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Monday, June 30, 2014

LIFE AFTER DEATH IS REAL

I said here before that human science (especially Quantum mechanics/physics)have been progressing so much that the real existence of the God creator of this universe is going to soon be demonstrated scientifically, so – as I always do – I put here few links to websites that support my writings and even Youtube videos, so that you won’t need to make too much research to verify if I’m truly the idiot that the “unmentionable Ph.D. in fear” assessed about me and my abilities in general and especially to use my money with intelligence and care.
I admit also that in my own (injured) mind I condemned to “hell” the souls of many people here, but since I’m certainly not God, I cannot predict in any way the judgment that will be given to the souls of all the (many) people who procured pains and humiliations to me.
So we’ll see…….
I’m also trying to understand what kind of deal I ever made with what I said it was Jesus, given that even if I came back to life again, I’ve been completely unable to be close – and teach by example – to my children/treasures and my pain seems to be impossible to at least reduce minimally. I’m actually starting to begin to think that my friend philosopher Iacopo was correct when he told me that it wasn’t Jesus whom I saw, but myself “in another space and time”.
It still makes no sense to me that if I had really seen myself I wouldn’t have recognized myself, but hey! ….. this is matter of studies and hypothesis since the beginning of time, so what may I ever know more than anyone else??
However, I invite my readers to:  


  • go the links I put here
  • continue to pray for me and my return to life in a “medical manner”
  • Correct any wrongs they ever did to me to receive the salvation of their souls after they die.
  • Open their own hearts and intelligence to the concept that as humans life here on earth is just “a moment” in the eternal existence of our souls and all the wrongs (to others) we do while living here will have sure consequences to our eternal souls.
  1. http://beforeitsnews.com/alternative/2013/12/the-best-scientific-explanation-of-life-after-death-2860596.html
  2. http://www.juliaassante.com/reflections/can-science-prove-life-after-death/
  3. http://www.theblaze.com/stories/2012/10/29/is-there-life-after-death-scientist-attempts-to-explain-what-happens-to-the-human-soul/
  4. http://io9.com/a-new-scientific-explanation-for-near-death-experiences-1110395345
  5. http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-2503370/Quantum-physics-proves-IS-afterlife-claims-scientist.html
  6. http://science.howstuffworks.com/science-vs-myth/afterlife/science-life-after-death.htm




Saturday, June 28, 2014

I MISS YOU

I’ve been trying to understand – all by myself, since Michele never wants to talk with me about this – what might be the reason why she abandoned me (maybe forever), given that I've heard say that she’s scared of me I imagined that
I scared her very much when I was furious about my condition and I tried to end my life not just once, but 3 times with subsequent residence at specialized facilities for suicidal people.
Since not only she chose to live with our children/treasures on her own (but with my full financial support), but she has been trying to find a man who can marry her (with the excuse to give a stable family environment to our children), I've recently concluded that she’s just like me about my current disabled condition, meaning that as much as I refuse to think that nothing exists that can give back to me the full use of my body that much she can’t even look at me anymore, her mind jumps immediately to my athletic past and high level performance I got her used to.
It goes without me saying it that I miss her and our children too much to be able to express it in words, if someone would ask to me what I’d give to have my family back, sadly there’s almost nothing that I could offer to give, given that my accident with TBI had me lose all I ever worked, cared and wanted in my life, so I guess that unless I was asked for a piece of my body, I have nothing to give in exchange.
In addition the reality that I never can have any conversation of any kind with Michele (from the plenty hours of talks about future projects and dreams we used to have before my practical death) relegates me in what I call a “guessing position” because all I can do is to guess what she’s thinking by deciphering her one-word comments when I see her.


It goes without me saying it that if we could live all together again, I’m sure that my physical condition would already be much better than now and our treasures could have their real loving dad back again in their lives, rather than some puppet pretending to be a “father figure” as mandated by Michele. Can any of my readers suggest anything I can do to conquer again Michele’s heart as I did 25 years ago?
  1. https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20111122054312AA6HzwG
  2. http://www.reddit.com/r/atheism/comments/1l0xie/i_miss_my_wife/
  3. http://www.recover-from-grief.com/i-miss-my-wife.html
  4. http://www.brainline.org/content/2010/09/healing-your-marriage-after-brain-injury_pageall.html
  5. http://serendip.brynmawr.edu/exchange/node/1689

