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Thursday, March 29, 2018

LET ME MAKE IT SUPER CLEAR



Or maybe let’s make beyond crystal clear because no matter how many years the AARP organization has been working through very competent people the f’king control laws remain in place and in action.
Now, I can understand that the law has found the way to protect disabled people from spending all of their money because the way they reason about investments and spending their money can be very dangerous and wasteful, BUT the fact that three neuropsy. who even took a doctorate in their discipline can feel correct and free to evaluate (assess) a former company president with a college degree from Italy in, chemistry, physics and advanced mathematics to be unable to manage an elementary family budget is more than simply wrong and idiotic, it’s very insulting in my regards, not only because I can mentally do math at any level – at a very superior and more sophisticated level than they ever can dream to do – but very simply because my work and international working experience (tri-lingual too) puts me in a very different and way more superior level than they can ever hope to reach/be.
Forget about the fact that my mother language is Italian, that I still master like I never left Italy, the other very influencing condition is that the injury in the occipital lobe in my brain that together with the myopia that I’ve had since I was a teenager have influenced the assessments I did very heavily and this has never been considered in those assessments, in other words I was asked to look at pictures of weird objects and say their names, in addition I was asked to look at drawings and draw them again by following the same original drawing on another paper on the side.
Well first of all I’d like to see any of my evaluator give me the name in Spanish of something I show that isn’t common at all….let’s not even mention if what I’d be asking is the word in Japanese…..
Then let me put a black cloth on one of their two eyes (the left one for me) and ask to draw a complex mixture of lines not at all parallel to each other BUT that are crossed among themselves with different angles.
OK, so based on my ability to pass these test it turned out that I cannot afford to manage my own money, therefore I’m best protected by some ignorant woman whom I doubt ever left this State and now by someone who was a Presbyterian priest but who evidently loved pussy way more than he loves God, therefore got married and for 8 years (he admitted himself to me once) tried to have his wife remain pregnant……ho boy! What a hard commitment (to a pussy…..rather than to God) that must have been!
Bottom line is that by having these two losers I’ve been robbed $80.000, AND of my wonderful family (my own sole creation) this far, but since this screwed up court (and its super obese judge) is fixed on its attempt to apply laws without any sense nor logic whatsoever, is going to approve my conservator’s (AND his attorney) bill and leave him stuck to me just like a leech to my shoulder (or better, to my arshole).
What’s very sad is that to the list of imbeciles, I must add both my sister in Italy plus the mother of my two treasures who…bla…bla…bla…bla (sorry folks, my two treasures come here to read me too and given that she’s their mother…..I can’t!!).
My question to my disgustingly obese judge would be about the logic to have had to pay (for their true effort and dedication to saving my money) these two individual (f’…king losers) for having way less money that I had in 2006, with way more anger, (homicidal) frustration and stress.
I bet one million $$$$ that those doctors in neuropsy say that this anger is a typical and expected outcome of someone with a brain injury, but what if I say that I'm going to cook them all in a pot with water and beans to eat piece-by-piece with anchovies and onion sauce? I’ll surely never do this……I’ve gained through my NDE more than I could have ever asked for or be curious of, therefore in a future post I’ll detail what happens when we die (including when THEY will die).


  1. https://www.biblestudytools.com/bible-study/topical-studies/what-happens-to-us-when-we-die.html
  2. https://weilerpsiblog.wordpress.com/2011/03/11/biocentrism-a-consciousness-centric-view-of-the-universe/
  3. https://beyondbiocentrism.com/does-the-soul-exist-evidence-says-yes/
  4. https://www.sciencealert.com/here-s-what-happens-to-brain-when-die-consciousness-death
  5. https://www.express.co.uk/news/science/880461/Life-after-death-what-happens-when-you-die-sam-parnia-afterlife
  6. http://discovermagazine.com/2009/may/01-the-biocentric-universe-life-creates-time-space-cosmos
  7. https://www.bbvaopenmind.com/en/what-happens-when-we-die/


Wednesday, March 28, 2018

ON TIME TRAVEL



As promised before – and as a consequence of my post on Einstein, I talk now of the idea of time. The question of why time is irreversible is one of the biggest unresolved questions in science.
It’s in fact agreed that time only has one direction, from past to present to future. I put here below a clip from the movie IQ that's both very funny and interesting.


