AMAZING PARALLELL

It’s just came to my mind of devoted listener of all the recordings and movies ever made about Glenn Gould that he died few days after he had turned to be 50 y/o and while I do keep hoping that the God in which I believe (sorry Iacopo) is going to take me back again very soon (too much suffering), I do realize that I really haven’t done in my life anything even close to be remembered with the passion and sorrow that Glenn does command in all of his passionate listeners.

What’s exceptional and unique about what Glenn did first isn’t so much that he played Bach on the piano almost like he was recomposing the works of Bach, but mostly that he transferred his exceptional capacities to the act of recording and filming them all, in fact his recording of the Goldberg Variations has been a best seller for about 40 years after his death, so I see this like a perfect piano player with the additional gift to understand and know how to record his own magical interpretations of the works composed by Bach, several hundreds of years earlier.

Given that I had 2 children/treasures I think that I have an advantage over Glenn, but since my deal with the Almighty was about me keep on living to be with my 2 treasures whom I can only see on Sundays for few hours, this isn’t truly like maintaining my promise I made in exchange of keep living, and even if I’m about to move much closer to them, a very big obstacle remains between me and my treasures, named Michele, or their mother.

So in trying to imagine ways to be remembered for few decades after my death (only God knows when) I came up with few ideas that I’m going to list here below:

1. after the exceptional and unique full recovery from TBI return to work again in the footwear business

2. keep working on this blog to make it become like an internet site of destination for the many people who browse in the internet to find inspiration and answers to the many questions of life

3. Spend quality time with my treasures who’ll eventually spread my experience and knowledge around.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FxcmwdfCMfY

PATRIOTISM & CAPITALISM

You all saw my posts invoking the patriotism to move forward with the re-purposing of the Enbrel medication for something different than what was approved by the FDA for (rheumatic pain, AS), but a friend of mine told me by email that here in the USA capitalism is certainly a much stronger feeling than patriotism. My mistake is that I was born in Italy that’s been a country under the political control of the countries it borders with for several centuries (France, Spain and Germany); it wasn’t until the 18^th century that with Garibaldi and G. Mazzini Italy became an independent State (Republic) with its own political system, a parliament and its own President.

I guess that given that this independence took place not too long ago, every Italian has a strong patriotic drive to take care of the Italian borders, arts history and language.

While here in the USA we celebrate the Independence Day on July 4^th to remember what was done on that same day in 1776 our American history is very different from the Italian one, meaning that here in N. America we were never invaded physically in any territories, we had to break the dominating relationship away from the very distant UK monarchy (kings or Queens). Even today in Italy the Italian language is very influenced by the official language of the previous country that dominated the area, so in the South of Italy the “dialect” is very influenced by Spanish, given that the Bourbons of Spain ruled the South of Italy for very many years, while in Tuscany it was France that used to treat that region of Italy as an extension of its territories, so there even today the local slang (dialect) is still very influenced by the French language.

Every part of Italy used to be under the political and cultural influence dominion of the country geographically closest to it and I can add i.e. that Sicily used to be very influenced by Greece, there still exist there several Greek temples and other types of monuments, similar to those in the Athens’s Parthenon and Verona and its slang are influenced by the German language and culture, given its proximity to both Austria and Germany.

So the patriotic feeling is very ingrained in the attitude of every true Italian and this is very different from the patriotism of any American, even if the independence wars took place at about the same time. What’s even stronger in any real American of the USA is truly the “capitalism” or an economic system based on private ownership of property and business, with the goal of making the greatest possible profits for the owners.

So this same friend told me that for the already wealthy and profitable Amgen to ask to the FDA to approve the use of the Enbrel – a very strong TNF-alpha reducer that also reduces the immunological system of the person who receives it - it’s close to impossible to use several hundreds of millions of $$$ that a repurposing by FDA costs, to have Enbrel approved for neurological recovery needed after a TBI or to treat the Alzheimer.

This actually explains the reason why I’ve been emailing our current President Obama, the governor of the California State and even the few other companies in this business of the TNF-alpha, (i.e. Remicade, Humira, Cimzia, and Simponi) to go after the approval for TBI recovery, that’s still wide open and that can surely generate huge profits given the vastness of what I call the epidemic of this new millennium.

