God made me a warrior, I found my beautiful soul mate, we were gifted with my two treasures in approval, while in a coma due to TBI for 2 long months, I met with Jesus and all my Catholic upbringing came back, I now have a full conservator, but my family will forever be part of me. NEVER FORGET THAT ALL I SAY HERE IS THE PRODUCT OF MY INJURED BRAIN I WAS ASSESSED SEVERAL TIMES TO BE UNABLE TO MANAGE MY MONEY.
Only dr. Epperson, besides dr. Spar were able to understand
the miracle of my brain still very able to remember, make logic concepts and
have brilliant ideas, without going into too much medical and
bio-engineering detail I simply put here below (as always) few links and
Youtube videos that show in a truly simplistic way what some people cannot
figure out by themselves and condemn people like me to full conservatorship done
by a minor.
Michele has kept telling me that I love her just because my
brain is injured, so I should stop thinking like the man in love I always had
been for more than 15 years.
However, as I’m watching the YouTube videos I posted here in my
blog earlier I can easily see and understand that not only love is an only
human feeling (no animal can have it, only genetic programming and instincts make
animals act in fashions very similar to us humans) and that since it’s produced
in our brain (NOT the heart) in the form of micro-electric impulses, it simply
lasts forever and (as the video says) it can cross entire galaxies and never
dissipate.
Therefore, since my brain – even if injured – can still
produce my love micro-electric signals, I can confidently say that I’m still in
love with you and our treasures; that I wish we could live together again and
that you could care for me a fraction of what I've always been caring for you,
in addition that you could have the courage and determination to help my
recovery that’s truly possible, I know.
The fact that you decided to cheat on me with B. just tells
me that you got panicked by my accident and its outcome, so – unlike what typical
movies or what hundreds of years of literature say and show – I don’t plan nor want to
kill you and your lover B… ….…. eventually just him!
Without going too much into religion that you teach to our
treasures it doesn't exist, I simply want to say the we married in a Catholic
church not only in presence of the God you don’t believe in, but also in
presence of several dozens of friends and relatives who witnessed and listened
to our saying the words “in sickness
and in health, until death do us part” that have legal meaning too. On top since it was God who united us in (holy) matrimony, no human law can possibly separate us and our souls ever, so in my mind you still are my wife!
I’m posting here
below (as always) few links and You tubes that are consistent and support my
post of today, never forget that my children are God's way to show His approval of our eternal union.
NEVER FORGET THAT
I TRULY LOVE YOU AT LEAST AS MUCH AS I’M MISSING YOU. If you still love me too, when are you going to show it by doing something??
I don’t want anyone to think that – after saying of my faith
in the Catholic God (whom I met while in a coma) I now say that Buddha is
another God I believe in.
It’s simply that this religion contains concepts that to my
injured mind and me seem to be very human (and much less godly), I put here
below in fact the 20 laws of the Karma for you to realize that maybe I’m not as
crazy as I was assessed me to be:
LAWS OF KARMA
1. THE GREAT
LAW - As you sow, so shall you reap. This is also known as the Law of Cause and
Effect. Whatever we put out in the Universe is what comes back to us. If what
we want is happiness, peace, friendship, love…………….. Then we should BE happy,
peaceful, loving, a friend. Negative energy sent out to others will come back to
you 10 fold
2. THE LAW OF CREATION - Life doesn't
just HAPPEN, it requires our participation. We are one with the Universe both
inside and out. Whatever surrounds us gives us clues to our inner state. BE and
DO yourself what you want to have in your life.
3. THE LAW OF HUMILITY - What you
refuse to accept, will continue for you. If what we see is an enemy, or someone
with a character trait that we find to be negative, then we ourselves are not
focused on a higher level of existence.
4. THE LAW OF GROWTH - Wherever you
go, there you are. For us to GROW in Spirit it is WE who must change and not
the people, places or things around us. The only given we have in our lives is
OURSELVES, and that is the only factor we have control over. When we change who
and what we are within our heart, our life changes too.
5. THE LAW OF RESPONSIBILITY -
Whenever there is something wrong, there is something wrong in me. We mirror
what surrounds us and what surrounds us mirrors us: we must take responsibility
for what is in our life.
