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Friday, May 30, 2014

AGAIN ON DEATH


My readers here should know very well that I’m a creationist both by birth (ItalianJ) and for tangible prove for what I’m inclined t
o call my NDE experience (my agreement with Jesus to remain alive.
I want to say today that the last time I saw my dear dad (in Verona, Italy in May 2013) before he died, he told me with his usual confidence (evidently passed on to me) that he’s sure that we all have the soul, for having seen it leave the body every time he witnessed someone dying and that he never was afraid of death for the following reasons:
  • Death is the fairest life-experience we have because it happens to everyone, no matter how wealthy (Rockefeller or Bill Gates), important (any king or queen of every country with monarchy), influential (all the Catholic Popes), intelligent (Albert Einstein) and so on…..
  • Given that he lived as a fervent believer in the Catholic religion, he knew that once the soul lives the body (because too old, sick or broken) the existence of our soul – with all the experiences and learning of our minds – continues in this universe forever, or for eternity.
  • He also said that what happens after we die is a mystery that has intrigued human kind since its very beginning and made the joke that he doesn’t know why it’s been such a mystery for so long since everyone is surely going to know, sooner or laterJ.
For these reasons, he told me that he wasn’t afraid to die at all and was actually looking forward to rejoin the souls of all the people who had died before him and that he had loved or befriended while living.
This talk to me really didn’t seem to be the hopelessness of a very old (and broken) man trying to make out a reason to show that he wasn’t too afraid to die, given that to keep living for him meant only to be in  pain.
As everyone who follows me here knows I’m a true creationist, with plenty of time to find proves (and videos) that with the development of science it’s becoming very clear (objective and measurable) that God truly exists and the whole universe was created because of His will.
I just want to add that as well as our math proved that some other life form should exist somewhere else in this universe, so well it can be proved that any cent spent on looking for another form of existence is totally wasted, we are God’s experiment and nothing like us humans can exist anywhere else in the entire universe, so stop wasting our tax money looking for nothing please, and use that money in trying to resolve human problems that have existed (and murdered people) for too many centuries, like access to potable water everywhere and stop starvation, still too common in this day and age.
In my illogic mind fear of death goes hand in hand with our interest in reproduction, God made us very interested in having sex for the same reason we are terrified of death, in fact we would have never reached the billions souls we are on earth today.
This is the word of the scary brain injured that lost liberty, independence, family and monetary wealth! Thanks Erik! May the Buddhist Karma bring to him its human effects while still alive here! Then God will take care of your soul….. HOWEVER, you (and my sister Anna too) can still find eternal salvation by repairing soon your wrongs, again let’s see…





Thursday, May 29, 2014

GOD AND HIS SON JESUS

I've written here before that it really can’t give much real effects to pray to God for something to happen or be graced with, simply because God is the being that created the whole still expanding universe with all of its physical, chemical and natural laws, and if by praying God directly would ensure the receipt of what’s being prayed for, the entire world would be praying tomorrow morning for the solution of any cancer disease.
I also said that God gave to us humans the brain that we cannot explain by any evolutionary system, or theory and that we can use just at a small percentage of its capacities, the very few ones who can access few additional percentage points of their brains and can use them, become what we’ve been calling geniuses or make miracles (the unexplainable).
What the Creator (God) however did was to send here on earth his son Jesus as man who was born by natural birth, lived and died as a real man and for this very reason I think that we should address to Jesus our prayers for something, rather than his father God, simply because Jesus was man and experienced life as we do since the beginning of time and even went through a very painful death. These are the reasons why I think that while I confirm the value of time dedicated to praying, because of its wealth for our minds and souls, I encourage my readers here to address primarily the Son Jesus who has a very good understanding of our human troubles and pains because He was one of us.




I somehow hope to see comments posted here pros and cons what I say and wish to my readers a good living time.