If a system is unchanging, it is timeless. Time can be considered to be the fourth dimension of reality, used to describe events in three-dimensional space. It is not something we can see, touch, or taste, but we can measure its passage responsible for daily or circadian rhythms. In the brain neurotransmitters and drugs affect time perceptions. Chemicals that excite neurons so that they fire more quickly than normal speed up time, while decreased neuron firing slows down time perception. Basically, when time seems to speed up, our brain distinguishes more events within an interval. In this respect, time truly does seem to fly when one is having fun.
 As I was preparing this promised post, I did some research and if you go to read the websites linked below, I bet that you too will be at least fascinated; in fact the relationship between time and space makes my (broken) head spin, simply because the possibilities are endless.


  1. https://www.popsci.com/science/article/2012-09/book-excerpt-there-no-such-thing-time
  2. http://www.physics-astronomy.com/2016/05/according-to-einstein-time-is-illusion.html#.WrlYHS7wYdV
  3. http://everythingforever.com/einstein.htm
  4. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/biocentrism/201202/does-time-really-exist
  5. http://discovermagazine.com/2007/jun/in-no-time




Tuesday, March 27, 2018

EINSTEIN – GOD & QUANTUM MECHANICS




One of Albert Einstein's most famous quotes is, "God does not play dice with the universe.”... People have wrongly assumed that Einstein was religious, believed in destiny, or that he completely rejected a core theory in physics. First, Einstein wasn't referring to a personal god in the quote. He was using "God" as a metaphor. In my personal opinion Einstein mentioned God simply because he was Jew, so his education since he was a little kid was about the existence of a God creator BUT he made it very clear not to believe what all other religions believe, or that God is always watching and protecting us and since he knows the future he protects us from the bad, unless using our free will we individually decide to do what’s bad/wrong which in the end condemns us to eternal hell.
I find it kind of funny that the most brilliant scientist ever existed couldn’t come to terms with what quantum mechanics was beginning to show, as a matter of fact, I too am thunderstruck by what I’m learning this “new science” is telling and scientifically proving lately to us – the normal people (look at few of my previous posts here). I’d say that Einstein made this reference to God playing dice very much because he couldn’t see how his now his theory of relativity could coexist with quantum theory (mechanics?).
What I find very interesting though is the belief in God that Einstein had, go to few of the websites linked here and watch the Youtubes too, in fact they all explain the type of God Einstein had in mind or that his God isn’t the “personal” one that is normally referred to, or the one that Einstein named the “personal God”…..the one who answers to what you ask for in your prayers, brings Christmas gifts and looks over your health, I guess that Einstein’s God (mine too) was more of a “super-entity” that created our wonderful universe with all of its scientific laws, much less “personal” than the one we (Catholic/Christians) believe in.



  1. https://plus.maths.org/content/why-god-plays-dice
  2. http://www.hawking.org.uk/does-god-play-dice.html
  3. https://www.stmarys.ac.uk/news/2014/09/physics-beyond-god-play-dice-einstein-mean/
  4. https://physicsworld.com/a/why-did-einstein-say-god-doesnt-play-dice/
  5. https://www.quora.com/What-does-the-quote-%E2%80%9CGod-doesn%E2%80%99t-play-dice-with-the-universe%E2%80%9D-by-Albert-Einstein-mean
  6. https://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Albert_Einstein
  7. http://www.differencebetween.net/miscellaneous/difference-between-catholic-and-christian/



Saturday, March 24, 2018

AGAIN ON CONSCIOUSNESS



I’ve posted/published here 13 posts with the word consciousness in their text but these 2 below are the two ones that were fully dedicated to this same subject:


But given that not only this is still a field of huge research in all scientific fields (Quantum in particular). I have the urgent need to talk about it again, very much because both greatly fascinated by it and because it truly flips my (injured) brain to think – or even imagine – that our reality is the just the (simple ha!) product of (my mind) our minds and their (my) consciousnesses.
I.E. thinking that the wheelchair I’m sitting on now, the PC screen I’m looking at and the keyboard I’m using to type what I’m writing together with the very desk this all – including the desktop – holding this all up are just the product of my  truly makes my head spinning.
Let’s not even mention our planet earth and this very universe – not to mention the plenty parallel ones – all I can think of is that TOTALLY CRAZY MOVIE (for me scary too) entitled “the matrix


All of this – together with the idea (Einstein) that time doesn’t really exist (upcoming post?) makes/forces my imagination think that I could either go back to the time before my bike accident or make my physical disability forever vanish, - boy! Do I hope that all of this quantum science can become true and available to all while I’m still living here!!
But then – of course – given that I hope that I’ll put my own soul (myself) in my own heaven, I know that I’ll be where I like to be (and used to be) plus in all other places on this earth forever (daaahhhh).

