where
this financial crisis comes from. The world system of production, based on
capitalism and free competition, has now found an impenetrable wall represented
by the limits of available resources and the sustainable exploitation of these
resources. For example, fishing and pollution have led to the decimation of
fish in the seas, including the Pacific Ocean.
The right thing to do would be to set limits and rules in the world to exploit
these resources sustainably, limiting waste. But any regulation is seen as a
restriction incompatible with the savage capitalism supported in most of the
world.
As a Ph.D. in economics I
could rite an entire book on the reasons that explain not only our (USA) financial crisis but also about the soon
upcoming financial crisis in EU too and what consequences we are going to have
once our currency will return to be very strong while the European markets will
close their doors to US products because unaffordable.
Talk about drenching my Carhartt with tears of very hard and
loud laughing, I’ve been doing a short list of movies that have as main actor (or character) Billy Bob Thornton, this
is just one of them, I’m not going to tell you its story, you can read it in
the links I put here and watching the trailer from the Youtube trailer, either
way my vote to both this crazy movie AND to B.B. Thornton is a truckload of
beers (by the
gallons) with my imposition to watch it with a truckload (again)
of good friends, willing and ready to dry up the beer (in the truck) working out their
abdominal muscles like they are lifting many hundreds of pounds while at the
gym.
I’m very happy to say that yesterday afternoon my young
Brent (thoroughbred
Lingiardi) came to my room (prison) somewhat inexpediently and I forgot (surely for my
surprise) to have his help to organize among the 5 Case Logic DVD
folders my DVD movies (about 500) by gender.
My surprise to have my Brent come here to spend some time
with me (real
and only dad) without any fear or concern of any kind had me
completely forget to both take pictures of him for my mother (Brent’s nonna)
and re-organize my DVD movie collection. However, what gave even more joy to me
yesterday was when he told me that Michele (his mamma) still loves me at least as much as I
do (no matter
that my brain is injured).
What I loved the most about Brent telling me of this, is the
way he expressed it, or – like only a true Lingiardi can do – using a very confident
and factual based way to express this concept, I’m really ashamed of myself
for having been under the (false)
impression that my Brent looking very much like his uncle Steve (Michele’s younger brother blond, tall and
skinny) he might take more from the Werney family. It truly matters isn't how you look like, it’s what your
marrow is made of, that can make the person you are and forever will be.
I hope that all my readers already know that God’s existence
is proven by the simple law of universal gravity and all we do and think while
living has an effect on the balance we give to our lives, in practice it isn’t
our creator God (or Jehovah) who decides if you’ll regret in eternity what you
either did, or failed to do while living, it’ll be our own soul that will make
the balance between pluses and minuses that will decide how our eternity will
be spent (go look here at my past explanation of hell) it’s only based on this
concept that my (injured)
logic has made me understand the reason why our universe (created from the Big Bang) keeps expanding at increased rate,
well this can only happen because of the existence of one (or more) parallel universe, that can only exists
because of our future capacity to travel in time, that will create – as logical(daaahhh)
consequence – a number of parallel universes.
Since the manager of my life and money prohibits me to ever
name any name here, I can only say that my very negative weight while living
will be rebalanced in positive by all the plenty negatives of the souls of the
people who have added so much negative weight to my life here on earth – even
if they think to have done what’s legally correct.
I conclude only by saying both that I feel somehow sorry for
the (too many)
ones who added negativities to me and to my family because I know already how
their souls will forever be.
