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Tuesday, May 31, 2016

WHAT GOD?

Late last night I realized that in my post about the first agnostic, I kind of said that it’s normal and fully acceptable to be an atheist, so I went to look for some of the most famous atheists (Richard Dawkins and Stephen Hawking – see videos and links) BUT right after having done that I looked for famous people who were convinced believer in a god creator (other than the Popes J) and – to my surprise I learned that not only A. Einstein, the biggest genius ever existed, who started even the Quantum theories, that are so current and enticing in these days, but stated publicly that – as a Jew – he believed in God, but not a personal one, he defined himself to be a deist more than a believer in God.
I’m going to try something new now, that’s to put here few links to Hawking, Dawkins and Einstein, to outline their positions on God, our creator and I must add that this is a fundamental decision to make, those who choose to believe, even if no proof of God exists, nor hasn’t been found in centuries of scientific research and those who don’t for the exact same reasons I just listed, at the very bottom I'm going to put links to my previous posts where I spoke about Pascal Wager(from my sista in Ventura), who- as a good mathematician - stated that's better to believe in God rather than not, I find it pleasant how plenty of my posts here are in reference to others I wrote in the past.

EINSTEIN:



 HAWKING




DAWKINS

Monday, May 30, 2016

LONE SURVIVOR


GOD-DANG!!! I wanted to buy something interesting about combat and the war in Iraq for my great son, but now I’m hoping that it’ll be awhile before he comes to pick it up, I must have watched 6 times already and this is a movie you cannot interrupt to watch it after you’ve done something else (unless it’s something that’s done in the bathroom J).
Anyway this is a true story about these marines, what they do, who they fight and how, including how their actions make them feel and also very much about the way they feel about having gifted their lives to our country.
This is really a MUST SEE movie that receives all my thumbs up (hopefully no more than 2J) with the bid advice to watch it with as many friends (or simply people you know) as you can WITH as much beer or alcohol you can fit in your home (any guess about how much it can be?), the actions, the use of weapons and the attitude of these soldiers, are just like an injection of caffeine! The first time I watched – at 3pm – I was awake with my pupils wide open till 3 am. Talk about sniffing a pound of cocaine…….
However, watching it, made me feel how much disabled I’ve become and if I add that I’ve been watching on my Amazon Prime several documentaries about scuba diving (my most beloved sport that had me become a PADI scuba instructor) in some of the beautiful diving location of the world, with the sad knowledge that scuba diving is a loss much like all the other ones, that’s going to live only in my memories of my beautiful past (and defunct already) life that – unless the “impossible” will happen, they all just remain memories for me while I’m living BUT given that they are what my conscience is made out of, will create my wonderful afterlife, where I’ll be scuba diving, playing my grand piano in a beautiful villa in northern Sardinia.

  1. http://www.telegraph.co.uk/culture/film/filmreviews/10607380/Lone-Survivor-review.html
  2. http://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/lone-survivor-2013
  3. https://www.theguardian.com/film/2014/jan/30/lone-survivor-review
  4. http://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/lone_survivor/
  5. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lone_Survivor_(film) 



WOW talk about attitude here....


