LOSER

Few of my readers have asked me of what I mean by calling different people and their occupations as a loser, so today I’m going to explain as well as I can what I mean when I use this adjective.

It all comes in fact from my newly acquired knowledge of what happens after death and most of what I’m about to say can be easily found in past posts.

In fact the ones who have confidently convinced themselves to be real winners in life, once they die and “upgrade” their basic intelligence with knowledge and expertise, they can immediately become aware they haven’t truly lived the life of a winner and in fact they’ll recognize with great clarity not only their mistakes and how others got hurt from their own (self-proclaimed) “superiority” but in losing this confidence and realizing how much they did hurt others, they’ll punish themselves in whatever way and for however long of a time they deem to be fit.

This is what I mean when I use the adjective loser. Pride, self-confidence and security will be all lost at once and – as a result – the right punishment will be self-given.

Now, as far as the duration of that punishment, there’s no method to conceptualize it, given that in afterlife time can’t be measured like here on earth when living, time in afterlife is in fact the eternal NOW, therefore what may seem to be few hours once dead it can easily be hundreds of years for those who are alive.

In addition, look back at when I talked about the purgatory, when I said that if there you can see heaven with the sure knowledge that eventually that’s where you’ll be.

I know that this seems somehow complicated, but please trust me when I say that once you “upgrade” your intelligence to “universal” or “cumulative”, nothing can be difficult to understand or confusing anymore.

However I do feel pity for those who are convinced to have lived the life of a winner when they’ll realize what a loser they had been.

1. https://www.quora.com/What-do-you-do-when-you-realise-that-you-are-an-utter-loser
2. http://www.wikihow.com/Stop-Being-a-Loser
3. http://allwomenstalk.com/10-signs-youre-dating-a-loser
4. http://thoughtcatalog.com/sean-curtis/2015/03/3-ways-to-tell-if-youre-a-loser-and-6-things-you-can-do-about-it/ 

THE BUCKET LIST

These 2 really great actors play in a somehow very contemporary movie that addresses the end of life for both a billionaire and a mechanic who meet each other in a hospital room for terminally ill patients and start to exchange their thoughts and ideas until this “bucket list” comes out.

This starts the road trip full of “never tried before” adventures that takes this odd couple all over the world and has them try to do things they’ve only heard or dreamt to do before in their lives.

I guess that the message of this movie is that nothing is more valuable than having a family or people we have exchanged feelings of love for each other.

I can’t add anything more to (verb, feeling, word) love, too many are my posts here about it, like this in example:  (http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2016/03/esoteric-agenda.html), but this movie clearly shows that no matter how wealthy or poor one can be, love is what makes someone truly rich.

If Hollywood – aside from the enjoyment of watching this movie – can be at the leading edge of the followership in this very new “afterlife movement”, I suggest to watch this movie with very good friends and family planning to have time at the end to exchange opinions about what this movie means and/or suggests.

My update is that I’m told that it matters not that I don’t remember having met Jesus, how many trillions of people have believed or do believe in God even if invisible and unproven this far?

For an objective person since birth than me, it’s certainly difficult to have no memory to have had this experience (or blessing) but when I frame this with my belief on a creator - our God – I have no issue at all in putting my faith on what I said to have experienced, if to this I add several different experiences I’ve had since my return from the coma, I can say that I truly met with Jesus (our God creator made into man).

1. http://www.spiritualityandpractice.com/films/reviews/view/17686
2. http://www.telegraph.co.uk/culture/film/3671168/Film-reviews-The-Bucket-List.html
3. https://www.theguardian.com/film/2008/feb/17/jacknicholson.morganfreeman
4. http://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/the-bucket-list-2008
5. http://www.nytimes.com/2007/12/25/movies/25buck.html?_r=1
6. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Bucket_List 

SUMMING UP

Based on the number of people who keep on asking questions about the meaning of what I keep saying here about the brain, I found a way – from the military jargon that may work to make my thinking more clear, so here it goes:

My brain is mine, there are many like it but the one between my ears is my own brain, without my brain I’m nothing.