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

ABOUT DEATH

My readers here should know very well that I’m a creationist both by birth (Italian J) and for tangible prove for what I’m inclined to call my NDE experience (my agreement with Jesus to remain alive).
I want to say today that the last time I saw my dear dad (in Verona, Italy in May 2013) before he died, he told me with his usual confidence (passed on to me) that he’s sure that we all have the soul, for having seen it leave the body every time he had seen someone dying and that he never was afraid of death for the following reasons:
  • Death is the most fair thing we experience in life because it happens to everyone, no matter how wealthy (Rockefeller or Bill Gates), important (any king or queen of every country with monarchy), influential (all the Catholic Popes), intelligent (Albert Einstein) and so on…..
  • Given that he lived as a fervent believer in the Catholic religion, he knew that once the soul leaves the body (because too old, sick or broken) the existence of our soul – with all the experiences and learning of our minds – continues in this universe forever, or in eternity.
  • He also said that what happens after we die is a mystery that has intrigued human kind since its very beginning and made the joke that he doesn't know why it’s been such a mystery for so long since everyone is surely going to know, sooner or later J.
For these reasons, he told me that he wasn’t afraid to die at all and was actually looking forward to rejoin the souls of all the people who had died before him and that he had loved or befriended while living.
This talk to me really didn’t seem to be the hopelessness of a very old (and broken) man trying to make out a reason to show that he wasn’t too afraid to die, given that to keep living for him meant only more pain.
As everyone who follows me here I’m a true creationist, with plenty of time to find proves (and videos) that with the development of science it’s becoming very clear (objective and measurable) that God truly exists and the whole universe was created because of His will. I also love the fact that my dad taught to my dear son Brent about Catholic religion and of the existence of God, it's a true miracle that my Brent took a Bible home to enjoy reading while in bed.
I just want to add that as well as our math proved that some other life form should exist somewhere else in this universe, so well it can be proved that any cent spent on looking for another form of existence is totally wasted, we are God’s experiment and nothing like us humans can exist anywhere else in the entire universe, so stop wasting our tax money looking for nothing please, and use that money in trying to resolve human problems that have existed (and murdered people) for too many centuries, like access to potable water everywhere and stop starvation, still too common in this day and age.
In my illogic mind fear of death goes hand in hand with our interest in reproduction, God made us very interested in having sex for the same reason we are terrified of death, in fact we would have never reached the billions souls we are living on earth today.
The word of the scary brain injured who lost liberty, independence, family and monetary wealth! Thanks Erik! May the Buddhist Karma bring to you its human effects while still alive here! Then God will take care of your soul….. BUT you (and Anna) can still find eternal salvation by repairing soon your wrongs, let’s see……












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Sunday, May 25, 2014

FEAR BREEDS STUPIDITY as ignorance is bliss

I’m going to use real names in my post here simply because – as Emmanuel Kant explained many decades ago in his “Metaphysical element of Ethics” that was later better elaborated by Schopenhauer – it’s truly fear of the unknown or of what is believed to be dangerous that has been making the following people act like they are stupid, when in fact some who even earned a Ph. D. in something (you try to guess in what!).
My list here is in some order of importance as to the effects to my body and mind/soul:
  • Michele Werney (now still Lingiardi), her fear to see me, her loving husband and sole real father of both our treasures made her want to replace me with my own unethical MD Barry J. Ross, who acted like he was married to her and fell in love with our treasures (besides Michele’s body and pussy) but never wanted to take the responsibilities to marry her and legally become a real husband with all the related legal commitments. For this simple reason, Michele Werney kicked him away from her life (I hope) BUT not away from our treasures....
  • An esteemed neuropsychologist, his fear to disagree with what his (considered superior by him) colleague dr. Tomaszewski assessed of me few weeks later after my return from the coma, combined with the complete ignorance that an injured brain can repair itself (even if minimally)AND his need to feel safe made him bribe the Ventura court assign to me a full conservator.
  • Avery esteemed and experienced neurologist in Santa Barbara for fear of inexistent risks related to the immunodeficiency lowering of injecting Enbrel in me (as 400.000 arthritis patients do every day here in the USA), refused to do what I begged to receive and as a result is no longer my neurologist.
  • Another very good and experienced physiatrist in Ventura) for the same fears of Dr. Delio, in addition at least another half a dozen of MD who refused to treat me with Enbrel
  • As my current conservator tells me the list of MD to whom I asked (begged) to receive the perispinal Enbrel treatment could go on for very many other names of MD, but I stop this sad list here and now, you can email me your questions if you want and please don’t forget to donate to me few $$ because if all the 56,900 who read my blog would have donated to me just $1, I’d be very well now.
  • My conservator for fear to act outside what the law vaguely outlines regarding the dos and don’ts of a conservator, thought it best to completely destroy all of my financial and business relationships records so that I’m now like a 51 y/o baby.
  • Last but not least my real sister Anna Lingiardi (truthfully Mai) who for fear of my wasting my retirement money/wealth put me in the hands of the Ventura court who misunderstood completely the big misunderstandings of the assessment done by a psychologist and condemned me a full conservatorship without even exchanging 2 spoken words with me.
The other huge misunderstanding breeding fear and stupidity is the inexistent patent filed by Mr. Tobinick on the perispinal injection of Enbrel that’s crazy in its very existence (how can a patent office in this country grant a patent on a medical issue, even on the injection location in the body? – can anyone imagine if surgeons would patent how they perform certain medical procedures on an organ of the body? I’d be forcing my son to become a surgeon immediately!
Fact is that this Tobinick is strongly supported by a very aggressive team of attorneys who intervene strongly whenever any MD performs what was patented but cannot ever be enforced in any true legal way and offer to sell a patent extension rather than be sued (imaginary) for ten times the cost of what the extension is offered for.





