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Friday, January 10, 2020

IMPORTANT TO REALIZE



OK few of my readers accused me to have become “too catholic in my posts” therefore today I simply want to share what’s been flying through my mind lately, please don’t consider what I’m about to say here is dumb, because it comes from my mind directly that – as I assume you do know well - is the part that can’t be injured no matter the gravity of the brain injury - assuming that our mind is really in our brain.
What I’m going to do is to simply to bullet point my thoughts (realizations), rather than listing them by number. So that it’s very clear that each point in my list is less important than the previous one, or the other way around, so here we go:
·       My accident with tbi has devastated both my US family and the one in Italy
·       The devastation hasn’t been for me and my brain, but, mainly in what I’ve considered as the destruction of my “personal empire” be from its foundations.
·       Not only my brain lost its equilibrium and high clarity of vision, about myself, my family, the reason why we are here, what’s our “living mission and the way to accomplish the reason why we are living now here on earth (for such a short period of time)
·       When I “woke up” from my 2 months long  coma, my own dad (absolutely fully reliable about everything)  and my best business friend (Pat) told me that I said to be out of my coma because of an agreement I had made with nothing less than that than Jesus Christ, but while I have absolutely no memory whatsoever to ever even seen Jesus, the objective truth is that I definitely turned into a different individual when compared with the way I used to  be (i.e. a very hard worker - very athletic and very interested in opportunities to exercise in  new environments and with different people) visibly agnostic mainly due to my overwhelming objectivity- that’s still part of what even my former work partners/employees remember the most about me to be – very understanding  - polite – I never even considered an idea to cheat to what I’ve been considering and calling the Queen in my earthly life.
·       Everyone who has ever worked for/with me always knew very clearly the importance in my life/work that my Queen always had.
·       Everyone here should know too of my “improper“ pride for my last name, in fact when my divorce became official I demanded for my ex-wife to drop my last name and re-acquire her original one, I surely was determined for this to happen but when she told me that he had NO my intention to ever go  back to her original one, I pretty much never mentioned this again (about 6 years) , in truth I’m now glad that she’s still part of my family, as much as it’s been hard for me that much it’s been for my Queen – both physically and mentally – in fact my accident, (with all its consequences) has clearly demonstrated how much of a part of my family she’s become….when I try to imagine any other genetic members of my own family she’s shown very clearly much more of a Lingiardi she’s now than she was when we first met.
·       This is my way to explain too that my own physical injury was matched with the same gravity by her own injury (plus mind/soul), therefore the visible fact that she’s been stubbornly fighting against the negative odds in her own life for so many years, truly makes her a real  part of “our own”.
BUT LET ME NOW GET TO THE MORE “SPIRITUAL” PART OF MY POST
When you look/read this blog, I’ve recently addressed the idea that we all are still monkeys for the (maybe too) simple reason that whenever we look at something strange or impossible immediately explain (at the time) in any logical and/or consequential manner….we scream in a very excited way “It’s a miracle!  This cannot be a human product…..only a God could make this happen...
Well, dear readers here’s what my long travel in the afterlife, with my doubtful meeting with the “son of god” (please go to read what I recently posted/made public my personal thoughts about the terrorist – named Jesus - who fought for the independence of “his” country – Palestine - from the oppression of the roman Empire) .These are the points I believe to have some importance:
1.   No God ever existed nor created our planet in our galaxy (milky way) in our universe
2. This simply means that Jesus, son of a God creator of it all, just like plenty others, or Buddha, Shiva,  Vishnu etc.… are simply the creation of our own minds…just like – following the quantum physics are telling, showing  and explaining in a scientific manner to us all (or maybe to the interested ones).
3. Bottom line  NO GOD EVER EXISTED that may have created something out of nothing, the only one very important concept we humans must keep very clear in our minds is that we need (for some genetic reason) to have/believe in some superior entity (usually called god) to have something to blame or thank for anything that happens while we live our earthly lives.....

