MY DISABILITY

I realized today, watching another 6 beers worth movie "the peaceful warrior" that my real and only disability isn't that I cannot walk but that I must pay a professional conservator (very good) to be helped in doing what the only love of my life could do too easily for me to even start saying. It goes without me saying that every $ I pay my conservator is one $ less that remains to my family members (my eternal love included) in addition I had gotten very angry at my real sister Anna for having given up on being my conservator…… why would I ever be angry at my dear sister when it should be my beloved wife who should have done this in the first place?? I guess this could be listed as a typical sign of TBI by the Oxnard Ph.D. in fear, but what makes me even more "disabled" is to see my treasures growing up in an environment of fear, insecurity and atheism, on this I have something to add because I've been exchanging emails with a priest in Italy who my mother put me in touch with, we've been exchanging several emails about my question of the reason why it was the very first woman (Eve) who committed the original sin and not Adam and also about my understanding of the revenge concept reading the Bible (both testaments), out of the answers/explanations I received from this priest/theologian I can say that my disability increased for the frustrations he gave to me (sista would say that nothing can ever be good enough to satisfy me).

Anyway today I went to see a very good neurologist with my conservator mainly to make a change in one of my primary medications and I couldn't stop thinking how this visit could have been if rather than my conservator, my dearly beloved was there with me.

So, here you have it, I'm NOT disabled, I'm ABANDONED that Italians say that my heart has been ripped out of my chest (my brain out of my skull, for me).

Disability/abandonment

1. http://www.brainline.org/content/2008/11/what-happens-relationships-after-brain-injury.html
2. https://echoesofmypast.wordpress.com/
3. http://www.alternativesnet.org/?gclid=CIbWton1u8cCFQoKaQodezMKAg
4. https://usodep.blogs.govdelivery.com/2014/04/16/my-disability-may-be-invisible-but-im-not/
5. http://www.bbc.co.uk/blogs/ouch/2008/01/humans_can_withstand_almost_an.html
6. https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/hide-and-seek/201204/fighting-suicidal-thoughts
7. http://www.lifebeyond4limbs.com/my-8-steps-to-rebuilding-your-life-with-a-disability/

Many more links about my fixation about to become FDA approved:

1. http://strokerecoverytrialfund.org/
2. http://pseag.com/
3. http://pseag.com/uncategorized/perispinal-etanercept-treatment-news-story/
4. http://www.alzforum.org/news/research-news/breakthrough-or-false-hope-etanercept-case-report-draws-scrutiny
5. http://www.casewatch.org/board/med/tobinick/accusation.shtml
6. http://www.aetna.com/cpb/medical/data/300_399/0315.html
7. http://www.greenatom.net/news/physicians-group-calls-on-the-fda-to-repurpose-enbrel-for/
8. http://www.news-medical.net/news/20121101/Single-dose-of-etanercept-can-improve-chronic-neurological-dysfunction-from-stroke-or-TBI.aspx
9. http://www.pharmacychoice.com/news/article.cfm?Article_ID=1075479
10. http://www.benzinga.com/pressreleases/13/05/p3590367/newly-published-medical-research-confirms-the-efficacy-of-perispinally-
11. http://www.benzinga.com/pressreleases/13/05/p3568671/novel-drug-treatment-quickly-reverses-traumatic-brain-injury
12. https://www.sciencebasedmedicine.org/enbrel-for-stroke-and-alzheimers/