I was born with several distinct characteristics, or
attitudes: sense of ownership, self-confidence, sense of (giving) protection,
very firm psychological balance that always helped me to make sense of every
situation, even the craziest J.
It was very natural for me to be the head of household,
father, husband and company president to always know exactly what to say and
do, no matter the situation.
I believe that in part it is because I was born with these characteristics
that I made my wife Michele always feel very protected and secure of her life,
much like in the past my sister Anna never had to be at all concerned to be in
any kind of public place with any fear or sense of defenselessness.
I think that is very ironic now that I'm disabled, and
cannot be in my active role of protection from anything and anyone, that both Michele and
Anna find themselves in the very unnatural position (for them) to be the ones
who not only are supposed to try to protect me, but that they themselves must
figure out all on their own how to recreate their feelings to be overseen by my
protective strength.
As a result of both their complete inability to take care of
my new and unpredictable needs, I'm incarcerated in a nice prison in Santa
Barbara downtown and I've been forcing myself to let go of any expectation about
their (unrealistic) capacity to ever do anything good or right for me, their invincible
guard who not even death can beat!
I did some research about this reversal of roles in history
and I understand that it has never been something done by choice, or if
it was, it happened by mistake. However I want to give some feeling of
confidence to Anna and to Michele, who - no matter their gigantic and immoral
mistakes in my regards - can be sure that I'm not going to sit myself on some
throne to judge them for their actions or any of their mistakes, my
arms remain open to their hearts and my "protective wings" always
ready to put out of business anything or anyone who might dream to take any
advantage of "my women".
- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Role_reversal
- http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/role+reversal
- http://psychologydictionary.org/role-reversal/
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