Sunday, May 29, 2016

THE FIRST AGNOSTIC

My Michele once told me to be convinced that I was agnostic (kind of mentioned here several times already) given that I never have something to do, I made a research about this term and I convinced myself (regardless that nobody ever mentions it) that Thomas the apostle was probably the very first agnostic who ever existed and who was documented.
In fact he’s the one who, to make sure that the one he was looking at was truly Jesus Christ, asked to let him put his fingers in the chest wounds of the man standing in front of him…….just to make sure …..
I’d say that in my (terribly screwed up) mind, that’s exactly what happened to me, I mean that while I was raised as a Catholic, I might have given the impression to need some objective proof that it was truly Jesus the one whom I made the agreement with to live again and since my mother told me it to be impossible for me to have met with Jesus, it’s taken some time for me to realize and convince myself to really having done so, in fact, people in a coma wake up with the most incredible stories and in addition my very good philosopher friend Iacopo dismissed my story simply saying that's the reflection of what my conscience has retained from having grown up as a Catholic with all of its teachings, sacraments and experiences (plenty in Italy).
However, the simple fact that I’ve become almost a theologian, that I’ve been reading the bible and that I’m very interested in the recent discovery of the Dead Sea scrolls convince me that while in my coma I must have surely met someone – if not Jesus – who must have made a very strong impression on me to the point that I’m now interested in things that I truly thought them to be a complete waste of time, done by those who have nothing else better to do (i.e. priests).
This concept actually makes me want to say that it doesn’t matter what religion you follow, or don’t (Buddhism, Islamism, also  if you are an atheist) what counts is that you never hurt anyone else and that you don’t think yourself to be as infallible as any god is (like I used to).
I believe to have said it here before that no God you believe in and follow can be offended if you don’t follow “him only” rather than another one - in other words – Jesus isn’t going to punish you with eternal hell if you follow Buddha or any other one, when I read in the news of the big surprise when a Buddhist says – as s/he comes out of a coma - to have met with Jesus “because Jesus is the only true god” I smile because it simply means that this person is a Buddhist who surely had experienced Christianity before the coma.
Certainly NOT because Christianity is the "ONLY RIGHT religion to follow”.
Anyway, now that I’m a believer of Jesus (I had objective proof) and the religion that Jesus started about 2,000 years ago, I’m just like  Thomas the apostle, NOT because I put my fingers in Jesus’s chest, but simply because my look on life and what’s really important in it has completely changed and I truly believe to still have some form of connection with the afterlife because I met people – never seen before – who know me well (??) and can tell me things that haven’t happened yet, but that in a fairly short time really do happen and very much also because I’ve became a patient person  I can wait for something (anything) to happen, no matter when it’ll happen.
I’m fully aware too of the unimaginable powers of our brain that not only are still completely unknown, but that we can only use at a very small percentage of its capacities (too many percentages were guessed on this topic for me to mention any of them).
Just let me say that I almost died because of the powers of my mentally very strong former employer (GZ) - who was mad for my resignations in the middle of the OR show - and who had already chosen me to be the next president of his US subsidiary (which explains well the reason why I met with Jesus).
But this is already explained in my posts under the "philosophy" label, so just go there to understand what I mean when I say this.
I want add that my making fun of the Vatican, must only be because I really had this meeting with Jesus. 
I can still remember well the year I went to Rome (for the Holy year) when my dad (Saint Gianfranco) had our family went through all the steps (specific churches and specific prayers) required to make this celebration fulfilled.


  1.  https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20100406114644AAuLg8W
  2. http://gnosis.org/thomasbook/intro.html
  3. https://theirishatheist.wordpress.com/2014/02/12/what-i-learned-from-the-apostle-thomas/
  4. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/04/13/thomas-jefferson-faith_n_7057494.html
  5. http://thecentrecannothold.net/militant-agnostic/st-thomas-apostle-protoagnostic/
  6. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thomas_the_Apostle



Saturday, May 28, 2016

HUMAN BRAIN



If anyone may believe that the video Youtube below (my body vs. my brain) had me fucking entertained and/or change my fucking constant preoccupation about my own fucked up brain and its fucking injury, this one is totally fucking  incorrect and to prove it I publish here how I feel of it and some of what I’ve been learning (too many fucking neurologists claim that when somebody has a TBI, it’s impossible to ever learn anything new….) I can only say that I’m shocked by the fact that only at the beginning of this second millennium we are starting to understand how our brain is physically made (brain mapping project initiated by Obama costing several millions  in tax money = our own money) beside being shocked by our ignorance in this field, I’m also mad that we have no clue about how to recreate new neurons when they die, but this gives to me yet another reason (like I needed any other one…..) to strengthen my total belief that by reducing the brain inflammation of the injured brain its plasticity can be reactivated so that the brain can fix itself (WOW amazing, just like a broken bone or the skin when it’s bruised or even cut….what a true miracle!!!) anyway, rather than putting links to websites to Enbrel or to its perispinal injection (I posted them too many times already) I put what a unique miracle is the human brain (regardless if plenty Darwinians  - i.e. my Michele!! - believe that’s the direct evolution from African monkeys….).
As I always say, just enjoy my links and Youtubes to learn something new (that I already learned…….dahhhh).


