Carlo Lingiardi

Sunday, January 17, 2016

MY BEST FRIEND

Aside from the fact that my accident had me lose everything I ever loved, worked and was passionate about, what hurts me more than the too many other losses is that I lost my very best friend (Michele) whom I used to talk for several hours each day about pretty much everything i.e.

· work, our children/treasures

· their education with their friends

· ways to spend their free time

· “important” expenses of something to buy for our home

· Where to go for the upcoming vacations (mine and our children’s)

· Clothes to buy for everyone

I must stop my list here because this list would be too long, in other words Michele and I were like one only mind in two different bodies and this is what made our partnership very strong and special.

She truly was my very best friend to the point that not only we used to talk about all that ever came to our minds, but in a way we could somehow read our minds too, or we often would start to say something that we just got in mind and my spouse (Michele) would immediately say “I was just thinking the same”, it was just like both our minds were interconnected, therefore there wasn’t any need to talk to each other, all was already in both of our thoughts without the need to express it with words.

Obviously - since I’m a man and Michele is and will always be a beautiful woman – some differences between us both did exist, but mostly genetic (instinctual) and never got in the way of our perfect connection.

In short one of my biggest and most painful losses is Michele, the very best friend I ever had, who together with my job (work), physical fitness, wealth and connections with friends and family - all over the world – have been making them what made me choose to end my life ASAP.

Truth is that while in the coma, during my NDE I met with Jesus Christ (probably a projection of my beliefs) to agree to survive the accident (even if in pain) for the love I have for my two treasures.

Saturday, January 16, 2016

TI VOGLIO BENE

The literal translation of this post title is “I want good/well for you” that in some ways it corresponds to the “I love you” in English.

However the Italian correct translation of “I love you” is “ti amo” that’s simply ansolutely never used between men (if so you are it’s between fags/homosexuals) while the “ti voglio bene” is used between men, women, children of the same sex, parents to children (parents can say “ti amo” to their own children, though) and various relatives.

It’s also very common to use the “ti voglio bene” between husband and his wife, my parents always said so and I used to do the same.

Italians transition from “ti amo” at the beginning of their relationship to the “ti voglio bene” when married for some time.

This subtle difference is what I intend to teach soon to my treasures, I don’t want them to say “ti amo” to their Italian relatives when in Italy, it would be way too weird and inappropriate, I can imagine already my princess saying “ti amo” to her cousins while there, neither I can think to my hero-son saying to my sister (Anna) that he loves her.

Both cases would be too weird and out of place, therefore I want them to know this from my blog and from me directly.

My princess called by herself my mother (nonna) yesterday speaking Italian and she made my mother walk 3 feet from the floor for the rest of the day, they couldn’t talk directly to each other before, either myself, Brent or her mother would have to be present with the phone on the speaker and all that my princess could say was (yes, yes, yes) or “si, si, si”.

I think that since she knows now that I’ll take her with me to Verona, she wants to feel better in speaking in the language that’s in her genes, my mother tells me that when she was here because I was in coma, my princess could form phrases in Italian so complex that my mother was very impressed and still now she tells me that not even Italian children of that age express themselves in that way.

I believe that I dream to bring my princess to Italy at least as much as she’s been dreaming to be there herself, I’m sure that we both will have a great time there and I’ll be very proud to introduce my real princess to the rest of her family in Italy, first however I’ll have to teach to her the correct way to use the verb love in Italian.

Thursday, January 14, 2016

THE RIPPLE EFFECT

Very recently my hero-son, next Lingiardi generation, when came back from a camping trip in NH told me that the most important thing he learned while there is that everything is connected and I’ve been thinking with much pride to his new understanding of human life.

In fact I recently received the movie entitled the “ripple effect” that explores the idea that events are interconnected, that every action causes a reaction. Like ripples in water they intersect and alter each other. What I found it to be most compelling is that everyone’s lives aren’t fixed; we alter them by intention – our own intention. Like ripples of behavior that intersect and change other’s people behavior, I think that I bought this movie mainly for its cast of actors, most of them Grammy winners who give to what they interpret a strong injection of credibility.

