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Wednesday, May 30, 2018

WHO CAN EXPLAIN?



Very understandably (and for me obviously) I’ve been trying to figure out if there may exist any reason to explain why I failed 3 consecutive neuropsychological assessments without much explanation.
As a matter of fact when I was working (and taking care of my family) very often I was complimented by others about how easy I was making “difficult things” look like and how fast I was always taking care of them.
My readers (especially the ones who know me in person) do know well that even in complicated situations, I never panicked or showed to be in stress, most often, in fact I would simply smile and lower my eyelids showing my focus on what looked logical/simple (for me) to deal with.
I hope that those of you who know me in person can easily understand my madness mixed with homicidal fury to have been assessed as someone unable to manage my money and therefore I was assigned by a court run by judges that are so confused by the use of the idiotic conservatorship laws I doubt know how to wipe their ass.
Anyway, after having done – as usual for someone having less than nothing to do all day long – a simple Google search, I found (and place below) several websites that describe the fact that when a brain gets injured, it can develop sometimes additional and – according to some – exceptional intellectual or logical abilities, to the point that there have been cases of people playing piano like they played it for decades, paint pictures with great abilities or play chess just like Spassky and Karpov.
I’m going to explain in fact – even if I said it before – what happens when someone survives a TBI and has a NDE (just like I did).
Since when you die the electricity in your brain (used to make the body perform all the activities to be alive) aren’t anymore needed because the dead body doesn’t need anything anymore, what’s left is what makes intelligence and logic perform their activities, this is the reason why some said that after death intelligence becomes superior, or cumulative like my friend Iacopo says.
I know that I’ve been telling here that I had met and made an agreement to remain alive with Jesus Christ while in my coma, however (hopefully not to be confused with blasphemy) if I was a Buddhist, I may have met and made my agreement with Buddha and so on, as quantum physics is saying.
I believe that what makes the difference here (and makes me feel way much better) is that my saying that “I’m still connected with either Jesus and/or the afterlife”, simply means that – as it can be seen in my Youtubes and reading the websites linked below – my logic and intelligence must have truly improved and have retained these superior properties.
I’d say that in practice this is the main (if not the only one) reason that explains my (very) bad performances when I was assessed.
BUT let me make it very clear that contrary to several posts I published here earlier, I want to forgive both the neuropsychologists who had assessed me and the conservators assigned to me (the brain injured idiot), in fact the neuros have no responsibility in the way they assessed me, they earned their doctorate studying books written at least half a century ago, all making reference, written and based on what the cocaine addicted and child molesters such as Kant and Freud were, same goes (forgiveness) for the losers conservators who – for personal advantage and diseased egos/personalities chose the “profession” to make good money using contacts family tradition or great financial needs under the umbrella to be giving support to those who are  disabled….therefore  maybe they feel good about themselves and what they do, now I’m forced – again – to mention what my good friend Iacopo and Jesus declared with great belief…..or that as soon as humanity will realize what type of afterlife expects them, each and every war and  crime on earth will stop overnight, please go to look at my post on the 10  commandments
http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2015/04/the-ten-commandments-explanation.html   to learn that the one “mortal sin” is hurting others, when you die you can see your entire life again with the ability to pinpoint every time you hurt somebody else……from there it’ll be your soul that’s going to decide your eternal existence, or – as per Iacopo – your next reincarnation.



  1. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2077538/
  2. http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20180116-the-mystery-of-why-some-people-become-sudden-geniuses
  3. https://medium.com/@wtfmitchel/savant-syndrome-c88b893d27b3
  4. https://www.popsci.com/science/article/2013-02/when-brain-damage-unlocks-genius-within
  5. https://www.quora.com/Why-do-some-people-become-very-smart-after-a-head-trauma