Saturday, May 24, 2014

EXPLANATION ON MY IDEA OF GOD


One of my dearest friend – whom sometimes I call Catholic extremist for fun – recently asked me why I say on one side that I’m a God believer and at the same time (or few posts later) I say that the karma (Buddhist and very human) is stronger than God, and while I’m hoping that I made it very clear to be a full creationist and very anti-Darwinist, I think it best to explain what I meant by saying that the karma might be very influential in our lives and might at times seem to be stronger than God-self.

First of all to believe in the existence of God requires your soul to take a real dive in the  hope-sea because – as I’ve said here before – God gave to us humans the brain that cannot absolutely be explained by any evolutionary theory and that we use (if we are lucky)  at about 20% of its capacity.
I’m convinced that the God-given brain is just like an antenna receiver to enter in communication with God (the Divine Creator) and when that happens we (humans) can make miracles happen (= whatever no science can find any way to explain it i.e. the Holy Shroud in Turin).
We also need to understand that God’s son, Jesus lived 2.000 years ago and was talking to shepherds who did not have the logic, intelligence and mental flexibility that we now have developed in so long of a time.
In my broken mind (as per Michele, Anna and Beth)I hope that what I just explained gives a reason to why I said in previous posts that I’m disappointed to see Obama take the charge to replace the USA faith in consumerism with Catholic principles (very followed by contemporary Hollywood) while even at the highest level of the Vatican everyone (priests and bishops) are just looking at this effort to bring back moral principles while comfortably sitting on their self-made thrones.
It also explains the reason why there’s no doubt in my mind that the USA are going to return to be again a country of great monetary and democratic influence over the world, simply because God likes to have things in balance (i.e. the whole universe and all its physics, math, biology and so on….) while at the same time Europe will face the crisis we have been suffering from for plenty years here because their monetary strength has been making it too easy to forget about reinforcing their infrastructure of wealth creation.
And on this I may write a whole new post because I have too much to say about this. Check this confirmation of what my broken brain cannot stop to believe in:

 Enjoy these videos!




And here my immense and eternal love (besides Michele) plays my passion:






Tuesday, May 20, 2014

WHY SCIATICA PAIN?


Recently my current conservator asked to me how I ever thought to self-diagnose that my never-ending pain that’s been torturing me for about 7 years and has been evaluated by plenty “pain specialist" MD, neurologists, physiatrists without ever been even guessed that it might be given by the sciatica that often is the result of a TBI.
I put here what helped me understand that my pain is very probably a sciatica pain originated by my TBI and it can now be treated very successfully with a TNF-alpha reducer, like i. e. Etanercept (Enbrel) the day I’ll find a crazy MD to treat me with it, will be the day that – as my dear PT Tami kept telling me – I will start walking again!

Never forget however my equation W=W if you can’t remember nor find it here, just ask me by email.

