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Wednesday, September 20, 2017

MORE ON THE MEANING OF LIFE


As I was doing my usual internet research for my latest posts (love and death especially) I came across dozens of websites (blogs too) that talk about death as the end of life BUT focus on the kind (quality) of a life that ends and this is what makes me want to talk about here today.
In fact while having injured the brain is a true catastrophe, what’s really tragic is the comparison between the before and after the injury ad when it comes to me I don’t believe that I should even start to talk about it, simply use the search engine in green on the side and write loss in it, you’ll see (and count) the number of posts where I talked about the immensity (in gravity and in their number) of losses that this injury came with.
Now, let me make a small comment about the overall reason for my losses that’s all and only generated by me and my love for my two treasures, in fact even if I cannot remember at all my meeting Jesus, I can tell – based on true facts – that I must have met him or someone like him, because I don’t remember the entity (light, fog or something else??) but I precisely remember the content of that conversation (or exchange of ideas) that was about my request to survive (or come back here alive)when I was warned that while it’s possible that I’ll have pain and difficulties when living this new “gifted” life.
It’s more than evident that as a soul either I couldn’t see or understand what pain meant or my self-confidence took over my logic abilities, I don’t even start listing both the pains and difficulties that I’ve been able to process/survive since my accident with injury in 2005, it’s the main topic of my blog, that one of my (good) psychologists told me to be a good tool to give a space where I can release steam of anger and frustration for having lost the control of my personal universe.
This blog has become in my daily diary, since there’s no morning when I get out of bed without a new idea of something interesting/good to (first) research and (after) post here.
In fact what I want to do is to update my readers about the stem cells clinical trial I’m a candidate for, that’s recently been deeply shaken by few new discoveries and by my own hesitancy.
What I learned in fact is that given that this trial follows the double blind experiment protocol which gives to me just one chance in three (or 33%) to have real stem cells (SB623) directly injected in the injured part of my brain.
Of course people would say that to have a hole drilled in the skull to receive an injection of Placebo (sterile water) after so much work, focus of my mind, getting so many people involved, money spent in med. tests with their reports FedExed to LA is borderline both insulting and hilarious. I can bet that my readers know well who’s insulted and who’s laughing.
Whatever just know that in Italy we have since centuries the saying “ride bene chi ride ultimo” (laughs best who laughs last) that’s exactly what I’m soon going to do while jogging on State street’s sidewalks.


  1. https://www.quora.com/Every-one-of-us-will-die-eventually-so-whats-the-meaning-of-life
  2. https://trailsareglutenfree.com/2016/04/27/are-you-really-living/
  3. https://www.quora.com/How-can-I-come-to-terms-with-the-fact-that-I-will-die-and-that-a-long-life-is-not-a-guarantee
  4. http://www.redesignmyexistence.com/you-are-dying-heres-how-to-live
  5. https://medium.com/@maywang7/if-we-all-end-up-dying-what-s-the-purpose-of-living-4bf9154669e1
  6. https://www.quora.com/What-is-the-point-of-living-if-we-have-to-die-someday 

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

LOVE

I may have mentioned here already that love is the most powerful feeling (human only) in the universe, not only it “works” when we are living, but it does affect our afterlife existence too.
My Queen has been telling to me for more than a year that “if I still love her is just because my brain is injured” and do you know what I say after she tells me this? I just say that since the beginning of time love has been portrayed with a heart – I guess because when you see someone you love, the heart starts beating faster – therefore love isn’t in the brain……it resides in the heart …..that b.t.w. has always been super-strong in me (because of my competitiveness and athleticism in many sports).
I know that I’ve said this before, but I’m not sure if I did it here, when I came out of my 2 months long coma and said to have met with Jesus and made an agreement with Him to remain alive – no matter the pain – for the love I have for my 2 treasures, for many months I thought that this had been reported to me incorrectly, in fact how could I have ever asked to remain alive for my love to my children? Are we sure that it wasn’t for the love I had/have/will always have for my Queen? This was really boiling inside of me like a pot of lead, so when I saw my dad few months before he passed over I asked to him exactly what I had said because it seemed impossible to me not to love more the mother of my treasures – who formed them inside her body and brought them to life in this wonderful world.
Well, that’s when my dad explained that surely the love of a mother for her children is very special, however – he continued – a true father is ready in any moment to give his life to save that of his child/children, I must say that what he told me hit me hard both in my heart and visual imagination, in fact I wouldn’t think for a moment to put myself in front to any of my treasures if someone had a gun pointed at one for whatever reason, even if something so bad was done that might even deserve such action.
This is when I understood that – given that I had been forewarned – no pain is too much for me not to want to see, touch and smell either one of my treasures, in fact I can say that whenever my princess is here with me, any and all of my pains, simply disappear to be back few hours after she’s left. Few of the websites I link here talk about the true universal power of love that several well recognized and important artists, scientists, philosophers and quantum physicists  have described over the centuries as the most powerful force in this universe (even Einstein said so).
My own conclusion is that the love that either the mother and the (real) father should never be measured and much less compared with each other, just think to the huge amount of people who died during our history for love (not just for children, but also love for power, money and control) and its influence/force after we die, or as souls and you can have probably a very good “sense” of what this feeling is all about.


