Carlo Lingiardi: November 2016

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

MY HERITAGE

On 11/23 I wrote a new post in the blog dedicated to my two treasures, I just decided to put it here too, with little modifications because I feel it to be important to express my infinite love for them both.

I grew up with a father (their grandpa) who made me happy more times than I can remember and – even if I’ve never been an easy person to deal with – he showed to me how much he loved me through his care, protection and generosity.

One example is the several cars he bought to me, including the huge Renault Espace (first minivan in EU) and the very much money he gave to me and to Michele for each and every home we ever bought here in the USA.

What I want to say here is that my dad truly left in me a very good witness of his great love for me and - in addition he used to say that Michele was like an additional daughter for him, just like my sister Anna had another sister - he had done this to show how much love and acceptance he had for my wife, in other words he showed how much love he had for me.

Well the same I want to do for you, my young Lingiardi, I want to leave a good witness of me – your real dad – even if I cannot live with you anymore.

I want my witness to be what you’ll have in mind every time you think of me, even 40 years from today, and this is going to be what I always said to my employees when I was working, or that “nothing is impossible”, it’s just a matter of having the right attitude about the challenge that even if it hasn’t been managed with success by anyone else, you can succeed in managing it if you are willing to work hard without taking any shortcut.

This is my main reason not to have any doubt that eventually I will travel, walk and work again, there isn’t enough pain or desperation that can make me give it all up, this is truly what I want to leave behind to you both as my witness, I wish that 40 years from now you’ll say “ha yes, my dad used to be like a column carrier who didn’t give up even to brain injury with loss of his family and job”. This is something that I want you to learn well from me, or that no matter how hard, big or scary something may be for you to do, you can always find the right way to do it, it’s enough to think deeply about the right and easiest way to do it and be unafraid to work long and hard to succeed in reaching your goal.

And when things don’t go the way you want or planned them to be, just look for the next step in your plan and focus on the future, rather than cry over the present and the past.

Sunday, November 27, 2016

WALKING AGAIN

Spending all my waking hours in my desolate solitude, I’ve created arithmetic equalization that defines my frustrated status of constant frustration and never-ending hope, that’s W = W or that by learning to walk again I can return to work again, and on the walking concept I put here a video of myself training in a gym few years ago with specialists in physical therapy dedicated to TBI victims that while they were all good and experienced couldn’t make me walk again.

It turns out (see links) that for TBI victims balance and muscles tone is a very common issue and while now I’m sure that I no longer have issues with my balance, I lost tone not only in the muscles of my leg, but the muscles in the back that help to sustain the erected posture when walking and therefore help the movement forward of the leg.

In addition there’s the recent fall with the fracture of my left femur that resulted in a complex surgery (52 stitches) that put steel bar along the entire femur that’s attached to my back with 3 steel screws 6 inches long at least.

I must admit that when I saw the X-rays of my left leg I was very impressed and I immediately thought to the alarm of metal detectors people must walk through in airport.

However, where I’m living now I’ve been threatened that if I ever fall again I’m going to have 3 days to leave the place, so whenever I want/need to transfer from the wheelchair anywhere else I must call someone to look and eventually help me in my transfer.

Regardless of all of this I’ve been training to rebuild my leg and back muscles with 2 physical therapists who come to my room twice a week and taught me some exercises to do by myself when they aren’t with me.

My goal is not only to get back to working again, but to bring my princess daughter G. to Verona next summer to meet the Italian side of her family and become very fluent in Italian.

When we’ll be back here I’m planning to get back to work by September and show that TBI recovery is yet something else that can’t be called impossible, as I’ve been saying for decades the impossible doesn’t exist, it’s just a matter of attitude and willingness to work hard.
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Thursday, November 24, 2016

FORESEEING THE FUTURE

Understanding God and his nature, has made me capable to foresee what will happen in the future, mostly for macro situations, meaning that I cannot foresee what might happen to individuals, including myself.