  1. http://www.abundance-and-happiness.com/mind-power.html
  2.  http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20151123-the-brains-miracle-superpowers-of-self-improvement
  3. http://www.brainline.org/multimedia/interactive_brain/the_human_brain.html?gclid=CNW93tjG9swCFYlrfgodQ9cOGw
  4. http://bebrainfit.com/human-brain-facts/
  5. https://en.wikisource.org/wiki/Astonishing_functions_of_human_brain_and_miracles_of_mind

Friday, May 27, 2016

ADDITIONAL LOSSES


As maybe too many of my readers here know too well, the number of terrible losses I had to endure due to TBI is almost too great to start to count, there’s however one that hurts me very much (way less than losing my family and job, obviously) what I’m showing here in fact is my very beloved cabinet that used to contain my whiskeys collection (that’s well described in my connoisseur member profile here on the right)  the mother of my two treasure in fact told me last time I got to see her, that this entire cabinet including its content was trashed by my former conservator.
Without going into any details about how difficult it was to buy these very rare bottles of the whiskeys directly imported from Ireland and aged already for several years which makes them pretty expensive and rare too, when I recently went to a website that gives the monetary value of these very rare and well-aged these whiskeys  I came up with a total value as of today of at least $7,000 without counting the value of the cabinet itself, the cost to have it assembled by specialists and the several crystal glasses special to drink whiskey that came from my country (Venice, most probably) that best makes crystal glasses to drink all you want and the ones I had were special for whiskey drinking, since they had come with my parents the last they came to see me I don’t know their value, but I don’t think that in a store in Santa Barbara special crystal glasses for whiskey (I had about 20) would go for less than $250 for them all. If I was to make a sum of the value of my whiskey cabinet with all of its content I believe that it could be $10K that added to the $80K that were given to my first conservator means that the mother of my treasures has thrown away about half a mil.  of $$ that – as I’ve already said here - shall be what my treasures could inherit from me (their fucking disabled father).



My whiskey connoisseur site:

http://www.connosr.com/members/lingiaca/

Thursday, May 26, 2016

LONELINESS/ABANDONMENT


Given that the mother of my two treasures decided (about 10 years ago) that she’s afraid of me and therefore I've been living separated from my family, I can only see/be with my treasures once a week (on Sundays for a couple of hours) nobody should be surprised if I feel very lonely and as I do my constant Google searches, this time about loneliness and TBI victims, I saw that I’m not the only one who suffers from loneliness because left alone by family and friends.
I think that my case is a bit worse in the sense that – being Italian – and unable to work, not only I lost my family that I doubt will ever want me back, but I lost plenty friends because they all used to be both colleagues or employees at work.
In truth however, I have the exception of my former VP of sales when I was running the US subsidiary of a somewhat successful Italian footwear brand/company (that decided to let me go since I had become too important in that company, but after I left lost 90% of its US sales) we have become close friends and he’s made it a point to call me at least once a week every week, after I had to leave that Italian footwear company he left it too and became the CEO of an enterprise in the same segment that never took off (due to the financial crisis we all fell into), therefore he went to work in Boston for the famous footwear company based there and is now employed in a very interesting company where the employees are given the complete freedom to create their own products and market, in other words being unable to have a job has made me lose dozen of people (both employees, partners and customers) who truly were just like friends to me.
Some of the links to other websites here below are about the crisis in families when a component is affected by TBI, I want to add that to me is (if possible) even harder because my infinite love didn’t want to have children at all to the point that we had to lie to the priest (deadly sin?) who celebrated our wedding (in a Catholic church) because when he asked the “standard question”: will you have children? Our agreement was to say yes and I ultimately had to figure out the way to be “imported” here in the USA before my love will accept the concept that to have children and raise them isn’t too bad.