6. THE LAW OF CONNECTION - Even if
something we do seems inconsequential, it is very important that it is done as
everything in the Universe is connected. Each step leads to the next step and
so forth and so on. Someone must do the initial work to get a job done. Neither
the first step nor the last are of greater significance-they were both needed
to accomplish the task. Past, Present, Future…they are all connected…
7. THE LAW OF FOCUS - You can't think
of two things at the same time. You should climb up a ladder on step at a time.
When you lose your focus, you let in insecurities and anger.
8. THE LAW OF GIVING AND HOSPITALITY -
If you believe something to be true, then sometime in your life you will be
called upon to demonstrate that truth. Here is where we put what we SAY that we
have learned into PRACTICE.
9. THE LAW OF HERE AND NOW - Looking
back to examine what was prevents us from being totally in the HERE AND NOW.
Old thoughts, old patterns of behavior, old dreams…Prevent us from having new
ones.
10. THE LAW OF CHANGE - History
repeats itself until we learn the lessons that we need to change our path.
11. THE LAW OF PATIENCE AND REWARD -
All Rewards require initial toil. Rewards of lasting value require patient and
persistent toil. True joy follows doing what we're suppose to be doing, and
waiting for the reward to come in it's own time.
12. THE LAW OF SIGNIFICANCE AND
INSPIRATION - You get back from something whatever you've put into it. The
value of something is a direct result of the energy and intent that is put into
it. Every personal contribution is also a contribution to the Whole. Lack
luster contributions have no impact overall or work to diminish it.
As always I’m going to put some links to websites consistent
with what I’m trying to say now but my personal conclusion and understanding of
this Karma is that it’s truly very human (or evil) and it’s truly what just
about caused my practical death as husband, father and successful top manager.
In fact, I've convinced myself that my former company
president at Tecnica Italy (Giancarlo Zanatta my employer right before A. Martinez at Deckers) got so mad and frustrated
by my resignation to join Deckers right in the middle of the OR show that he must have sent to my direction a very
powerful Karma that caused what I just described.
The result of my resignation has been that every new
president of Tecnica USA has lasted no longer than 1 year, most of the best and
seasoned employees have left and pretty much nobody here in the USA considers
the Tecnica brand with its products something to keep in mind when making
buying or branding layout decisions. In this sense I consider the
Buddhist Karma stronger than “my” Catholic God, it’s simply because it’s a real
part of humanity that with its free-will can be evil.
On February 6th 2013, I posted the “Neurological argument
against the existence of God” where I expressed the idea that God is really the
human mind and that neuropsychologists (even with Ph. D.) convince themselves
to know and understand God.
What I’m going to try to explain here is that – regardless
if one of my very good friend is the very atheist philosopher Iacopo who
authored “the three hypotheses (formerly linked here in my right column of
links, but now posted below) – God truly exists, not only because the more
progress our science makes, the more it becomes apparent and logical that a
superior being/intelligence must truly exist because everything
I was warned about my return to life has proven to be absolutely true (Erik L.,
Tiffany, Michele and Anna prove it).
exists (just watch the Youtubes below)
but very much also because I did meet Jesus in reality while in my 2 months
long coma, regardless that my case could be boxed in the NDE area,
Humans have been trying to figure out what happens after we die,
that’s now labeled with the term “afterlife”, some of the most brilliant
philosophers, scientific researchers, mathematicians and brilliant minds (like
Einstein) have come to their own conclusions that we all know about (if you
don’t, simply make a Google search).
Even if I’m brain injured (is my God dead. Erik?) I hope
that since the dead part is in the motor cortex area and given that we normally
use a very small percentage of our brain capacity (20 % or less?) I want to
believe this:
I was
born with the ability to utilize my brain capacities at a small fraction
higher than normal/usual or just more than other people
I did
very much HBOT at higher than standard pressures of compression – to push
pure medical oxygen deeper in my brain, which resulted in a better
capacity to use my already good intelligence to even higher levels than
before my injury.
I intend to make it public what my own conclusion about God
and its existence using my blog here, by randomly listing what drove me to the
certainty that God exists and the human brain is part of His superior
existence:
I've
been saying in plenty posts in the past here that I’m an anti-Darwinist,
by saying that there’s no way that I can accept the idea that we humans
derived by evolution from African monkeys that started to walk upright to
be able to see food or threats from a longer distance, so in the
“Darwinist's vs. creationists” battle
it should be clear which side has my full support.