Friday, June 27, 2014

MORE ON PRAYING





My idea about the act of praying being very important regardless if God can satisfy your request(s) but in this video here (already posted in the past this man makes a very good point about whom to pray to and I can say that the “superior entity” to address with our prayers is certainly Jesus Christ, not only because he was God as man, cut also – as this video explains – because when we pray addressing Him we can truly have a real mental image of Him as God, I believe that the miracle made by God to become a man is truly wondrous for all its meanings and effects on human kind even two thousands years later.
As Fr. Betto told me once, my dealing with Jesus while in mine NDE has been a true gift and my impossible to eliminate pain is my sharing the pain of Jesus while on the cross.
However, the fact that I’m sure about how to end it and that plenty MD refused for various trivial reasons just shows how much the devil is still affecting humans through our free-will.
So I see my fight to be treated with an “off-label” treatment something that in other past times would have been named a “holy war” against stupid fears and deep ignorance of pretty much every MD who refused to treat me in this way AND against all of those who haven’t made it possible or any easier for me to be “saved”, as I've been saying here God is going to take care of those (too) many people in eternity by placing their souls where they deserve to be forever, BUT let’s never forget that any action towards my salvation by correcting the mistakes both made and well-known will give eternal salvation to the one who will correct my painful situation while here on earth, even if our life-time is like the blink of an eye when compared to eternity.
So think about this message from the man who’s been sharing the pain of Jesus while on the cross and act accordingly to protect your own soul for eternity.

  1. http://www.ransomedheart.com/prayer/prayer-receive-jesus-christ-savior
  2. http://www.cbn.com/spirituallife/churchandministry/evangelism/Gowen-Dennis_Jesus_Die_Cross.aspx
  3. http://thetestofthecross.wordpress.com/
  4. http://ibibleverses.christianpost.com/bible-verses-about-encouragement/i-choose-jesus-2
  5. http://theeasybible.com/1208-why-i-choose-jesus/
  6. http://www.choosejesus.co.za/index.php/en/
  7. http://www.dwightclough.com/choose.php

Thursday, June 26, 2014

MARRIAGE RESPONSIBILITIES


Some of you have asked me recently why I’m making so many religious posts and all I can say is that maybe it’s because I was born and raised in Italy (therefore I could become only a Catholic) and I was married in a church and I spoke with Jesus while in my coma, in addition given all the plenty hours I’m forced to spend alone with the internet at my fingertips I hope it’s obvious that I write about the existence of God with its scientific proves.
However, what I haven’t done and I almost tried to avoid doing is to talk about Michele’s behavior, I actually did some simple research about the moral obligation and legal duties that come with the marriage and to say that I got shocked is to say the least.
Those of you, who do know me in person for having met me while I was still living, must know for sure of my dedicated and passionate love I always had for Michele. In fact I’m sure that if she had been the one as badly injured as I am, there would be no MD, scientist or even researcher in this entire world that I wouldn't have consulted already, while working as usual to keep our finances as normal as they always should be.
I just thought that if any obligation of any kind would exist between a married couple would just be moral (human, from Plato to Kant) and spiritual (or when united by God in a church) but I never could have imagined that the human law too would have made any legislation to protect injured spouses like me from disregard and the abandonment I've been complaining here very often. I put – as usual – few links here below that really give a good idea of the magnitude of what I've been a victim of (besides the conservatorship), and I wonder if I might have any case legally.
However – as Michele has been telling to me - it’s my injured brain that makes me believe that I still love her as I used to, because with all that she’s done to me and to our marriage, the least I should do is to never even try to talk with her.


Well, I must say that my injury must really be bad since I just told to her that I’d love to watch together with her few of the DVD movies I've been collecting using my monthly charity. Of course my abandonment is realized by my sister Anna too, who has clearly sold her soul to some devil.......
  1. https://repsourcepublic.manulife.com/wps/wcm/connect/2dd0c900433c0b66ac37ee319e0f5575/ins_tepg_lfeinsdivob.pdf?MOD=AJPERES&CACHEID=2dd0c900433c0b66ac37ee319e0f5575
  2. http://bcwillsvariation.com/recent-posts-1/2014/3/18/aid-to-spouse-fell-short-of-significant-caregiving-and-right-of-survivorship-sufficient-to-satsify-moral-obligation
  3. http://plato.stanford.edu/entries/marriage/
  4. http://family-law.lawyers.com/matrimonial-law/rights-and-responsibilities-of-a-married-person.html
  5. http://family-law.freeadvice.com/family-law/marriage/marriage-obligations.htm
  6. http://www.lexology.com/library/detail.aspx?g=be535f81-191d-41c5-b737-53242c91dd63
  7. http://www.bcfamilylaw.ca/spousal-support/