Saturday, May 26, 2018

TIME




While I keep on exploring, studying and learning the very current research in quantum physics, I watched the movie I. Q. that I recommend because it makes fun of Einstein, his research and of his scientists colleagues within a light romantic comedy, there’s a very funny clip in this movie where A. Einstein and his “friends” joke about the fact that time is an illusion and past, present and future don’t exist and are all at the same time , given that I considered this description of time, I made my small internet search and I post here not only the Youtube videos (really couldn’t find the movie clip I just described) with as usual (=always) links to other very consistent websites that I strongly suggest to you all to at least give them a look (they all support what I say).
Time in physics is defined by its measurement: time is what a clock reads. In classical, non-relativistic physics it's a scalar quantity and, just like length, mass, and charge, it's usually described as a fundamental quantity.
It does not exist in nature. Since early beginnings man has tried to put a meaning to events to somehow define the past, present, and future. Time has evolved from a sun dial to indicate parts of a day, to the moon, to indicate certain seasons, such as when to harvest, to the sun, to indicate periods like years.
What fascinates me more than I can express in words here, is the concept – best expressed by A. Einstein – that time really doesn’t exist, all is (or it happens) in the same moment.
Of course my mind jumped to the fact that in afterlife, time doesn’t exist, all is replaced by the (famous) NOW.
Boy…ho boy!! Talk about opening the time travelling dam (with its grandfather paradox that’s a paradox of time travel in which inconsistencies emerge through changing the past. The name comes from the paradox's common description: a person travels to the past and kills their own grandfather before the conception of their father or mother, which prevents the time traveler's existence).
What’s even more troubling to me (victim of neuropsychological assessments) is that time perception is a field of study within psychology, cognitive linguistics and neuroscience that refers to the subjective experience, or sense, of time, which is measured by someone's own perception of the duration of the indefinite and unfolding of events – talk about having my terrific memory to have been “interrogated” by those clowns for several hours (too many).
I cannot ask the question of the when I'll want to go IF this could ever become a real possibility while I’m living here. Anyone wants to guess my when?




Wednesday, May 23, 2018

AGAIN ON GOD



I’m convinced (and hope) that my readers – by now – do know that I’ve assessed that God is us, the human kind and I’ve been proving this with the help of the (new) discoveries that are coming from the quantum physics science.
I mean, if it’s true that all we see experience, touch, study and use is the product of our mind – all part of our consciousness - that’s connected to the so called universal consciousness, we are the real creators of this (and very probably the parallel ones too) universe.
It makes therefore no sense (in my injured brain/logic) that everyone (look at the websites I link below) is still referring to “a God creator “ that sounds very much like an entity separated from us that created it all since the big-bang.
If in addition you add what the bible says about the way our god created us “in his image and likeness” (go to read my post of 5/2 about this exactly….”Imago dei” http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2018/05/imago-dei.html) and that in addition Jesus said that we are Gods)
Here again as I’ve stated here before, mankind with its brain will be able to do all that Jesus did while here (i.e. walking on water) and that we’ve been calling “miracles” Later I’ll be talking about my saying to have seen and made an agreement with Jesus directly, the true nature and origins of Jesus plus many other concepts very related to the Darwinian evolution, the magnificence of our brain and the influence of the roman empire with its superior strength able to influence the occidental world with its culture in every field of all kinds.

  1.  https://theologicalmatters.com/2016/11/22/do-spirituality-and-universal-moral-consciousness-point-to-god/
  2. https://www.stufftoblowyourmind.com/blogs/is-god-conscious-is-god-aware.htm
  3. https://www.huffingtonpost.com/bobby-azarian/post_10079_b_8160914.html
  4. http://www.mind-your-reality.com/universal_mind.html
  5. http://www.collective-evolution.com/2017/02/07/christ-consciousness-you-have-the-same-capabilities-as-jesus-once-did/
  6. https://www.gotquestions.org/you-are-gods.html
  7. https://biologos.org/common-questions/human-origins/image-of-god