I’m hoping that this explains why I often refer to the family as my family, and can explain the reason why it hurts me so much to be alone, without any possibility to be near my children (=my creation).Here are the other websites I found on this:

  1. http://www.nytimes.com/2012/01/10/health/when-injuries-to-the-brain-tear-at-hearts.html?_r=1
  2. http://www.brainline.org/content/2008/11/what-happens-relationships-after-brain-injury.html
  3. http://www.brainline.org/content/multimedia.php?id=6922
  4. http://brainandspine.titololawoffice.com/2010/11/articles/traumatic-brain-injury-tbi/overcoming-loneliness-after-traumatic-brain-injury/
  5. https://healthunlocked.com/headway/posts/702962/my-son-is-so-lonely-and-frustrated-after-his-brain-injury

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

ABOUT MY MONEY

Everyone  knows already that once you are dead being wealthy, very rich and with a huge amount of cash can at most afford a nice coffin and funeral party, but once dead it makes no difference whatsoever if you are rich, it actually can be against you because it all depends on how you made so much money, how you used it and whom you left it to.
However the bible readers know well that God made very wealthy some people in the bible, either with cash or with vast landholdings.
In my case I want my money to be my inheritance to my two treasures and since I made the simple sum of the money that my own father gave to me and to the mother of our treasures is about $1mil. I intend to do the same for them. In fact it just so happens that I have a very good friend and former colleague on the East Coast who knows very well a neuropsychologist who’s been very close to our government because he has been working since several months assessing the plenty soldiers who return home with a blast related TBI.
I spoke at length by phone with this specialist who told me that he’ll come to Santa Barbara on vacation soon and  that in response to my request to write a formal assessment about me, he agreed and told me that he won’t even charge me for it. I’m therefore planning to sue that loser in Oxnard for $1mil. and to take care in the same way the two conservators I’ve had this far, who best refund me of each and every dime they paid themselves using my money for watching over the way I use my money, or this court will make them pay double the amount of the money they’ve stolen from me and from my two treasures.
Of course – given that our creator is always willing to forgive everyone - IF my money will be returned to me, nothing will happen. Then I can add that I’ve been exchanging emails with someone who is part of the staff of D. Trump who told me that IF Trump will be president, many of the conservatorship laws will be changed and that's already known that any new president we’ll have, will do the same, given the efforts and the years of work and networking that the NASGA has been putting in reaching this goal http://nasga-stopguardianabuse.blogspot.com/   (this link is here on the right too).


  1.  http://www.anthropology.uci.edu/~wmmaurer/courses/anthro_money_2004/GhostMoney.htm
  2. http://www.nationsonline.org/oneworld/Chinese_Customs/joss_paper.htm
  3. http://www.newphilosopher.com/articles/rat-race-to-the-afterlife/
  4. http://opinionator.blogs.nytimes.com/2013/09/21/the-importance-of-the-afterlife-seriously/?_r=0
  5. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hell_money

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

CAPTAIN PHILLIPS


I realize – and must apologize – that I haven’t posted my movie reviews here for few weeks, but since I just watched a movie that’s worth enough for me to review, I feel that I have to tell you what I think of it.
This is a movie that – again – tells the story of how great this country is, even if plenty of the problems that we try to resolve are generated by us. I kind of like Tom Hanks in the leadership position of captain Phillips, who turns from the leader (the captain) to the victim but what I like the most, he’s rescued by the US navy that has a vessel nearby and involves nonetheless than the navy seals, who after having tried few times, in different ways to get a hold of this captain, simultaneously have the African kidnappers murdered by sharp shooters at the exact same moment.
What a great celebration of the military strength of the USA, I bet that this movie is one of Hillary’s favorites, it carbon copies her activity as our foreign affairs secretary (in addition to senator AND NOW presidential nominee too) in fact every president (or prime minister) of every country she visited had to listen to her rhetorical speeches about how great the USA are for saving the entire world (sadly you too) from your challenges, both economic and educational (i.e. your future).
But since this is my movie review of the captain Phillips movie, there’s no reason for me to comment on its political meaning/message, all the actors chosen are in fact a very good choice, they fit their characters really well (appropriately) and the viewer can enjoy this movie very much, aside its “political message”.
In other words my vote is to watch it a case of Buds in the company of good friends who can talk about this good movie at its end (unless you are too drunk).


  1.  http://www.nytimes.com/2013/10/11/movies/captain-phillips-stars-tom-hanks-as-a-high-seas-hostage.html?_r=1
  2. http://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/captain-phillips-2013
  3. http://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/captain_phillips/
  4. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Captain_Phillips_(film)

Monday, May 23, 2016

YOUTUBE "BADNESS"

As you probably all know I'm spending many hours looking for the right video to put in my posts, but what nobody can imagine is how much and how hard I laugh when I see a video that can only be the product of a badly injured brain, to give few examples of the depth of idiocy that some videos can go I put here few videos by type and subject:


BRAIN VIDEOS




JUST TOO FUNNY NOT TO PUT HERE




OK, now you are set, you can search Youtube for as long as you want too. 