  1. http://www.wordofgodtoday.com/quantum-physics-faith/ 
  2. https://strangenotions.com/quantum-physics-and-bodily-resurrection-2/
  3. https://www.gotquestions.org/God-and-quantum-physics.html
  4. https://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/2017/october-web-only/theology-lesson-quantum-physics-star-trek.html
  5. https://www.inwardquest.com/questions/15225/i-saw-the-mind-of-god-part-two-jesus-knew-quantum-mechanics
  6. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vishnu






Wednesday, January 08, 2020

MORE ABOUT GOD


OK people, now not only the Vatican empire is crumbling on itself – as shown by the number of popes who resign, but as I said already here not long ago, we still are all no more than monkeys, so whenever we see something inexplicable, yet we yell “It’s a miracle! A true miracle from God!!....just like it could have been with telekinesis few centuries ago BUT that later scientific research and human curiosity helped us figure out that - although somewhat “special” - you truly aren’t a God, for doing so.
This idea of the existence of God is nevertheless permanent in life, just look at the few videos here; check the pertinent websites at the bottom to realize that my video with Deepak saying who “God is you” isn’t at all farfetched. Some say that Christianity will be gone by the year 3.000, however just look at these Youtubes, in my 12/19/2019 post* (who is God?) with the great Deepak clearly saying who God truly is and at the linked websites below, to understand that not only the “Jesus phenomena” is slowly but surely fading away, but that the idea of the God who created our universe was starting to fade away in the 90ies already, surprised me a bit. I’m certainly aware that atheistic people always existed (i.e. Stephen Hawking…..demonized by the Vatican Emp.) but the idea that pure, modern and complex science – such as quantum is – on one side it says that we people create it all, through our consciousness (this universe included) but at the same time it says that pretty much all that Jesus had said 2.000 years ago reflects very well what’s being discovered today at “quantum level”. That’s in fact the reason why I felt it to be necessary for me to buy the Deepak Chopra’s book
“The future of God” (not read it yet) …..I mean, we have a very rational and updated researcher in quantum physics, who says via Youtube that “God is you”, it truly made me want to buy his book, mainly to make sure that there’s no difference btw. What he says on camera and what he
writes in one of his best-selling books.
Well readers, I leave you to your reading now, saying that my posting about my fury to the neuropsy’s for my conviction to be unable to count to 3 (I’m sorry, you guys…) was recently redirected towards the (two) judges involved to my case because of to their inability to understand what the (badly written) laws instruct to do and being too lazy to better understand the impact on people in situations like mine are. I therefore believe that there might be a chance to “dedicate” a post to those 2 ignorant (BUT never wrong!!) ars…...es.





  1. https://ses.edu/why-did-god-create-anything/ 
  2. https://thebibleproject.com/blog/what-does-it-mean-to-be-human/
  3. https://www.theguardian.com/science/2010/sep/02/stephen-hawking-big-bang-creator
  4. https://www.latimes.com/opinion/la-xpm-2011-jul-18-la-oe-thompson-atheism-20110718-story.html
  5. http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2019/12/who-is-god.html