  1. http://ourultimatereality.com/pure-unconditional-love.html
  2. http://www.joeloveiw.com/blog/love-greatest-power-universe/
  3. http://thebiskinds.com/powerful-force-universe/
  4. http://www.liloumace.com/blog/Love-is-the-most-powerful-force-in-the-entire-universe_a50.html
  5. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Symposium_(Plato)
  6. https://www.quora.com/Is-love-the-strongest-force-in-the-universe
  7. https://www.brainpickings.org/2016/06/03/tolstoy-last-diaries-reason-love-human-nature/ 
  8. https://wearelightbeings.wordpress.com/2015/04/15/a-letter-from-albert-einstein-to-his-daughter-about-the-universal-force-which-is-love/

Monday, September 18, 2017

DEATH


My dad was the greatest man I ever met in life or I’ve ever imagined that someone like him could exist; in fact here I’ve referred to him here several times as Saint Gianfranco. I can remember that he always stated that death is the fairest event we all have and experience in life in fact “no matter how wealthy, important or - beloved by many - someone can be, life ends for everyone, even kings and the Pope die….” Few months before he passed over he gave me a very important talk that – given that I was already very much in the quantum sciences study – impressed me very much.
He told me that he wasn’t scared to die because he was present at the death of most of his relatives (sister, brother mother and father in addition to brothers plus sisters in law) and told me that given that he could see the souls of these people leaving their bodies at death “I’m actually curious to know what happens after” he told me. While I’m still now admiring him for his ability to be positively in touch with reality, I do envy him very much now, simply because it was my intention to give to my children/treasures the same influence and education that my own dad could give to me.
Much about what he taught to me about death, its fairness because it happens truly to everyone is today something that’s become common knowledge, so many papers and articles can be found everywhere, BUT my spin to these ideas is that while I do agree that death is really fair, what can really make the difference is how one can choose to die, after having chosen the life to live.
Disappointingly and sadly I’m unable to bring forward in the future generation of my two treasures not only the fact that I’m not living with them – and therefore totally unable to give them any guidance and/or teachings with talks (like my dad did for 35+ years) but in addition I cannot add to what my dad taught me (even if I was in my late 40ies already) the concept of the possibility to choose the kind of death someone wants.
As a matter of fact I’m probably the last who should say  anything about the possibility to choose the kind of death someone wants, simply because – due to my love for my two treasures/creatures, I chose not to die but to  survive.
Since years I’ve been struggling with the fact that as I came out of the coma I said to have met with Jesus Christ and given that I have no memory whatsoever of having had this experience, I decided to embrace it anyway because I love it, in addition, my way to look at life (mine and  thatof others) has turned totally upside down, to the point that I believe to be still in touch with both Jesus, angels and the beings in afterlife, and that I sometimes meet with people who – out of the blue – give me comments like they’ve known me and my family since years, in fact I’ve been forcing myself to believe that they are angels sent to tell me things from our creator, otherwise no other explanation could be given to facts such as these.
Earlier I said that life too is something that we can choose to live the way we want (free-will) no matter what happens…..think of me in example, a man with a wonderful family and career I got almost killed and given my survival I must see being cheated by my wonderful wife, my great man/son take the wrong road for his life and I must be aware of the examples that my stupendous daughter is exposed to, given I’m not around.
All of this aside from the fact that not only I both cannot work anymore BUT IN ADDITION I cannot participate in any medical procedure that may get me “like new” with the real insult to have been appointed to have a conservator who manages all of my money and can make decisions about my health……..apparently without conservator's permission I can’t take an aspirin when I have a cold (daaaahhhh)……
The fact that I precisely know what the afterlife will be for the individuals I just mentioned, does very little to my conscience, in fact I wish that what my atheist friend Iacopo says – or that if people knew of how what they do (to others) while living, can impact their afterlives – the entire world would change overnight (see my Iacopo vs Jesus post).
Surely my being an Italian, makes me wish that I could go and kill with pain all those who have been torturing me since years; however my precise knowledge of the way their eternity is (soon) going to be, calms me down very much. Now therefore spend some time, having fun going to the websites linked below and see if you can make me a donation…. However small you want/can.