  1. http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2005/02/050201192443.htm
  2. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2642541/
  3. http://www.brain-and-spine.com/ruptured-disc.html






Sunday, May 18, 2014

BIG PHARMA AGAIN

The day before my 51st birthday (5/9th) I posted an explanation to my previous use of the “not yet” term regarding the use of the (patented by the US patent, CA office) Enbrel medication for neurological recovery (i.e. from Alzheimer and TBI.
I introduced there the concept of the Big Pharma (medications industry) being against the FDA approval of the med named Etanercept or Enbrel for neurological recovery when administered by perispinal injection inside an injured brain, simply because many billions of $$$ profits would be immediately lost in meds and in a very wide range of support activities done by companies in several fields if this new use would be approved.
I’m going to try to make an example of what I specifically mean:
  • The Big Pharma earns billions of $$$ selling its medications for neuronal activation for patients of Alzheimer
  • Very much of this money goes to the presidential and political support, that’s expected NOT to support, or forget about the real fact that by using the inexpensive Enbrel the conditions I just mentioned would simply disappear
  • Big Pharma correctly says that by doing so with the Enbrel not only they would lose billions in earnings and profits, but also a big chunk of our bad (already) economy would be suffering even more by losing entire industries built around the support of very old and very injured people
Of course, as a Ph.D. in economics I can’t say that this isn’t right, especially in a time of deep financial and economic crisis as we have been in (since too long). However, what if it was possible to put back to work all these very experienced (because older) people who would only want to get back to what they were doing before something disabling happened to them?
Can’t anyone agree with me that the USA would have hundreds of very experienced high-level managers be happy to replace their disability checks (from the government=taxes) with real salaries?


Before posting this slap in the face to President Obama and the Rep. + Dem. I’m going to get in trouble, but you, my readers think of what I just said and act accordingly(Delio, Paule, etc...?). And when are you, or Michele going to help me with my pain elimination???







  1. http://www.evidence.nhs.uk/search?q=cost%20effectiveness%20of%20brain%20injury%20rehabilitation
  2. http://braininjuryselfrehabilitation.com/2013/02/18/treatment-that-changed-tbi-symptoms-part-1/
  3. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/24647830
  4. http://link.springer.com/article/10.1007%2Fs40261-014-0186-1
  5. http://www.researchgate.net/publication/260950724_Immediate_Neurological_Recovery_Following_Perispinal_Etanercept_Years_After_Brain_Injury
  6. http://www.pubfacts.com/detail/24647830/Immediate-Neurological-Recovery-Following-Perispinal-Etanercept-Years-After-Brain-Injury.
  7. http://www.disabled-world.com/health/neurology/tbi/tbi-etanercept.php
  8. http://www.redorbit.com/news/health/1112799774/minocycline-enhances-the-efficacy-of-perispinal-enbrel-in-traumatic-brain/

Thursday, May 15, 2014

MY MISTAKE


On 5/7/14 I wrote a post titled  “TRULY SHOCKING” where I said that in my infinite internet research on my PC I kind of realized that maybe what’s been giving to me the atrocious pain – that for 8 years plenty physiatrists and “pain specialists” and even 2 neurologists MD have been attempting to reduce and named "neurologic pain" – is just sciatica pain.
My mistake is that – given that sciatica has been treated for years with Enbrel – I kept talking about being given the Enbrel per the (patented) perispinal injection to make it reach the brain to have full neurological recovery (TRUE but not FDA approved for money reasons only).
I’ve been saying here before very (too?) long about what the patent has created, in terms of fears and uncertainties, mainly about the money that none of my MD (past and present) has and/or earns in any substantial amounts.
So while I might have confused the issues regarding my back pain being generated by my injured brain, the fact remains that none of my guess-scientists (or doctors) ever guessed or even tried to say that my pain is a “simple” sciatica pain, nor advised for me to see a rheumatologist who have been using the Enbrel for many years to treat sciatica pain with full success.
What I’m going to say now might be too simple for my plenty MD who attempted (over 8 years) to reduce my back pain, but given that in this guess-science, my own guess is as good as one of any MD, I’m going to say it anyway:
Given that it’s mainly due to the pain that I cannot walk, when I walk again I start to work and travel again (W = W) and with this my (now former) wife accepts me to be her husband and present father of my treasures again” In other words my life would return to be as perfect as it was before the accident that really didn’t physically damaged me too much (broken jaw and mild TBI). Of course- even if mild - I did have a TBI with all of its complications (heterotrophic ossification, violent period, short-term memory issues etc…)
However,  those have been all overcome with the very long time that’s passed since 2005 and given that my brain was just injured in the motor cortex area, my intelligence and logic haven’t changed a bit since before ‘05.
What’s truly sad is that if you are a company president and say or do something stupid or illogic, people can laugh at you, while you are being corrected, but if you are a victim of TBI (like me), everyone pities you and there are plenty Ph.D.’s who studied on their (old) text-books that there’s a reason why you say or do anything and it refers to a particular area of the brain that’s now damaged. This also explains why I’m under conservatorship and my frustrated anger is now fully replaced by great pity for those who believe to have done it all right in my regards.
I want to conclude saying that I’m a bit unsure about what to do next because while Jesus said that revenge is evil, His father God murdered hundreds of Egyptians running after the escaping Jew slaves by closing the parted Red Sea on them, not to mention the thousands of other people who died of horrible deaths, you can read it all in the Bible.
I therefore just wait and see IF something positive will happen for me soon, or if I shall find the “right” attorney to make everyone pay for their mistakes while still alive (God will take care of their souls for eternity if their mistakes while being alive aren’t corrected) that’s sure (think about it Erik, Tiffany, Michele. Anna and Beth).








