God made me a warrior, I found my beautiful soul mate, we were gifted with my two treasures in approval, while in a coma due to TBI for 2 long months, I met with Jesus and all my Catholic upbringing came back, I now have a full conservator, but my family will forever be part of me. NEVER FORGET THAT ALL I SAY HERE IS THE PRODUCT OF MY INJURED BRAIN I WAS ASSESSED SEVERAL TIMES TO BE UNABLE TO MANAGE MY MONEY.
Boy, am I
learning about my (Catholic)
religion, these days! My new friend
Roberta always replies to questions I ask via email but she’s teaching more
than I can imagine both about my religion and the philosophic principles of
afterlife and human existence.
The other
day we were talking about forgiveness – very important in my religion – and I
said that when I forgive someone for something bad or that I don’t like I
normally grant my forgiveness from
the pedestal on which I’m standing on and when I do so my only reason is
because I feel pity for the one I forgive because I know what kind of afterlife
the forgiven is looking at.
This is my
honest approach to any strong Catholic believer around the world over the times;
I mean how difficult it can be to forgive someone knowing damn well that the bill is going to eventually get paid
with the interests!?!
Boy oh boy!
This is – word for word what I received as reply: Pity
is not compassionate, but rather it seems to be a defensive posture. You are
meant to forgive with your whole heart! Together with the quote from the
bible of what Luke had said about forgiveness (Luke 6:27–36):
Right now I’m
talking about this very religious
topic BUT my upcoming posts are all going to be focused on quantum sciences topics,
for the simple reason that the more I elaborate on quantum physics and
mechanics, the more I’m fascinated by the broad approach they take on
everything having to do with human life (which agrees very well with the spiritual man I’ve
become) in addition
these sciences confirm to me my (crazy?) idea
that we humans created this (and the parallel) universe and are the God every single religion of the world refers to.
It just so
happens that I’ve been wanting to write few more posts in my blog in Italian,
because I’ve reached the one thousands number of posts here while I have just
few hundreds in what’s supposed to be my mother language (why not father
language?) – but
this is mainly because it’s way much easier to find both Youtube videos and
consistent websites I can put in my post as links - and since I very recently
wrote a post about the fact that it’s my belief that Jesus was truly a very
normal individual who for some reason had a Darwinian jump in the human
evolution and was born with the capacities of his brain like we are going to
have in few hundredsmore years (hopefully not few
thousands), somehow
I feel it to be necessary to go a bit deeper into the description of our
evolution that – much to everyone’s shock - has been going on for just 6 million of years…..WOW!!!
I’m therefore
hoping that both my videos and websites well
researched and linked below will give a good learning time to my readers (who keep giving $0 in donations to me……).
My main –
and most important – message with this post is simply that it’s taken what I’d
call a disproportionate
amount of time for us – Homo sapiens – to evolve from monkeys – to the way we
are today. In few of the links to other “official” websites you can see the
stages we went through before becoming what we are today and have been for few
hundreds of thousands of years (??).
My strong
suggestion is for you – my reader – to think a little about the walk on the
evolution path we’ve made before becoming what/who we are today, what I was
able to find too is that some researchers have hypothesized what’s going to be
our next evolutionary step, which truly fascinates me…..even if there’s very
little to find in the internet now.
However let
me open a small parenthesis here about DNA, evolution, Mendel and genetics, for
the reason that my Queen evidently has inherited genetics from his family
line/father, therefore she’s behaving with me like I never loved and/or taken
care of her (so
much for having made her the Queen of MY empire…..) and terribly frightening and very unfairly
her genes have been passed over to my dear son, I cannot say anything about
where he is now and the reason why, but it’s very clearly and obviously the
result of his mother’s genetic makeup ☺.
On the
other side my princess daughter is fully giving to me the very reason to still
be living, she’s too much like me – her true and unique dad – and I cannot wait
to see how greatly she’s going to enter her adult life and how much she’ll fill
my heart with satisfaction and endless love.