I’m however in great hopes that the Obama sponsored BRAIN project will realize that such anti-inflammatory agent is of strong help for TBI recovery.

I can only say:”let’s wait and see”.

How much longer am I going to have to wait to receive the Enbrel treatment given that it’s pretty obvious that it’s a treatment that can generate very much money to all who can provide it?

1. http://www.populistdaily.com/politics/capitalism-versus-patriotism.html

2. http://wurdsfromtheburbs.blogspot.com/2011/07/capitalism-and-patriotism.html

ICEBREAKERS

There must have been some initial large investment of money for these 2 doctors who I call “icebreakers” because they’ve started much earlier than the complete medical environment to treat using a TNF-alpha medication (Etanercept or Enbrel) to tre

at victims like me to have neurological improvements following either a stroke or TBI (= brain damage).

Normally whenever someone starts doing something new with success there’s a number of “followers” filing right behind the innovators or icebreakers, but this is the case that makes the complete exception, I can’t believe that it’s just a matter of the money needed for the initial investment, that can be made again by treating the first few patients, given that the basic ingredient is pretty inexpensive and not much of it, is really needed.

The sad result of this exception is that I’m going to have to wait for the “potential” future approval of the use of Enbrel for TBI by the FDA that only someone else – other than Amgen/Pfizer – will fund for the medical testing (trial) and approval.

These two “icebreakers” are geniuses for having been able to see and forecast the payoff of their investment or maybe they really took very seriously their Hippocratic Oath of dedication to the improvement of their patients’ conditions.

Again it’s very possible that my complete ignorance of the “guess-science” is making me see this case in a very twisted way, but I still I cannot figure out a reason why none of my doctors hasn’t at least accepted my begging to at least “try” it, especially given that all they keep doing all day long with all of their patients is to “try” to prescribe something that nobody ever knows if it’ll work for them/their conditions.

As I’ve been writing here for months I’m left only with the wish/hope that at next year’s worldwide neurological convention there will be agreement among all these scientists of guessing that using Enbrel can truly help the neurological recovery of an injured brain. Only 5 more months…..

• http://neuroscience.md/treatment/
• http://www.neurology.ucla.edu/index.jsp?m=2&s=4_16

MY STRENGTH OF CARACHTER

I’m told by many that what I say in writing here in my blog gives inspiration to “hang tough” in many situations on a daily basis because very often when things don’t seem to go in the right way many of my readers here think of me and of all the wrongs that keep happening to me that they decide that what they see as wrong to them isn’t too bad when compared to me and therefore they can soon overcome their sense of discomfort and by keeping on working and trying even harder they can overcome whatever it is that’s giving problems to them and make them feel like losers in what they are doing.

The priest who actually brings communion to me where I’m imprisoned every Sunday told me recently that what I write in my blog even inspires him and that maybe this is the mission in my life that God gave for me to fulfill.

While I can be glad to have a group of followers who take inspiration from my tragedies through this blog, I hope that it’s very clear to everyone that I never asked to receive such a challenge in my life, I actually think that I did have my share of real challenges in life already, that – given that I passed them all – I really never asked nor needed this tough/bad one.

I mean, I surely do appreciate what Fr. Blanco told me about my tragedy but I believe that he said so, simply to encourage me to support such misery that only someone blind can’t see.

What’s absolutely sure without any doubt however is that my God given strength of character will help me pass and forget all about this additional test for sure.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Character_Strengths_and_Virtues

BETTER TO BE SAFE, THAN SORRY

I just did yet another neuropsychological evaluation with a doctor recommended by my court appointed defense attorney, this is a doctor of superlative experience and knowledge who works since several years at the Semel institute of UCLA, has been involved in the legislative process that concerns the testing of people with bran injury and the appointment of conservators.

Regardless of the fact that his analysis of me and mental/logic capacities turned out to be a personal success that is going to free me up of my temporary conservator, he said something commenting my previous evaluation that I can’t let go out of my mind, in fact he said that my previous neuropsychologist used as his guideline the “better be safe, than sorry” approach/attitude.