Several months ago – probably more than a full calendar year – I told to my real sister in Verona that since the USA had been very light with its economy while EU made the USA much heavier than normal (complete economic crisis resulting in USD weakness with EU unnatural strength) Now we are going to see the gravitational weights of these 2 continents either balance themselves (as my sister wishes) or make a complete turnaround of positions, meaning that the exchange rates USD/EU are (already) going to re-balance themselves in their “natural ”positions of USD strength vs. EU weakness.

As I always do I put below few links to websites confirming my thesis, that isn’t surely derived from my Ph.D. in economics, it rather comes from my understanding of the way gravity affects our world.

I remember growing up when 1 USD was worth 2 Lira, rather than what we have had now, or 1 EU is worth about 0.5 USD, however I’ve been looking at the determination of the Americans (US citizens) to raise up to their economic challenge by reinforcing and expanding the infrastructures in the country while the (all) EU countries taking advantage of the strength of their currency totally forgetting to reinforce their economic infrastructures (transportation, like roads and railways plus schools/education, chemical plants, steel plants – local wars – ISIS – and basic economic disasters, with Greece going down as the first country of the European Union ).

While this has a black and white impact on the business of our companies that have a good business in EU, it’s simple enough to look at the way we did business with EU in the 80'es and 90'es to learn how to be profitable with a good business, no matter how the exchange rate can play a strong role in making sales and our profitability goals.

This is the reason why I believe to be well positioned to help companies that rely on their business in EU simply because I earned my Ph.D. in Economics in 1989, that was the end of the 80'es and the beginning of the 90'es, a key period for our two economies (USA - EU).

Wednesday, November 23, 2016

WHY PERSONAL??

Some of my readers ask me what I mean when I say that someone – as soul – will end up in their personal hell or personal heaven therefore I’m going to try to clarify what’s the meaning of my using the term personal:

Once we become souls after we die, all that’s left of us are the micro electric impulses used by our brains to function themselves and have our body perform what’s necessary for the body to live a normal life i.e. breathing, seeing, liver and kidneys functioning, bones growing and repairing themselves when broken, same for the skin, hair in the entire body to grow etc.…., etc.….this list could go on for too long, in addition these “quantum electrical charges” retain all of our experiences and learnings had while living that all together form the conscience (that isn’t in any specific part of the brain, it’s simply a part of the soul) now, since each and every conscience is different for every individual and it forms – as a projection - our afterlife, once we judge ourselves, here’s what happens:

a) Hell our soul has a heavy weight for having hurt somebody else and we regret doing it, but since we aren’t living anymore we cannot be alive on earth to repair our wrongs, this is what makes our soul regret (probably forever) what we did to somebody else, this is hell that becomes personal simply because our souls live again whatever either gave pain or scared us to death while alive, for me it would be to drown or have a mortal accident when scuba diving – embolism – that obviously cannot be the same to someone who used to ride horses while living, this is what I mean with true hell

b) Purgatory is when we did hurt somebody else, however we’ve been able to somehow make it better for our victim and as a result we can at least see Heaven with the understanding that eventually we’ll end up there, of course the time (the NOW) we’ll spend in Purgatory is completely decided on our own and it’s completely dependent to the weight of the wrong committed (but later corrected) against someone else.

c) Heaven you can go straight to Heaven, not only when you never hurt anybody else, but you helped those in need too and also here you can really refer to it as personal Heaven that’s the very projection of our conscience of all we did that gave pure joy and satisfaction while living, like being in places or with somebody doing what we loved the most etc..

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

HAS TBI INCREASED MY INTELLIGENCE?

I used to say that much of what I can understand and realize/learn is due to my still existing connection with the afterlife, but in thinking about this I can say that while my intelligence has always been somehow superior to average since I was born, it might be that my being very smart has something to do with my TBI. In fact, while browsing – as usual – websites dedicated to TBI I found several that talk about the fact that once a brain gets injured certain hidden or unknown capacities get freed or unlocked and give some kind of “super powers” to the victim.