Wednesday, June 25, 2014

FOR MY TREASURES



I've been saying that my treasures are two side effects of my injury or practical death/homicide.
They both must be living with their mother Michele being (or trying to be) their single parent.
I've told in person and by email to Michele that she’s making a very big mistake and to reinforce my statement/accusation I put below some websites that explain how being raised by a single parent (mother) affects the entrance into adulthood in children, especially at the age of my treasures.
I cannot explain how much it hurts me to say that it’s too obvious the reason why Michele is so close to our children, they are her only sizeable source of money and I cannot count how many times I told her that she best accept me back in her life like I've become (physically disabled) before they can independently decide which parent they want to live with.
The way she’s been behaving in front of them is so wrong that for me to describe with any adjective would be to use very bad words, but I don’t want to do it, simply because I still do love her like I used to for about 15 years without any exception or doubt. All I’m doing with this post is to try to let her know how big of a mistake she’s been doing to our treasures, whose fault is only that they are and forever will be my children.
Without going into any detail or description, I’m concerned that since it’s well known that children learn things by example, I’m worried that my sweet and young angel may learn from her mother’s example/behavior that it’s OK to use the body as the instrument to have what she wants. It shocked me to learn that the very many years of living together in love didn’t change Michele’s attitude about the use of her only matter of trade (beauty) to gain whatever she wants.


While I link here few articles (and videos) about how damaging it can be for children to be raised by their mother as single parent, I hate to say that this isn't the whole story because what Michele has been showing with her behavior is much worse and I hope that once I’ll be their (present) dad again, my treasures’ attitude and look of life will improve easily. (at least also my own blood runs in their veins).
  1. http://lifestyle.howstuffworks.com/family/parenting/single-parents/single-parenting-affect-children.htm
  2. http://www.usccb.org/issues-and-action/marriage-and-family/children/children.cfm
  3. http://prospect.org/article/consequences-single-motherhood
  4. http://www.healthychildren.org/English/family-life/family-dynamics/types-of-families/Pages/The-Challenges-of-Single-Parenthood.aspx
  5. http://www.parenting.com/gallery/help-single-mothers
  6. http://www.singlemothersbychoice.org/?gclid=CN2T95Xmlb8CFRWVfgodVaMAcg
  7. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Single_parent




Tuesday, June 24, 2014

EXPLANATIONS


I’m going to try to explain to my readers here several things I have finally understood and clarified in my mind and I’m going to do it in the clearest way possible, by itemization:
  • Enbrel for TBI recovery: My former Ventura neighbor Ralph used to be very correct in saying that the neurological recovery that can be given by reducing the inflammation of the injured brain even many years after the TBI is impossible, if it was really true why wouldn't it be used by any MD with patients like me and why wouldn't be FDA approved already? I've been calling TBI the epidemic (plague) of this second millennium, so why in the world wouldn't our President, or anyone with lots of money fund the trials to end this plague and go to history forever, just like Madam Curie? Any MD to whom I've been begging on my knees to receive this treatment would have surely given it to me, no matter if FDA approved already or not, they all must have taken the Hippocratic oath, i.e. swore to help patients no matter what. Are all of my MD in mortal sin for having betrayed their professional oath?
  • Revenge: I was taught that Jesus said that revenge is wrong and that everyone shall be forgiven, just as His Father does with everyone, no matter the sin. I've asked this question to several real priests and since no one ever gave any reply to me, I must take that my question about God-self being revengeful with examples of the Jewish nation having been at war since its beginning thousands of years ago, the holocaust that sacrificed millions of Jews by the Nazis and the war still ongoing in that area where billions of our tax-payers money keeps being spent, must be impossible to answer because it’s a sarcastic question, like when you ask if the color of milk is white. Therefore my taking wild revenge on all of those who humiliated and mistreated me for these many years, is going to be a God-approved activity.
  • My deal with Jesus: While in a coma I met Jesus Christ and agreed to remain alive for my love to my children/treasures, even if with pain let’s forget about the fact that there exist no possible way to treat (or reduce) the pain of losing a beloved wife with adored children  (called treasures), the possibility to earn money with a job I like to do, saving money, buy a home, few cars and spend time on vacation with my family around this world (unique in this universe), what kind of deal have I ever made with Jesus? I’m certainly here alive, but I can’t see that the other party of my deal is being truthful to the agreement made, how can the word “pain” include the irreparable loss of everything I ever lived for? Can any of my readers try to explain to me this “irrational” concept?
I’m just going to end my post of today with few links and Youtubes about something that can’t find an explanation in my injured mind and it’s about the reason why Jesus (God made into man) decided to die crucified to “free men from sin”.
No matter how much I research and read about this I cannot figure out what sin He freed us from, we still have wars, murders, death penalty, abortions etc…, etc… etc....
The only one sin I can think of is the one that mankind can use the tremendous powers of the brain to make horrible things happen to others (like my former boss - G. Zanatta - whose hate to me for my untimely resignation to join Deckers had my accident happen), that truly makes me question if the death on the cross of Jesus truly liberated all human kind from sin forever.
Please don’t be offended anyone, just remember that my brain is injured and illogic to the point that a Ph. D. (in fear AND cock-meat sandwiches) had me put under the conservatorship of a young girl who must take care of all of my money, so I’m just angry for this PLUS that I can’t live with the family I created myself (with the help of God) and I can’t receive any help to return to be the producer of wealth and joy for my own family.