If this wasn’t used as sole term of reference by the judge deciding on my case and life, I wouldn’t have anything to say nor complain about, but since this “safe” assessment was used as the sole source to decide to be appointed a sorry conservator who could easily be my daughter, who to follow the law to the letter has made it impossible to me to even look at my money in my (now inexistent) bank and savings accounts, has cancelled my credit cards that I used to have for decades without a blemish, has cancelled my only way to spend my lonely days, called Netflix account and I fear that by stopping the payments to my life insurance policy whose only beneficiaries are my treasures.

In simple words the one “simple” assessment combined with a judge who clearly can’t see farther than his nose, both have destroyed my life as I had worked to build it for 50 years?

Any suggestion about who I should give my thanks to for this catastrophe is both very welcome and expected.

http://forum.wordreference.com/showthread.php?t=1652940

ABOUT MATH AND THE EXISTENCE OF GOD

I wrote already here on Feb 6th, 2013 about the neuropsychological attitude towards a God and its existence, but since I also recently advised to one of those Losers to learn about Pascal Wager.

I decided to make his mathematical approach to the demonstration to the existence of God more known – at least for those who read my blog here.

Blaise Pascal (1623-1662) was a 17th century French mathematician and scientist who, sadly, died at the age of 39 in a vehicle accident. He is considered to be the father of modern probability theory. He created the first calculating machine, invented the syringe, developed the hydraulic press, and refined the barometer for measuring atmospheric pressure.

I’m going to try here to explain his logic with very simple math:

1=we believe in God + 0= God doesn’t exist = 1, we had a good life anyway

1=we believe in God + 1= God is real = 2, we go to heaven after death

-1= we don’t believe in any God + 1=God is real = 0 or hell/eternal oblivion

-1= we don’t believe in any God + 0= God doesn’t exist = -1 = sure eternal hell

Since my brain is injured I’m not sure to have explained and simplified correctly the theory of Pascal, but you can look at the links posted here below to check for yourself.

Can also anyone explain to Michele that 1Carlo + 1Michele = 2Heaven, please?

• http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pascal_wager
• http://atheism.about.com/od/argumentsforgod/a/pascalswager.htm

DEAR DAD

Dear Dad I want to tell you that as well I've always wanted, you taught me something that I did not know at all, and that is that the love of a father for his children is not different from the one that has the mother, I in My brain always looking for reasons and explanations for everything I had imagined that the love of a mother was stronger than that of a father because children are raised and trained within the body of a woman and a man can not do it, so I thought that this training would combine in a unique way the mother with the children, but now that I've seen and thought of everything that you have always done for me I also understand that my love for my children is not different or lower than that have their mother and really I'm alive and I continue to suffer like a dog just for the sake that I want for my children.

You told me that I had talked with Jesus and decided that I wanted to come back here to live, even though he had told me that I had pain, and in fact the pain for too many years that I can not even deal with the drug morphine, is a deep pain for something that can not be changed even by force, because it is done by the person that I had chosen as the mother of my children, who now call my treasures.

When my phone rings in the morning I waited for months that he or mom or Anna who tell me that you're not with us anymore, but I also want to tell you that your speech you did to me in Verona the last time we having regard to the existence of the soul gave me huge hopes and has caused me great curiosity.

I believe you when you tell me that the soul exists, if you think that Einstein called the immortality and omnipresence of energy - including electricity - and you put together that our brain to function produces shock of micro electricity that you can not be sure that every man is energy, and as such continues to exist even after the physical death of the body that contains it.





I had great pleasure that you have told me that because of the existence of the soul are you sure you're not afraid of death hence I was much less sad or scared of your death because - as I've always said it - death is the best thing out there - it happens to everyone, kings, popes and billionaires and represents a kind of liberation from a physical body which now no longer able to do what is necessary to have a decent life and without pain.