Friday, January 03, 2020

OUR BRAIN


Talk about being hugely frustrated and even more – if at all possible – pissed off, to make my case a little clearer let me quote the email message I just sent to my new – after about 6 – neurologist here in town, “Good morning doctor, I bet you aren't going to believe what I found last night in one of my plenty google searches, in fact I entered Adderall...sleepy and I received about 1,210,000 results (in 0.58 seconds).      I went on reading that I'm one of the (hopefully) 2% of the people who become terribly sleepy taking it, in fact (I quote) "Adderall Sleepiness: This calming effect can make some people sleepy. In clinical trials, fatigue affected approximately 2 to 4 percent of people who took Adderall. Sleepiness can also occur when you stop taking Adderall, especially if you were taking high doses for a prolonged time." but after - of course - continuing my research I read about a med I never heard you mention......and I hope not because of my conservator, here it is "Provigil is approved only for narcolepsy, sleep apnea or for people who work irregular hours, but hidden among those who take it are pockets of healthy Americans taking it just to boost energy and enhance focus. It excites the mind so much that Provigil has been nicknamed "Viagra for the brain."J  I'm very sorry I couldn't see Dr. C. yesterday......let's say that Easy Lift "left me hanging" 'cause I'm pretty sure that this maybe one of the reasons for my curious reaction to Adderall (not so curious anymore, anyway). However since doing my search brought me to plenty websites about the Adderall and this is what I did read too "Adderall Use and the Brain – Adderall increases concentration and energy levels by increasing the levels of serotonin, dopamine, and norepinephrine in the brain - this surely put you on the side of the neurologists who tend to be correct in your "guess science" (check my older post with this same titlebut then I started to look at the quantities and I saw that the max amount of Adderall is 60mg/day that had me make a small research on quantities that - on average - seemed to me more than what I'm on now.
I mean, dear reader I think it’s since the XIV century when L. Da Vinci (now Jesus’s corpseJ) was making his medical drawings of the different parts in the human body that we most precisely know how different organs inside our body (i.e. liver, kidney, heart, etc.…) but still today (beginning of second millennium, 2020) we have no F.(reacking) idea of the way our brain – just the most important organ in our body, or in our F. universe – is made!
WHAT THE F. people, scientists and medical researchers! Has it been too complex or difficult for you all to take a F. brain, cut it up in pieces, put the pieces under a microscope to figure out what may be made it out of AND given that you even named its cells with the neuron name AND were all able to see that these neurons were all interconnected with each other, was it too difficult to think that maybe there are reasons for these connections to exist? I mean, once it’s clear that it’s through the brain that we can do all we do, how can you explain all the micro-electric powers jumping between one neuron and the next?
MMmmmm….let’s measure the power/energy produced by the brain as a whole and see if we can light a bulbJ 
Double WOW and quadruple WOW guys I do have precisely in mind – sadly & painfully – for you all my way to thank you for your dedication to science and new discoveries especially with your drive to understand…..no wonder I’ve been calling here medicine science as a guess science….nobody ever knows a beautiful F. about the ways our body reacts to anything chemical that we put (in any manner or of any weight shape , temperature ) in our bodies UNLESS we use (shit, or….) the averages math, it’s very simple to understand the way any and all pharmaceutical product must be tested (by dear FDA)  before being allowed to go to consumer’s market L, i.e. take 100 people/guinea pigs give to half of them a sugar pill and to the other half the medication pill you want to receive the FDA approval to go to market (and start to make $$ billions) IF 40 of the 50 who ingested the sugar pill had no benefit at all (never forget the placebo effect) HOWEVER IF in the other half 46 out of 50 did experience what the med is supposed to do (or it was engineered to act on) you are finally able to F. go to market to earn the money invested in the new wonder!! 

  1. https://www.technologyreview.com/s/513011/why-obamas-brain-mapping-project-matters/
  2. https://obamawhitehouse.archives.gov/BRAIN
  3. https://www.ucsf.edu/news/2013/04/104826/president-obama-unveils-brain-mapping-project
  4. https://www.medpagetoday.com/publichealthpolicy/washington-watch/38220
  5. https://www.cbsnews.com/news/obama-to-unveil-100m-initiative-to-map-human-brain/
  6. https://www.kavlifoundation.org/about-brain-initiative
  7. https://braininitiative.nih.gov/
  8. https://www.technologyreview.com/s/513011/why-obamas-brain-mapping-project-matters/



Thursday, December 19, 2019

WHO IS GOD?