I must say that this would give a very good explanation to my superior (than before the accident) skills and practical intelligence without using some type of extra natural reason.

Without using appropriate measurements, I’m convinced that if my basic IQ used to be 1.000, it’s now become at least 100.000 if not more.

This however is just a personal opinion especially because I never took an IQ test before my accident; therefore I have no comparison basis, nor I can say that now I’m some kind of genius.

What’s true is that I can now talk and discuss with true experts both via email and by phone complex subjects – many still at the research level – sharing my opinions that are received as coming from someone equal to the true expert online with me.

Often my observations and questions help the res-ponder to move forward the research being done and give new cues to move it forward, in fact I’m usually thanked for having gotten in touch with the researcher and for having prompted additional progress.

Let’s forget about the fact that I now know exactly what happens when we die and after it, I’m truly impressed to have developed curiosity and knowledge in fields that I could never imagine would be of any interest to me, such as quantum theories, physics and theology/philosophy.

I guess that my head injury has “unlocked” potentials I never knew I could have.

Sunday, November 20, 2016

MY TRUE BRAIN INJURY

Very few years ago I went to the UCLA with all my brain MRI’s to meet with a famous neurologist, who not only put in his PC my MRI’s done at the Cottage hospital and at the general hospital in Ventura, but had me taken an MRI from his team, because he told me to be more familiar looking at the way they are done there.

Much to my surprise I was told that the part mostly damaged in my brain is the motor cortex (from it my hemi-paresis) and – much less seriously – the occipital lobe (sight field cut) I was actually told that it isn’t surprising that as I came out of the coma I could fluently speak Italian and English, plus I still had both clarity of thinking, focus and practical intelligence, together with good memory of my expertise in all the fields I used to be involved with.

He actually advised me to go as a resident to one of the Casa Colina rehab centers.
I immediately discarded because far from my family and because I had resided already for few months in the Santa Barbara TBI rehab center named Solutions, where I had worked and met with very experienced and good rehab trainers, sadly with very little progress in my hemi-paresis and walking.

In simple words, my post here is about the several neuropsychological assessment I had to do in my sad past, while the initial ones (few weeks after the end of the coma) were probably accurate (at that time I was convinced to have a lobster alive in my left leg) but all he ones that I had to take years later have been a joke – you, reader can try to take one and tell me if you can come out “normal” – the true tragic outcome of what this kind of test/assessment results in the legal obligation to have someone with the license of conservator (Hahahaha) to take over the management of all of my money – current and future – and take any medical decision about the conservatee (me).

It goes without me saying it that my experience with this kind of “professionals” is less than bad & sad.

I.E. the first one I was assigned by a dumb judge of the Ventura court was a woman who stole from me and my children $80.000 for making sure that I couldn’t try a non-FDA approved (NOT YET!!) that might have me waste several thousands of $$$ - no comment on the difference betw. the amount I had been stolen by that woman vs. how much I’d have spent myself doing a therapy that might not have provided to me what I was looking for…….

Since that monster thief lives in Ventura and I’m now based in Santa Barbara – too far for her to commute – I’m now under the legal powers of a man who proved to love the pussy more than God, in fact he married a woman who gave him children; I doubt they have any resemblance with him.

Well, this guy found himself with a family (wife and children) to support and thought that his only chance to “earn” any money is to steal it from disabled people.

What shocks me more than anything else is that this man was close to God, therefore well aware of the real existence of the afterlife, so I cannot figure out how he can think not to go to his own hell forever, this – of course – applies to any and all the conservators, they are those taking advantage of a very wrong legislation that hopefully is going to be eradicated soon (D. Trump?) – no wonder I’m a supporting member of the NASGA association.