  1. https://physicsworld.com/a/do-atoms-going-through-a-double-slit-know-if-they-are-being-observed/
  2. http://www.historydisclosure.com/double-slit-experiment-proves-consciousness-creates-reality/
  3. http://www.bbc.com/earth/story/20170215-the-strange-link-between-the-human-mind-and-quantum-physics
  4. https://blogs.scientificamerican.com/guest-blog/what-does-the-new-double-slit-experiment-actually-show/#

Lovingly


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Saturday, March 17, 2018

WHY??



The more correct title to this post should be “why didn’t I die?” I often ask to myself this question every time I see those whom I love in so much pain for my having lost all I had, loved and worked for which makes me consider that it’s been my stronger than death self-confidence that kept me living, no matter that no MD of the hospital I was treated in, right after my car-bike collision would bet more than a quarter that I would survive.
The adored mother (and my Queen) of my two treasures told me I’m a good example of agnosticism (I had to look it up in a dictionary to know its meaning).
I’ve become convinced that I had told to my father and best business friend when I got out of the coma must have been true, I had said in fact to have met with Jesus Christ and to have made an agreement with Him to remain alive, solely because I’m of Catholic religion since I was born in Italy (therefore a Catholic by default), but let me list here few facts:
·         My accident was in October 2005 and in February 2006 I came out of my coma and until May 2012 (5 years and 4 months later) I was absolutely convinced to have made my agreement with Jesus Christ because of my eternal love for my Queen, however my dad told me (5/2012) that the reason for this agreement wasn’t my love for my Queen at all, it was rather my love for my two treasures and to reinforce this concept he asked me if any father of the world would ever think for more than a minute to trade his life for that of one of his children.
Talk about hitting the nail on the head, fear of death means now to me fear that my death may give pain to those I love, which I believe is the very reason of my agreement.
Initially I was convinced that my request to Jesus to keep living was based on my immense joy to live, to work and to be a great dad (just like my own dad was, Saint Gianfranco), but this made me think that by wanting to remain alive I had committed the sin of pride, (only forgiven by being broken on the wheel…..as written in the Divine Comedy).
Well I can honestly tell you that I know something way worse than being broken on the wheel, in fact I believe to have said it here already that I was told (by Jesus, Mohammed or – most probably – my own soul) that my survival meant to suffer, I think it to be idiotic the fact that I was convinced that an Aspirin or Tylenol would take care of any pain I may ever have, sadly there’s nothing to eliminate pains like these:
a)    Neurological (physical pain from the injured brain)
b)   Professional (loss of money earning occupation/job)
c)    Loss of wife (= divorce) who thought it best (ONLY for herself) to sell her own natural gifts for very little money to some B. (already in hell for marrying a pregnant woman)
d)   Loss of children (brainwashed by their mother about it being dangerous to be close to me)
e)   Hemi paresis (I cannot move the left side of my body)
f)    Total inability to walk (related to point e)
g)   Complete loss of independence: personal, medical and monetary

All of this (a to g) thanks to assessments based on my inability to make elementary arithmetic calculations, draw straight lines and the way I describe pictures of either stones and cats.
So, as a college graduated in a very prestigious and historical school (Liceo  scientifico Messedaglia in Verona) in  physics, advanced mathematics, chemistry who can speak Italian (my mother tongue) English (with strong Italian accent) German and I understand well (therefore I’m able to communicate with people who speak) French and Spanish, I hope that none of my readers (you) get surprised if at times I write accusatory posts here against my conservators, who in the end are simply performing a job (to rob) covered by legal protection, normally with the purpose to help disabled people, the real scandal and source of all my frustration and anger is only directed to those “professionals in neuropsychologywho, with the obvious target to please the overwhelming Judge of the local court condemn someone like me to the permanent (really?) loss of personality and total wealth (both earned and inherited).
What’s truly sad is simply that – no matter how many times using different ways I sent advises to them – they all seem to have decided already now the way to continue their existence in eternity.

