JESUS HAD TOLD ME

When I got out of the 2 months long coma I told to who was around me, my father and some good friends that I had talked with Jesus Christ who had asked me if I wanted to cross the river of death or return to earth alive, I’m told that I had chosen to come back to earth for my love for my children and that Jesus told me that I would have felt pain, in my own stupid simplicity I said that I thought that any pain can be controlled with some Tylenol. I later had to learn that nothing exists to diminish the pain to be replaced by a very beloved wife who took away with herself my children – who were the very reason why I chose to stay here – and the working/earning ability, that was very developed in me and had made it easy for me to have a very good career till then.

Now that I’ve overcome my atheism with the refusal to conceive the existence of a “good father God” I do believe in what I told to people then, what I still have big problems with is the idea that a sinner is going to spend eternity in hell. I’d much rather accept and like the idea that a sinner pays for his bad actions while still alive because the concept of pain for a soul is impossible for me to conceive. In fact in the Bible is written that whenever God is upset/mad to people He makes catastrophes happen that exterminate entire populations.

This is the God I like and I hope that He can listen to my prayers to punish that sinner/lover while he still is here on earth. A normal man like me would have real problems trying to explain a murder as a God-sent order; otherwise all the prisons would be filled with priests and monks.

The Jesus I talked with is going to help my ex-wife overcome her sense of guilt for what she has been doing to me, because He told me that guilt is the only reason that keeps us separated and my ex-wife has never been taught of the idea of forgiveness that’s so fundamental in Catholic education to free mind and spirit from earthly concerns.