FEAR OF VIOLENCE

I’ve been literally cracking my head (already cracked open) trying to figure it out a possible reason for my Queen Michele to keep telling me that she’s scared of me.

I did make a search of what TBI victims like me go through right after the injury and I realized that – like all others – I went through the so called period of “domestic violence” that I even remember pretty well, even if I do give it a strong reason for having been so mad at the world.

In fact, not only I lost my mobility and truly beloved capacity to ever have a job again, BUT way more importantly my own spouse made the attempt to marry my primary MD (my physiatrist, Barry R.) by gifting to him, her own biggest value.....

Good thing that my great son never accepted to have him replace me as his father (father figure Michele attempted to sell him to my treasures) in addition Michele came to the realization that he could never replace me in her heart, so she kicked him out of her life to see him getting married to someone else few weeks later (was he cheating my Queen with some whore he knew of?).

My treasures have told me about my threatening episodes while living all together in Oakdale, I’m told that while going after Michele, as either of my treasures would get in my way to protect their mother, I’d take them in my right hand and push them away, plus I’d threaten to put the cat we had, in the microwave oven to see what death would occur (explosion from the inside?).

It goes without me saying it that I NEVER put one hand on neither Michele, nor I intentionally hurt anyone of my two treasures, I’m absolutely sure of this and my proof is simply that nobody in my family is disabled in any possible way (that’s what would be if I’d ever wanted to hurt any of them).

What’s very important of all of this violence is that’s always part of the initial period after a TBI that happens to every victim and once it’s gone, it’s forever gone, which is why I cannot understand the reason why Michele keeps telling to me that she’s scared of me and therefore she keeps me away, However I know that in time my family is going to be made whole again, as always it’s just a matter of time and to be able to wait.

1. http://www.brainline.org/content/2008/07/breaking-silence-violence-cause-and-consequence-traumatic-brain-injury_pageall.html
2. http://www.cerebrum.com/cms/traumatic-brain-injury-domestic-violence-link/
3. http://www.newyorker.com/news/news-desk/the-unseen-victims-of-traumatic-brain-injury-from-domestic-violence
4. http://www.psychiatrictimes.com/neuropsychiatry/neuropsychiatric-effects-traumatic-brain-injury
5. http://www.traumaticbraininjury.net/domestic-violence-brain-injury-and-psychological-trauma/
6. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2918269/