Just like any other weapon is armed, my brain is armed with the conscience, my brain without my conscience is just an organ in my body, without my brain I’m nothing, just like my brain without me is nothing.

The conscience without the brain cannot exist, but my brain WITH my conscience is the most powerful and deadliest weapon that ever existed.

Our God creator came on earth as Jesus to die on the cross in order to limit the powers of our (human) brain.

I believe that my readers know what is my opinion of the “medicine science” or “guess science”, as I’ve been referring to several times before.

When you think about the fact that today, in the second millennium we still don’t know how our brain/weapon is made (B.R.A.I.N. mapping project) and to this ignorance you add that psychology was fathered by Sigmund Freud who happened to be both a cocaine and heroin addict plus was found to be a child molester, I can’t believe that putting together a science fathered by that man with the total ignorance we still have of the organ between our ears can be given any validity at all.

I want to add that while our potent weapon (the brain) can get injured, there’s no way that the conscience can be injured too and that it may lose any efficacy what’s objectively important, both before and after we die.

All the above begs the question about the reason why both neuropsychologists and judges want to risk their earthly lives and their afterlife playing (or making judgments and give impositions) with such risky and well known (today) consequences.

1.  http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2011/08/10/3-facts-you-might-not-know-about-freud-and-his-biggest-addiction/
2. http://www.npr.org/2011/11/25/142782875/a-tale-of-two-addicts-freud-halsted-and-cocaine
3. http://www.opposingviews.com/i/society/grandson-sigmund-freud-exposed-child-abuser
4. http://www.openculture.com/2014/04/igmund-freud-researched-got-addicted-to-cocaine.html
5. http://thechart.blogs.cnn.com/2011/07/22/sigmund-freuds-cocaine-problem/
6. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sigmund_Freud
7. http://www.gospeltruth.net/1845OE/450924_good_conscience.htm

THE QUESTION

A very good and very bright UCLA psychologist, wrote in UCLA official paper – after having conducted an informal assessment of my psychological capacities “it is understandable to me why he is as intensely interested in a therapeutic trial of etanercept as he is, even given his appreciation of the remote probability that it will make a significant difference in his disability. Accordingly, I would recommend that, if for nothing other than psychological purposes, he be indulged this wish” on the other side – in order to save my money rather than wasting it in a non-FDA approved therapy (primary topic of this blog) I’ve been imprisoned “thanks” to conservatorship laws, as exercised by ignorant judges and several (loser) attorneys who “specialize” in this great way to steal money away from disabled people (ONLY when they have money).

Now given that this far my first conservator (a F. B.) has figured out the way to convince one of these ignorant judges, to take $50,000 from my money for one year of “very hard work to my benefit” plus another $30,000 to her attorney (another f. b. who, regardless that she was being paid with my money only did all possible against my interests), now I’m looking at being forced by the law to pay another of these conservators (losers) only God knows how much more.

Therefore the question that I feel obliged to ask to both sister Anna and to Michele, mother of my two treasures:

•     Why the fuck did you have me imprisoned under such a bunch of criminal-losers?
•    “Did you REALLY think/dream that I would ever want to pay even half of the money I’ve been STOLEN this far in trying to do such therapy IF after the first couple of shots I wouldn’t see/feel any benefit both in my body and mind”??

I don’t know but it seems to me and to my (broken) mind that THE ENTIRETY (=ALL) of this money was intended (by me only, clearly) to go to my two treasures in equal parts (just like my dad, Saint Gianfranco had done for me and my very confused sister Anna).

I don’t know, but it seems to me that God only can give an answer to my question, while He’ll be taking care of the ignorant, the losers and all the thieves dealing with these laws that only provide eternal damnation to whoever chooses to deal with them.