Sunday, May 22, 2016

MY GIFTED TREASURES

The fact that I love my children so much that I’d never hesitate for a single fraction of a second (or less) to give my own life in exchange for either one of them both or that I call them “my treasures” and the Italian word for puppies (cuccioli) only gives the shadow of my idea that they truly are gifted children who given that they are
growing up without their (only) real dad (regardless that their mother had attempted to impose on them some loser as “father figure”) it’s no wonder that I must insist to be able to live with them again, who shall they take as example of the right way to approach life in general, including advanced education, spouse and what to do in general while living? Certainly not from someone who lives close to them (instead of me).
I must say that whatever it was that decided to teach me the lesson to be patient, truly found the only possible way to do so, in fact I’m very sure that eventually (whenever it’ll be right) I know that I’ll not only be living with them, but I’ll forever remain to be their loving father.
Having to learn to be patient anyway, has increased (if at all possible) my self-confidence and ability to predict the future.
I’m certainly not a clairvoyant but I’ve always found it easy to predict events simply based on my knowledge of people and previous facts and in this particular case not only the people are my own children, but I know of our past like no other else can.
When I did an internet search about parents with gifted children, much to my surprise I found very many websites on this matter, but I put here very few to let you search by yourself whatever you like.


  1. http://www.popsugar.com/moms/Signs-Giftedness-27331796
  2. http://www.raisesmartkid.com/
  3. http://www.parenting.com/article/how-raise-gifted-children 

Saturday, May 21, 2016

MY BIRTH-GIVEN SELF-CONFIDENCE


For those who know me in person, I don’t think that what I say is of any surprise, I was born with a huge amount of self-confidence that – aside from having constantly been in a hurry – it’s even increased simply because - like any other person who experienced N.D.E. - I’m not afraid to die at all.
Like anyone else I too used to fear death, even if I wasn’t certainly terrified by it in the sense that my life was worthy enough to be given up in exchange for someone else whom I loved really very much (i.e. my wife and my two treasures) I wouldn’t have any hesitation to do such trade, before my practical death in 2005 too.
Now that I know exactly what happens when we die, I can honestly say that I’m still here living with all of this pain is for 2 reasons only, therefore I’m going to keep bugging my readers for at least 30 (or 40?) more years.
As the title of this post claims my self-confidence is what I was born with and while it’s been giving me a real advantage in my career and in the sports I used to practice, it gave me challenges too, because self-confidence can make people uncomfortable (especially when weak), two are the main examples I can give now and the first one is represented by the mother of my two treasures and the other by my real sister, I can add too that my self-confidence can affect also those who are (or were) close to me, in fact I can mention a Ventura sista who was affected with my self-confidence by being close to me for several months who she started her own corporation and is now surely making very good money.
I can mention my real sister and the mother of both my treasures too as the examples of people who are overwhelmed by my impressive self-confidence and decided not to want anything to do with me, therefore they left me rotting here alone for I don’t know how much longer (certainly too long J).

In doing my usual Google search on this topic I found that what I was born with can be increased with exercises at any age, however (as it’s usual for me) I believe that this is a characteristic of the personality that someone is either born with it or not and therefore can never acquire with  exercise, I’m thinking that this might be also the reason that explains why so many MD’s refused to see me again, regardless of their own personal losses.

  1. http://addicted2success.com/success-advice/9-ways-to-build-unbreakable-confidence-from-the-outside-in/
  2. http://www.inc.com/jonathan-alpert/8-ways-to-unleash-your-inner-confidence.html
  3. http://www.douglasbwimmer.com/musings/2015/8/31/so-about-my-overwhelming-self-confidence
  4. http://www.successconsciousness.com/blog/inner-strength/developing-self-confidence-and-inner-strength/