  1.  http://www.psychforums.com/living-with-mental-illness/topic45567.html
  2. https://thebodyisnotanapology.com/magazine/learning-to-live-with-wanting-to-die/
  3. https://www.quora.com/What-is-the-point-of-living-if-we-have-to-die-someday
  4. https://medium.com/@maywang7/if-we-all-end-up-dying-what-s-the-purpose-of-living-4bf9154669e1
  5. https://www.quora.com/How-can-I-come-to-terms-with-the-fact-that-I-will-die-and-that-a-long-life-is-not-a-guarantee
  6. https://www.quora.com/Every-one-of-us-will-die-eventually-so-whats-the-meaning-of-life

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

IT’S NEVER OVER

This coming Monday 9/18 I’m going to the UCLA for few final med. tests to finalize the approval to the participation to the stem cell trial I’ve been dreaming to receive in order to “fix” my brain.
However, as in my title here it truly is never over for me simply because few months ago I fell from my “beloved” wheelchair as I was pulling up my pants and – ooohhhh surprise surprise – I had my femur broken so bad that I received the surgery detailed in these 2 pictures here that shows how much metal, screws and nails it took to “reassemble” my femur almost as it was.
Now I’m thinking that no matter that my brain will recover its injury well, I’m still going to be prisoner of a wheelchair…….BUT no matter that my remaining to be a prisoner, the fact that this could make my Queen (Michele) et. al. correct is more than sufficient for me to focus my immensely strong mind into running a half marathon before I’ll be 60 y/o.
This circumstance has made me think very often to one of the last things that my dad (Saint Gianfranco) taught to me few months before he passed over, that’s about the pain that any father suffers when one of his children gets hurt or gets in trouble. I connected this to the reason why our God came on earth as Jesus to die by crucifixion in order to expiate sins and pains of his children, all of us. Saints like St. Francis might say: “bring it on!” well that’s NOT what I’d ever say myself, all I say is that this is yet another challenge that will need all my focus and hard work to be (finally) overcome (too).
Now all I can think of is W.T.F. how could such a disaster may have happened to me, wasn’t it sufficient that my brain is badly injured already? What was I thinking so bad that my own personal God would decide to give such hurtful additional obstacle? Truth is that no matter how much I tried to find the answer, I’m still without any; this means that I’ll have to figure out the way to start to run again after this new treatment that already seems to give exceptional results. Maaybee I won’t run half a mile BUT no doubt I’ll be swimming a full mile very soon!!



Tuesday, September 12, 2017

"LIMITLESS" WITH NOOTROPICS


While my countdown to my participation to the UCLA clinical trial is using very small/short numbers, I must return on the nootropics subject that I published here already on 6/6, on 8/7 and 8/12, to say that I realized that even a movie was made about these (herbal) supplements and their “liberating” powers dedicated to the human brain’s abilities (make miracles).
This is, yet another movie that I rate as so good that it’s best to enjoy with a (small) group of good friends and a full carton of lemon vodka.
I liked it allot because it shows well the effects that this kind of supplement gives to our brain, always suppressed by the noise from information overload, the fog or absence of clarity given by what we eat and the confusion generated by the loudness we live immersed in, no matter where we are or what we are doing.
As this movie shows very clearly, the “nootropic pill” opens up a huge increase in both physical and mental perceptions paralleled by impressive memory increase, in fact the main movie character can recall what he saw written on a book’s cover few decades before and from that (only) he’s able to tell the book’s content and based on this set of disordered information can give a precise advice about the work’s focus for the woman carrying that book in her purse at her side. The part of this movie (Limitless) that isn’t at all realistic, is the fact that users get addicted and consequently die, in fact if this would be one – however minimal – nootropics would be FDA regulated and be available only with med. doctor’s prescription, when in reality you can buy as much and in as many types as you want, online from commercially aggressive companies that find it (too) easy to promise very unrealistic effects from the use of their product.

