I consider the beginning of humanity with the evolution – a
quarter of a million of years ago – of the homo sapiens that developed the way
we behave and act/react in public, so I don’t think I’m saying anything strange
when I mention that since we are toddlers, as we do something wrong we are
usually punished with a spanking or anything else that has the concept of
punishment.
Even us Catholics usually do repentance before receiving
communion, that’
s often done by repeating several times specific prayers as
commanded by the pastor who has listened to you listing your sins and decides
how you can free your soul from the sense of guilt and the sins you believe you
had committed.
This is the very reason why as I woke up from the 2 months
long coma I had been since my accident (best called murder) and given that I
couldn’t think nor remember to have ever done anything either sinful or
disrespectful to anyone, I tried to think to what I might have ever done to be
punished so harshly from father God.
What came to my (injured) mind was that only by being
unfaithful to my adored wife Michele I might have committed a sin worthy the
kind of punishment I had received, so I started to contact every single woman I
had ever worked with in life to that point, regardless the country (USA or
Italy, or France, or Germany).
However after several weeks of emailing and phone calling I
learned that not only I never made any woman being with me at work (in whatever
position) feel uncomfortable in my presence for anything I might ever said or
done, but I made them ALL feel that I was some kind of “body guard” because no
other man would dare to make comments or say or do anything “off color” in my
presence to avoid the real risk to be “punished” by me in any non-physical
manner (i.e. career opportunities, pay, travel or fun customers’ visits).
After several weeks doing this “research” I scratched this
potential reason for having received such a painful and devastating “punishment”,
what I can confidently say now is that the accident was in no way a punishment
for anything I ever said, did or even thought about anyone in my entire life,
I’m however being punished now after the accident by both my entire
families in Italy and here in CA with my abandonment and their inability to
understand my lonely condition, in addition to what an impertinent psychologist
condemned to (conservatorship), not for too much longer however Erik!
- http://www.wikihow.com/Avoid-Temptation-to-Sin
- http://www.tillhecomes.org/sermons/matthew/matt_12_31-32/
- http://powertochange.com/experience/spiritual-growth/sinandguilt/
- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sin
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