Based on all what I say here, I think it’s time for me to
say my thoughts about the existence of God, the human brain and their
capacities to have miracles happen.
I do
believe in the real existence of God (the creator of our universe or the
initiator of the Big Bang- God
existed before the so-called Big Bang)
God
gave to us humans the brain that no Darwin’s
evolutionary theories can
explain.
the
human brain is part of God and it’s just like an antenna receptor of
messages from, or to put us in touch with Him
this
explains why humans have been able to make miracles that are phenomena
that science is totally unable to explain with existing instrument
(scientific or measuring) and with
a logical process of any kind
Sometimes
someone is born able to utilize the brain at a higher percentage
(Einstein, Michelangelo, Morse, Beethoven, Da Vinci, Mozart, Glenn Gould
etc… etc…. etc…. see link)
I can understand that people can be
very fascinated by the complexity and abilities of our brains; however, our
brain ISN’T AT ALL GOD, Jesus is truly the human son sent on earth to teach to
humans that there exist different possibilities, given that we were given the
free-will capacity, it’s therefore all and only up to ourselves how we decide
to live our lives and I believe that it’s going to be our last thought as we
die that will determine where we’ll spend the eternity (heaven with God or hell, that's the total dark emptiness).
Since now, after 9 years being on daily morphine my latest
“pain specialist” is getting me completely cleaned out of it using methadone,
because taking the Gabapentin that my very esteemed (and very former)
neurologist P. Delio had started to put me on, but since I had morphine in my
body, Gabapentin was giving me very much dizziness and mental confusion,
therefore I now must get rid of it if I want the Gabapentin to do its work on
my never-ending pain. Therefore, thinking of this I realized that I have had
since birth what serious psychologists call “addictive
personality”, in fact I used to be addicted to sports (ski/scuba
diving/running/biking etc…), career (to make more money) so that my addiction
to provide the best comfort and opportunities to my family could be well
supported and international travels (to tame my constant thirst to learn new
cultures, their habits and languages).
Given that, I was able to keep all of my emails
(sent+received) since 2003 that are soon going into my Gmail account,
I've been able to create a folder in my PC with the 57 emails that I had
exchanged over a 4 years period with the few headhunters who used to try to get
me a job here in CA, I had done this, only for my addiction to make Michele
happy by bringing her back to the State where she was born, closer to her
brothers (family) and in a very nice place (much nicer than the woods of NH
where we were living).
So, now that I can’t work, travel, practice any sports and
I’m abandoned by my
family, my addiction have nothing to be focused on, so I
now had to get addicted on something else to calm my soul – always in search of
good addictions and what I’m now heavily addicted to, is to eat what IHOP offers, in fact I’m just back from the local IHOP where waiters all know me
already very well, where I had “my fix” of the 3 cheese quesadilla and the 5
stuck of buttermilk pancakes!
What is truly starting to make me laugh is that every
time I go there I empty completely the “original syrup” container because
if I do not drown my pancakes in tons of syrup, I cannot be happy.
I was there yesterday (my birthday-51) too, but since today is
mother’s day, my family chose to celebrate it without the father (me), who went for my “fix” to heal my soul.
To my big surprise, in the past few hours I received several
emails asking me about my use of the “not yet approved” by the FDA use of
Enbrel for TBI recovery.
Therefore, I want to clarify that this is always just a
matter of money, the Big Pharma industry has all to lose from this approval,
just like when I said that to go after the Alzheimer disease industry, like Mr.
Tobinick has been trying to do for several years already, is almost suicidal.
How can a simple and inexpensive set of injections replace
the trillion $$$ turnover of the medications industry for this bad disease? Not
to even mention the care-giving and assisting companies in this field that
employ thousands of individuals and involves real estates, electronic equipment
companies nationwide in a time of deep financial crisis?
I put here below few links to websites that support my
thesis, but I want to add that this is the very reason that explains why I’ve
been trying to reach president Obama and the entire White House for this FDA
approval because it’s very clear that any evidence can be hidden with money and
only the one who controls it and its use has a chance to change the rules of
this “money game”.
I hope to have made this reality sufficiently clear to my
readers and I must express my hope that after the breakthrough of the first black
president Obama we will continue with the breakthroughs by electing a woman as
president of the most powerful and influential country in the entire world,
that’s going to recover the strength of our currency sooner than expected and
with it, continue with its positive and democratic influence over the world.