If in addition you consider the fact that most of these supplements are made using herbs that mostly grow in South America, that are known since centuries for their beneficial effects to our minds and their capacities, it’s easy to figure out the reason why they aren’t considered as medications, therefore there’s no need of legal regulation, or FDA involvement, especially of medical doctors, who as a result know less than nothing about these supplements that give less side effects than taking an aspirin. Finally my advice is to watch this movie because on top of the use of nootropics does tell a good story with good actors too.

  1. http://www.thedailybeast.com/silicon-valleys-eating-up-super-ritalin-i-got-the-best-of-it
  2. http://www.thebioneer.com/neuroplasticity-an-in-depth-guide-on-how-it-works-and-how-to-transform-your-brain/
  3. https://selfhacked.com/blog/can-regrow-brain/
  4. http://supplementsinreview.com/nootropic/nootropics-for-concussions-brain-injuries/
  5. https://www.quora.com/What-is-the-best-online-source-for-buying-Piracetam-or-other-nootropic-drugs
  6. https://smartdrugsforcollege.com/what-is-neuroplasticity-and-how-nootropics-can-speed-it-up/
  7. http://nootropicsexpert.com/nootropics-guide/
  8. http://nootropicsexpert.com/best-nootropics-for-traumatic-brain-injury/

Sunday, September 03, 2017

MORE PRAYING


As I’ve said here plenty times it matters not who or what you pray, simply because it would be exceptional that the entity you ask for something to by praying could ever satisfy your requests.

Praying is however very important because it’s a simple form of meditation, you focus your mind in what you are asking for with very much intensity and focus, therefore it’s very possible to obtain the miracle you are asking for.
Sometimes I see older people who say fully convinced that the miracle they received came directly from Jesus Christ (or Buddha or Mahomet) only because they had asked for it to such religious leader when praying.
Even my mother tells me that she prays constantly for me and others in my family, but – she says – God must be too busy to listen to her, I usually only tell her that I’m sorry for her, when it’s very clear that her being 83 y/o the power of her mind must be like the power of the muscles in her legs….or arms.
Having clarified the importance of praying, I’ve been praying much more than usual because I’ve been selected to be tested at the UCLA to have the opportunity to be part of a stem cell clinical trial specific for TBI victims like me.
In fact I was told that to ensure that the stem cells will go to the injured part of the brain (motor cortex and occipital lobe in my case) the only way to do so is to inject the stem cells directly where they are needed, otherwise once they are injected they can go to repair anything else that may need their healing work, such as an ulcer in the stomach, a kidney infection or something in the liver, down to the skin cut……you can therefore understand that to spend very much money to produce the right stem cells, inject them to go to the brain and then see them go somewhere else in the body not only is like throwing money away, but it’s hugely frustrating for all involved.
Now my praying (focusing my VERY strong mind) is focused on having the correct results from the additional testing that I’ll receive at the UCLA directly from the researchers involved in this clinical trial.
My story of this potential participation starts at the very beginning of this year, when I saw of a clinical trial on TBI done by the UCSF (San Francisco), I contacted the initial participants evaluator who asked for a number of medical records that I could obtain from the Cottage hospital and I was pretty confident that things would be proceeding smoothly, however it happened (no idea how or why) that the entire team – including my initial contact – totally changed and not only the people changed but the names of the procedures (NOT medical) I’m supposed to be involved with changed their names and in addition it turned out that my first contact had misplaced all the med docs from the Cottage hospital which forced me to go back and ask again for a new copy of what I had asked already few months before.
Anyway all the people I’ve been working with about this trial have been very nice and understanding of my frustration that it’s been taking more than 10 years before I have the chance to have my brain being worked on with the goal to have it repaired.
Now I’m at the point that I’m about to go to the UCLA for the final testing and – obviously – my prayers with deep concentration and focus of my mind – are all directed to my body being right for being part of this trial.
I put below the links to the websites that regard this trial and few others about the use of stem cells for TBI, what makes this clinical trial different (and way superior to any other, in my opinion) is that rather than injecting the stem cells in the blood stream and hope that they’ll go in the right place in the brain, in this case a small hole is drilled in the skull so that the stem cells can be injected in the exact right brain location-
To say that (as usual) I can’t wait to be part of this trial is to minimize how I feel; all I can say now is to “stay tuned” because I’m hoping to soon give a very positive update.