I want to conclude by telling you that as you told me that I have made you proud as a father, I have always been proud to be your son and I hope that your soul (or energy) can manifest with me to fix my traumatized brain.

http://www.probe.org/site/c.fdKEIMNsEoG/b.4222601/k.FC77/What_is_the_Purpose_of_a_Painful_Death.htm

ENBREL REPURPOSING

I put here a video that explains how everything in this world is always and only driven by money and makes it very clear what I wrote before using the term of “crass capitalism” that explains why only president Obama, or God can make right what an intelligent and lucky doctor discovered by accident.

DANTE A. AND MY 50th BIRTHDAY

MIDWAY upon the journey of our life

I found myself within a forest dark,

For the straightforward pathway had been lost.



Ah me! How hard a thing it is to say

What was this forest savage, rough, and stern?

Which in the very thought renews the fear.



This is the way my most beloved Italian poet/writer started the narration of his trip through the afterworld and he did such a great job – even if he always claimed to have just written down stories and fables from the street peasants – that the Italian language he had used to write his “comedy” became the very Italian language still spoken today in my mother country and forms its grammar and literary rules still today, or about 700 years later.

What Dante meant by saying “midway upon the journey of life” used to mean to be about in your 40ies because that’s how long people were living in the XIII century, but with the improvement of both the living conditions and of the guess-science that “midway” has moved to 50 or my age today.

I can also say for direct experience that the after death does really exist, because when I came out of the coma I’m told that I immediately recounted having made an agreement with God’s son, Jesus whom I asked to come back to living earth for the love I have for my treasures/children – even if I was told that it would be painful – I find it funny that I had imagined that nothing couldn’t be taken care by taking some Tylenol, I do know now that my pain can’t be reduced even by taking morphine, I always have it an no guess-scientist has any idea on how to at least reduce it.

However what counts is that even if I’m in atrocious pain all the time, not a minute doesn’t go by without me thanking God to be here to see my children and take care of them, even if I’m limited in doing this by their mother, who chose to live with my doctor in a nearby town.

Now that I’m back here for about 50 more years it’s my duty to prove to the world with my example that a medication exists that by reducing the neuroinflammation, plasticity can start again to re-wire our brain when injured, so that we can put an end to what I call the epidemic of this new millennium and allow experienced professionals to rejoin the wealth producing machine of the (still) leading country in this world, U.S.A.

I know that regardless the ignorance, skepticism and even fear of those who have power on me I’ll receive the help of God in my crusade to fully recover and plenty other people will recover from their “impossible injury to heal”.

As I wrote here before do not pray for me and for this to become reality, simply concentrate and focus your thoughts on what you wish and this miracle will happen.

Good thoughts to everyone who reads me here!

http://www.divinecomedy.org/divine_comedy.html

GOD, GRAVITY AND EINSTEIN

For as long as we've been around (roughly 5800 years), we've been asking the question: what is God? Now, I'm fairly confident in what I can say what God is not. God is not a dude in the sky with a white beard and a robe. God is not constantly watching and judging us, putting us in a book under the naughty or nice lists.

What I do feel that I know is that God is something that the human mind is incapable of comprehending. God is something beyond this plane of existence but peeking through into perceivable space.

God is gravity. We are God. The planet Earth is God. The same way that all of our cells somehow manage to work together and make us live, by some bizarre bit of chance, us being heard makes God "live". But just as those cells don't know how the whole body functions, we don't know how the universe works. The mysteries of the universe: dark matter, black holes, gravity; these are the very definition of mystical forces.

Gravity is the force that binds everything together in the universe. Without gravity the galaxy doesn't stay together, the earth doesn’t orbit around the sun, and we don't stay on Earth. Beyond this, gravity is at once the most simple of forces and the most complicated. It's easy to understand that an object falls to earth but understand the why, that's where we find God.

To completely understand the ins and outs of how the universe functions is such a lofty goal the comparison to understanding God is inevitable. Even if we understand every bit of gravity, where did the design come from? Why should the universe work that way? Why should we need air to live, or be limited to our small plot of dirt and water? It takes an amazing type of person to even begin to answer those questions. Perhaps even… a prophet.
I know, now I must sound crazy. A physics prophet but hold on, there's room for them in my crazy theory. I'm not talking about Moses or Elijah. No, the prophets as I see it are people like Isaac Newton and Albert Einstein.
Every animal on earth understands on some level that when you drop an object it falls to earth. It's when man was able to think and ask the question why that we began to approach God. It was when the answers to questions like that were discovered that God was showing Itself to people.