On my side
I’m sure to have inherited the genes via the DNA of both an ancient Roman
legionnaire and the character from both my grandfather on my father’s side –
who during WWII walked from Bergen Belsen (concentration camp for military prisoners) in northern Germany all the way to
Brescia, Italy (a
walk of about 500 miles….during the war) to rejoin with his family, wife and kids (he died of heart stroke
from exhaustion few weeks after his arrival) and 2 generations behind from the organ maker
who developed mouth cancer – that was still medically completely unknown - for
insisting to tune the lead canes of his organs, said to have a human tone when
being played, on top of the gene imprinting of these 2 family related
great-grand something, I’ve recently developed the idea that I might have been
in a precedent life a US army soldier who got shot in the head (left side of the head) on D-Day in Omaha beach from a
German sniper (or
machine gun).
This
concept of human immortality marries very well the idea of my atheist Italian friend
Iacopo with my other Catholic friend Roberta, because – even if with very different
basic concepts – both sustain the human immortality.
Boy, what a
morning this one! I’ve been crying for more than 2 hours and I can't stop, it’s very strange for me because I never imagined that I could become
this emotional about the holocaust, in fact my cousin (in Venice) and I used to make jokes about the
recipe to use to cook the Jewish people for dinner and he’s been pretending to
be a neo-Nazi, actually the reincarnation of Martin Bormann, who was a
prominent official in Nazi Germany as head of the Nazi Party Chancellery who
gained immense power by using his position as Adolf Hitler's private secretary
to control the flow of information - mainly to have a HUGE laugh (my oh my….),
anyway, aside the video trailer above, I put at the bottom a couple of videos about the Bosnian war that were uploaded into Youtube not too long ago. But here's one that hits the core of this human "addiction" to fight.
The
statement I love the most in this documentary/movie is:
“I’m NOT a victim…..victims are losers, I’m a survivor”, this is what I’ve been living as and it’s the way I
want to be remembered by.
The other
reason for me to cry this much and so hard is because this movie has me realize
that I too am condemned to remember, not
only my happy life before my incident but one of the very big losses
I’ve had too, one is the ability to ever play piano again, thanks to hemiparesis…..😐
This
actually is very closely related to my deep love for Glenn Gould and his piano
playing (look
at my old post about it)
VERY LUCKILY I’ve been able to create an entire folder in my Chrome browser
filled with Glenn playing Bach with his piano and here’s another “important statement”
saying that Glenn
wasn’t just playing Bach’s compositions, he was RE-composing Bach
when playing what J. S. Bach had created…….talk about 2 statements that
hit very hard those (like me) who give a damn about us humans, what we’ve
created and the very sophisticated approach to our existence.
Well,
now I leave you to enjoy my links and videos, with the only request to make
extra-sure to watch “condemned to remember” (if you can find it)to its very end, very much for the
reason that in this movie you can see the very last survivors to the holocaust
(70 years ago…..imagine) talking with Croatian "survivors"
Sadly we see history repeating itself, it shows in fact that in what used to be Yugoslavia we had – around 1990 (very
recent, just like yesterday) another holocaust type situation, where you see a 90 y/o holocaust
survivor talking
with a Croatian citizen (in his 40ies)
who recounts the story when he was hidden in a forest, watching at the enemies massacring
the people who lived in his town and the holocaust man nodding to show that’s
exactly what the Nazis did to the “inferior
Jewish people” 70 years ago. I think it to be very refreshing that I’ve
been working both on this blog and on my new emailing program (OEC) with great professionals
who live in Croatia, all very prepared and well-travelled, that's exactly what
I want/need to feel comfortable when working with others (all the links to them/their businesses are here on the right).
Here below I put few Youtubes about the very recent war in former Yugoslavia that's very frightening for the similarity to what had happened in Europe during WWII
And finally a warning about learning from our past:
My oh my, I
must admit to be – almost like everyone else – totally ignorant about humanity
and universal existence, life and afterlife, no matter that I can say that my
NDE experience has transformed me into a very spiritual individual, I still
remain with my mouth open and my eyes staring at the infinite vacuum of
nothing, in fact I’ve made as friend a very knowledgeable woman who – besides having
written and published several books about afterlife and what Jesus said to
teach to us very much about who we are and our universal position, I still get
shocked by what she replies to my never-ending questions.
In fact
earlier today I asked to her about forgiveness, simply because I feel to be the
victim of people who very happily take advantage of me and all I’ve built in my
life of hard work.