Wednesday, May 14, 2014

HEAVY ADDICTION


While I continue to have fun dreaming that somebody who may have gotten too close to my spouse may accept...... to save his peaceful existence, today I went for my “fix” to my very close IHOP, where I’m very well known at this point and I had a nice chat with the manager Kris, who’s soon going to vacation in Napa valley, I guess I shouldn't say why. I told him that my family lives in the middle of the Valpolicella area where most of my neighbors and friends are in the wine business (packaging, bottling, shipping and few even producing the nectar) I spared him of the story of my first cousin Giacomo near Venice who’s been trying pretty desperately to make wine from the grapes in his backyard with very sorry results for many years.
I did however have the joy to be introduced to their new Garden Omelette with triple cheese (on my specific request) that got topped by the Belgian waffle that I drowned in original syrup, given the truckload of calories I had ingested I haven’t had anything to eat here at the Villa today, only my meds were something I ingested, but I must say that I really hope that Michele will get over her refusal to see me so injured before I get to 400 pounds, and since she never reads my emails I say here that if B. would accept to treat me following my precise instructions, I may forgive him for his hell-deserving sin.
In my way to look at things what I’m offering in exchange for something that every MD I ever talked with of this matter, tells me that  it can't help in any way my neurological recovery,  it's truly a free ticket to a peaceful existence, because IF I've always been wrong I’ll be thankful for having been given the luxury to at least try, BUT if it does what I’m convinced it will do, he will go in my list of good people who helped me and be scratched off my list of pains, that everyone knows must be eliminated a.s.a.p. with my taking care of them directly
  1. http://www.news-medical.net/news/20100918/Minocycline-plus-N-acetylcysteine-may-help-treat-TBI.aspx
  2. http://www.neurosurgery.pitt.edu/centers-excellence/epilepsy-and-movement-disorders-program/deep-brain-stimulation-movement-disorders



HAVING SOME FUN


Only dr. Epperson, besides dr. Spar were able to understand the miracle of my brain still very able to remember, make logic concepts and have brilliant ideas, without going into too much medical and bio-engineering detail I simply put here below (as always) few links and Youtube videos that show in a truly simplistic way what some people cannot figure out by themselves and condemn people like me to full conservatorship done by a minor.















AND WATCH THESE TWO GREAT VIDEOS ALSO


and read (if at all able) what's written in these links too:

  1. http://www.stanford.edu/group/hopes/cgi-bin/wordpress/2010/06/neuroplasticity/
  2. http://digitaljournal.com/article/350251
  3. http://phys.org/news187019659.html
  4. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC534946/
How much longer will my Michele (and Anna) keep me away from her and my children in this prison??