  1. http://www.gotquestions.org/why-Jesus-die.html
  2. http://www.gci.org/disc/07-whydie
  3. http://carm.org/christianity/christian-doctrine/why-did-jesus-have-die-our-sins
  4. http://www.cbn.com/spirituallife/churchandministry/evangelism/Gowen-Dennis_Jesus_Die_Cross.aspx





Monday, June 23, 2014

INTELLIGENT DESIGN

Most of you – dear readers – should know that while in a coma I agreed with Jesus Christ to remain alive for the love I have for my children (treasures) and you should also all know that I’m a strong creationist, very much an anti-Darwinian, it was with my great surprise to find out of the ongoing battle since centuries between the evolutionists (Darwinist) and the ones who believe in the theory of the intelligent design, or that all is the product of a superior intelligence, usually called God that’s in great agreement with what creationists believe it to be true.
I dedicate this post to the mother of our treasures, only because I hope that she may come here with her heart and mind open to ideas that even if very foreign to her and her education/experience, she may understand that many of the most superior intelligence stated during their lives that the existence of God must be real for its logic and consequentiality.
Given that they were people who became immortally famous because of their thinking concepts, I’m just hoping that by putting together all of these resources, she might believe in what I’ve been saying for a very long time and firm belief about life, our universe and the idea of afterlife, that’s unique to human kind and proves the uniqueness of our planet with its inhabitants.
Enjoy!

  1. http://www.scientificamerican.com/article/15-answers-to-creationist/
  2. http://www.actionbioscience.org/evolution/nhmag.html
  3. http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/evolution/defense-intelligent-design.html
  4. http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2009/11/photogalleries/091123-origin-species-darwin-150-intelligent-design/
  5. http://www.intelligentdesign.org/whatisid.php
  6. http://www.intelligentdesignnetwork.org/
  7. http://umso.wordpress.com/2008/04/19/intelligent-design-vs-evolutionary-theory-a-brief-comparison/
  8. http://www.nytimes.com/2005/12/21/education/21evolution.html?pagewanted=all&_r=1&
  9. http://law2.umkc.edu/faculty/projects/ftrials/conlaw/evolution.htm
  10. http://www.strangenotions.com/what-is-the-difference-between-creevolut-ionintelligent-design/ation-
  11. http://www.gotquestions.org/intelligent-design.html