So I told
her that I do know well that Jesus said to always forgive your enemy and to
give the other cheek to the one who’s slapping your face but I told her that if
I forgive the ones who are stealing from me all they can, I can only feel good
when I think to the type of eternal afterlife they are going to have.
Well her
reply at least shocked me; in fact she mentioned what I’m planning to make a
post about soon, in fact she mentioned the “universal forgiveness that Jesus
taught” and – of course – I immediately googled this , oh my God! There are
hundreds of thousands of websites about this concept – that I never heard
anything about, which for a spiritual Catholic as me, is pretty
uncomfortable, in fact this is the very reason why – after having done my usual
research and having learned all I can of this I’ll publish a post about the universal forgiveness that Jesus taught.
Anyway,
following the idea that we know less than nothing about who we are, where we come
from and can just make hypotheses about where we go after we leave earth (die).
Among the
thousands of hypotheses done about humanity, I think it interesting to describe
one that must have involved several “brilliant minds” for some time.
What I’m
referring to the simulation hypothesis that truly fascinated me as I was
studying/researching it, I must in fact anticipate that the Youtube video here
at the bottom of this post, while it’s 17 minutes long is absolutely superior
in both the quality of the speaker and its sound/environment.
In short
this hypothesis fantasizes that we are all living in a computer program that
controls all about us, our lives, where we go, what we do and so on. What makes this very complex is that the observer is us, therefore the so-called "observer effect (watch explanation video) isn't some "superior entity, it's simply us.
I find it
fascinating that it took quantum mechanics to put to rest this more recent hypothesis
that’s – I have to admit – somewhat uncomfortable to imagine, it actually makes
me think to a movie I watched not long ago, where one philosopher tells to another man to look at the fish inside an aquarium/fish tank thinking that
the fish in it could be just like we are, totally under the control (food, water quality,
temperature and light)
of its owner and that for this very reason there shouldn’t be any surprise if
the fish start some type of routine that clearly shows the respect for the aquarium’s owner who has become their God.
To me,
there’s very little difference between the simulation hypothesis and the fish
tank example, both in fact reposition God’s idea/figure to a much more human
and understandable level, in short they both follow my own hypothesis that we
are the true God, I mean we are the ones who “created” the computer and use it
all the time, as well as the fish tank belongs to a man. In my (broken) mind there’s no doubt – especially
given these two examples - that as much as we created this and all the parallel
universes and as much as we make the (temporarily) so-called miracles, it logically follows that
the true God creator is and will always be the humankind (us). Now enjoy my Youtubes (especially the one at
the bottom) and go
to the 5 websites I link here below.
Last summer
I was “graced” to be assessed again (he 3rd one) by yet another of those “neuro clowns”
who was somehow unsure to put in writing that I cannot count to 3, he therefore
came up with the genial idea to have
me show that I’m able to manage (my) money on my own(dahhh).
Now I’ve
been criticized for what I’m about to say by a very dear (to me) person who states that I had my "test" because I didn’t keep an eye on my incomes – that were deposited in my (new for me) account, according to the normal
timings.
While I
certainly agree with the statement, I simply feel the need to add little small
info that in my (broken) mind put this “test”
under a different light and I’m doing it as I always do…..by bullet points:
·My
initial capital was the “luxurious”
amount of $3K
·I
was told of my “fixed monthly expenses”
(rent,
medical, medicinal, my personal luxuries – as decided by the very generous court) prior to the beginning of the “test”
What
truthfully happened – aside from the fact that I had no credit of any kind, neither
any other type of monetary flexibility – is that my Queen (who I still love like in the beginning….27 years ago) thought it to be OK to take from my initial (bare) fund $2K as “anticipation” for my treasures’ support (”I need it to pay rent
earlier this month”),
my princess daughter’s ballet school called me to be paid for the upcoming
month but charged me for 2 full months, when I was supposed (BUT , I was never told) to just pay for
half of one month (I paid quadruple the amount for her ballet class), at the same time it was decided –
by our collective family in Italy that my princess should spend her summer in
Verona to both improve her spoken Italian and to get to meet and know well the
Italian side of her family, I therefore anticipated (for few days) the full cost of the air-ticket
from LA to Verona (with Lufthansa).
