Michele, beloved mother of my 2 treasures and my spouse forever has been telling me that the reason why I still love her is due to my brain being injured, it matters not that I say that love isn’t in the brain, love has been portrayed since centuries as a heart, I believe because when you look at something or someone you love, your heart beats faster.
Anyway I
become truly upset when I think that the woman I pretty much adored since the
very first time I ever saw her and – beside bringing her to Italy and become
very familiar with it – is now back in the State where she was born – after I
tried for more than a decade to move here with a job – is living with my
treasures completely separated from me and has done many bad things that drove
our son to craziness to the point that he’s now living separated from his
family too, near LA.
I’ve stated
here before that love is the most powerful force in the universe, it gives its
effects after death too; in a way is part of our consciousness that’s part of
our soul too.
If Michele
doesn’t correct this very wrong and very expensive situation, she’s going to
regret not having corrected it when living and this means that her soul will be
forever in her own hell.
I really
cannot understand the reason for her trying to say – and show – that she has no
love feelings for me anymore, when it’s clear (maybe to me only) that they are still all there, she tells me
that she fears me but cannot elaborate this concept and in the meantime I must
live in a luxurious retirement home while she must work to struggle to pay the
rent of the shack where she lives and forces my treasures to survive.
Lately my
angel has been calling me tens of times each day, always making some joke,
impersonating somebody else and suggesting to me to do something both crazy and
impossible for me.
It’s too
clear that she misses her dad whose presence would make her fell much safer and
more comfortable. All I can say is that I hope that Michele won’t wait for my angel’s life
to be totally ruined before understanding the gravity of her mistake.
My own huge
regret is that my “laziness” in getting better has left both my treasures in
the hand of a (fool) woman who lost each and every point of reference in her life as a consequence of my disability status.
In other words
this is my fault again (in my mind) and sadly there’s nothing I can do at this
point.
Too many
should fear the time when the therapy I’ve been asking to at least try will be
approved by the AU FDA at least, it’ll be again the proof that I’ve been
always right, just like in the 50 years before, sadly I cannot shake my
shoulders and say “oh well” all the people who took advantage of me and made it
impossible for me to do what I wanted to do since 2013…..too bad there’s no “oh well” to say, once six feet under, the regret for not having helped someone else
is eternal.
- http://review.gawker.com/jonathan-safran-foer-is-blind-deaf-and-dumb-1711667983
- https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2015/06/08/love-is-blind-and-deaf
- http://www.chabad.org/parshah/article_cdo/aid/683491/jewish/Why-did-Adam-and-Eve-become-aware-of-their-nakedness-only-after-they-sinned.htm
- https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love_Is_Blind
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