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

LOVE IS ONLY HUMAN AND ETERNAL

Michele has kept telling me that I love her just because my brain is injured, so I should stop thinking like the man in love I always had been for more than 15 years.
However, as I’m watching the YouTube videos I posted here in my blog earlier I can easily see and understand that not only love is an only human feeling (no animal can have it, only genetic programming and instincts make animals act in fashions very similar to us humans) and that since it’s produced in our brain (NOT the heart) in the form of micro-electric impulses, it simply lasts forever and (as the video says) it can cross entire galaxies and never dissipate.
Therefore, since my brain – even if injured – can still produce my love micro-electric signals, I can confidently say that I’m still in love with you and our treasures; that I wish we could live together again and that you could care for me a fraction of what I've always been caring for you, in addition that you could have the courage and determination to help my recovery that’s truly possible, I know.
The fact that you decided to cheat on me with B. just tells me that you got panicked by my accident and its outcome, so – unlike what typical movies or what hundreds of years of literature say and show – I don’t plan nor want to kill you and your lover B… ….…. eventually just him!
Without going too much into religion that you teach to our treasures it doesn't exist, I simply want to say the we married in a Catholic church not only in presence of the God you don’t believe in, but also in presence of several dozens of friends and relatives who witnessed and listened to our saying the words “in sickness and in health, until death do us part” that have legal meaning too. On top since it was God who united us in (holy) matrimony, no human law can possibly separate us and our souls ever, so in my mind you still are my wife!
I’m posting here below (as always) few links and You tubes that are consistent and support my post of today, never forget that my children are God's way to show His approval of our eternal union.


NEVER FORGET THAT I TRULY LOVE YOU AT LEAST AS MUCH AS I’M MISSING YOU. 
If you still love me too, when are you going to show it by doing something??

  1. http://maureenj.wordpress.com/2009/03/23/true-love-is-eternal/
  2. http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=eternal%20love




Monday, May 12, 2014

THE KARMA


I don’t want anyone to think that – after saying of my faith in the Catholic God (whom I met while in a coma) I now say that Buddha is another God I believe in.
It’s simply that this religion contains concepts that to my injured mind and me seem to be very human (and much less godly), I put here below in fact the 20 laws of the Karma for you to realize that maybe I’m not as crazy as I was assessed me to be:


LAWS OF KARMA

1. THE GREAT LAW - As you sow, so shall you reap. This is also known as the Law of Cause and Effect. Whatever we put out in the Universe is what comes back to us. If what we want is happiness, peace, friendship, love…………….. Then we should BE happy, peaceful, loving, a friend. Negative energy sent out to others will come back to you 10 fold
2. THE LAW OF CREATION - Life doesn't just HAPPEN, it requires our participation. We are one with the Universe both inside and out. Whatever surrounds us gives us clues to our inner state. BE and DO yourself what you want to have in your life.
3. THE LAW OF HUMILITY - What you refuse to accept, will continue for you. If what we see is an enemy, or someone with a character trait that we find to be negative, then we ourselves are not focused on a higher level of existence.
4. THE LAW OF GROWTH - Wherever you go, there you are. For us to GROW in Spirit it is WE who must change and not the people, places or things around us. The only given we have in our lives is OURSELVES, and that is the only factor we have control over. When we change who and what we are within our heart, our life changes too.
5. THE LAW OF RESPONSIBILITY - Whenever there is something wrong, there is something wrong in me. We mirror what surrounds us and what surrounds us mirrors us: we must take responsibility for what is in our life.
6. THE LAW OF CONNECTION - Even if something we do seems inconsequential, it is very important that it is done as everything in the Universe is connected. Each step leads to the next step and so forth and so on. Someone must do the initial work to get a job done. Neither the first step nor the last are of greater significance-they were both needed to accomplish the task. Past, Present, Future…they are all connected…
7. THE LAW OF FOCUS - You can't think of two things at the same time. You should climb up a ladder on step at a time. When you lose your focus, you let in insecurities and anger.
8. THE LAW OF GIVING AND HOSPITALITY - If you believe something to be true, then sometime in your life you will be called upon to demonstrate that truth. Here is where we put what we SAY that we have learned into PRACTICE.
9. THE LAW OF HERE AND NOW - Looking back to examine what was prevents us from being totally in the HERE AND NOW. Old thoughts, old patterns of behavior, old dreams…Prevent us from having new ones.
10. THE LAW OF CHANGE - History repeats itself until we learn the lessons that we need to change our path.
11. THE LAW OF PATIENCE AND REWARD - All Rewards require initial toil. Rewards of lasting value require patient and persistent toil. True joy follows doing what we're suppose to be doing, and waiting for the reward to come in it's own time.
12. THE LAW OF SIGNIFICANCE AND INSPIRATION - You get back from something whatever you've put into it. The value of something is a direct result of the energy and intent that is put into it. Every personal contribution is also a contribution to the Whole. Lack luster contributions have no impact overall or work to diminish it.