Friday, May 18, 2018

CONSCIOUS VS. SUBCONSCIOUS MIND/THINKING



What Freud called the pre-conscious, or what some refer to as the subconscious that’s much larger than the conscious mind and accounts for around 50-60% of your brain capabilities.
What’s coming here below is totally from my understanding of my reading of what Freud wrote in his teaching texts (that clearly are the “bible” for all my neuropsychologists).
The unconscious constantly communicates with the conscious mind via our subconscious, and is what provides us with the meaning to all our interactions with the world, as filtered through your beliefs and habits. It communicates through feelings, emotions, imagination, sensations, and dreams.
Under hypnosis, older people can often remember, with perfect clarity, events from fifty years before. Your unconscious memory is virtually perfect. It is your conscious recall that is suspect. The function of your subconscious mind is to store and retrieve data…..talk about the importance of our mind….that cannot be damaged in a TBI.
The unconscious mind comprises mental processes that are inaccessible to consciousness but that influence judgments, feelings, or behavior. According to Freud, the unconscious mind is the primary source of human behavior.
A look into the subconscious: dreams reveal innermost thoughts and emotions. ... While many may neglect or underestimate their dreams or view them as random firings of their subconscious, dreams do indeed possess significant meaning. Your nightly reveries accurately portray your deepest thoughts and feelings. In Sigmund Freud's psychoanalytic theory of personality, the conscious mind consists of everything inside of our awareness. This is the aspect of our mental processing that we can think and talk about in a rational way. ... Things that are in the unconscious are only available to the conscious mind in disguised form.
This actually explains very well my personal belief that in my dreams I’m still talking with Jesus, not my own mind…….in the end…..it’s still intact and VERY POWERFUL.



Wednesday, May 16, 2018

QUANTUM ENIGMA



Via the wonders of the internet I’ve developed a nice friendship with a woman who is a true expert of both afterlife and quantum physics, we’ve email-corresponded for almost one year and I admit to have learned very much from her, especially in new/different ways to understand and approach the very new ideas that quantum sciences are looking at in these days.
Aside from her having written a book on Catholic religion and more specifically about what’s in Jesus mind in these days, she (very) often suggests books to read and research areas for me to both look at and study (as best as I can).
After having read my latest post here and having exchanged few email messages with me she suggested for me to read the book entitled “Quantum enigma” that since has the “magic word” quantum in the title had me look into all I could find in the internet of it.
As a logical consequence I post here what my little research on this subject has produced with my promise that after having read and understood well (can I ever do it Erik?) this book I’m very probably going to post about it again……. 

  1. https://www.technologyreview.com/s/601625/first-experimental-demonstration-of-a-quantum-enigma-machine/
  2. https://www.quora.com/What-is-the-quantum-enigma
  3. https://sites.google.com/site/yhi09i9iujfcfsrd/pdf-download-quantum-enigma-physics-encounters-consciousness-pdf-epub-mobi---by-bruce-rosenblum




Sunday, May 13, 2018

OF CONSCIOUSNESS



Today I start with a “session” of posts about our brain and its consciousness that connects us as individuals to the entire universe that – as I said it here before – is our creation, like all we see, touch, measure and study.
My intention is to take your hand and guide you to my same conclusion, or that not only we are our own God, but that through our consciousness we are also the creator of it all (or we are Jesus’s father).
This truly hasn’t been an easy task of research for supporting websites and Youtubes (including the other 2 coming soon) but since time isn’t a constriction or a limitation of any kind anymore for me (grrrrh) I’ve been doing my usual research and you’ll see my results in this and my 2 next posts, that – as I just mentioned are going to prove as well and as clearly as possible our existence as both Jesus and his father, the creator.
Please go to look at my several past posts about time (that we believe we can measure with clocks or seasons, but that – as Einstein defined – it truly doesn’t exist) I’m hoping I’ve been able to clearly show that it’s thanks to our consciousness that we can exist….pretty much and that while it's universally connected we believe with a rather high confidence level that it’s all part of our (human) brain, no matter that we still can’t pinpoint where in our brain it resides.
Now, don’t get me started with my strong belief that – again – all of this is simply part of our soul, let’s see where the quantum scientists will define its location (probably where we decided where the soul is in our brains), I just hope that by now my readers know well that the soul being part of the universal consciousness and it leaving our body at death, it’ll never be placed in any specific location in the body, since it (soul) fully transcends it(body).



