There exists contemporary literature of the so-called NDE about experiences to be out-of-the-body while in reanimation or right after an accident, seeing God or going to heaven. Elizabeth Kubler Ross was a Swiss-born psychiatrist and author who gained international fame for her landmark work on death and dying.
I did have my own NDE at the time of my accident because when I went out of the 2 months long coma I told my father and friends who were with me that I had spoken with Jesus, who offered me to remain on the side of death or to return to living Earth, my choice and also warned me that returning on earth I would have had much suffering (?), that I thought I could neutralize with Tylenol.
Little did I know that my physical pain can only be managed with morphine and that my wife could cheat on me with whom used to be my primary doctor, no morphine or chemical medication exist to take care of the pain of losing a woman I married, who mothered my children.
I have a friend who professes himself as an atheist who told me that I saw Jesus because I was raised as Catholic, but if instead I’d be raised Buddhist I would have seen Buddha, or if American Indian I’d have seen a buffalo.
These atheistic explanations made me think for some time to the various possibilities, but later I understood that what I saw was my own personality, or soul with the cognizance of what was about to happen to my life.
I remain convinced that my wife fell in love with my doctor for the shock of losing me and I forgive her for this, everyone else around me judges her however very harshly.
I used to reserve my harshness and hate for my doctor, I now understand that what he does is part of his natural inclination to help people in need, or his patients. He is just a very weak person who has chosen to be dominated by my simpleminded wife who is very devastated by the pain for the loss of the life as I had arranged it to be. So I forgive him too.
My NDE has given me the time and interest to study with renewed passion ancient philosophy and Latin language for their connections to modernity.
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