  1. http://thepositivitysolution.com/7-ways-to-die/
  2. http://www.overcomingthefearofdeath.org/
  3. https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/hot-thought/201206/should-you-fear-death
  4. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Breaking_wheel






Friday, March 16, 2018

MY MAXIMUM PLEASURE



I could have entitled this post “ORGASM” however I don’t want to “pass the limit” given that minors (like my princess daughter) come here to read me fairly often.
Therefore I dedicate this post to my never-ending love in life that – rather surprisingly for me – is for a man/pianist whom I’ve followed with passion for several decades (3 or 4) of my life because he became a piano performer about any and all music composed by J. S. Bach who kind of weirdly composed his “pianist monumental compositions” without having ever seen a piano, in fact the instruments available to him in his time was the organ and the harpsichord. What Glenn Gould did in fact was to re-compose all of Bach’s music to be played and performed in theater halls a couple of centuries later.
I’ve always felt very close not only to the pianist Gould but now even more to the man Glenn, in fact he died in 1982 due to stroke that made him hemi paretic in the left side – just like me – and couldn’t play piano anymore.
This story of what happened to me and to Glenn reminds very much about what had happened to Beethoven (my post on 10/28/2012) who lost his hearing, which for a music composer is at least disastrous, as much as it’s ridiculous that I seem to have so many similarities with such eternal personalities.
I believe not only to own each and every music disk of Glenn’s recordings, but I have a full folder completely dedicated to all the DVD’s ever made about Glenn.
I did post about Glenn here 5 years ago and – for those of you who still cannot use the green search tool here on the right, I put here the direct link to that post where you’ll find the pertinent links to websites having to do with Glenn.
If you chose to take the 4 minutes long watching this Youtube above you are not only going to see Glenn’s fingers on the keyboard of his famous Steinway (CD 318) but a very beautiful (and very HOT) girl in love – like me – with Glenn, the pianist.
Talk about immortality, Glenn will be about still alive for I can’t guess how many more centuries, what I like the most however is that the recording of him playing a Bach’s fugue is in the voyager we sent out to look for other intelligence's and/or civilizations.
I’m so envious of her tattoo that I’ve been seriously contemplating the idea to have an identical one done on my body too; I just haven’t decided yet where in my body have it should be placed……..I cannot decide where to have it in order to be able to show it in public, without any commotion, in fact I can think to very many areas in my body where I’d like to have it done, but too many areas would create a small scandal if and when shown……



  1. https://voyager.jpl.nasa.gov/golden-record/whats-on-the-record/music/
  2. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Glenn_Gould



Wednesday, March 07, 2018

UNIVERSE & GALAXIES



The other day I made a good post I published in the (secret) blog for my two treasures very much about the way we measure distances in our universe, I wanted to do it because I wanted to give to my princess a way to understand how distances between planets or galaxies are so big that immeasurable, therefore mankind has come up with a different method to use, that’s based on the fact that the speed of light is the same no matter where you are in this universe, so when someone tells you that the Andromeda galaxy is 2.2 million tears far from earth/us, you are told not only the millions (billions) of miles that’s away from us but how long of a time the light of that galaxy takes to arrive to us looking at it.
What made me believe that this idea is worthwhile to discuss here in my main blog is simply that if somebody was able to see earth from that far, what could be seen are dinosaurs (at least) walking on earth.
I cannot begin to describe how my imagination started to think to time-travel and to a planet 10 light years away from earth, boy ho boy……….endless possibilities (of science fiction).
However, what I want to talk about here today, in this new post is both the fact that no alien can exist anywhere else in this universe and a bit about the closest galaxy to ours (Milky Way) that was named Andromeda.
I admit that it makes me smile the thought that for hundreds of years a very large number of telescopes pointed to this galaxy in search of alien civilizations……..of course, what could be furthest and unreachable for not having some other civilization flourishing there since billions of years…………
Given that now (today) we concluded that in that galaxy there might not exist anything else close to us, we are now looking at places you may end up if conceivable to jump in one of the (plenty) black holes around our universe…….time travel, parallel universes 11 dimension universes and on, and on, and on.…..
The crazier (and drunker) you are, the more the alternative possibilities……
Any who, I put – as usual – a couple of Youtubes and few links for you to explore and enjoy (BUT don’t forget the donation to me, the creator of this!)

  1. http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/space/universe/key_places/andromeda_galaxy
  2. http://hubblesite.org/reference_desk/faq/answer.php.id=38&cat=galaxies
  3. https://www.space.com/15590-andromeda-galaxy-m31.html
  4. http://phenomena.nationalgeographic.com/2014/03/24/scientists-predict-our-galaxys-death/
  5. http://www.slate.com/blogs/bad_astronomy/2014/01/01/moon_and_andromeda_relative_size_in_the_sky.html
  6. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_nearest_galaxies