I’ve been reading about the argument – that’s been going on for decades - about the answer to this question: If God created us, who created God? Well, yesterday I had a somewhat funny email exchange with both my sister and a very good friend I made in Italy, Ida – via email only, about this same question and since I told them that I was going to let them know via my post here today, this is my reason to give the answer to this “difficult question” that hopefully is going to give some rest and an end to this debate I just mentioned.
I’m sure every one of you, my readers knows well already about my recent passionate love for quantum physics, mechanics and most that goes with it, one of the things I truly couldn’t understand is the reason why, if our consciousness that pretty much creates all we see, smell hear and touch AND that after we die goes back to re-unite with the universal one (do you remember Jesus saying that “we are all brothers”?) How is it that we haven’t created the entire universe too?
That’s exactly when I found the video above, which finally tells me the reason why Deepak Chopra is so present in all kinds of media – both written and visual – in fact this explains well too the reason why – using my upholding low monthly allowance I purchased his latest book, by Kindle, with the title “The future of God”, when I first saw it, I thought “well, Deepak isn’t so smart, why the hell would he ever talk of God, when he’s so passionate in explaining how we all create all that surrounds us?”.
I therefore decided to use my last penny in purchasing his new book, but as I was reading it, this video above popped out in one of my Youtube searches (almost as frequent as the google ones), therefore I added this to my email exchange with “my Italian pals” and I decided to explain (here before the other one in Italian) who truly the God half the world has been believing in, praying to and asking for everything you can think of (including the length of your cock….J.).
What truly upsets and scares me now, that I’m my own God, isn’t so much what I’ve been hinting at this here in past posts but way much more that it does very clearly explains the reason of my TBI…..my dad used to say alaways that “nothing ever happens by chance there’s ALWAYS a reason for everything to ever happen what’s important and usually difficult is to figure out the reason why it happened”.
Well readers, here is where I get scared……however it’s way too shameful for me to make it public……let’s say that there may be a couple of people on this earth who may know it……but it’s too many already! Enjoy the Youtubes and the carefully selected linked websites.



  1. https://www.everystudent.com/wires/created.html
  2. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Image_of_God
  3. https://biologos.org/common-questions/how-could-humans-have-evolved-and-still-be-in-the-image-of-god/
  4. https://www.npr.org/sections/13.7/2015/04/23/401643807/a-god-that-could-be-real-in-the-scientific-universe
  5. https://www.jw.org/en/bible-teachings/online-lessons/basic-bible-teachings/unit-2/why-did-god-create-man-purpose/#start
  6. https://www.utne.com/mind-and-body/existence-of-god-creates-human-meaning-ze0z1504zdeh
  7. https://www.deepakchopra.com/blog/article/6012?sso_code=eyJpdiI6IjhKWWxRXC9SRTV5T3d3K2VWdGRaWnNnPT0iLCJ2YWx1ZSI6IjVzSFhodUJaU09JTXJTNDhBWTViMWhrVmUyZlcrYlZuaUtGOEwzSys4U3dSOW9FNm9kU2dXSGVUQUN6clhRNDk1T3VVb2tjTXNXK1BTMzRaVnB5bVl0ekExaHIxQ1wvK1NrQzdHVU1cL2JyXC9nPSIsIm1hYyI6IjVkYmM1ODQ3NDA4NzgzYjAyMjJiMWU2MzM3MzY3M2NlMWM2NzliM2M2MGRmOGQzOTVhMDI5ZDNiZjI3MTAxMzIifQ%3D%3D
  8. https://www.reuters.com/article/us-religion-chopra/who-is-jesus-hes-three-people-says-deepak-chopra-idUSN1918295720080221
  9. https://parabola.org/2018/10/27/making-god-necessary-by-deepak-chopra/