  1.  http://personalized-regenerative-medicine.com/treating-traumatic-brain-injury-stem-cell-therapy/
  2. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18454634
  3. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/26269908
  4. http://www.cell.com/cell-stem-cell/abstract/S1934-5909(15)00267-2
  5. https://stemcells.nih.gov/trials.htm
  6. http://tbiresearchaccelerator.ucsf.edu/
  7. http://www.biorasi.com/

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

IN HIS IMAGE AND LIKENESS


I’m told that my explanation – intertwined with the quantum physics research and its theories isn’t very clear and on this I make the promise to write a post sometime in the near future  (not in 3 years or so) that will describe pretty much step-by-step what happens both as we die and after too.
However today I’m going to talk about something not too far from men’s death that’s something that I know to have “sprinkled” in several posts of the past in my blog here.
It’s actually a “key passage” of the genesis in the Bible, or when our creator God decides to create mankind that’s going to be “in His image and likeness”.
I posted here earlier that blasphemy is a misunderstood concept because we don’t disobey the second commandment by using the word God attached to another word of negative connotation and/or meaning (i.e. God damn or in Italy: God pig, or God bastard dog and  hundreds of thousands of others…..) for the stupid reason that God is us men, in fact when Jesus referred to his “father” in a serious way, Jehovah was the word used (see my post on this exactly).
In simpler words when I say – out of anger or frustration – God damned, I’m truly saying Carlo-damned.
So the fact that we are created on the image and likeness of our creator (Jehovah, as per Jesus) that we have the brain that can make miracles (I’m hoping that you already know what they are) that we have free-will, that allows to us to create our own future in the way we want, desire or like. These facts – or abilities - make us (humans) our own Gods who not only can make miracles, create our own future and descent but allows to us to decide our eternal destiny after we die (and on this too I’ve used already too many words).
Now it’s truly the time to go here:
to be reminded – from Aldo Moro - of the effect that disregarding any of the commandments, our own God can punish us while we are still living (ha!, but wait to see what your afterlife is going to be).
Therefore look now at these examples:
·         That one broke a leg because used too much blasphemy, when talking
·         That other one will surely go to hell forever……..never respected  God in life
·         God’s punishments to that individual are the clear example that to live a good life you must respect God and go to Mess every Sunday (Fuck me!).
Now, what happens if you replace the word God with your own name?
Maybe I’m brain injured but I believe that it’s our brain makes us like God/our own God and the fact that I always say “my own God, or your own, or their own” simply reflects the fact that everyone has this organ between the ears that makes it your personal property with all of its individual memories and experiences reflected by the individual emotions and feedback loops
This concept explains very well the reason why I say that after we die, we decide our eternal destiny on our own and where we decide to end up is just the reflection of what our own life (real) experiences, good (Heaven) or bad (Hell).
Here again, I hope you’ll enjoy my Youtubes and the websites I’ve chosen to link below if so, your comment at the bottom of this post or (better) sent using the tool on the right column AND your generous PayPal donation will make me very happy and give me even more determination to keep producing posts as good as my (injured) brain allows me to do.


  1. http://www.epm.org/resources/2010/Feb/4/what-does-it-mean-we-are-created-gods-image
  2. http://thebibleandscience.webs.com/articles/image.htm
  3. http://www.revempete.us/biblestudy/man.html
  4. https://www.blueletterbible.org/faq/don_stewart/don_stewart_690.cfm