Now don't think that this is some Contact thing where God's going to show up as your deceased father. The way these "prophets" see God is that their mind takes a step forward in evolution. The mind of someone like Newton or Einstein has opened up to a new level of consciousness and seen a piece of the how the universe works in a way that no person had been able to see before.
Einstein is the best example. Until him, we understood the how’s of gravity. All objects have a gravitational pull, the bigger or denser the object is the more gravity it has. But why? Why should an object pull other things toward it, just because it's larger and denser? Einstein saw why, in short it was his theory of space-time curvature. I won't get into describing it here except to say that it's like throwing a ball onto a sheet that has a weight in the center. The object goes towards the ball because the weight has created a well that the ball falls towards. (Wikipedia has a pretty nice entry on space-time for scientist wannabes).

Einstein was the first to be able to see into this piece of the universe; this piece of God. Then, like a prophet does, he shared what he had learned with the rest of humanity, translating God into something we can comprehend. Compare it to the idea of Moses, translating the word of God into the Torah and the Ten Commandments. He translated God into morals that the Jewish people could understand.

That brings me to a final point. I'm Catholic. I don't consider myself an atheist or even an agnostic. Can I do this? I don't know. It's a bit of a crisis of faith for me honestly, but more so I believe in the morals I was raised on. The way I was raised, especially regarding religion, taught me to question everything and explore any theory, any possibility. My thinking and philosophizing brought me to this conclusion and I think that at the end of the day that’s what religion should preach above all us: question what you're told.

On researching to make this post I found a quote by Carl Sagan:

"The idea that God is an oversized white male with a flowing beard who sits in the sky and tallies the fall of every sparrow is ludicrous. But if by God one means the set of physical laws that govern the universe, then clearly there is such a God. This God is emotionally unsatisfying... it does not make much sense to pray to the law of gravity."
True, it's not fun to worship gravity itself. The laws of physics are significantly less dramatic than the laws of the Judeo-Christian God. More than that though, a God that doesn't preside over us means that our lives are in our own hands and that is somewhat scary.
Sure, physics won't help us in a time of need and it won't smite wrongdoers, but what I don't agree with Mr. Sagan about is that this version of God is "emotionally unsatisfying". After all, what could be more magical than something completely unknown? In Italian we have been saying for centuries when someone dies that :”passed to a better living” and while I don’t know where this saying comes from or what its reason might be, the last time I saw my dad he convinced me of the existence of the soul in every human being for having witnessed it leaving the body at death and putting this concept with the infinity of energy demonstrated by Einstein I now believe that there certainly is something after death and I choose to believe that after we abandon our body old, sick or broken we (our souls) rejoin those of others we knew or loved while living in some other type of dimension created by the human mind, or the cumulative intelligence and living experience under the influence of gravity, or God.

http://voices.yahoo.com/religious-conversion-god-as-gravity-11170514.html

ME AND GLENN GOULD

As I’m approaching my 50th birthday I fear that the influence of my personal God of life (Glenn Gould) might have been more than just an intellectual influence on me, the fact that on September 27, 1982 – when exactly 50y/o - after experiencing a severe headache, Gould suffered a stroke that paralyzed the left side of his body (same as me).He was admitted to Toronto General Hospital and his condition rapidly deteriorated. By October 4, there was evidence of brain damage, and Gould's father decided that his son should be taken off life support (unlike what I had instructed Michele to do). He is buried next to his parents in Toronto's Mount Pleasant Cemetery (section 38, Row 1088, Plot 1050). The first few measures of the Goldberg Variations are carved on his marker. According to the Glenn Gould Foundation, the cemetery staff is often asked for directions to his grave.

While my own dear father is struggling to live his last few days here on living earth, I try to put at rest my mother’s angst by telling her – convinced – what my dad has been telling to me during our time together, about the sure existence of the soul (=energy therefore indestructible) that once free of the old and malfunctioning body is going to be free of pain, meet again friends and relatives who passed earlier and by being closer to our creator will make it possible for me and my treasures to live together again.