  1. https://neurologism.com/2017/02/17/is-there-any-conclusive-proof-that-the-brain-produces-consciousness-what-rules-out-the-case-that-brain-acts-as-receptor-antennae-for-con/
  2. https://www.researchgate.net/publication/321611802_Neuroscience_Consciousness_and_Spirituality
  3. https://thoughtcatalog.com/philip-gregory/2017/02/why-neuroscience-is-better-than-philosophy-if-you-want-to-understand-the-human-brain/
  4. https://aeon.co/essays/your-brain-does-not-process-information-and-it-is-not-a-computer
  5. https://www.quora.com/Is-there-any-conclusive-proof-that-the-brain-produces-consciousness-What-rules-out-the-case-that-brain-acts-as-receptor-antennae-for-consciousness
  6. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Consciousness





Friday, May 11, 2018

ME AND MICHELANGELO

Still done in November 2015



On 5/19/2011 I posted here about my similitude with the grand composer Beethoven, who lost his hearing kind of early in his life, but who managed to compose music so great that today (several centuries after his death) we still pay to go to the theater to listen to an orchestra to listen to such majestic and wonderful music.
Well, today I want to compare myself to another great personality in the arts of the past - Michelangelo - simply because - just like I've been doing about my search for the use of the medication that can give back to me my physical abilities (any TNF-alpha med) I can clearly see the David trapped inside the block of marble and I want to set him free, or I can see clearly that by using one of those meds I can get rid of all my disabilities and walk + work again, therefore rejoin my immensely beloved family that I cannot even espress here in words how much I'm missing and loving still.
I just post here very few links to websites and one video in support of what I'm saying, simply because I want to make sure that my ideas aren't the product of an injured brain, otherwise half of this world (including very many important researchers and scientist) would be badly brain injured too.

  1. https://www.history.com/topics/michelangelo
  2. https://www.florenceinferno.com/michelangelo-buonarroti/
  3. https://www.michelangelo.org/
  4. http://www.accademia.org/michelangelo/
  5. https://www.biography.com/people/michelangelo-9407628
  6. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michelangelo




Thursday, May 10, 2018

ME AND BEETHOVEN

These are a couple of posts I had written in November 2015 that for some (unknown to me aren't in my blog here anymore and given that they weren't at all bad, I post them again.....for your pleasure...





Beethoven's personal crisis centering around his deafness. The period is noted for large-scale works expressing heroism and struggle; these include many of the most famous works of classical music. Middle period works include six symphonies (Nos. 3–8), the last three piano concertos, triple concerto and his only violin concerto, five string quartets (Nos. 7–11), the next seven piano sonatas including the Waldstein and Appassionata, and his only opera, Fidelio.
In learning about this magnificent composer’s life I realize that I’m very much like him, was his inability to accept his hearing disability makes him very close to me and my way of thinking.
Deafness is for a musician just like an athlete like me being hemiparetic, unable to even walk or swim.
While I’m not going to compose music with the idea to make it eternal I hope to be an inspiration for others with my fight to improve and heal my injured brain.


  1.  http://www.lvbeethoven.com/Bio/BiographyLudwig.html
  2. http://home.swipnet.se/~w-15266/cultur/ludwig/beeheil.htm




Friday, May 04, 2018

BACH & BEETHOVEN



I just finished watching a magnificent movie about the pianist Leif Ove Andsnes in his quest to understand and interpret one of the greatest set of works for piano ever written: Beethoven's five piano concertos. The movie – A Beethoven journey - seeks deeper insights into the great composer, while focusing on the myths that surround him.
Several are my posts about both Bach's music and his best ever performer Glenn Gould, therefore I put here the links to my already made posts:

  1. https://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2012/10/goldberg-variations-other-lovepassion.html
  2. https://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2009/02/my-music-love-music-that-j.html
  3. https://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2018/03/maximum-pleasure.html
  4. https://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2014/09/the-love-of-my-life.html
  5. https://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2013/03/me-and-glenn-gould-as-im-approaching-my.html
Watching this masterful contemporary artist talking about his passion for Beethoven made me immediately think to my other great love in my life, or the pianist Glenn Gould playing the compositions of J.S. Bach, I believe that I own every DVD ever made of this pianist while playing all that Bach had composed.