As always I’m going to put some links to websites consistent with what I’m trying to say now but my personal conclusion and understanding of this Karma is that it’s truly very human (or evil) and it’s truly what just about caused my practical death as husband, father and successful top manager.
In fact, I've convinced myself that my former company president at Tecnica Italy (Giancarlo Zanatta my employer right before A. Martinez at Deckers) got so mad and frustrated by my resignation to join Deckers right in the middle of the OR show that he must have sent to my direction a very powerful Karma that caused what I just described.

The result of my resignation has been that every new president of Tecnica USA has lasted no longer than 1 year, most of the best and seasoned employees have left and pretty much nobody here in the USA considers the Tecnica brand with its products something to keep in mind when making buying or branding layout  decisions. In this sense I consider the Buddhist Karma stronger than “my” Catholic God, it’s simply because it’s a real part of humanity that with its free-will can be evil.


  1. http://www.buddhanet.net/e-learning/karma1.htm
  2. http://www.wisdomsdoor.com/rc4/hrc4-17.shtml
  3. http://siddhayatan.org/how-karma-affects-our-life-and-what-to-do-about-it/

Sunday, May 11, 2014

ON RELIGIONS

On February 6th 2013, I posted the “Neurological argument against the existence of God” where I expressed the idea that God is really the human mind and that neuropsychologists (even with Ph. D.) convince themselves to know and understand God.
What I’m going to try to explain here is that – regardless if one of my very good friend is the very atheist philosopher Iacopo who authored “the three hypotheses (formerly linked here in my right column of links, but now posted below) – God truly exists, not only because the more progress our science makes, the more it becomes apparent and logical that a superior being/intelligence must truly exist because everything I was warned about my return to life has proven to be absolutely true (Erik L., Tiffany, Michele and Anna prove it).
exists (just watch the Youtubes below) but very much also because I did meet Jesus in reality while in my 2 months long coma, regardless that my case could be boxed in the NDE area,
Humans have been trying to figure out what happens after we die, that’s now labeled with the term “afterlife”, some of the most brilliant philosophers, scientific researchers, mathematicians and brilliant minds (like Einstein) have come to their own conclusions that we all know about (if you don’t, simply make a Google search).
Even if I’m brain injured (is my God dead. Erik?) I hope that since the dead part is in the motor cortex area and given that we normally use a very small percentage of our brain capacity (20 % or less?) I want to believe this:
  • I was born with the ability to utilize my brain capacities at a small fraction higher than normal/usual or just more than other people
  • I did very much HBOT at higher than standard pressures of compression – to push pure medical oxygen deeper in my brain, which resulted in a better capacity to use my already good intelligence to even higher levels than before my injury.
I intend to make it public what my own conclusion about God and its existence using my blog here, by randomly listing what drove me to the certainty that God exists and the human brain is part of His superior existence:


  • I've been saying in plenty posts in the past here that I’m an anti-Darwinist, by saying that there’s no way that I can accept the idea that we humans derived by evolution from African monkeys that started to walk upright to be able to see food or threats from a longer distance, so in the “Darwinist's vs. creationists” battle it should be clear which side has my full support.
Based on all what I say here, I think it’s time for me to say my thoughts about the existence of God, the human brain and their capacities to have miracles happen.
    1. I do believe in the real existence of God (the creator of our universe or the initiator of the Big Bang- God existed before the so-called Big Bang)
    2. God gave to us humans the brain that no Darwin’s evolutionary theories can explain.
    3. the human brain is part of God and it’s just like an antenna receptor of messages from, or to put us in touch with Him
    4. this explains why humans have been able to make miracles that are phenomena that science is totally unable to explain with existing instrument (scientific or measuring)  and with a logical process of any kind
    5. Sometimes someone is born able to utilize the brain at a higher percentage (Einstein, Michelangelo, Morse, Beethoven, Da Vinci, Mozart, Glenn Gould etc… etc…. etc…. see link)

I can understand that people can be very fascinated by the complexity and abilities of our brains; however, our brain ISN’T AT ALL GOD, Jesus is truly the human son sent on earth to teach to humans that there exist different possibilities, given that we were given the free-will capacity, it’s therefore all and only up to ourselves how we decide to live our lives and I believe that it’s going to be our last thought as we die that will determine where we’ll spend the eternity (heaven with God or hell, that's the total dark emptiness).