Since centuries we say in Italian when someone dies that “s/he passed to a better life” I really don’t know how nor when this way of saying originated, but having died myself already once I can say that it’s true.

The only one reason why I’m still living here is for the immense love I feel for my treasures, I’m doing this even if Jesus had warned me that it was going to be painful, not a day goes by that I don’t thank myself for having made this decision, even if my pain and frustrating battle to recover from TBI can be overwhelming at times, nothing can replace the joy I have when my treasures come to see me and now that I’m moving much closer to them, my joy and happiness are going to increase exponentially.

So it’ll be awhile before I’ll meet the soul of Glenn Gould but in the meantime I’ll be on heaven here on earth having my treasures with me and I'm trying to make this blog something like the movies of Glenn Gould playing, that really are like his testament to future generations of piano players.

http://glenngould.ca/blog/

ABOUT PAIN

As my readers here know I’ve been affected 24/7 by a form of pain that my current physiatrist has defined as “neurological pain” for having been unable to at least reduce it, in fact I’ve tried a large amount of prescription medications but lately I feel I’m stuck on morphine sulfate, that’s pretty much a drug that requires doctor’s prescription and safe storage in the house, I have developed however a different theory about my constant pain that surely no prescription medication can at least reduce and is very much consistent to what Jesus had warned me about when I chose to live for my treasures.

Even if my pain affects a specific muscle and part in my back it’s all and only due to all the losses I had because of the accident with TBI.

Not only and simply, I lost the ability to earn a comfortable living with my work, passion and dedication but my role as the caring and loving husband I was set out to be my whole life with the attention to the care for my creatures that I now call my treasures, after Cornelia – Gracchi’s mother in ancient Rome.

So in my way of looking at this I don’t see nor hope that my pain could ever be treated or at least reduced, unless my wife and children return to live under my physical protection that’s all they have been missing from me, since my divorce forces me to pay to them a luxurious support that’s only monetary and takes in no absolute consideration that a husband/father can provide comfort and security beyond what a pile of money can ever do.

What’s even more aggravating of the inability of my real life companion to realize how much pain she’s been giving to me, herself and our treasures is that her unethical temporary lover has been taking full advantage of my condition of money giver without anything in return.

Sometimes I say that this B. has won the lottery of this century and of his life, but – I say – only until I fully win my fight over the impossible or he starts to run away NOW!!

http://abclocal.go.com/wabc/story?section=news&id=4482481

NEUROLOGICAL ARGUMENT AGAINST THE EXIISTENCE OF GOD

This is a neurological argument formulated against the existence of God.

I describe it only because I need it to make my argument in the end.

God is an entity which is quite evidently the product of human minds due to the complexity involved in his conception. The Judeo-Christian God displays a lot of attributes including but not limited to: A mind, self-consciousness, awareness, will and the entire range of human emotions such as anger and love.
Minds, as neurologists understand them, are complex. Minds are the product of the correlation between billions of neurons in the brain.
Self-consciousness is remarkably complex because it relies on multiple components working together to paint a picture of awareness; in the case of our minds, it is our sensory organs connected to our brain via neural pathways. Will is the ability to decide. It is our brains that decide what we think and do; the front and center regions of the brain are responsible for decision making. Emotions also have a complex biochemical basis which involves the interaction of multiple chemicals such as serotonin and dopamine.
If the premises were formally stated, this argument would look like this.

1. God is a mind.

2. Minds are complex.

3. Minds are the products of human brains.

4. Therefore, God is not simple.

5. Therefore, God must be complex and the product of a human brain.

6. Therefore God does not exist in reality but only in human brains.
We can even extend this argument to include awareness, emotion, will and anything that brains do.

First we will argue that God is a mind. Since there seems no other logical choice, I think we should conclude that God is a divine mind whose thoughts and actions resemble humans.
In order for premise 2 and 3 to be correct, we must argue for physicalism, or the idea that the mind is part of the brain. Because physicalism has been demonstrated to be successful and we have a neurological understanding of how thoughts work, we can say that premise 2 and 3 are almost certainly true.