Sunday, June 22, 2014

NOW IT’S ONLYTHE B27






No matter that I've been complaining for almost (only) 10 years of a terrible pain at my back in the exact same location on a 24/7 basis, no matter the position of my body (sitting, standing and laying in bed) none of my MD has been able to at least guess that it might be AS, but now my latest expert MD has suggested for me to have a simple blood test done to see if I have the B27 (B27 is a blood test to look for a protein that is found on the surface of white blood cells. The protein is called human leukocyte antigen B27 (HLA-B27). Human leukocyte antigens (HLAs) are proteins that help the body's immune system tell the difference between its own cells and foreign, harmful substances) as you can see from the websites I link here and the usual Youtube video that it shouldn’t be very complicated for any MD to know when a patient is affected by this condition, I must however say that I have been under the care of 5 different MD over 8 years of time who all have been incapable to say that my never-ending pain might be from the Ankylosing Spondylitis, only this last one recommended for me to have a specific blood test done to say if I've really been suffering for such a long time from this condition.
Trying to look at things under a “pink light” (as my best caregiver always tells me to do) I can only say that I’m lucky to live in a time when this condition can be proven beyond reasonable doubts with a blood test, nobody wants to risk making an educated guess just based on specific symptoms that haven’t changed in “just 8 years”.


So now I’m glad to take the risk to be proven wrong by chemistry, because IF I’m right…..I’m afraid I can’t tell…..
  1. http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/003551.htm
  2. http://www.spondylitis.org/about/as_diag.aspx
  3. http://emedicine.medscape.com/article/1201027-overview
  4. http://rheumatology.oxfordjournals.org/content/41/8/857.full


Saturday, June 21, 2014

ADVICE ON DIET TO MY (TOO) MANY MD

Given that nobody seems able to help or advise me on what to do to walk (= work) again, watching movies all day long I found a type of food that I want to advise to all of my MD (physiatrists, neurologists, pain specialists, and psychologists).

Of course I never even thought to try it, but I believe it to be especially good for that  psychologist, so just look as usual at the links and the great video here, I’m sure you can find a “big Bob” somewhere……….
  1. http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/patientinstructions/000068.htm
  2. http://www.webmd.com/diet/features/15-best-diet-tips-ever
  3. http://www.webmd.com/food-recipes/features/dietitians-top-10-diet-tips



Friday, June 20, 2014

MORE SERIOUS ON DEATH




On May 30, I wrote already about death but I want to add today that our creator - or God - put inside of each of us the soul and a conscience with a tremendous fear of dying, (we would not be several millions of people now on planet earth). But there are many who have figured out (or guessed) that we all have a soul that leaves the body at death – (even photographed a Russian researcher), then I would now like to try to explain (with links to sites in support of what I say and a nice Youtube video) that in fact if death is just the end of the experience of life on earth, it is the beginning of existence of our soul in some other dimension of time and space, if I knew more and better the quantum physics, maybe I could be more clear, in fact this new area of ​​scientific studies have even shown mathematically the real existence of God, our Creator.
I have already mentioned in my blog in Italian that what Dante Alighieri wrote in his Divine Comedy is incredibly fair, though not quite accurate in the sense that I do not think that anyone who ends up in hell, is dunked into pots of boiling oil and/or is tortured forever by various devils.
I believe that hell is just the eternal existence of the soul (of those who made others suffer when alive) in the vast emptiness and loneliness of our ever-expanding universe, knowing very well where paradise/heaven is, or where Adam and Eve lived in the beginning of time.
So all the various sufferings and tortures narrated by Dante, are nothing more than thoughts and tortures that our own souls make us suffer for eternity knowing (and maybe seeing) very well where they could have ended if we had not hurt others.
Then logically the Purgatory is a middle way, in the sense that when the time has an eternal perspective, we can not say that you will have to wait 10 or 100 or 1,000 years before being admitted into heaven, because that type of time with isn't measured like on earth, I remember reading somewhere that the time it takes on living earth to blink an eye, after death it may well be a whole century.
So in addition to invite you to read my links and watch the Youtube video, I recommend to never harm to anyone else, because it is the sure way to end up in hell (I already know the damned souls I will never see after I die).
  1. http://www.robertlanzabiocentrism.com/is-death-an-illusion-evidence-suggests-death-isnt-the-end/
  2. http://www.robertlanza.com/does-death-exist-new-theory-says-no-2/
  3. http://disinfo.com/2013/11/death-illusion-evidence-suggests-death-isnt-end/
  4. http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/biocentrism/201111/is-death-illusion-evidence-suggests-death-isn-t-the-end
  5. http://whitecrowbooks.com/carlawillsbrandon/entry/physical_death_isnt_the_end_departing_visions_tell_us_so/