Friday, May 20, 2016

MY WINDSURFING YEARS


I found this great picture while I was looking for a picture of the place in the Garda lake (near Verona) where I went to windsurf with friends for many years both in the spring/summer and in the very cold winter (sometimes right after having  skied for several hours) this picture is now the desktop image for me to see when my PC is on but I’m not working with program, I really like to look at it very much because I feel like I’m the one who’s windsurfing because I used to be in the exact same position with the same waist-hook to be able to turn strong wind into speed on the water, in addition this guy looks a bit like me and the relaxed and pleased look on his face really makes me feel exactly the same as I felt when I was windsurfing.
I could write so much about my “adventures” with my friends when I was windsurfing, that I may need to make a new page in this blog only dedicated to my many years to windsurf as my sport and beloved activity.
What made it really great isn’t that it compares to swimming - very individual - when you swim your buddy can be your enemy too and it’s the chronometer that tells you how fast you swim and it gives the number of times you swim the distance you’ve decided to swim.
Windsurfing instead doesn’t need something like a chronometer to tell you how well you are doing, it’s your friends who are windsurfing with you who take the place of the chronometer and you use them to compare how well or how fast you are going, plus your friends can give you either ideas on something different to do or something new and challenging to try.
What made the windsurfing a real passion for me is that:
·         I did it with really great friends who were either classmates or neighbors, therefore very close to me.
·         It truly challenged us to try to do new and reckless things that scared us very much while at the same time made us feel like champions (i.e., windsurfing with -5 C degrees with neoprene gloves and hoods with the sail covered with ice that falls on you each time you turn). I also remember sleeping entire nights in the car waiting for the strong wind (named Peler) that always starts when the sun raises, at 5 am.
·         Then after having windsurfed for 6 or 7 hours we were going to eat at a place that only served French fries and whole roasted chickens that one of my good friends would devour by the pair (he  once eat 5 chickens, with 3 servings of French fries that were so many that you could fill a whole bucket with them).
French fries in Italy can be served either with ketchup or mayonnaise, this buddy of mine wanted both at the same time.
You should have seen his face when he was done! His lips were covered with ketchup and he had spoonful’s of mayonnaise in his ears, not to mention his hands, covered with sauces up to the elbows, what made that place a destination for us windsurfers was that you could eat an enormous amount of food with very little money i.e. roasted chickens $1.25 each, French fries $2 by the pound $2.75 with ketchup or mayo. And then the German beer (light in color and alcohol content) that was $5 for each liter (quart), what I think (with terror) is that we used to drink it by the gallon and then get in the car to drive back home…..
In simple words this picture is like a key that opens the door to a period of my life (18 to 25 y/o) when I had the greatest fun, no worries or responsibilities of any kind, full freedom to say and do all I could think of, one “fixed” girlfriend and too many “female acquaintances” to remember, to count and give a number, in other words – just like when I came to Santa Barbara to be the president of TEVA – I was on the top of my world.
Too bad that a moron knocked me off my peak while I was the Lance Armstrong training to both relax my mind, keep my body fat low and my muscle tone high, after a day sitting at my desk in the office.
This picture, with all of its great memories helps me forget the accident followed by the 2 months long in a coma, the TBI with all of my losses related to it and my supreme anger for still (10 years later) being unable to receive the only treatment that gives me the strong hope that my brain might return to be plastic and therefore able to repair itself – just like when a bone is broken, or the skin is cut or scratched.
Anyway I hope you enjoy the Youtubes I put here too, one of where I always went to windsurf (Garda lake in the northern part) and the other of the best ever Hawaiian windsurfer because they truly make me dream of where I came from and what I’m still about as a man (husband and father).

GARDA LAKE:



ROBBY NAISH


Thursday, May 19, 2016

MARRY ME AGAIN....