If physicalism is true then minds are not simple absolutes reigning outside the body but are products of complex neurological interactions which gives evidence for premise 4.
If God is not simple then he must be complex. Likewise, if a mind is the product of a human brain and nothing else, it would be logical to conclude that God as a mind is a product of a human brain.
If my argument works, it would imply that God as a divine mind would have to be a fully functional and complex brain. Therefore, God does not exist in reality but only in the minds of human beings. I also want to add that it’s only the strength, focus and desire of any human brain that makes miracles happen and that the word miracle is just used because science still hasn’t figured out how to explain it.
Think of teletransporting or bending metal with the mind, doing this few decades ago would have made you someone to adore for these special powers surely given by a God.
Einstein was one of the deepest and most logical minds ever existed in our times and he explained the existence of the soul (energy) and of God by describing the relationship between mass, speed of light and time.
It’s based on this superbly intelligent man that I confirm my own belief in the existence of God, beyond any ability and power of the human brain, (or mind) that do remain to be of paramount importance, especially given all the bad that keeps invading our daily lives.
It can only be through our own mind and intelligence that things can happen as we want, God is certainly omnipotent and always present but we are put on living earth alone and we leave it in the same way, so why would we expect a God to act in our lives for any reasons? We only are the ones who can make a miracle happen; God gave to us this power with the free-will.
Neurologist and neuropsychologists are illiterate people who convince themselves to know and understand God.

http://scientificdreaminterpretation.com/blog/?p=2846

SAINT ZENO

Since – as I said before – God doesn’t answer to prayers of request for something because it would make it impossible for the whole world not to believe in His existence and therefore ask for the stop of all wars and cure for i.e. the cancer, I just asked to my dear mother to start praying for Saint Zeno for whom a beautiful church was built hundreds of years ago not far from where she lives now.

Zeno of Verona (Italian: Zenone da Verona; about 300 – 371 or 380) was either an early Christian Bishop of Verona or a martyr. He is a saint in the Roman Catholic Church and in the Eastern Orthodox Church.

According to a Veronese author named Coronato, a notary of the 7th century, Zeno was a native of North Africa, from Mauretania (northern Morocco and Algeria). He taught many children of Africa about the Catholic religion and he also helped them with their school work. The children could rely on someone who could help them. Another theory is that Zeno was a follower of Athanasius, patriarch of Alexandria, who accompanied his master when the latter visited Verona in 340

The style of the 90 or so Sermones attributed to Zeno has also been considered evidence of his African origins due to its literary style, since Christian African writers of the time frequently used neologisms and wordplay. Many of the Sermones concern Old Testament exegesis and "have a definite anti-Semitic element in them".

Staying in the city, Zeno entered the monastic life, living as a monk until around 362, when he was elected successor to the See of Verona after the death of Bishop Gricinus (Cricinus, Cricino).

Zeno had "received a good classical education", and as bishop baptized many people, won converts back from Arianism, lived a life of poverty, trained priests to work in the diocese, set up a convent for women, reformed how the Agape feast was celebrated, and forbade funeral masses being accompanied by attendees' loud groans and wailing. Zeno’s other reforms included instructions concerning adult baptism (which occurred by complete immersion) and issuing medals to people newly baptized to the Catholic faith.

Zeno is the patron saint of fishermen and anglers, the city of Verona, newborn babies as well as children learning to speak and walk. Some 30 churches or chapels have been dedicated to him, including Pistoia Cathedral.

The bronze doorways of the Basilica in Verona depict, besides stories from the Bible, the miracles of Saint Zeno. These depictions were drawn from stories, including those recorded by the notary Coronato.

Zeno is most often represented with fishing-related items such as a fish, fishing rod, or as a bishop holding a fishing rod, or with a fish hanging from his crozier. "Local tradition says the bishop was fond of fishing in the nearby river Adige," writes Alban Butler, "but it is more likely that originally it was a symbol of his success in bringing people to baptism.

So who knows? Maybe this black Saint will listen to my mother’s prayers, now that the president of the USA is black too; I see some kind of hopeful connection in this, even if I’ve been sending messages to Obama to include me in any stem cell clinical trial for TBI without a response ever.
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