1. http://www.aetna.com/cpb/medical/data/300_399/0315.html
2. http://www.alzforum.org/news/research-news/breakthrough-or-false-hope-etanercept-case-report-draws-scrutiny
3. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/20518613
4. http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/one-question-god-always-answers
5. http://www.answersonlygodcangive.com/

MEET THE FOCKERS

It’s been some time/posts that I haven’t talked about movies, but this is the type of movies that I’m very likely going to watch hundreds of times, of course always missing my wife Michele watching it with me sitting at my side on our blue colored couch like we always did when we still were united (all we are now is separated not divorced, only God in fact can divorce people who were united in marriage in public in his house/a church, like we did just 25 years ago).

I have to admit that my normal behavior is very much like the one that Robert De Niro plays in this movie and I must wholeheartedly hope that I won’t act in the same way when my angel daughter will introduce me to the guy who survived the “filtering” done by myself and her brother, their defenders from anyone and anything that may ever be of any threat for her.

The other funny characters in this movie are the ones played by the groom’s parents in Florida, Barbra Streisand (sex therapist for elderlies) and Dustin Hoffman (retired lawyer) who add lots of hilarious situations to the movie.

While I’m certainly write a movie review here (just go to the linked sites below) all I want to do – because I can – is to rate this movie in terms of the quantity and type of alcoholic beverage and people to have around to watch this movie.

In fact my vote for this movie id to have good vodka mixed with fruit juice and both family and friends to enjoy the couple of hours this movie takes to watch it completely (beginning to end).

1. https://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/meet_the_fockers/
2. https://www.commonsensemedia.org/movie-reviews/meet-the-fockers#
3. http://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/meet-the-fockers-2004
4. http://www.metacritic.com/movie/meet-the-fockers
5. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Meet_the_Fockers 

STEM CELL THERAPY TO HELP TBI VICTIMS

Friends, family and acquaintances keep telling me to go out of my room/prison at the Villa instead than spending dozens of hours at my PC watching movies, to this I say that while it’s true that I watch plenty movies (look at my 68 movie review posts I’ve posted here)  I do spend countless hours researching the internet for anything new that might be useful to TBI recovery, in fact here is what I had found few weeks ago:

http://tbistemcellstudy.ucsf.edu/ 

After I filled out the request to participate to their trial, I received a call from a very nice man who informed me that their trial requires for me to have drilled a hole in my skull, which made me smile, given that’s still very visible the place where my skull was cracked open by the surgeons who were working on reducing the blood pressure in my brain that was killing neurons by the truckload.

I was explained of the need to make a hole in my skull is because the stem cells must be injected in my brain directly and I believe that this system to put stem cells directly where they need to go is what makes this trial even more interesting to an ignorant in this field as I am.

In fact I remember reading about injecting stem cells in a vein of the arm, I guess in hope that by entering the normal blood circulation in the body, eventually (cross your fingers, as it’s always done in medicine).

Anyway few days ago I received by FedEx a number of sheets with medical questions about me and my history plus a return FedEx prepaid envelope to return the questionnaire completed, I felt it appropriate to put in a CD containing all the SPECT scans and MRI ever done to my brain since I had the accident (remote history now) when my package was received I received a call from the same man who had initially called to thank me for all I had done that far with the additional request for other med. Documents from the hospital that took care of me right after the accident (Cottage) and from the M.D.’s who took care of me after I was released from the hospital and here is when I had the clear sign that my wife Michele still cares/loves me, in fact I received her email (no email communication of any kind from her in at least 9 years!) telling me that she’s going to take care of putting together this information.

Although I know that some of you will think that my brain shows how badly it’s injures for saying that I want to believe that this is yet another example that Jesus is helping me, I have the strong feeling (as strong as my hope) that I’ll be spending some time in SFO where my wife’s family lives since many years.

The way I see this is that even if it’ll be a waste for me to try this (still) experimental way to “fix” a brain when it’s injured, at least I’ll be in a beautiful city of the States, close to the “American” part of my family  and finally out of my Villa room/prison.