I always refer to Michele, either as the mother of my treasures or as my still wife, simply because – even if our marriage was celebrated in a catholic church (in Italy) we had it done in disparity of beliefs - like she was of some other religion, like i.e. Buddhist – in truth however the disparity is that while I’m Catholic, she’s a convinced atheist, so Darwinian that she’s very convinced to come from the evolution of an African monkey (no comment…).
However, since we took and passed (she cheated the test) the catholic course of preparation to getting married with the pastor who married us, we married in a church in the presence of both our families, therefore not only God united us but we swore lifelong dedication to each other in the presence of both of our families and since marriages celebrated in a church in Italy have legal meaning  we were not only united by God (in his house) but were legally united by the Italian law, in addition once we moved to the USA we went to a government office in MD to have our marriage recognized by the law in the USA too.
Thinking about this, we were married 3 times, twice in Italy and once here too, so there’s nothing to raise the eyebrows when I call Michele “still my wife”.
However, since the law separated us, that’s what God won’t ever separate, I’m in the position to want to (legally) marry Michele again, even if she cheated on me with someone who’ll spend his eternity in his own hell of regret.
Maybe she’s right when she says that I only love her because my brain is injured, she should truly only hope that when I’ll die my universal (cumulative) intelligence won’t make me realize what a piece of work she’s been since I got injured, without a job, therefore alone.

All I can see by marrying Michele again is that my two treasures would have their own real dad again, who can take care and protect them like nobody else can do and who are the simple reason why Michele will never find any loser wanting to marry her, my treasures are the carbon copy of me, anyone can see this from 10 miles away, so what breed of a loser would ever think to propose to MY wife to marry him AND adopt two Carlo L. at the same time? My (injured) mind can’t figure out how much longer she needs to realize that she has all to gain if she sees that I’m giving her the opportunity to not only live carefree again but marry a true Lingiardi, like me.
  1. http://www.foreverwed.com/articles/civil/45628b.html
  2. http://www.jsonline.com/news/opinion/civil-vs-religious-marriage-b99528718z1-310795181.html
  3. http://ncronline.org/news/global/european-countries-distinguish-between-religious-civil-marriages
  4. http://family.custhelp.com/app/answers/detail/a_id/26434/~/a-christian-view-of-civil-marriage
  5. https://unveiledwife.com/marriage-unity-one-man-one-women-joined-together-god/
  6. http://www.marriageequality.org/religious_vs_civil
  7. http://www.divorcehope.com/letnomanputasunder.htm
  8. http://www.uscatholic.org/articles/201402/its-time-separate-church-and-state-marriages-28452

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

COUNCIL OF NICAEA


I find it to be almost comic that I’ve almost become a theologian – primarily because of my unending love for the movie “the da Vinci code” where the council of Nicaea is mentioned and very much also because I consider it the time when the Catholic empire agreed to consider some of the recounts about Jesus and his doings among the Palestinians (Jews) as apocryphal, simply because Jesus was described like any other real man of his times really was (i.e. partying, getting drunk with friends/apostles, making vulgar jokes with them, etc.…).
My guess is that among those 300+ bishops at the council were some who supported and drove the church to the Crusades (in order to expand the territorial dominions of the Vatican kingdom).
Bottom line very little is known about who Jesus was as a real person because those apocryphal scriptures can only be seen by the pope, I think (but I’m not sure) that they’ve never even been photographed, therefore they might not exist.
I found so much material that describes this council that I must give few links to it because it’s too hard for me to read much, even if my desktop screen is wide and really good, I’m thinking that I should go to Valencia for a visit with my genius optician, who specializes in people with the occipital lobe in the brain when it’s injured and who has been taking care of my sight for several years, he’s the one who had me use prisms in the lenses of my glasses first, but now I think to have lost clarity and focus of sight just because of age, therefore I’ll go to see him hopefully soon.


  1.  http://www.tertullian.org/rpearse/nicaea.html
  2. https://www.christianhistoryinstitute.org/study/module/nicea/
  3. http://www.religionfacts.com/council-of-nicea
  4. http://www.newadvent.org/cathen/11044a.htm
  5. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/First_Council_of_Nicaea

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

MY ADDICTION TO PULP FICTION

I must admit that I've got insanely addicted to this movie, and since it's too easy to find what I believe are key parts of it I feel obliged to post here this piece and I strongly advise to buy this movie to keep watching like I've been doing:

Monday, May 16, 2016

CHAUVINISM


I was recently accused to be a chauvinist by someone who listened to what I was saying regarding the role of women in careers and work environments and that I had expressed my decision to vote for D. Trump at the upcoming presidential elections.
I therefore did my usual research about the meaning of a word that I couldn’t remember unless I could attach it to a visual image – much like I did for the word agnostic, I just attached to it the image of a lamb that in Italian is named “agnello” – but since this word is about the same in Italian too -“sciovinista”- I couldn’t think of a word that may make me remember it.
However, I’m truly not a chauvinist – even if Italian born with the idea that women are just a prey that can be owned (through marriage) to provide comfort of all kinds.
My idea of women in fact is simply based on the objective observation of their role in society since the beginning of time, in fact:
  ·       How many women have ever been either presidents or queens of countries?
  ·       How often are women in the top management of companies?
  ·       How many (few) years ago could women (even in this country) vote?
And so on, the examples that show that the entire world is male driven and managed are too many to mention, I’m sure that my readers can think of cases both in support and against this theory that men have been in charge of the world since its beginning.
Now, this certainly doesn’t want to take away from women the most fundamental role they’ve had for the same amount of time, tat’s procreation or to bring into the future everything the parents learn, experience and even dream of.
In simple words women are as important as men are; even if the roles are different and this explains my reason to give my vote to D. Trump, rather than H. Clinton, in fact this country must be run just like it’s a big business using a strong fist to turn it the way it never should have deviated from and only an aggressive and boldly fearless president such as D. Trump can be, will put this country back on its track.
No people I’m not a chauvinist, I’m a simple observer who sees that man have always been taking care of women by providing all kinds of comforts, while women have been gladly receiving such comfort while focusing on the bringing into the future what mankind is all about.
Shall I be stoned for what I say? Just remember what Jesus did for the prostitute Mary Magdalene and before you throw a stone think to make sure that you did never hurt anyone else before, because if you did, the stone you throw towards me, will hit your head and it’ll forever hurt.


  1. https://www.quora.com/What-are-the-differences-among-misogyny-sexism-and-male-chauvinism-and-what-are-some-examples
  2. http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/chauvinism
  3. http://wappp.hks.harvard.edu/files/wappp/files/male_chauvinist_feminist_sexist_and_sexual_harassment_0.pdf
  4. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chauvinism 

Sunday, May 15, 2016

PULP FICTION TWICE

In early September of last year I posted a story about the movie Pulp Fiction
http://lingiaca.blogspot.com/2015/12/pulp-fiction.html
as I was going through my collection of DVD movies I saw that I own 2 copies of this movie and I offered to my Brent to have one of my two copies, however I wanted to make sure that it's an appropriate movie to watch for a 17 y/o boy and, in looking at what I had posted about one year ago, I saw that I hadn't included a part of it that I think it's even funnier than those I had put in my older post, on top it says very much about the subtle cultural differences between US and EU citizens, so check it out:


Saturday, May 14, 2016

MY TWO FITTING STATEMENTS


It turns out that in my never-ending internet browsing I (very accidentally) stumbled upon these 2 statements:
  1.  IT TAKES LESS THAN DEATH TO KILL A MAN (Billy Bob Thornton in the movie Astronaut Farmer)

  2.  IF A MAN HASN’T FOUND SOMETHING HE ISN’T READY TO DIE FOR, HE ISN’T FIT TO LIVE (Martin Luther King)
I had published the first one at the end of a previous post but the second truly describes what I’ve become as a man (husband and father), in fact – very much like many other N.D.E. survivors – my fear of death is totally gone and I do have my “reason to die” that’s primarily to re-join the US part of my family (my creation) and achieve my already famous W=W (Walking equals Working).
My only issue with the “passing over” (or die) is the deal I made with the entity I named Jesus, who told me that to return to living earth means to surely suffer, however I know (as the theologian I’ve become) that I’ll be walking my princess to the altar the day she’ll get married (10 or more years, I’m hoping) I’ll go to Verona one summer with both of my treasures (where they’ll meet their plenty Italian relatives and perfect their Italian speaking).
To me (and to my injured logic) all of the above, such as being with both of my treasures as they become adults, living in downtown Santa Barbara and having the confidence that eventually I’ll overcome my disability and be free again from conservatorship makes up for any pain and discomfort I have and that I had, however knowing that our God creator never gives a challenge to someone unless the subject will surely overcome it, I’m learning to “sit and wait” (Oh my!!!) with my usual confidence and without any fear whatsoever to die. 
I realize too that I’ve been referring very often to the “afterdeath”, therefore I promise to give an answer to every question –by email - you might have, but please read my plenty previous posts under the philosophy label – (233).



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