My dear son
put the final “cherry on the pie”
represented as fooling me to cut him a check for $1K for a “cab ride” to my prison (VSB) and to buy back a
golden bracelet that used to belong to my princess he had lent to a pond shop
for cash, when in reality he used the money to buy drugs for himself.
The (logic) result of my “test” was to tell to the court that I had decided not to go forward
with this “test” rather than say (to a non-human mound of
lard) that I love
my family more than my own life....
Bottom
line, the man who used to be for several decades the president of multi-million
dollar companies mainly in the footwear industry, but in spare parts equipment
for agricultural machinery too always showing profitable and above-budget results
was put in the position to fail something I could easily do when I was 15 years
old.
The
consequences are that I lost my entire US family and I’ve been imposed the
financial control initially by a woman who I best say nothing about (nothing good, I’d be
moved to another jail…. )
and now by a former/failed Presbyterian minister (best for me not to express what he showed to our God
what he likes best……).
And here
(and now) once again I’m in the position to refer to Iacopo, my atheist friend
who’s been proving through his studies what I’ve been saying here, or that the
true God we’ve been referring to since the beginning of time is simply us, “normal people” who - using the organ
between our 2 ears - have created “at
least” this universe and all that surrounds us, since the beginning of time.
In fact what he’s been saying with his writings is that “the time when people will realize what kind of
afterlife they are looking at - depending on the kind of life they lived -
will be the time when the entire world will change overnight ” which
to me it sounds exactly the same to what Jesus Christ had attempted to teach to
humankind (us sinners). If I was one of the “neuro clowns” who had
attempted to figure out what kind of person I’ve always been (and still am) I’d immediately start to “sweat bullets”
while I rush to see an experienced and very good attorney able to modify the
assessment made on me asap.
Last but
not least, you can go to my past posts where I explain the (Catholic/religious) reason that clearly explains how hurting "somebody else” does bring earthly damnations, that are often fairly noticeable. My references to A. Einstein here, predict a future post that will explain the reason for my increased logic and intelligence that are simply explained by the Quantum Physics related NDE.
Following
my post of few days ago where I talked about the triplication of the chances to
die sooner after a TBI – once again – I want to make reference to my good
friend Iacopo.......the atheist, in the sense that him being somewhat of a
philosopher with very specific ideas about what happens after we die and about
our human afterlife, he introduced me to D. Kolak, about whom I’ve read some of
his writings that I find interesting but that bring forward what I define as
very strange ideas about human existence and especially the individuality of
each of us, I also find that Iacopo is very much influenced by this other
American philosopher, however as the “born Christian” that I’ve been since I
can remember I’ve developed a very nice email-relationship with the Roberta in
these Youtubes I put in this post.
I’m not
totally sure, but we’ve had our highs and lows in our email exchanging because
she says that all she knows which is the fruit of her “half century of research
on afterlife”, that’s very much intermixed with her absolute faith in Jesus, to
the point that she recently published an entire book about it, with the title “Liberating Jesus”now
sold through Amazon worldwide of which I both have her original (from her directly) pdf copy and the pre-read version sold
by Amazon, this way it’s much easier for me to read (listen) what she wrote about our
afterlife.
Anyway I
know (by
direct experience) that
Roberta and Iacopo are at the 2 opposite extremes of the idea about where we
end up after we die.
While
Roberta’s hypothesis is very close to what Jesus taught to us – that’s now
being scientifically confirmed by the quantum physics – the (opposite) position taken by Iacopo and Kolak
is what I’d say “fully based" on the quantum physics too.
Therefore
in a certain way both hypotheses are totally opposite BUT
both based on quantum physics’ claims, if you want to know which side I prefer,
my preference goes to that of Roberta, not just because she’s a Catholic -
just like me – but very much more because what she says – that forms the
foundations of her hypothesis – is fully based on research done interviewing
real people who truly experienced – like I did – what happens with death and
after (NDE,
Near Death Experience).
Of course – aside from suggesting to read her book (please think NOT that I make any money from
saying this) and
keep checking my blog here that’s growing by the day and that soon is going to
reach the one thousand posts……what am I going to do after that? Well, at least
I can say that it had me develop a cultured spiritual individual who has
studied for many months most of what humans have scratched their heads for
centuries, no comment on the fact that I could do it only because I’m alone and
retired….