Monday, December 16, 2019

JESUS HEROLD CHRIST



FUCK ME!!! Given that some of my readers had something (very little) to say about my latest post on Jesus, this morning I did my (very usual) google research about the fact that one of Christianity pillar of faith just turned out to be a primitive photographic test that the immortal Leonardo Da Vinci made on his own and given that he used to have easy access to corpses because of his unparalleled (in those times) studies with drawings of human anatomy – among them my most favorite Vitruvian" man where he geometrically proved the anatomical perfection and balance of the way the human body is made, since in those times there a competition of people who wanted to believe that the very linen fabric used to wrap the corpse of Jesus after his death was still in existence therefore – history says that there were several shrouds used to wrap around Jesus’ body…..
Well here’s when a long knife stabbed in my neck, in fact the internet has billions of websites that talk about the mother Mary – with explanations (some very detailed) of her “perennial virginity”, who her parents were (with the names) and the same for Joseph….to the outrageous information about the fact that it seems that we know who the grandparents of Jesus were.
But wait, we know that Mary and Joseph weren’t married and that Mary gave birth to God’s son when she was 12 y/o.
Then I found even the name of the real father of Jesus who as I had said here before, wasn’t God (the creator of the universe and all it contains – including our planet, earth) the true father of Jesus was a Roman legionnaire by the name of T iberius Julius Abdes Pantera (fucking A!!) his tombstone was found in Bingerbr├╝ck, Germany, in 1859. But wait! It turns out that James, Joseph/Joses, Jude and Simon were the brothers of Jesus. But Jesus had sisters too (no names here), as written in the New Testament, in Mark (3:31-32).
But wait…..do you know what language did Jesus spoke? It's generally agreed by historians that Jesus and his disciples primarily spoke Aramaic (Jewish Palestinian Aramaic), that was the common language of Judea in the first century AD, most likely a Galilean dialect distinguishable from that of Jerusalem.
Among the most hilarious and craziest things I happened to read is even the phone number for Jesus that’s in Christian numerology and it’s the number 888 that represents Jesus, or sometimes more specifically Christ the Redeemer…..or JHC (naaahhh).
Anyway, let me continue with this farce about the names (hold on to the chair you’re sitting on now) Jesus' name in Hebrew was “Yeshua” which translates to English as Joshua. Evidence existed to show that Jesus was married to Mary Magdalene and that their son was named Judah (ha, yeah like the betrayer……), based upon inscriptions found on ossuaries discovered in Jerusalem in 1980. Biblical scholar and author James Tabor has affirmed his belief in a married Jesus.
OK now you can dry your tears from laughing so hard because this is when I absolutely confirm what I’ve been thinking of “my religion” (no other choice if you are born in Italy) and that’s about the most important bearing pillar of Christianity and its own empire stand, the Shroud of Turin - also called Holy Shroud and in Italian Sacra Sindone, it’s a length of linen that for centuries was purported to be the burial garment of Jesus Christ. It has been preserved since 1578 in the royal chapel of the cathedral of San Giovanni Battista in Turin, Italy (my dad took us all to see it one of the few times it was exposed….maybe in the 70ies). The history of the shroud from the 15th century is well recorded. In 1532, the shroud was damaged from a fire in the chapel where it was stored. The cloth is made up of a simple two-way weave. An international team of researchers found fragments of a burial shroud that cast serious doubts on the Shroud of Turin, the controversial linen cloth venerated by many Catholics as the proof that Christ resurrected from the grave. However my personal reason to write this post is that I saw a Youtube in Italian where Pope Francis says that the “shroud is still holy simply because of the centuries in time and the  thousands of believers who kneeled to pray in front of it” ….talk about “holy knowledge” in quantum physics....­čśŐ

  1. https://www.leonardodavinci.net/the-mona-lisa.jsp
  2. https://www.livescience.com/63093-shroud-of-turin-is-fake-bloodstains.html
  3. https://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/religion/5706640/Turin-Shroud-is-face-of-Leonardo-da-Vinci.html
  4. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brothers_of_Jesus
  5. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sisters_of_Jesus_the_Good_Shepherd
  6. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jesus_H._Christ
  7. https://www.uscatholic.org/articles/201612/why-was-mary-virgin-30874
  8. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Perpetual_virginity_of_Mary
  9. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tiberius_Julius_Abdes_Pantera



Thursday, December 12, 2019

SO,WHO WAS JESUS?