Anyway, this guy seems to be less expensive than the monster thief in Ventura (who’ll never get married, never have children and will prematurely die in pain) and much more sensitive to the needs of my two treasures – like if I, as their real father – couldn’t take care of my treasures, therefore I needed a professional uneducated thief to take my role.

Something else that makes my blood boil in the veins is that

my own sister, was my guardian but put me in the hands of the law, for selfish and complex reasons and
my still beloved wife has been refusing to take the role that’s very natural for the spouse of a victim of such senseless neuropsychological assessment.

I don’t need to begin to say what I’d have done if the positions were reversed between Michele and I, anyone who knows me can testify that there wouldn’t be a part of this earth where I wouldn’t have already gone to, or dug into, neither any conservator could have ever put the hands on my Queen.

I feel now the need to say that no money has any value whatsoever after we die, only if you have your children it can be left to them and this is truly why my blood keeps boiling, the only way to repair this wrong would be to cut a $40,000 check for what was stolen from me, to give to each of my two children......or you'll be in hell forever!

Too much I was stolen for me to give the comfort I was planning to give to my treasures, like my dad did for me and for my Queen.

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

TBI UNLOCKED MY MIND POWER

Everyone who ever had anything to do with me knows very well how powerful my thinking and planning has always been.

Everyone who ever had anything to do with me knows very well how powerful my thinking and planning has always been.
I.e. whenever I had any kind of challenge either in my personal life or at work (financial stability, sales goals by area employees’ health and rewards) I simply make a plan with as many steps as I thought necessary, share it with my team and go into action as a unified mind with each and every part of it in sync with the others and me.

I believe that psychologists call this a conscious mind, but I must say that it may be possible that my injured brain has increased this power of it, I often say that it must be that I’ve remain connected somehow with the afterlife, but after making some research, I learn that it’s common for victims of TBI to acquire additional abilities never had before.

I think that this is called the "acquired savant phenomenon".

In my case however, I really didn’t acquire anything new, or that I never had before, in fact my mind has always been very powerful, to the point that it used to take me no effort whatsoever to make people happy or angry towards anything, just by spending few words on the subject.

It’s funny that I used to think that it was my way of describing what was needed or I wanted to arouse the determination to reach the goal I was interested in, but now that my mind has gotten so stronger I realize that I used to utilize the God-given power of my mind to reach my goals of those of my business.

As a matter of fact now that a part of my brain is dead I find it easy to say that this mind power has increased or changed somehow, in the sense that while I know well what the object of my power will do, I know too that this determination isn’t going to be expressed immediately – like in the past – it’s now become a matter of time before I can see the desired effects.

I’m going to spend some more time on this because the simple fact that my soul-mate remains convinced that she lives better without me demonstrates to me that my own mind-power isn’t the way it was.

Sunday, November 13, 2016

MY SINGULARITY

My survival and encounter with Jesus Christ, together with my agreement, has put me in the singularity field, that like I’ve always done in my life, puts me in the position of taking advantage of it.

I cannot put yet here the pictures of the X-rays that were done to my left leg, but believe me when I say that they are horrific!! – a metal plate on the exterior part of my left knee fixed in place with 4 screws, a steel bar along my entire femur, kept in place by few screws and 4 horrendous steel screws (about 6 inches long each) to keep in place the femur head to the back, I wonder what will happen when I’ll go through a metal detector like the ones in the airports….,.

Anyway, I put here an inspiring piece of the Matrix movie where a young boy explains how using the power of the brain to bend a spoon.

Based on this I decided that the superior strength of my mind (regardless that it’s injured) I’m soon going to make all of the metal in my leg be removed, since there’s going to be no more need to keep it in.

I know too that the meaning of singularity is very new and current; therefore I put here few links to sites that explain it better than I can do.