Thursday, June 19, 2014

FREEDOM OF SPEECH




I must use this constitutional right of this great country to say what my
(broken) mind has recently discovered, that’s related to my last psychologist EL (also named centuries ago by Boccaccio “the unnamed”) see: http://ebooks.adelaide.edu.au/b/boccaccio/giovanni/b664d/
This esteemed psychologist (even Ph. D.) had the insolence to assess in writing (unlike dr Epperson and dr. Spar) for the Ventura court that I’m unable to manage my interests/money (or I can’t count to 3) and that court that felt compelled to assign to me the only person who has been able to help and listen to me freely (unlike the f….ing idiot of my sister Anna Mai – formerly Lingiardi and my wh….ring ex-wife Michele Werney – formerly Lingiardi too).I was told by reputable sources about all of this bribing and what makes me even more mad than normal is that I was told that the money used to bribe several people was mine – thank you Anna! Given that I’m a true Catholic believer (I met Jesus Christ) I say that while I’d love to procure mortal pain to all the (too) many people who have been taking advantage of me when disabled, I’m simply going to refer it all to the supreme being, creator of this universe, named God.
As I always do I put here below few links consistent to what I’m saying plus another Youtube video that’s been a real eye-opener for me, so enjoy while I use the laws of this country to take some revenge against the ones who have been disrespecting me in a time when I couldn't do much to stop them.
I plan in few more days to post here my understanding of the concept of revenge that’s considered sinful according to Jesus Christ but that’s being used by His father God since the beginning of time, I must wait because I asked for clarification to 6 priests who know about theology much more than I do.
  1. http://www.skipmorganlaw.com/attorney-probate-guardianship-conservatorship.html
  2. http://www.peterjtamases.com/blog/a-routine-conservatorship-a-routine-tragedy/
  3. http://inequalitiesblog.wordpress.com/2011/01/13/unfortunate-unfair-unjust/
  4. http://justcallmecharley.wordpress.com/2011/05/06/legal-definitions-ownership-versus-possession-conservatorship-bailment-intent-violent-crimes-and-gun-laws/
  5. http://nasga-stopguardianabuse.blogspot.com/2014/05/family-of-grandmother-attacked-by-nurse.html




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Monday, June 16, 2014

PLEASE




I need to ask to my readers who come here to know about my life/recovery from TBI and anyone who might come to my blog to both leave comments under any of my posts/scripts (also as anonymous) and leave a small donation of few $ like if you were offering a coffee to me as someone you met and appreciate what was told to you.
I must beg this because the court that assigned to me a conservator decided that since my bills are all paid by my conservator, I’m expected to have $500/month for my “luxuries” that are nothing else than paying my treasures/children for a meal and buying online DVD movies of which I’m proud to say that I now have a pretty big collection, given that watching movies is all I can do all day long.
So I ask to my readers (you) to leave an anonymous comment and donate with the Paypal button one or two $ that surely won’t have you commit to anything too demanding and can make me keep working on my blogs with satisfaction.
I can also be suggested matters of any kind to post here, just let me know by email at clingiardi@gmail.com

  1. http://people.opposingviews.com/advantages-donating-needy-2628.html
  2. http://library.generousgiving.org/page.asp?sec=43&page=412
  3. http://biblehub.com/matthew/6-3.htm
  4. http://www.truechristianity.com/christian/income.htm




Sunday, June 15, 2014

LIVING TOGETHER AGAIN

This post is my letter to you Michele, since I know that my emails all go in your trash and you never read them, I’m hoping that making what I want you to know someone will make you aware of “my proposal” to you.
I’ve been thinking that it might be possible that you can’t live with me anymore because you feel guilty and are ashamed for what you’ve done to deal with my practical death (with the additional challenge that I survived – even if I’ve been practically dead since years), so without getting on top of any throne I tell you that there’s nothing to be ashamed of, I forgive you completely and ask you to return to be my queen, I’m dreaming that living together again we can plan to go to Verona for my mother’s funeral and the sale of my/her house, plus take our treasures to visit the country and all their relatives, then we come back, we buy  a nice house in this area, I go back to work and our lives return to be like they have always been till my accident in 2005 that’s the only reason why they changed at all.
Please think of my proposal, even if I’ll remain as disabled as now we’ll have enough money to continue to have a pretty good life and make sure that our treasures are going to have all the opportunities they could have had (if not more) if nothing ever had happened to me. I’m also planning to make things right and balanced again for us all against all those who for different reasons condemned me to this painful life, I’m actually looking for the right way to take care of this, so not only we are going to have very much money from my home in Verona, so that we’ll have a great rest of our lives and ensure a splendid and comfortable future to our treasures.