Links to the greatest minds and Iacopo
On Darwin


Videos








Saturday, May 10, 2014

MY ADDICTIVE PERSONALITY

Since now, after 9 years being on daily morphine my latest “pain specialist” is getting me completely cleaned out of it using methadone, because taking the Gabapentin that my very esteemed (and very former) neurologist P. Delio had started to put me on, but since I had morphine in my body, Gabapentin was giving me very much dizziness and mental confusion, therefore I now must get rid of it if I want the Gabapentin to do its work on my never-ending pain. Therefore, thinking of this I realized that I have had since birth what serious psychologists call “addictive personality”, in fact I used to be addicted to sports (ski/scuba diving/running/biking etc…), career (to make more money) so that my addiction to provide the best comfort and opportunities to my family could be well supported and international travels (to tame my constant thirst to learn new cultures, their habits and languages).
Given that, I was able to keep all of my emails (sent+received) since 2003 that are soon going into my Gmail account, I've been able to create a folder in my PC with the 57 emails that I had exchanged over a 4 years period with the few headhunters who used to try to get me a job here in CA, I had done this, only for my addiction to make Michele happy by bringing her back to the State where she was born, closer to her brothers (family) and in a very nice place (much nicer than the woods of NH where we were living).
So, now that I can’t work, travel, practice any sports and I’m abandoned by my
family, my addiction have nothing to be focused on, so I now had to get addicted on something else to calm my soul – always in search of good addictions and what I’m now heavily addicted to, is to eat what IHOP offers, in fact I’m just back from the local  IHOP where waiters all know me already very well, where I had “my fix” of the 3 cheese quesadilla and the 5 stuck of buttermilk pancakes!
What is truly starting to make me laugh is that every time I go there I empty completely the “original syrup” container because if I do not drown my pancakes in tons of syrup, I cannot be happy.

I was there yesterday (my birthday-51) too, but since today is mother’s day, my family chose to celebrate it without the father (me), who went for my “fix” to heal my soul.


Friday, May 09, 2014

ABOUT MY “NOT YET”

To my big surprise, in the past few hours I received several emails asking me about my use of the “not yet approved” by the FDA use of Enbrel for TBI recovery.
Therefore, I want to clarify that this is always just a matter of money, the Big Pharma industry has all to lose from this approval, just like when I said that to go after the Alzheimer disease industry, like Mr. Tobinick has been trying to do for several years already, is almost suicidal.
How can a simple and inexpensive set of injections replace the trillion $$$ turnover of the medications industry for this bad disease? Not to even mention the care-giving and assisting companies in this field that employ thousands of individuals and involves real estates, electronic equipment companies nationwide in a time of deep financial crisis?
I put here below few links to websites that support my thesis, but I want to add that this is the very reason that explains why I’ve been trying to reach president Obama and the entire White House for this FDA approval because it’s very clear that any evidence can be hidden with money and only the one who controls it and its use has a chance to change the rules of this “money game”.


I hope to have made this reality sufficiently clear to my readers and I must express my hope that after the breakthrough of the first black president Obama we will continue with the breakthroughs by electing a woman as president of the most powerful and influential country in the entire world, that’s going to recover the strength of our currency sooner than expected and with it, continue with its positive and democratic influence over the world.


And on Big Pharma
  1. http://www.nytimes.com/2009/12/13/business/13drug.html?pagewanted=all&_r=0
  2. http://www.badscience.net/category/big-pharma/
  3. http://www.mediaed.org/cgi-bin/commerce.cgi?preadd=action&key=224
  4. http://www.naturalnews.com/041460_Big_Pharma_corruption_psychiatry.html
  5. http://www.rutlandherald.com/article/20140510/OPINION02/705109981/0/NEWS


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