Saturday, November 12, 2016

ALWAYS ON BRAIN REPAIR

I was recently visited by an occupational therapist who mentioned that it’s common today for victims of TBI to use natural methods to heal the injured brain and mentioned a root (or spice) that I had never heard of before and since I have more free time than I can count, I made a small search about how this root – Turmeric – acts on an injured brain to help its repair, therefore I put below few links in support of this.

This has come as a great surprise to me, since I’m someone who’s always believed that any cure or medication for the human body is chemical, certainly not something as simple as a vegetable root, I therefore looked into this root and any other vegetable/natural method to achieve injured brain healing (given that perispinal Enbrel is what’s put me under conservatorship).

In fact I recently purchased a very inexpensive CVS product named Turmeric Curcumin and I’ve started to take little of it every day, but since I feel that my physical strength is diminished, I decided to take it before going to bed.

Maybe my muscular weakness has nothing to do with Turmeric, but - as we say – “better be safer than sorry” I really need to exercise my body again, I’ve been on a bed for more than 3 months since my fall and hip fracture (plus surgery) and I can tell by myself that I lack strength on my right side, that never happened before, I’m therefore going to start exercising not only on my own, but with two new physical trainers who just started to come to my Villa room and seem both experienced and self-confident.

It goes without me saying it that sooner than later I’m going to be the “combat bull” that I’ve always been and my doubts that Turmeric may be part in my weakness will evaporate like water in the sun,

Thursday, November 10, 2016

MY NEW LEARNINGS

This new post comes from an absence of more than 3 months but in this time of personal physical tragedy, both my heart and brain have opened much more than before in the areas of religions, brain capacities and Bible teachings.

As I’ve stated here before my connection with the afterlife and with Jesus too have made me reason and understand very much more than what we are taught with Catholic teachings.

I therefore hope not to make any of my readers scream for what I’m about to say, that somehow I’ve told in this blog through my past posts already.

In fact I find it sarcastic that a genius researcher such as Stephen Hawking (physicist and mathematics professor at the University of London since many years) can state that our universe could only get created by the “appearance” of gravity. I therefore recently came to the conclusion that when Jesus referred to his father or Jehovah he was talking about gravity, in fact how could Jesus walk on water and perform miracles such as the Canaan’s wedding or the resuscitation of Lazarus, if Jesus wasn’t gravity made into man? (if you ask directly to me, I can explain in more detail)as anyone can easily agree gravity is everywhere, sees everything, so knows it all and by doing this it’s very easy to predict behaviors just like we humans can do when we know somebody very well and – depending on the situation –we can predict the way someone else – a friend or part of our family – is going to react when something happens.

But let me now go through once again to what happens when we die, that seems to be a real curiosity since the beginning of time.

Given that few centuries ago Lavoisier stated "that “nothing is created, as well as nothing can be destroyed”, all the “electrical charges” that our brain utilizes to function and instruct our full body to function (i.e. breathing, heart beating, digestion, hair and nails growth, sight and hearing) simply leave the body retaining all the experiences and learnings accumulated while living and pass over into the afterlife dimension, where what’s in the conscience project what it contains good or bad, depending on how we decide (on our own) the way our eternity will be spent.

Of course when someone is convinced that – as a soul – God in person will decide the way this soul will be forever (hell, purgatory or heaven) that will be exactly what that person – as soul –is going to experience, atheists will instead will exist – as sous – in a status of continuous fluctuation between good and bad (don’t know if there’s any self-awareness) until “rescued” by the love of someone else.

Like my atheist friend says in his books (Iacopo), if people would realize their afterlife, the entire word would change overnight, what I say instead is simply that if people would read and believe what the Jew son of a Palestinian carpenter (Jesus or gravity made into a man) proved with his own sacrifice, teachings and personal examples, truly the world could be forever different.

I must refrain myself from giving examples of what kind of afterlife people I know are looking at because by simply describing the “what and how” I’d make them too recognizable not only to themselves but to plenty others, I certainly don’t need this type of troubles. Look at this good Youtube too and go to the links below, as usual.

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