My dad was
the greatest man I ever met in life or I’ve ever imagined that someone like him
could exist; in fact here I’ve referred to him here several times as Saint
Gianfranco. I can remember that he always stated that death is the
fairest event we all have and experience in life in fact “no matter how wealthy, important or - beloved by many - someone can be,
life ends for everyone, even kings and the Pope die….” Few months before he
passed over he gave me a very important talk that – given that I was already
very much in the quantum sciences study – impressed me very much.
He told me
that he wasn’t scared to die because he was present at the death of most
of his relatives (sister, brother mother and father in addition to brothers plus sisters
in law) and told me
that given that he could see the souls of these people leaving their bodies at
death “I’m
actually curious to know what happens after” he told me. While I’m
still now admiring him for his ability to be positively in touch with reality,
I do envy him very much now, simply because it was my intention to give to my
children/treasures the same influence and education that my own dad could give
to me.
Much about
what he taught to me about death, its fairness because it happens truly to
everyone is today something that’s become common knowledge, so many papers and
articles can be found everywhere, BUT my spin to these ideas is that while I do
agree that death is really fair, what can really make the difference is how one
can choose to die, after having chosen the life to live.
Disappointingly
and sadly I’m unable to bring forward in the future generation of my two treasures not
only the fact that I’m not living with them –
and therefore totally unable to give them any guidance and/or teachings with
talks (like
my dad did for 35+ years) but in addition I cannot add to what my dad taught me (even if I was in my
late 40ies already)
the concept of the possibility to choose the kind of death someone wants.
As a matter
of fact I’m probably the last who should say anything about the possibility
to choose the kind of death someone wants, simply because – due to my love
for my two treasures/creatures, I chose not to die but to survive.
Since years
I’ve been struggling with the fact that as I came out of the coma I said to
have met with Jesus Christ and given that I have no memory whatsoever of having
had this experience, I decided to embrace it anyway because I love it, in addition, my way to look at life (mine and thatof others) has turned totally upside down, to the point that I believe to be
still in touch with both Jesus, angels and the beings in afterlife, and that I sometimes meet with people who – out of the blue – give me
comments like they’ve known me and my family since years, in fact I’ve
been forcing myself to believe that they are angels sent to tell me things from our creator, otherwise no other explanation could be given to facts such as
these.
Earlier I
said that life too is something that we can choose to live the way we want (free-will) no matter what happens…..think of me in example, a man with a wonderful family and career I got almost killed and given my survival I must see being cheated by my wonderful wife, my great man/son take the wrong road for his life and I must be aware of the
examples that my stupendous daughter is exposed to, given I’m not around.
All of this
aside from the fact that not only I both cannot work anymore BUT IN ADDITION I
cannot participate in any medical procedure that may get me “like new” with the
real insult to have been appointed to have a conservator who manages all of my
money and can make decisions about my health……..apparently without conservator's permission I can’t take an aspirin
when I have a cold (daaaahhhh)……
The fact
that I precisely know what the afterlife will be for the individuals I just
mentioned, does very little to my conscience, in fact I wish that what my
atheist friend Iacopo says – or that if people knew of how what they do (to others)
while living, can impact their afterlives – the entire
world would change overnight (see my Iacopo vs Jesus post).
Surely my
being an Italian, makes me wish that I could go and kill with pain all those who have been torturing me
since years; however my precise knowledge of the way their eternity is (soon) going to be, calms me down very
much. Now therefore spend some time, having fun going to the websites linked
below and see if you can make me a
donation…. However small you want/can.
- http://www.psychforums.com/living-with-mental-illness/topic45567.html
- https://thebodyisnotanapology.com/magazine/learning-to-live-with-wanting-to-die/
- https://www.quora.com/What-is-the-point-of-living-if-we-have-to-die-someday
- https://medium.com/@maywang7/if-we-all-end-up-dying-what-s-the-purpose-of-living-4bf9154669e1
- https://www.quora.com/How-can-I-come-to-terms-with-the-fact-that-I-will-die-and-that-a-long-life-is-not-a-guarantee
- https://www.quora.com/Every-one-of-us-will-die-eventually-so-whats-the-meaning-of-life
I never
regret having survived my accident because I can look at you growing up and
turn into the beautiful woman I can already see you are going to be. However
please never forget that you have a dad stronger than death itself and I'm not
afraid of anything anymore, death included, so do feel constantly safe simply because
your dad is always with you and even if you are scared or somebody might hurt
you in some way, do know that I - your only dad - will never leave you in any
uncomfortable situation, not even death scares me anymore and I'm certainly
ready to give my life to save yours, therefore be proud and happy to have me as your
dad and always be self-confident, nothing ever can hurt you in any way shape or
form, when you go to sleep later have good dreams knowing that I'll always be
watching you, even when you sleep.