  1. http://www.divorceinfo.com/livingtogetherafter.htm
  2. http://www.redbookmag.com/love-sex/advice/living-with-an-ex-after-divorce
  3. http://www.phillymag.com
  4. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/bari-zell-weinberger-esq/house-rules-5
  5. -tips-to-bei_b_1571722.htm
  6. http://www.hg.org/article.asp?id=18785
  7. http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/dilemmas-should-we-divorce-but-carry-on-living-together-for-the-sake-of-our-children-1140117.html
  8. http://singleparents.about.com/od/coparenting/tp/live-with-your-ex.htm
  9. http://www.exconnection.com/advice/8-children/260-divorced-but-living-together-separate-lives-in-the-same-home
  10. http://www.nextavenue.org/article/2013-08/separated-still-living-together





Saturday, June 14, 2014

GUILT



I’m a bit afraid that my being totally furious about my disabled AND abandoned conditions (and I’m beyond mad to those who cause my situation) might not allow me to go to heaven after my real and definitive death, I’m saying this, not only because I had a so-called Near death Experience that had me talk with Jesus Christ for real, but also very much because of my superior intelligence, logic and promptness that some Ph. D. failed to recognize (for fear).
My concern is that I’ve been so angry with certain people that if I’m going to die with this furious anger as my last thought (now permanent), my soul might end up in the infinite solitude that’s called hell, it won’t really matter that I’m still alive only for my love for my treasures, nor that I’m still in dear and passionate love with their mother Michele, I’m afraid that all of this anger will be too much to delete all my true and passionate love.
Even if I’m very intelligent, I haven’t really applied myself in theological or philosophical studies in my life, but since I truly believe that the humans are truly a unique miracle that continue their existence also after the physical end of life here on earth, I know that my love (uniquely human) for my treasures and Michele together to the one for my original family in Italy (Anna included) is very, very strong but I've recently started to be concerned that all of this love might not be sufficient to erase all of my hatred for the (too) many who have made my existence very miserable in these last few years.
I also know that it’s the last thought someone has when dying that determines the place when the soul is going to be forever, and I’m pretty sure that the people responsible to cause such great hatred from me, feel sure and are confident that all they are doing to me is a work of pity and support for (the poor disabled) me.

So I ask to my readers to tell me what they think it might happen to me (my soul) after I die, meaning if my big hatred will be stronger that my immense love for my treasures (I’m alive only for them) and will send me/my soul to hell (emptiness and solitude) forever or if my very strong and confident love will allow me to enter in heaven , also known as the terrestrial paradise.

  1. http://journals.cambridge.org/action/displayAbstract?fromPage=online&aid=7238620&fileId=S016511530000396X
  2. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terrestrial_Paradise_(Bosch)
  3. http://www.newadvent.org/cathen/14519a.htm




Thursday, June 12, 2014

ABOUT CONSERVATORSHIP

I must admit that for a very long time I was furious that a law even existed that takes away any and all freedoms from a citizen of the USA, "the land of the free", but after few years of suffering I must admit that this legal system isn't too bad, my case is just one of those that “fell through the cracks” and was very unjustly applied to me, I think for these reasons:
  • The experienced psychologist who assessed me (can’t name him to save him from embarrassment) had several different fears and was under monetary pressures, that made him put in writing that someone should help me to manage my life
  • The Ventura court and its judge never even exchanged a word with me but simply took the written assessment about my need to be controlled like it came from some kind of “superior entity”
  • The conservator I was assigned is a very young woman who inherited from her mother this profitable activity (BUT given that her age is half of mine, I used to work in presidential position in companies in 2 continents for more than 10 years, I have a Ph. D. in economics with a master in international trading and can speak 5 different languages, very fluently in 2 of them) she hasn't been able to manage correctly my various interests and relationships across the continents and for fear to make any mistake has followed to the letter what the law mandates to be done in cases of conservatorship for people who can’t even count to 3 correctly.
  • My still very beloved wife Michele Werney (I am now divorced) and sister Anna Mai (in Italy) for different (criminal) reasons completely gave up on helping me in any way - as I've been posting here - I've been totally abandoned by those whom I still now I love dearly, simply because they too decided to believe in what the assessment on me had stated, so I’m now counting on receiving help by my good and determined conservator who will allow me to receive the medical treatment that not only condemned me to conservatorship but that no MD ever wanted to both discuss with me or administer at all.
I therefore must thank the conservatorship I received in such an unjust manner because it can give to me the one possibility to maybe recover from my horrible disabilities and be closer to my treasures.