Like the MERU movie I hope to see it with my son, very much also because it’s a beautiful way to represent that we are truly all connected in this entire universe, we are in charge of the way our own life develops and that we can influence the lives of others.

I’m hoping that the Youtube trailer and the links can be reason to want to watch it.

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

MERU DOCUMENTARY

After having received this amazing documentary about a super-human climb of the mountain named MERU, I asked to my hero son (reincarnation of my dad) who had the idea to buy this documentary, because I wasn’t sure if it came from him or from my psychologist, who often gives me ideas about good movies to watch, it turns out that it was me who thought of it because of the fact that my son has this passion of rock climbing (again from my dad).

The part that impressed me the most is when one of the team of climbers gets hit by a snow avalanche while skiing down a vertical snow wall somewhere in Tibet, as a result his skull gets fracture on the top and two vertebrae’s in his neck brake while cutting one artery that brings blood to the brain, therefore leaving his brain without any blood for several minutes, once he arrives (by airplane) to the hospital and receives urgent care all doctor say that he’ll never walk again (sounds familiar?) and will need constant care for the rest of his life"however he’s lucky not to have turned into a vegetable".

Well, this guy takes a first timid walk with the help of the star of this documentary - Conrad Anker – and starts to work as hard as humanly possible to get both his legs and arms back to the top condition they were and much to my amazement convinces both his wife and Conrad to be part of the new attempt to climb MERU.

I put here a couple of Youtube trailers with the strong advice to watch this wonderful movie about the strength of human mind and how important is to be part of a team when going for the (inexistent) impossible.I’m going to watch it with my hero-son as much as I’ll go to Verona next summer with my princess Lingiardi walking

Saturday, January 09, 2016

MY REVENGE

I put here the links to my previous posts about revenge

because – no matter how many people (priest and theologians) I still remain of the idea that – even if Jesus was our God creator as man – revenge was taken for his death by crucifixion such as:

· the wall of the tears in Jerusalem

· the crusades of centuries ago

· the seemingly never-ending war in Palestine

· Terrorism from that area

All seem to me like God has been taking revenge for Jesus (= for himself) being crucified, I know that’s written in the bible that God says that “revenge is mine” but I was thinking that once made into man, revenge wouldn’t be the same.

Therefore I can’t feel bad (or guilty) when my revenge (in the form of very expensive lawsuits) will soon be taken; no matter if I know already of the type of eternity those souls are going to have once their body will be left here.

However here are few links that support what I believe:

Long Youtube video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i_DGTt9rENM

Friday, January 08, 2016

PHYSICAL vs. COGNITIVE DISAB.

For too long of a time I couldn’t understand the reason why my inability to walk made me obliged to be under conservatorship, after having made my usual research (see links below) I realized of the existence of a great confusion btw. Physical and cognitive disabilities, in the sense that while someone who’s forced to sit on a wheelchair (like me) isn’t necessarily someone who isn’t able to manage money, nor is unable to make logical choices among various options in any field.

I cannot believe that in this day and age there are still powerful and important people who when they see someone sitting on a wheelchair they think that it must be an idiot they look at (plenty examples here).

What’s ridiculous is that I was convinced that I still was very logical and clear in my thinking because of God’s intervention.

Well it isn’t, in fact I remember very well of a dinner with an important attorney who used to work for the company that had recently hired me, who was on a wheelchair, I had dinner with this man and when I went back to my family, I spoke of this (disabled) man for almost a full hour saying what a good professional he was before mentioning (almost as an afterthought) that he was on a wheelchair.

This is the very reason of this post, or that there are plenty others who – even if prisoners of a wheelchair – hold important jobs in high positions, so why am I considered as unable to manage money that I mostly earned in plenty years of work at very high levels and that comes from my family’s wealth? Am I too impaired cognitively to count to 10? Where’s the fairness here?

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