All I ask is for you to cross your fingers for my success in this trial and put the hand without the fingers crossed in your wallet to help me out.
Of course as I listen to what this video explains I cannot stop my mind to fly to the reason that explain why the ((still) forbidden perispinal Enbrel isn't a standard to treat TBI already not only in this country but all over the world too (Venezuela excluded).
An entire new post is coming soon about money and its worthiness while we live AND after death.

1. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/26166367
2. http://stemcells.nih.gov/info/Regenerative_Medicine/pages/2006chapter3.aspx
3. http://www.omicsgroup.org/journals/recent_advances_and_future_trends_in_traumatic_brain_injury-2165-7548.1000229.php?aid=36101
4. http://journal.frontiersin.org/article/10.3389/fnsys.2014.00116/full
5. http://baja-california-stem-cells.com/ 

MY SPECIAL PROJECT FROM GOD

The name of this post comes directly from an email that my dear friend Pat sent me recently, and that's very much related to my last post about the fact that nothing ever happens by chance, today I want to talk about women I could be married with if I hadn’t come to Berkeley. CA after my graduation to Ph.D. level in Bologna, Italy in fact the two pictures I put here are of Camilla who I dated and was official boyfriend with for several years (don’t even remember how many) and the other is of Tamara who was like another sister to me for having spent entire summer vacation at the Ponza island for at least 15 years.

When I had my wife Michele move to Italy and I married her, Camilla had about a heart attack and spent one full night crying in bed with my mother who tried to make her understand that nothing could have changed my mind and turn that page of her life.

As for Tamara, when the news of my wedding with Michele reached her family in Rome, her maid since Tamara was born, made the comment that she was disappointed because very sure that I’d marry Tamara, given that it was evident that we were very close to each other (being topless was very normal in those times BUT I never had sex nor any sexual kind of attraction toward the woman who was like a sister to me).

And here is where the law of the “everything happens for a reason” can may apply, in fact both these two women (very close to me) are divorced too, for different reasons and my mother – during our daily phone conversations – often tells me that if I had married an Italian woman I’d never be alone as I’ve been for way too many years.

It matters not that my reply is always the same, or that even if abandoned and cheated on, I still passionately love my wife Michele who, through our two treasures made me immortal.

I find it kind of funny that my mother spends several minutes (expensive to call from Italy) to tell me that any other woman would have given to me the same young Lingiardi miracles, whom I refer to as my treasures.

When I tell them that I love them it’s impossible to explain that I’m willing to give my life if there ever was the situation where I could give my life for either of them, that’s a good example that shows the love of a father for his children isn’t any different (or any less) than that of the mother (as I used to be convinced of).

Through my sister and my mother I know what these two women do now and I’m going to say it here:

Tamara: owns a stationery store in Rome downtown, she has 3 daughters who are top level horse riders and are often participating in high level horse competitions around the country (Italy).

  

·        Camilla is a university level professor of English language – that must be American English, since I was told that she had spent several months in the Boston area right after her graduation, she has one son, because in her divorce she obtained the maternity over the boy (don’t know the name nor the age)

 

Given that (surprisingly) I know allot about these two women my main comment – aside that they both are divorced – is that they have pretty good money earning occupations that surely allow a comfortable living, no matter that they both have children to take care of.

However what neither of them has is – putting aside the magnificent beauty of my Michele – the American nationality that she passed on to me, when I married her.

1.  http://madamenoire.com/257077/straight-from-his-mouth-why-did-he-marry-the-next-woman/
2. https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/divorce-busting/201005/dont-ask-dont-tell-your-family
3. http://www.focusonthefamily.com/marriage/gods-design-for-marriage/marriage-gods-idea/gods-design-for-marriage
4. https://sites.google.com/site/divineprovidenceu/

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

My dad – Saint Gianfranco – often commented facts we knew were happening to people we were familiar with, if not friends and relatives that “c’è sempre un motivo per tutto” or that there’s always a reason for anything that happens.