I remember one of Gould’s reviewers saying that when playing Bach, Gould transformed himself in Bach, in other words Gould was re-composing the pieces written already about two centuries before. Most of this post is made with Youtube videos simply because in Youtube you can find pieces of the movies available on DVD but there very many shorter videos not available anywhere else, what I’m going to do here in fact is to add more of my own words as explanation/introduction or commentary to the video.

Like in example in this about Gould's piano


Or here about this artist's pureness


And finally here on Bach's art of the fugue


  1. http://katiehafner.com/books/a-romance-on-three-legs/
  2. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Glenn_Gould



Thursday, May 03, 2018

OUR “MAGIC BRAIN” CAN HEAL ITSELF



Aside the fact that I'm supposed to have met with Jesus Christ, Who had me come out of my 2 months long coma able to still master well the Italian and English languages, I must admit to have changed into a very spiritual individual, almost religious who – after many hours of “meditation” (thinking) – came to the (surprising) conclusion that the true God is us people, for all the reasons I explained in my several posts of the recent past.
On top of this – regardless from what the few neuropsys assessed of me – the unique parts in my brain that are truly damaged, are the motor cortex area (left side hemi-paresis) and the occipital lobe (left vision cut).
Much to the anger and frustration of all around me, I never stopped trying to find the way to get my brain fully repaired, simply because I cannot believe it to be absolutely impossible that in 2018 nobody in the entire world knows any way to do so (the very few who do, are becoming millionaires I know them ALL but for specific reasons I have been unable to even talk with any of them).
What’s objectively true however is that once injured the brain can repair itself and since my body has been making real miracles in the past in recovering from plenty kinds of injuries, I believe that my brain has recovered already now well above the average.
I put in fact below few links to websites on this subject and you can watch the appropriate videos too.
All I add is to please go to the websites I linked, watch the Youtubes with interest while thinking at this and at making a donation to this very unlucky man.


  1. https://www.npr.org/2017/12/22/572579692/jocelyne-bloch-after-an-injury-can-the-brain-heal-itself
  2. http://synapse.org.au/information-services/an-approximate-guide-to-the-recovery-process.aspx
  3. http://www.cnn.com/2011/HEALTH/05/05/brain.plasticity.giffords/index.html
  4. https://supplementsinreview.com/nootropic/nootropics-for-concussions-brain-injuries/
  5. https://www.huffingtonpost.com/richard-c-senelick-md/stroke-recovery_b_2385787.html




Wednesday, May 02, 2018

IMAGO DEI



Oh boy! There are millions of websites in the internet that come out by putting this (Latin) name in a google search, therefore please trust me that the websites I link below are truly a very good and small group of the best ones (watch the Youtube video in the first one named got questions).
As a matter of fact I used to believe that the term “imago dei”, expressed in the bible as “image and likeness” meant not only that we look just like Jesus looked like (image) but that we have the same, or very similar powers of god (likeness) which well explains the reason why I’ve been talking very much of us being like god (or – by having the soul – we have our own – personal - god in us).
As I’ve suggested already, simply watch the n.1 video in my linked websites to understand that my understanding isn’t too accurate.
However what this video says pretty clearly that to follow the teachings and to faithfully believe in what Jesus did, said and represented is a good walk towards salvation ad about this I want to better explain that whenever we “hate” someone else and wish for something bad to happen to the subject (of our hate), when the bad really happens (at times very similar to our own wishes) the one who made that bad happen to the “hated” one is the “personal god”  of the criminal (that Einstein said not to believe in its existence), NOT YOU.
In fact most of the times the bad we may wish for someone else, is based on our knowledge of what’s dear to that person, therefore it’s somehow simple to do.
I.e. think of someone in love to death for his new Ferrari car, what would happen if it gets stolen and it gets crashed? Well to wish that this could be what could happen to that person is kind of easy to do, same for having a beautiful and very beloved wife, what can happen if another man fucks her? 
In both cases it isn’t surely you that make the destruction of the car or the personal life destruction for the fucker to happen; it’s rather going to be the “personal god” of the thief and the fucker who’ll take care of the “forgiveness” of those “bad sins” with the purpose of eternal salvation. As you read we truly are made on God’s likeness, which only works on ourselves though....



50 minutes long....but very good