MY MISTAKE

On 5/7/14 I wrote a post titled  “TRULY SHOCKING” where I said that in my infinite internet research on my PC I kind of realized that maybe what’s been giving to me the atrocious pain – that for 8 years plenty physiatrists and “pain specialists” and even 2 neurologists MD have been attempting to reduce and named "neurologic pain" – is just sciatica pain.

My mistake is that – given that sciatica has been treated for years with Enbrel – I kept talking about being given the Enbrel per the (patented) perispinal injection to make it reach the brain to have full neurological recovery (TRUE but not FDA approved for money reasons only).

I’ve been saying here before very (too?) long about what the patent has created, in terms of fears and uncertainties, mainly about the money that none of my MD (past and present) has and/or earns in any substantial amounts.

So while I might have confused the issues regarding my back pain being generated by my injured brain, the fact remains that none of my guess-scientists (or doctors) ever guessed or even tried to say that my pain is a “simple” sciatica pain, nor advised for me to see a rheumatologist who have been using the Enbrel for many years to treat sciatica pain with full success.

What I’m going to say now might be too simple for my plenty MD who attempted (over 8 years) to reduce my back pain, but given that in this guess-science, my own guess is as good as one of any MD, I’m going to say it anyway:

“Given that it’s mainly due to the pain that I cannot walk, when I walk again I start to work and travel again (W = W) and with this my (now former) wife accepts me to be her husband and present father of my treasures again” In other words my life would return to be as perfect as it was before the accident that really didn’t physically damaged me too much (broken jaw and mild TBI). Of course- even if mild - I did have a TBI with all of its complications (heterotrophic ossification, violent period, short-term memory issues etc…)

However,  those have been all overcome with the very long time that’s passed since 2005 and given that my brain was just injured in the motor cortex area, my intelligence and logic haven’t changed a bit since before ‘05.

What’s truly sad is that if you are a company president and say or do something stupid or illogic, people can laugh at you, while you are being corrected, but if you are a victim of TBI (like me), everyone pities you and there are plenty Ph.D.’s who studied on their (old) text-books that there’s a reason why you say or do anything and it refers to a particular area of the brain that’s now damaged. This also explains why I’m under conservatorship and my frustrated anger is now fully replaced by great pity for those who believe to have done it all right in my regards.

I want to conclude saying that I’m a bit unsure about what to do next because while Jesus said that revenge is evil, His father God murdered hundreds of Egyptians running after the escaping Jew slaves by closing the parted Red Sea on them, not to mention the thousands of other people who died of horrible deaths, you can read it all in the Bible.

I therefore just wait and see IF something positive will happen for me soon, or if I shall find the “right” attorney to make everyone pay for their mistakes while still alive (God will take care of their souls for eternity if their mistakes while being alive aren’t corrected) that’s sure (think about it Erik, Tiffany, Michele. Anna and Beth).