Given that I have more time than I need or want, I’ve been trying to figure out the possible reason that can explain why as I entered in what I call the “top of my life” I got smacked down so badly that not only I lost my beloved job, but my family, financial independence and even the possibility to make decision on my own……

When I add to these huge losses the fact that the very beloved mother of my two treasures thought it to be best (for herself and for my treasures) to pretend that I was dead already and started to live with B.(-old ass)  who was attempted to be forced to my treasures as their “father figure”, was my primary MD, but couldn’t fit in my shoes for a nanosecond and was never recognized as a part of “that family”, I truly cannot think of any reason that could explain why the accident I had, with all its connected losses could justify my realization that Michele, the woman I was married to, whom I had made the queen of my life’s empire, the courageous companion in the battles of life, who followed me in my plenty moves around this country, who lived with me in Italy and gifted the Lingiardi family with the next generation of Lingiardi, therefore making me somehow immortal, could possibly have become so desperate from the loss of her husband(me) to disappoint me this much.

Well, this is exactly when my dad would say that “everything always happens for a reason” and given that I’ve been browsing the internet about this topic, I learned that what makes this reason, is something that pushes it into the life of somebody.

I’m still scratching my head however because my love for Michele hasn’t decreased of a Nanogram and makes me wonder if there might be a chance (over the cubic of a trillionth)  that she’s correct in saying (and believing) that I only love her because my brain is injured……..

1. https://www.quora.com/Does-everything-happen-for-a-reason-6
2. http://www.azquotes.com/quote/801983
3. http://holisticperspectives.blogspot.com/2009/03/nothing-ever-happens-by-chance.html
4. https://getyarn.io/yarn-clip/03e3009a-ebb9-45b7-b9fd-e54059d34f96/gif

VIDEO POST

Given that I'm at the computer (that I "baptized "monster" with a lightning speed internet connection), as you can see I've been putting Youtubes in very many of my past posts and since I keep watching Youtubes pretty much all day long, my today's post is all about the most incredible Youtubes I came across, that I'm going to try to put in a logical order, so here we start:

comment to what this guy talks about  from me and a cute little dog

What I'll say to you if you dare to laugh at what the dog does

Luckily modern technology provides methods to get unfucked.......in case you do (f'ing loser!) 

Neither of my 2 treasures can click on this link and only if you are adult you can BUT do know that the title of this video is :(Suck my motherfucking dick)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m66Sz5921Kw

TRANSPERSONAL PSYCHOLOGY

Given that I spend about 14/day browsing the internet using my wonderful PC at a warp-speed connection, I’ve come across this type of psychology few times and after some digging I found few websites that explain what this psychological area is, therefore I put here its definition:

Transpersonal psychology focuses on the spiritual side of human nature; parapsychology is concerned with the paranormal, such as psychic phenomena, including precognition, clairvoyance, near death experiences and psychokinesis.

This is the one I like best: T. P. is a type of psychology or psychotherapy that focuses on altered states of consciousness and transcendent experiences as a means to understanding the human mind and treating mental disorders. Transpersonal psychology emphasizes meditation, prayer, and self-transcendence

Now, since every neuro (-psy or -logist) I've ever seen or talked with is totally convinced that:

a)    once the brain is injured, nothing new can ever be learned and once neurons are dead,  so they remain forever

b)   there’s no way that the brain can “repair” itself in order to be again who you were before the injury

Somehow I got curious about this branch of psychology that I’d never imagine it could be of any interest to me.

In fact, when I was in NH, my wife Michele couldn’t stand my way of dealing with issues of any kind (maybe I’m too self-confident.....) therefore we went to some "marriage counselor" who did nothing else than taking my money and my (precious)time from me, she did however increase my skepticism for psychology.

It’s no wonder that I’m now imprisoned under a conservator because in several neuropsy. tests I couldn’t say what a pile of stones or a ball of cats remind of, or look like (couldn't say  that those stones and cats looked like shit to me ...).

1. http://futurism.com/the-physics-of-death/
2. http://www.scientificamerican.com/article/what-happens-to-consciousness-when-we-die/
3. http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2011/11/03/6-facts-about-transpersonal-psychology/
4. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transpersonal_psychology