  1. http://www.boomersbewareofconservatorshipabuse.info/
  2. http://www.independent.com/news/2011/aug/17/free-last/
  3. http://www.advocatesforelderjustice.org/Guardianship_Abuse.html
  4. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/carole-herman/conservatorships-beware_b_1785309.html


Tuesday, June 10, 2014

SOME LIGHTHEARTED THOUGHTS






I was gifted by something (intelligent design??) to find this full movie (Expelled, no intelligence allowed!) in Youtube that I now post here.
Take some quiet time to watch it all with attention and try to answer to my question: “why was the intelligent design theory so controversial if even our pledge of allegiance says:”one nation under God”?
I hope that everyone who reads me here knows that I’m a strong creationist for both having been born in Italy (country hosting the Vatican country) and for having agreed with Jesus Christ to remain alive for the love I have for my treasures. As my “personal pastor” Don Betto in Ventura used to tell me, if what had happened to me would have happened few decades ago, I’d be already sanctified and I can’t even begin to say how much fun I had with my “catholic extremist caregiver” trying to come up with a name I could use, since a Saint Carlo exists already.
Given that I must have a close relationship with our Creator, I've been able to forgive the Ph.D. who condemned me to full conservatorship, because when I put together what the very famous and experienced dr. Spar of UCLA said about what that man did to me (I quote: ”he tried to follow the rule of the better be safer than sorry”) with the type of “consensus building” environment that exists among this type of psychologists (he didn’t want to disagree with what dr. Tomaszewski had assessed of me few weeks after my exiting from the coma), given that once a brain is injured it can NEVER repair itself (as all the textbooks state since the beginning of time),


I can understand – and forgive – where and how this conservatorship hell comes from and its very reason to exist. Of course, I shouldn't even mention that by correcting all the wrongs I've been subjected to (especially by the mother of my treasures, Michele and /or my former true sister Anna Mai) everyone might be forgiven by God, our creator too.
  1. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pledge_of_Allegiance
  2. http://www.berkeley.edu/news/media/releases/2004/03/24_choper.shtml

Sunday, June 08, 2014

BRAIN AND MIRACLES




I said here few times before that the brain is the antenna receiver that puts us humans in contact with the God creator and that miracles are just what no science can ever explain because they are immeasurable and the result of a superhuman act of God when in contact with our brain that’s ready to make it happen due to focus, concentration and strong will, or desire.
I also posted here the Youtube of the man explaining that it’s best to pray Jesus, rather than God directly simply because we know what he looks like and given the real concept of the Trinity praying to Jesus for something we want it to happen is just like praying God-self, with the important difference that we do know what Jesus looks like.
I believe that this is why science still has no idea on how to heal a damaged brain; in fact, it can only repair itself, just as the skin does when it’s cut or bruised.
Nothing exists that can heal/repair an injured brain, in fact we now know that the injured brain remains inflamed for decades after the actual injury (not 2 or 3 days as thought in the past) and by injecting directly (by perispinal injection) the anti-inflammatory Enbrel (very successful TNF-α arthritic inflammation reducer) the brain inflammation reduces to nothing and allows the brain plasticity to have again the ability to re-wire its neurons with their billions of connections all around the dead parts that only God can create again.
What’s truly sad is that the handful of MD who know and practice this real revolutionary brain healing therapy are more interested in personal earnings rather than share this wealth of knowledge while none of the governmental institutes seems interested at all to put an end to this “money-making scheme” done at the expenses of desperate victims of TBI like myself.

As always, I put here few links and Youtube videos consistent to what I say and ask again for small donations and comments from you!

  1. http://www.healthshare.com.au/questions/1802-as-seen-on-60-minutes-perispinal-etanercept
  2. http://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2012/02/nobody-declared-brain-dead-ever-wakes-up-feeling-pretty-good/253315/