It looks like this morning I’m going to have to add a post I was planning to publish here in few days.......however my mouth is bleeding too much now, so I decided to explain to my readers, especially those who asked this question directly......”if we are God, then who was Jesus? Aside from the Youtubes and links here I truly wish I had found a Youtube I saw in the Italian Yout. where the last pope who resigned was saying that the holy shroud remains to be holy simply because of the number of people (millions?) and the amount of time and the amount of time (centuries) that have considered it holy, therefore it remains to be holy as it’s always been…..talk about knowledge in quantum physics…….it’s very consequential that it’s simply because we people have believed Jesus to be the “son of God” that he’s become such.
Now follow me to the bottom of hell reading me to the end, in fact it maybe because of a couple of judges are brain injured too that I must have someone pay my bills, after having stayed 2 months into a coma – no matter that I had said to have met with Jesus and made with him an agreement to stay alive – no matter that I was very clearly forewarned that it was going to be “painful” (please don’t make me think to my conservator and to his boyfriend....).
As a matter of fact, given that in these days in the country that’s been hosting the Vatican empire (upcoming a post fully dedicated to this empire) between:
a)         the book that “proves” the bible to be nothing more than a diary that the “original mankind wrote after having been abandoned here on earth by some extraterrestrial species that came here on earth just to make some experiments with DNA and
b)         The people who say that Jesus was a man from the year 3.000 who time traveled to year 0 (zero) for the curiosity to see where he came from.
I believe the time is right to say that in reality Jesus was nothing more than a terrorist against the Roman Empire for the independence of Palestine. In fact Jesus with his gang of 12 disciples was going around both religious and important markets generating wealth in Palestine, primarily to support the intolerance of his countrymen vs. the R. E.  and very much to be the initiator of independence revolts in his country.
The very big difference of this fight led by Jesus is that he was trying as much as possible to “hide his movement for independence behind a pacifistic theology.
Once the romans realized that every time the ideas of pacifism were “exported” to other countries under its dominion the revolts for independence would disappear, the R. Empire started not only to support Christianity but spread it through the entire Empire that happened to be the entire Mediterranean region including parts of the oriental countries.
I want to admit to be very proud to be the product of that empire’s descent AND to have passed it on to my treasures.
In practice the fact that very many wars against the attempt to get independence back from all the countries (plenty) simply meant big savings in time, money and thousands of well-trained expensive centurions. In hope not to offend any of my readers, Christianity became as big, wide and wealthy for the simple reason of (simple) money!
Just a very few data in support of what I’m saying:
1.    It was during the Nicaea council – called by the Roman emperor Constantine I that the holy mage of Jesus was created, with all of the miracles…..I mean how many Jewish people you know who don’t believe to be the “son of god”?
2. It was the very Constantine I who founded the Vatican empire (that’s the carbon copy of the roman one….the Pope is the emperor, all the way down to the legionnaires, who are the local pastors) an empire that’s immensely wealthy, has among the best run (and most profitable) banks in the world that can put back in the markets of the world what the emperor/Pope brings back – stuffed in the “Papal jet” – the Sunday masses donations from the millions of Catholics around the world....
I’d say that (once more) Jesus with its catholic faith are nothing more than a very good business for anybody involved with it……except its legionnaires who must be abstinent in sex, therefore release their abstinence on our children……who must learn when too young the real meaning of (deviant) sex.

  1. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shroud_of_Turin 
  2. https://biologos.org/common-questions/how-could-humans-have-evolved-and-still-be-in-the-image-of-god/
  3. https://www.npr.org/sections/13.7/2015/04/23/401643807/a-god-that-could-be-real-in-the-scientific-universe
  4. https://www.jw.org/en/bible-teachings/online-lessons/basic-bible-teachings/unit-2/why-did-god-create-man-purpose/#start
  5. https://www.utne.com/mind-and-body/existence-of-god-creates-human-meaning-ze0z1504zdeh
  6. https://www.deepakchopra.com/blog/article/6012?sso_code=eyJpdiI6IjYxbFFDWlVGZTlvbUpxdElxcDdjamc9PSIsInZhbHVlIjoiQWNCczBKZnhmWGR1RjhpNE9sck04MzhNNTZPZzJtWFJlNzNYY2Q3SzNKSmVkUEFLRERRYmFDN1RQS1o1YVg2eWRIMjBMb0R0SSs1SUR4Q2g5QnpFYUtNRElOUEVyVWV5Kzlyb0E4SUpNcGM9IiwibWFjIjoiZDFlMzNmYTI3MGNkOGQ4MTUwYzY1YTU5ZmViZmMxZGQyZWY5MDQ1MGNjZWMxMzdiMmY3Y2NjYmNkZWQzYzJhMCJ9
  7. https://www.reuters.com/article/us-religion-chopra/who-is-jesus-hes-three-people-says-deepak-chopra-idUSN1918295720080221
  8. https://stream.org/the-professor-talked-about-jesus-and-made-her-throw-up/https://parabola.org/2018/10/27/making-god-necessary-by-deepak-chopra/